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Authors: Piper Hannah

To Light and Guard

TO LIGHT AND GUARD

By
Piper Hannah

 

Copyright © July 2013 Piper Hannah

 

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DEDICATION

To my mo
m...

Thank you for supporting my every hobby – even the really weird ones.

Thank you for the unlimited babysitting hours.

This book was only possible because of you.

You are my guardian angel, and

I love you
.

PART I:  PAIGE HARPER

 

“Secrets are meant to be kept, but you can tell your psychiatrist everything.”

- Paige Harper

 

CHAPTER 1

Paige
Harper

            
“I wasn’t trying to kill myself.  Someone was trying to kill me.”   My psychiatrist, a woman in her fifties with dark green eyes, just stared at me.  Trust me.  It wasn’t the response I was hoping for. 

I leaned back against my
chair and waited for a response because that was how conversations are supposed to go.  I say something, and she should say something back… but shrinks were paid to listen, weren’t they?  Maybe she was just doing her job then.

Why am I here? 
Well, I’m here to answer this million dollar question: 
Am I crazy? 
Frankly, I think the jury is still out on that one, but before I leave her office today, my psychiatrist will definitely answer that question.  

“I wasn't trying to kill myself.  Someone was trying to kill me,” I said again.  Only this time, I said it with force
- with conviction.  Maybe the second time around, I can get a verbal response from my non-verbal shrink. 

Dr.
Anne McKenna’s gaze traveled from my face to my bandaged left wrist, arching one eyebrow.  I gulped. 
So, we both knew why I was here.

“O
kay.  That looks bad,” I said as I lifted my left wrist, showing her the bandaged reminder of a knife slicing my wrist five days ago.  “But there is a perfectly good explanation.  This is
not
what it looks like.” I shook my head for emphasis.

What
are the odds of shrinks believing their patients anyway? 
Right.  Stupid question.
  She’s probably thinking that I’m really messed up in the head right about … now.  

“Tell me about your family,” she said, clicking her pen.  A notepad was sitting on her lap.

I sighed.  My family wasn’t the problem, but her question was expected.  Didn’t all problems start at home? 

“They’re great
.” The entire Harper family wasn't to blame.   The blame was all on me – little eighteen year-old me.  Let’s just say I’m special.


My parents are perfect, but believe me, that’s not always a good thing,” I said rolling my eyes.  “My little sister, Emma, she is two years younger than me.   She lives a
very
charmed life.  Very intelligent, outgoing, a bit dramatic and moody sometimes, but…” 

I paused.
Was I coming off resentful towards my little sister?
I had so many problems that I didn’t want another mark on my long list of unresolved issues.  I bit my lower lip.  I’m now embarrassed for the things I just said about my sister.  

“Don’t get me wrong.  I love my sister.  I’m not jealous of her, o
kay?  I mean we are
exactly
alike.”  We had the
same
long, dark brown hair cut by the
same
hairdresser since we were in third grade.  We had the same brown eyes.  We had the
same
smile rescued by the
same
orthodontist in seventh grade, the same shoe size...  The list was endless on how we were the same, same, same… but I wasn’t here to talk about my sister. I was here to talk about myself.

Dad always said that ‘t
ime is money.’ How true he is in this instance since he will end up paying Dr. McKenna’s hefty bill. So, I had to remember, while I was in this room, time is
definitely
money.  I should get to the point then, and save Dad some money.

“I used to see white feathers
everywhere; big feathers, tiny feathers, in my room, around the house, outside.  I always thought that the feathers were from pillows, but the feathers…”  I leaned forward in my chair and whispered, “they were from… angels.”  I had to force the words from my mouth.  It wasn’t easy for me to open up like this to a stranger.  Let’s just say I’d rather be at the dentist getting a root canal - whatever that is.

Dr. McKenna
frowned.  “Do you see angels in here?” she asked.

“No
, and don’t get me wrong.  I could only see one angel.” I held up one index finger.  “Just one.” 
And a bunch of demons
, but I’m saving that jolly tidbit of information for much later.  I think she needs a moment to process the information.  

“What does your angel look like?”

What an angel should look like. 
“Divine,” I said with a perfectly straight face.

Dr. McKenna smiled at that, but unfortunately, I wasn’t trying to be funny.  

“When did you first see your angel?”

“About four months ago. It’s strange, but when I first saw him, I kind of knew that we were supposed to be together.  Although, even then, I already knew that we were
only
supposed to be together and not that we would ever be.  Do you know what I mean?”

Dr. McKenna
didn’t answer my question.  Instead, she looked down and scribbled something quickly in her notepad.  I frowned.  I couldn’t help but feel self-conscious.  This session was not going good unless her notepad only had doodles.  I leaned forward in my chair trying to decipher her notes; apparently, I couldn’t read backwards, and her scribbles were definitely not doodles. 

Would it be so difficult to believe that I was able to see one perfectly divine angel? 
We were in Los Angeles, for crying out loud. This was
the
City of Angels.  If an angel were to appear, I think that it would be here.  I’m just saying. 

“So tell me about your angel,”
Dr. McKenna said. 

She didn’t appear condescending, and she wasn’t laughing at me.   She didn’t even blink as she waited for a response.   I took a deep breath, gearing up to tell
her my story from the very beginning, and I wasn’t going to hold back.  

“Wait.  Everything is confidential, ri
ght?”  I asked.  Dr. McKenna nodded.  That’s how shrinks roll.  If I weren’t so sad, I would have smiled.

All righty then.   Here we go…
             

 

“It all started about four months ago.  It was going to be just another ordinary day in Los Angeles. That was the plan..." 

C
HAPTER 2

 

I turned the radio off when I pulled into my high school’s parking lot in my brand new, mint green Toyota Prius. The car was my eighteenth birthday present from my parents exactly a month ago, and I was still very excited driving it around.  Not today, though.  That’s because we were running fifteen minutes late, and my sister, Emma, was silently fuming in the front passenger seat.  I could almost see smoke coming out of her ears.  She was like a cartoon character this morning – like Wile E. Coyote after realizing that there would be no Road Runner for breakfast.  Seriously, just like Wile E., my little sister should be used to it by now. 

“Someti
mes you just look at the clock, and lo and behold, you’re already running late,” I said.  “Do you know what I mean?” 

“No. I don’t know what you mean, Paige.  You look at the clock, and you plan your time accordingly,” she said.  

I sighed.  My little sister would never understand. She was the responsible one. 
She was also the smart one with straight As since first grade. She even skipped a grade once; fifth grade, I think. Yay for her.  That’s the reason why at sixteen, she’s already a junior in high school.  She was also the popular one, the friendly one, the one who helps me with my homework.  Okay, that last bit about the homework is kind of embarrassing considering I’m two years older than her, but in my defense, she really is super smart.  She must have gotten the smart genes from Dad because sometimes those two can have a conversation that only they can understand; it’s like they speak in code.  I only speak English.  I don’t understand code.


My heart is beating too fast.  I think I’m having a panic attack,” Emma said, clutching her chest.

I rolled my eyes. 
Between the two of us, she’s also the one who was a hypochondriac drama queen. “Don’t worry,” I said. “I’m sure being late won’t screw up your perfect attendance.”   I spotted a parking space, and I turned the car slowly towards the spot. 

“I should have been born the older sister.  Life would have been so much easier,”
Emma mumbled.  She jumped out of the car and slammed the door shut.  She still had one hand to her chest; her other hand was holding on to her backpack.   

             
“It’s dangerous to get out of a moving vehicle,” I yelled, but my sister was already gone. Emma didn’t even bother to wave goodbye. Not that I expected her to.  It was only the third week of January, just the beginning of second semester, and we were already late to school three times because of me.

I parked the car, unsnapped my seatbelt, and reached behind the driver’s seat for my
army green messenger bag.  Unfortunately, I didn’t feel the same sense of urgency my sister obviously felt. 
We were already late.
What was another ten minutes, right? I still got us here.

I got out of the car
with my messenger bag and started walking towards my locker.  Of course, my locker was inconveniently located in the farthest corner from the parking lot. I glanced at my watch and groaned. I was already half an hour late. Maybe I should just skip class altogether.   I think I would be better off. 

The hallway was empty
.  Even Emma probably made it to class by now.   When I turned the corner, I saw
him
.  He was wearing a long black coat, and he was leaning against my locker casually as if he was supposed to be there. I stopped… Stopped walking. Stopped breathing.  I just stopped. 

Time stood still in a very magical
Hollywood moment as this teen, in all of his wonderful glory, literally took my breath away.  He was, well, breathtaking.  His hair was a little on the long side and jet black.  His features were very sharp and strong like a comic book superhero.  He was definitely a contender for a young Bruce Wayne because of his dark and brooding expression, and the color of his eyes was so extraordinary.  Get this.  His eyes were purple.  Purple!  And he was staring at me with an intense frown on his perfectly beautiful face.

We
stood there for what seemed like minutes, just staring at each other, lost in space.  I felt off because for the first time in my life, I was speechless. I was never a big talker, mind you, but actually forgetting to say actual words was a new experience for me. I watched the emotions cross his face.  His frown became deeper as I continued to stare at him.  Then, his eyes narrowed into slits as if he was angry.
Was he angry? At me?
It sure seemed like it. 
Why?
  He didn’t even know me, and he was the one standing in front of my locker, blocking me.

It was his reaction that finally compelled
me to move my legs forward.  I continued to watch him as his lips tightened, and his purple eyes seemed to get darker.
Purpler
. I bit my bottom lip hard as I approached him slowly and without saying a word. 
After all, what could someone who was speechless say?
Right. Absolutely nothing.

  When I was right
in front of him, I stopped.  I was average height, but he was so tall that the top of my head was only in line with his chin. I tilted my head up to see his face. He was still frowning.  He was also looking at me strangely as if I were an alien from another planet or something. I almost stepped back.  I was very insulted.  I am no alien, thank you very much.   I am very pretty with classic, delicate features, and my skin… flawless! 

I glared at him.
 

“Y
ou can see me,” he accused.   

His voice was deep and
beautiful, and it triggered a memory. I gasped when I recognized it, and I instantly backed away.  My eyes widened in panic.  Unfortunately, I understood what he meant.  I wasn’t supposed to see him… or hear him… or have conversations with him.  His voice is very familiar to me.  I would recognize it anywhere… because he was the voice of my delusion - my imagination. It didn’t matter that he was handsome and looked like a teenaged Bruce Wayne with really nice purple eyes.  He. Did. Not. Exist. 

In the last month,
ever since my eighteenth birthday, I have heard the sound of his voice… in my head.  He spoke to me when I was alone and when everything was quiet.  So far, I have managed to block it out, and I haven’t told anyone.  I never even acknowledged the voice because talking to it would have been admitting that something was very wrong with me.

Even as gorgeous as he was, seeing him was very bad.  He was my ticket to some mental institution somewhere, and I didn’t want that ticket.  Actually, I would pay good money not to have that ticket.

“Stay away from me,” I whispered. 
While still delirious, I turned around quickly.  I ran away from him, and the sound of my retreating footsteps sounded like gunshots echoing in the hallway.  I was a coward, I know, but I wasn’t ready to fall into what I thought was darkness.

 

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