Authors: Alison Weir
“It pains me to see us like strangers,” Elizabeth said, “and I have not been fair to you. I see now that I should have been plain from the first, but I thought my plan would only work if you believed that I really meant to marry you to Mary.”
“And you do not?” he asked, hardly daring to hope.
“No.” She smiled at him, a touch shamefaced. “It’s complicated, as it always is with me. I know full well that Mary will not marry you and that I am safe in pursuing these negotiations. No, Robin, I have another
husband in mind for her, one who will well suit her—and me—but I do not want to be seen putting him forward.”
“So I am the decoy!” Robert said, understanding dawning.
“Yes, my Eyes, you are the decoy. You will never know what it has cost me to pursue this policy.” Elizabeth met his gaze. Her eyes were brimming. “I cannot bear us being estranged.”
Robert shook his head despairingly. “I wish you had told me, Bess. I thought you were testing my loyalty. You could have relied on me to play your game. Another of your games! And you could have spared us both much hurt. I cannot begin to tell you—”
“Don’t!” she interrupted. “It is in the past now. I just want us to be as we were before. I need you, Robin.”
“And I need you, Bess.” He bent forward and drew her into his arms. It felt sublime after their long abstinence. “But I need you in a different way. Be mine now! And when all this playacting is over, marry me!”
Elizabeth responded hungrily. Her urgent lips and fingers told him more than any words could convey. Soon they were riding the storm, oblivious to everything but their passion for each other. Instinct told Robert that this was the moment when he would gain mastery over his queen. Consumed and gasping with long-suppressed desire, he pulled off her gown and rolled her onto her back amidst the disordered bedclothes. Then he mounted her, hard and insistent, and was about to enter her when he sensed her going rigid beneath him—just as she always had.
“Not now,” he rasped. “I can’t stop. I must have you!”
“No!” Elizabeth squealed. “Please, Robin!
Please!
”
Shuddering, he drew back, his breath coming in jagged spurts. She lay there sobbing quietly beside him.
“I cannot go on like this,” he sighed at length. “Bess, you must trust me. I love you more than I have loved any woman. I will never betray you, or hurt you. If you are worried about my getting you with child, I have come by a device that will prevent it.” He clambered to his knees and reached down into the chest at the foot of the bed. From it he drew a short linen sheath with ribbons attached, and deftly he tied it on.
“Now you may be sure that no child will ensue,” he declared, lying down beside her once more and taking her again into his embrace.
Elizabeth had watched the whole performance in dubious silence.
“It is known to be effective,” Robert promised. “And as we both know, the act of love can hold no terrors for you. It is not as if it would be the first time.” He bent forward and kissed her neck, his hands moving purposefully but gently over her body. He could feel her relaxing. “Come now!” he said, his voice tender.
Elizabeth knew that denying him at this moment would be the worst thing she could do. She owed him something precious to make up for the suffering he had endured on her account these past months. She had already given him everything else of herself. Could she now give this ultimate gift?
He was moving against her, desire lively in him. She tried to relax, to tell herself that her fears were as insubstantial as cobwebs and could be blown away as easily. It would be all right. This was the man she loved. It would not be as it had been with the admiral, nor would it end as it had for her father and mother. The heavens would not fall, the executioner was not about to hone his ax, and there would be no blood shed on account of this night. But still she shrank from giving herself. That flimsy bit of linen might yet be the cause of her downfall.
“Not now, Robin!” she cried. “Wait until we are wed.”
With an immense effort, Robert drew back once more, his face contorted like that of a man in pain. “I hope you mean it this time,” he gasped.
Later, after she had willingly pleasured him, and he had paid his debt to her in return, they lay together at peace, exchanging gentle words and light, replete caresses. Lying curled up in the crook of Robert’s arm, her head on his shoulder, Elizabeth was glad that she had not succumbed to his pleas, and thoroughly relieved that there could be no risk of her being with child. What was more, to her great surprise, she had enjoyed tonight’s love-play more than ever before, had felt a deep physical pleasure and a release that had had her clinging to Robert as a drowning man clings to a rock.
He was gazing down at her, his eyes warm and appreciative.
“Well, my lady? When is the wedding?”
Elizabeth let him wait for a heartbeat. “As soon as I can extricate you from the negotiations with the Queen of Scots,” she told him.
“And when will that be?”
“Sweet Robin, I am not playing games this time,” Elizabeth assured him. “This is high politics and I must await the opportune moment.”
Robert shifted onto his back, staring up at the carved canopy of the tester bed. “More waiting! I trust it will not be for long this time.” There was an edge of impatience to his voice. “Who is it that you mean the Queen of Scots to wed?”
Elizabeth sat up, clasping her arms about her knees. She knew this was a time for honesty. “If I tell you, it must go no further. It would jeopardize everything.”
“You know you can trust me,” he assured her.
“It is Lord Darnley.” She threw him a wicked smile.
“Darnley? Good God!” Robert exclaimed.
“Yes, Darnley. And Randolph reports that smitten, brainless Mary wants to marry him. She instructed Melville to approach his mother, Lady Lennox. Cecil says that Melville is all for it.”
“Has Mary ever met Lord Darnley?”
“No, but she likes the fact that he is of the royal blood of England
and
the noble blood of Scotland, and she has heard reports of how pretty he is, and what nice manners he has.”
“The fellow can’t even grow a beard,” Robert sneered.
“But by all the accounts she has heard, he is a lusty youth, and his scheming mother has long been in good hope that Mary will condescend to marry him.”
“She has been in and out of the Tower enough times on that account,” Robert said. “My head spins just thinking about it.”
“Lady Lennox is a great intriguer,” Elizabeth growled, “and a troublemaker to her soul. The earl, her husband, persuaded me to ask Queen Mary to restore his estates in Scotland, but now I fear that if he goes north to treat with her he will intrigue for the marriage, and I don’t want that happening just yet, so I have written again to Mary, demanding that she refuse him entry to her kingdom. That should
make her all the more determined to favor the Lennoxes. In the meantime, my Eyes, you are the cover for my true intentions.”
“But—
Darnley
!” Robert said again. “I pity the woman who marries that vicious boy.”
“Only a fool would do so,” Elizabeth observed, looking at him slyly.
“I know your game,” he told her. “Give Mary Darnley, and he will destroy her.”
“That’s exactly what I thought,” she replied. “But it is a dangerous matter and I must needs keep a cool head. A marriage between Mary and Darnley would unite two claims to my throne. Some would say that I am mad to consider it. But I believe that neither of them has the brains—or the means—to pursue their claims to a satisfactory conclusion. And Darnley is trouble, and weak with it. Mark my words, if those two wed, disaster will ensue and distract Mary from coveting my throne. Trust my judgment, dear Eyes.”
Robert sighed. “Very well, then, I will be patient a little longer.”
“The best things in life are worth waiting for,” Elizabeth pronounced, already regretting having mentioned marriage. But what else, at such a moment, could she have done? She was running out of favors!
Robert grinned. “You will not be disappointed, my Queen. I have been told that I couch a lance well.”
“And who has told you that?” Elizabeth demanded in mock anger.
“Legions of fair ladies,” he teased her, and got a pillow thrown at him for his bragging. “Help!” he cried, pulling it over his head. “Mercy!”
Elizabeth laughed. “You are a rogue, my Eyes!”
Suddenly Robert grew serious. “I never thought we would be like this again, or that you would finally consent to wed me,” he said. “This has been the happiest night of my life.”
“I was to have bestowed on you a slightly different honor,” Elizabeth said. “That was why I came. That, and to put things right.”
“A different honor?” he murmured. “I don’t understand.”
“I came to tell you that I have decided to raise you to the nobility as Earl of Leicester.” She smiled. “And I am not trifling with you this time.”
Robert whooped with elation. “My God, I thought you would never do it!” he cried.
“Shhh, you’ll have the whole palace awake!” Elizabeth reproved him, giggling.
“Thank you, Bess. Thank you!” He took her hand and kissed it avidly. “This means so very much to me. Especially after my father lost his title and all his honors, and people have pointed the finger, saying that I am unworthy of your love and favor. This—and what you have confided to me this night—sets all to rights. I do declare that I am the luckiest man on Earth.”
She was beginning to wonder if this time she had gone too far to turn back. “Yes, but Robin, you must understand why I have come to this decision. On the face of it, it is to make Queen Mary think the more of you, and make you a husband fit for a queen.
Which
queen we will not say!”
“I care not why you have done it, Bess, save it renders me more worthy of you. Tell me truly: will that day surely come when we two can be wed? Do you mean it this time?”
Elizabeth kissed him, not even daring to contemplate the future. “After tonight, who could mistake my meaning?”
The presence chamber in St. James’s Palace—that noble residence King Harry had built for Anne Boleyn, who never lived to see it completed—was thronged with courtiers and dignitaries. There stood Melville, delaying his departure once more at Elizabeth’s request, so that he could report to his queen how gallantly her ardent suitor had borne himself at his ennoblement, and how fine a husband he would make for her.
Elizabeth’s gown, encrusted with jewels, sparkled in the candlelight and dazzled everyone. Glittering like an icon, she rose from her throne as Robert, attired in robes that did sufficient justice to a future king, knelt on the dais before her. He was playing his part well, conducting himself with the greatest dignity and gravity, but she could not help remembering him naked in bed with her the night before, and she was smiling when they handed her the ermine-lined mantle. As she lifted it
onto his shoulders and tied the golden cords, she could not resist tickling his neck. He looked up at her, startled, and their eyes met for a second, yet hers were now impassive as she arranged the gold collar of his earldom on the mantle. But she had seen Melville raise his eyebrows, and knew he had observed the caress.
After the ceremony, as Robert received the congratulations of his fellow peers—several of whom could hardly wait to see him packed off to Scotland—Elizabeth beckoned Melville.
“How like you my new creation?” she asked.
“A fine lord, madam,” Melville replied. “But methinks you would prefer to marry him yourself.”
“Not at all,” she said. “I look upon him merely as a brother and a friend. An old friend—we were children together. It is for his loyalty and his princely demeanor that I offer him to Queen Mary. And yet I think you like yonder long lad better!”
Her gaze rested on young Lord Darnley, glowering in a corner. That sulky youth had burning aspirations to be king of Scots; he hated Robert, and he certainly hated watching his rival being groomed to supplant him. If looks could have killed, Robert would now be lying dead on the floor.
Melville looked at Darnley with distaste. “No woman of spirit would choose such a man,” he muttered. “He is more like a woman with his beardless lady face.”
And would suit your queen very well, Elizabeth thought. They would make such a pretty pair. Brainless, both of them! Aloud, she said to Melville, “Attend me in my chamber. I would show you my treasures. And you, my lord of Leicester,” she said to Robert, “and you, Sir William, come with us.” Robert and Cecil followed them into her lodgings and even through to her bedchamber. This invitation into the holy of holies was a signal honor for Melville.
Elizabeth took from a cabinet a miniature of Queen Mary and kissed it affectionately. “See how I love your queen, my cousin,” she said, placing it back in the cabinet beside a small package inscribed in her familiar hand:
My Lord’s picture
.
“May I see that one?” Melville asked.
“It is a private thing,” Elizabeth declared, wishing that she had thought to remove it earlier.
“It would be a great honor to see something that is clearly very precious to Your Majesty.”
Reluctantly, Elizabeth unwrapped the package to reveal an exquisite miniature of Robert looking exceptionally debonair. It was the best likeness of him ever made, and she treasured it.
“This would be the perfect gift for my queen,” Melville declared.
“Ah, Sir James, I would that I could let her have it, but alas, I have no copy,” Elizabeth demurred.
“But Your Majesty has the original,” he pointed out. Robert was smirking behind his back. Cecil looked as if he had swallowed gall.
“All the same,” insisted Elizabeth, “I do not wish to part with it. You may tell Queen Mary that, in the process of time, she will get all that I have, and I will send her a beautiful diamond in token of my love for her.”
She would not meet Robert’s eyes for fear that she might laugh aloud.
Before Melville left for Scotland he was surprised to find Robert Dudley, the new Earl of Leicester, bearing down on him determinedly.
“Sir James, I must say this to you.” Robert glanced over his shoulder to see that no one was within earshot. “I am not worthy to wipe the shoes of the Queen of Scots.”