A Slave to the Fantasy (12 page)

She saw him drive up and was immediately in awe of
how handsome he was. She loved light-skinned men and Roberts
northern European heritage left him even whiter than she had
foreseen from pictures.

Her thoughts turned to the early two or three months
of the online courtship. This is the time frame which she admitted
to the police she was falling for Roberts. She actually tipped for
him the day before she met Bendato. It all changed for her and
Roberts when she met Martinez. She tipped away from Roberts slowly
and then at an accelerated pace after that.

So why was she meeting with him now?

Curiousity. Plain and simple. That and a total lack
of anything else to look forward to. Single moms were heavily
damaged goods and she wasn't being actively pursued by any man.

Even her old stand-bys who would always be there to
satiate her need for attention were nowhere to be found. The stand
bys: those guys who always let it out that they want her, but never
make her feel anything for her. They'll spend money and time and
are syrupy nice, but they'll never get the romance they want/

So why not give this Roberts a look in person? In her
mind that was a simple but great reason: Why not?

From Tanya's perspective, it all shifted back in a
whole other on that first meeting. She was instantly taken by his
appearance and his relative calm. He charmed her mom Gladys (who
had always been a big supporter of Tanya and Sam, the international
couple.)

When he arrived, they embraced at the door. Her
cousins were there. Her mom. And then her mouthy brother Darren,
(who couldn't stand seeing her run around the house with very
little clothes on, and let her know it.)

Roberts froze when he saw Darren, but only
briefly.

Chapter 16--Reality Porn

“I have to do this, but this guy means nothing...”
she texted to her lover as she kept Samuel Roberts enthralled with
her command of sports, entertainment, politics, business. It looked
like one. To him it actually felt like a real date and a real
meaningful connection.

...

That first night they went to dinner and a movie.
With her mother watching Lisa, the evening was Tanya's and that
meant it was also Samuel's. He took control he called the shots
from the beginning.

The biggest reason is he had abstained from porn for
weeks prior to the trip. His sexual energy was at it's peak.
However, he had not abstained from sex which was also key.

He knew from study and experience. women were more
attracted to men who are in committed happy relationships? It was
plain to Roberts. Men who are having satisfying sex regularly seem
to attract women more often without any intention towards doing so?
They'll even be heard saying things like: “Why is it I couldn't get
a girl's attention before, but now that I am seeing X (insert
name), women are everywhere showing interest.”

Roberts was on his game like never before. He had
great natural sexual energy and Tanya, against her better judgment
and logic, was attracted to him. After all, she had previously
stated her intentions to not be part of Roberts' life and how she
had no romantic interest in him. Similarly, she was logically
unswayed by his sacrifice making the trip.

It was more than all that added up. It was magnetism
and he exuded it.

They spent that night by starting in an outdoor
rooftop hot tub at his boutique hotel in the an upscale mall area
of Manila. Tanya saw his ripped torso emerge from the locker area
and she immediately felt a need to have her body explored by this
most indescribable man.

What a find he is, she thought to herself.

She was battling it though. She kept reminding
herself she needed to stay focused on the task she set out to do.
But there was no arguing this was more fun than it was work. The
way he kissed her on her wet neck was soft and passionate but
confident in a way that no man had ever mustered. It was pure
delight from the top of her head, to her ready to explode pulsating
private areas, to her newly manicured toes.

For his part, Roberts felt different with this girl.
He wanted her in a way he never wanted any woman he knew he could
have. The challenge was usually the thing, but here it meant
nothing. The exploration and the having for the enjoyment were
everything to him at this stage. She was fantastically beautiful.
Dark complected with a beguiling smile that was even more alluring
when there was water dripping off her and no make up which actually
detracted from it.

Even though she wore the standard swimsuit “in the
water” swimming option for her and her Pinay friends: bikini top
and bottom with pull over light short sleeved shirt and a pair of
shorts, her curves shined through. She had wonderful legs, not too
thin, not bulky. To Roberts, just right for a woman of about 5 feet
5 inches tall.

Tanya oozed class but still managed to ooze sex at
the same time. Even though she gave off the vibe of shyness (and in
this case it was no act), she was clearly a girl who craved
physical affection.

It was unmistakable to Roberts and he acted on
it.

He enjoyed the surprisingly smooth ride towards love
making that he knew would surely ensue.

They entered the suite with Roberts having his hands
around her waist. His mind couldn't help it: 4 long years came to
this. All the times when she had abandoned him for weeks on end. It
was all there.

When she had shown disinterest despite his affections
and gifts. When she informed him that she had a baby (months after
the fact). All the admitted frustration had bound up inside
him.

He decisively pulled both sides of her still
saturated shorts and in one swoop yanked them and the bikini bottom
underneath clean off. He spied her bald pussy which had undergone a
fresh shave likely a day or two before their meeting. He perceived
by view that instead of uncomfortable stubble, there was a soft
matted jet dark baby hairs grown over the exterior. The whole area
was soft to the touch of Robert's lips. He immediately buried his
nose into her clitoral area as Tanya half giggled and half
moaned.

For all his great points as a lover, Bendato never
cared to give her oral pleasure and this was fine because he wasn't
particularly good at it.

For what was only about 10 seconds, but seemed like
10 minutes, there was a rocket going off in her tummy. They were
butterflies but also a trembling ecstasy which wholly transformed
her brain and her body simultaneously.

Against her better judgment she was falling victim to
the same deep longings that Bendato had uncovered inside her over
and over again.

Tanya and Samuel had body pounding sex that mixed
pace from powerful and quick, to slow and soft. To his credit,
Roberts was much more attentive than usual. He could tell it had
been quite some time since she had been touched like this. His
experience level for a man his age was far below the norm, but he
knew things intuitively and he made it a priority she enjoy it
too.

He couldn't keep himself from starting back up again
every time they finished. His first move was always to dive down
and explore her pristine tight love hole with his tongue.

It was an amazing night. Made even more improbable by
the events which would come too soon. Beginning with their first
conversation the very next morning.

Chapter 17--Cebu

“Why do you wear a condom? I am on birth control,”
Tanya whispered in his ear at about 7 in the morning as she flailed
in vain around his crotch with her free hand. Her head lay on his
chest as she delighted in trying to locate her target for another
go around. She was even more pleased to discover it still had a lot
of extra life in it.

“Isn't it obvious?” Roberts responded slyly smiling,
as he marveled at her large firm breasts down through the looseness
of the silky white sheet which she held with her free hand against
her magnificent body.

“My word. This woman is beautiful, sexy, bright,” he
thought. “I want her more now than the first time last night.”

He was in a word intoxicated by her.

Strangely, he felt weak right at a time he should
have felt ultra powerful. He didn't care. He didn't want this to
end and thus ignoring the maxim he learned long ago: too much sex
weakens a man.

“I am broke,” Tanya said. “With Lisa, I can't work
and no one will hire me, even for a low paying bad job. I need to
make something happen.”

Roberts instinctively, but against his better
judgement, decided to offer her money. Although he knew from prior
experience that being the “provider” to women was a quick and easy
way to get them to stop feeling sexual feelings for you.

This was the problem he was experiencing. Tanya was
so alluring, even plain and not done up hours after they exited the
hot tub, that she was unwittingly changing him back to the weakling
who allowed himself to be manipulated and used by women. This was
not a good dynamic and he couldn't stop it. Worse, he honestly
didn't really want to.

He wanted to be controlled?

The fantasy was enslaving him and he felt oddly
comfortable with it.

“No. I am not that kind of girl,” Tanya said with
real, not false, indignity as she nudged her head away from his
chest and onto her back next to him. She was careful to grab a
handful of sheets to press against the area above her chest, all to
make it abundantly clear that her hot body was for the moment, off
limits to the touch.

“I didn't mean....I just, you mean a lot to me,”
Roberts stammered as if it were at all possible to not admit that
the way he'd been behaving the last couple minutes was weak.

Oh he wished he could take it back. He could feel
Tanya moving away from him.

“Well if you believe that and you want me to believe
that, I need you to do a favor for me. I want you to get something
that is mine from my mom's shop near my house and deliver it,”
Tanya urged. “I will make sure you don't get caught and the off
chance you do, I'll make sure no one presses any charges.”

“What is it?” Roberts asked, with his confidence now
returning and sensing he could be enjoying the pleasures of Ms.
Carasco yet again to round out his morning.

“I'll tell you where it is and give you the way to
find it and remove it safely. It belongs in Cebu.” Tanya said
slowly for effect as she put her head under the covers and gently
moved her head across his well-defined abs until her mouth had
engulfed his now rock-hard penis.

He laid his head back and gently ran his hand through
her hair, to the left he could see her dark feet laying off the bed
to the side.

His mind forgot he'd even asked the last question and
not gotten an answer.

Chapter 18--Secrets, Lies, and a Body of
Sin

“What took you so long?” Tara asked soaking wet from
head to toe peering out from behind a barely concealing shower
curtain.

“I had to see a man about a video tape,” her welcomed
intruder said.

“Won't you join me?” Tara tempted as she unveiled
herself, foot propped on the rise of the shower entry revealing her
toned petite legs. This was a product of her background as an
amateur level dancer in college, Roberts thought.

“We have business to conduct,” Samuel Roberts said
smiling. “Let's keep our priorities in order. We're too deep into
this. How do we make this more obvious? How do we turn the table on
these people and find out what they are up to?”

Roberts was being submerged into pit of quicksand the
more he dug. All paths to the truth of the larger plot out to
ensnare and harm him led directly through the woman he was now more
obsessed with than ever before.

“Ahh. You know that's one of the things that really
sets me off about you? I don't know a man alive who could resist
coming over here, stripping down, and jumping right in here with
me,” Tara said with wonder and admiration in her voice. “It all
makes me want you right now all the more.”

“You are wonderful,” Roberts quickly and decisively
answered. “Don't misunderstand me. I mean look at you. Perfect in
every way. A woman of accomplishment. Two degrees. Tri-lingual,
talented, and coldly efficient.

“But....Face it you are obsessed with this Tanya
woman,” Tara said as she delicately rubbed her naked b-cup sized
breasts with both hands. “Can I just ask you why? All this stuff
about attracting women. All the theories, they have no merit
because of what you are doing. You are clearly weak and fixated.
This girl has you wrapped around her finger.”

“Say all you want,” Roberts said cutting her off
abruptly. ”If that were true, would we be doing what we are doing
right now? Really? Don't kid yourself. It's not befitting a woman
of your, um talents.”

“Well there is no sense reasoning with you. Plus I
feel undesirable because you aren't in here helping me wash my
back,” Tara deadpanned. “A girl can't have everything I guess. The
bottom line: so far you and your people have executed everything,
including my pay, as agreed.”