out any—' there was a horrible sudden sucking in of his breath through the nostrils—'O ray queen, my heart's dear, my beautiful—thank God if that meant too quick to hurt'—He stood staring where the light from behind him was cast back in weak reflections from the face of the rain. Then, as if shaking his senses awake again, resumed his ranging walk.
'She: self-conscious as I am self-conscious.' Then suddenly, out loud: 'O speak to me, my dear, my dear,—' and his teeth ground together.
‘
No,' after the two or three hundredth to-and-about in that cage or room (in himself again).
‘
No. Because this is the true material Hell. Because the imagination or illusion of her which I have conceived, to my own eternal ruin, has'—Something as it had been a scorpion sitting in his brain began to speak abominations to the profanation and unhallowing both of life and death, both of body and soul, till past and present and future loomed now as transformed to tinselled tattered trappings of their own inanity, to flicker momentally between corpse-Are and charnel-house, turning the sweet air poisonous as with the sickening smell of blood.
'Alone. Punishment of the damned: an outmoded foolishness not worthy the confutation. Yet it is here. Unless,' and he flung a look at the writing table, 'unless that could end it. But I do not choose that.'
He threw more wood on the fire near her dressing-table.
‘I
knew. Know now. The scientific fact. Truth, like enough. But it means nothing. It may be the explanation of Edward Lessingham and Mary Scarnside: of Edward Lessingham and Mary Lessingham. No explanation whatever of Me and She.' As if in utter weariness of body and mind, he flung himself into the deep armchair and sat watching the bark curl, twist, and burst into flame: the sparks fly up: disappear.
After a long time, the workings in his brain began to say: 'But here:—what to bank on? Empirical evidence of fact? Or the knowledge inside you that cuts and burns?
Knowledge of what is perfect: of what is the unique thing desirable for itself alone. Which I have loved, had, lived with. Thought the thoughts of. Breathed the breath of. Naked in bed with.' He sprang up.
'And I will make no compromise.'
He began walking again, twice, three times, back and again betwixt outmost and inmost wall. Then, as upon a sudden reminder, he took from his pocket Mary's unopened letter. It was not very long: dated from that hotel in the Champs-Elysees, Sunday, the fourteenth of October. He scanned it swiftly, sometimes skipping a line or two, sometimes stopping, as if the reading of it scalded him behind the eyeballs. He was standing at the bed's foot, the letter in his left hand. He reached out the right to take hold of the massive satinwood pillar of the bed, and so read on to the end.
As the letter fluttered from his hand onto the bed, the thin chime and answering deeper-throated strokes of the great Italian clock told four. Unstirrable as a stone he listened, bolt upright, gripping now with both hands against his chest that pillar of the wide bed, staring down at its coverlet of silk, dark green of the bay-leaf and fringed with gold:
O lente, lente, currite noctis equi!
O run slow, run slow, chariot-horses of Night!—The memory that belonged to those words stole with a quickening and down-searching of roots, lithe warm and alert, swift among secretest blood-reservoirs of the under darkness, changing suddenly to a huge unbearable pain as with the opening of him by slow incision from the roots of his belly upwards.
XIX
Ten Tears: Ten Million Years: Ten
Minutes
'B
ut
you've got to move with the times,' said the little man with a square jaw. He was polishing with his handkerchief the lenses of his imitation tortoise-shell spectacles, surveying meanwhile, with that myopic blurred look common to the temporarily unspectacled, the scene befo
re him: this spacious Piazza Bra
, little white tables under the sky, music playing, laughter, people sitting, people promenading, tourists, Veronese townsfolk, habit
ues,
birds of passage, old and young, men and women, with a good sprinkling of military uniforms here and there and the sweeping feathers of the bersaglieri: smoking, drinking, in motion or at rest, grave or gay, always talking: always the persistent rhythm of the Italian tongue running like a warp through the shifting patterns of sound; and the Rom
an arena rearing its curved fac
ade, huge and blind, over all. And over all was a cold illumination shed of the electric arc-lights, mundane and harsh compared with the moonlight, yet stirring to the animal spirits and the busy fancies of the mind.
'I say, Frank, what a profound observation!' said the youngest of them at the table. He had black hair, and a voice suggestive of the ping of a mosquito.
'Anyhow it's true. Ronald'll tell you that.'
The eldest (by looks, perhaps five-and-thirty), was carefully rolling a cigarette. 'O, it's God's truth, no doubt, my dear Michael.
Vox
populi, vox Dei.
And "move with the times" has been the parrot-word of the L.C.M. of popular unintelligence since history started.' -
'What we were talking about was modern art
’
, said the man with little whiskers, brown hair brushed back, and eyes like a gannet's. 'I'm a modern artist myself; at any rate Willie's called me that in print, so it must be true. But I agree with Ronald that ninety-nine hundredths of it is simply fodder for engineers or eunuchs.'
'Don't go away, Willie.'
'I'm not going to listen to any more. It's so boring. It really is, Ronald, old man. We disagree on most things and I enjoy arguing; but on this question of art,—really, I don't want to be offensive, but you don't begin to understand it and your views don't interest me.'
'He's gone! never mind,' said the painter.
'I'm going to take a stroll round with Willie.'
'Right O, Frank. Talk to him about "Mr. Jones". Not too loud, or you'll both be arrested. And that would be hard luck on you, in such company: such a good little
proselyte as you are of the re
gime.—Well, Peter. Perhaps Willie's right. Perhaps I don't understand it.'
The painter shrugged his shoulders. 'Wants a psychoanalyst to understand it.'
'A kind of sublimation?'
'A kind of excrement.'
'Of the mind? That's an attractive idea.'
'By the Lord, I'm not sure it isn't true. Aristotle's
katharsis.
Always thought it rather an inadequate account of the
Agamemnon,
to compare it to a dose of calomel. But our friend Daldy Roome's abortions you were talking of—
'I'm convinced it's true,' said Ronald Carwell. 'Not the effect on the audience though, (which Aristotle meant when he talked about purging the emotions): the effect on Roome.'
'Well; I don't see he need hire a gallery to inflict them on the public, then.'
'Nor I, Michael. Except that the public will every time and all the time admire what they're told they ought to
admire. So that there's money in it. And we artists have to earn our living.'
'So he prostitutes his art because that's what the public wants—or what Willie and the rest of 'em teach them they ought to want?'
'Not a bit of it. Roome's an artist. He hasn't the ghostliest idea why he does it. O yes, he's a very fine artist, Ronald, I assure you, as far as that goes. He's done one or two lovely things.'
'Then why doesn't he do them always, instead of this pathological stuff?'
‘I
don't know. No more does he.'
'Doesn't know himself?'
‘
Not a bit,' said the painter. 'Look at Matisse, now: the nude's rather a test case, I think. Exquisite line in the abstract. But trouble is, art isn't abstract: it's concrete. Take a hundred of Matisse's nudes: I should say you'd find twenty from that point of view
very much in the same boat as R
oome's: another seventy, say, suffering in some degree from inappropriate distortion. Then, in the remaining ten, you'll find one or two masterpieces. As good as the best. As good as Lessingham's.'
'Human form divine. If divine, why distort it?'
'To show we're cleverer than God Almighty.'
The painter shook his head. 'It isn't always "divine", you know. Even Phryne, probably, if you'd seen her in the flesh, wasn't quite as divine as the Aphrodite of Knidos.'
‘
"Divine"? What's the standard? A female woodlouse would be diviner than either, to a woodlouse; or, if you take a vote of negresses, a pot-bellied blubber-lipped nigger.'
'There is no standard—of beauty.'
'Then,' said Carwell, 'what do you judge by? For, by saying what you said about the Aphrodite of Knidos, you admit distortion of some kind (meaning by distortion, variation from the norm). Take your Lessingham, or take your Matisse.'
'When I come to the word "beauty",' said Otterdale, 'I put down the book. It's a perfectly infallible symptom.' 'Of what?'
'Tosh. Tripe. Absence of grey matter.' 'How engagingly juvenile you are, to be so frightened by a word.'
'Well, it's true I'm two years younger in sin than you, Peter; but even my dawning intelligence of twenty-three summers can tell the difference between words that mean something and words that are just hot air. They don't frighten me: merely give me a pain in the tummy.'
' "Crede experto
—trust one who has tried",' said the painter, 'one word goes about as near as another to explaining this business of beauty. Beauty in nature: beauty in art. It's magic. Pure magic, like the witch-doctor's. And that's all there is to it.'
'So that's that.'
'Hullo, Willie, back again?'
'Quite a galaxy of the great and good exercising their parasitical functions here to-night. Biggest noise, that— what's-his-name?—Lessingham. We saw him, didn't we, Frank? a few minutes ago, stalking about by himself: larger than life and about half as natural: typical nose-in-air haw-dammy look about him—'
'Shut up, Willie. There he is.'
They watched. When he had passed there was a curious silence, perhaps for half a minute.
Michael Otterdale broke it, like a mosquito. 'That was a good close-up. Never seen him before, not to get a proper look at him. What is he really, Willie?'
'An aristocratical plutocratical self-obtruding dilettante.'
'He's a bit more than that,' said Ronald Carwell, still chain-smoking with cigarettes.
'How do you account for all the experts accepting him as master in their own particular line? Soldiers, as a top-notch fighting man—I heard General Sterramore at dinner only the other night letting himself go on that subject: called Lessingham the finest tactician in irregular warfare since Montrose. Your artist cracks him up as an artist, your writer as a writer. And so on. It's a fact. And it's extraordinary.'
'And what good has he ever done? Damn all.'
'A damned sight more than you ever will.'
'Depends on what you call good.'
‘I
suppose you know he had more than any other living soul to do, behind the scenes, with the busting up of Bela Kun's tyranny in August 'nineteen? I know. I was correspondent in Buda-Pesth at the time.'
'The East African campaign, too: that fastened his reputation as a soldier.'
'And what about that amazing guerilla fighting, only two years ago, in the Rif?'
'O, an adventurer. No one denies he's a big man in a way.'
'And all the while, for years, as a kind of sparetime recreation I suppose, that colossal work on the Emperor Frederick II: out last spring. The Cambridge pundits will tell you there's been nothing in the same street with it since Gibbon. And a kind of philosophy of history in itself, too, into the bargain.'
'There was some sort of a romance, wasn't there? I seem to remember—'
'Yes. Before the war. Almost before you were born, Willie. Married Anmering's daughter: a famous beauty. She died, some accident I think: that must have been ten or twelve years ago. Burnt his house down after her death: never settled down anywhere permanently ever since.'
"Burnt his house? A bit of Hollywoodish,~what?'
‘
Great house up in Cumberland: full of treasures. The kind of man you can't predict his acts.'
'They say he destroyed all his wife's pictures after that,' said the painter: 'every likeness of her he could get hold of. Masterpieces of his own among them: the famous
Green Dress
and all. Ten years ago: nineteen twenty
-
three: I was a student in Paris a year or two later: remember the sensation it made even then. A wicked thing to do.'
'Couldn't stick her, I suppose?'
'I don't know at all, my dear Michael.'
There was a pause. Carwell resumed: 'Funny: I can't have been more than ten: nineteen-eight, it was. This'll interest you as a Freudian, Willie. First time I consciously realized what was meant by—well, by
beauty,
—in a woman—'
'Look out! you've shocked me and you've shocked our Willie. Don't use that word. You must say sex-appeal.' '
'I shall say Beauty. The illustrated papers were full of her at the time; and people talking, you know. Lady Mary Scarnside, she was then. Something about the name, seemed extraordinarily lovely: God knows why— Virgin Mary, Our Lady, I don't know if it's anything to do with that kind of association. Any way, I remember surreptitiously cutting out a full-page picture of her, in her riding-habit, out of the
Illustrated London News
and keeping it for months hidden away somewhere: I'd have died with shame if anyone had—'
'Dear me, Ronald! what a precocious little lounge lizard you must have been!'
‘
Be quiet, Michael. I want to hear this.'
'Well then at Lords—I was taken because I'd a brother in the Eton Eleven that year—I saw her: quite close, in the tea tent. And, my God, Peter, I knew it was her from the pictures and I can tell you I've never seen from that day to this—All your Venuses: any other woman I've ever seen: simply not to be spoken of beside it. And, so charming too. So lovely. Classic if you like, but not cold. A kind of wildness. A kind of—swift-rushing Artemis. I never ^ saw her again, but the impression was terrific. And permanent. Like branding. Shut my eyes, I can see her again to-day. Every detail.'
'Sounds an unusual experience.
’
'A propitious start for you, Ronald. No. I'm not ragging.'
'Extraordinarily interesting. At that age.'
'It's a possession I wouldn't willingly give up,' Car-well said simply.
'And the celebrated Mr. Lessingham, sitting at his table over there, looking like Sir Richard Grenville,—'
'Or like an up-to-date Sicilian brigand,—'
'Like a God exiled from wide Heaven,' said the painter.
'How bloody romantic!'
'I'm quoting his own book.'
'And all the time, quite conceivably the identical same image in his mind as in yours, Ronald.'
'And much more likely, quite a different one. They say he's a regular sailor. Wife in every port.'
'Blast the fellow! he looks it Must admit, takes the gilt off the romance a bit!'
Who knows?'
A long pause: nearly a minute. 'Look there—'
With a lovely swift swaying walk, a lady was threading her way towards Lessingham's table. She was tall: black hair, slanty eyes, white fox-fur stole or collar, black hat, black dress: exquisite, vital, strong, and with a strange infection of excitement in her every motion as though she trailed like a comet, behind her as she walked, a train of fire.
Lessingham rose to greet her: kissed her hand. They sat down at his table. 'You had given me up?' 'No, signora, I knew you would come.' 'How did you know, when I did not myself even?'
‘I
wanted you.'
She looked swiftly in his face, then as swiftly away again. 'Your words are suited to your eyes,' she said, out of a tense little hushed silence.
'Words should say what they mean, neither less nor more. I have trained mine: good hounds: open not but where they find. You prefer vino rosso? or bianco?' He signalled to the waiter.
'The crimson rose or the gold one? O I think the crimson for to-night.'
'I had thought so too, as you observe,' Lessingham said as he ordered it, taking for her at the same time from a jar on the table a rose, dark as blood, that bowed down its head as with the very weight of its own sweetness. 'Do you, in addition to your other accomplishments, read the Greek, signora?—
'I heard the flowery spring beginning.'—So softly she echoed the words, it might have been the red rose that spoke, not her red lips as she scented it. 'But this is autumn with us, not spring,' she said, pinning it to her dress. 'Or do you as a great man of authority command the seasons as your subjects? a forcer of them to your pleasure?'
The two tables were out of ear-shot, but within easy eye-reach. Peter Sherrill was watching that lady with his gannet-like eyes: As, upon a movement, her fur stole fell open, unapparelling the beauties of her neck and hair, he snatched the menu-card and, from his pocket, a piece of chalk: began swiftly to draw. Carwell, for his part, had all this while been staring at her as if he had forgotten where he was: like a man in a dream.
'But the advantage of complete scepticism,' Lessingham was saying, as he lighted a fresh cigar, 'is that, having once reached that position, one is free: free to believe or unbelieve exactly what one pleases.'
'As for example?'
'As for example, madame, that you and I were sitting in this piazza twenty-five years ago—here, in Verona, almost this very table, I think—criticizing the ways of God with men.'
Twenty-five years ago! that is not a very charmant compliment to me?'
'Private heavens are the only solution.' She was silent.
'You are not yourself yet twenty-five?'
‘I
am nineteen, signor.'
'You are immeasurably older. You are older than the world. Older, I think, than Time.' 'A strange fancy.' 'Is it not true?'
‘I
t does not sound to me very like a truth.'
Lessingham watched her for a minute, in profile: this umegarding, unattached, contemplative pose: these beauties beyond the Greek, yet, in high cheek-bone and in modelling of eyelash and lip, and in the wing of the nose, something of a more rough and sharp taste, to strain the tongue; and the turning up of her hair at the nape of her neck, like a smooth beast of night coiling itself, fold upon fold, self-lovingly upon some hidden privity and unboundedness of its own desires and somnolent luxury of its own secretness.
‘I
am not a commodity,' she said, very low: 'not for any man.'
‘I
regard women,' said he, 'not as commodities, but as dresses of Hers.'
'And who is "She"?'
‘
Never mind. I have known Her. Intimately. For years and years. If you were She, signora, would you visit this earth?'
He saw something twist and elongate itself like a self-pleasing cat, in the region of her mouth and nostrils, as she replied, 'Perhaps. Sometimes. If it amused me. Not often.'
'And d
oes it amuse you? "C
a m'amuse": did you not say that? twenty-five years ago?—'
'How should I know if I said it before I was born?'
‘
—This clockwork world, this mockshow, operated by Time and the endless chain of cause and effect? And the second law of thermodynamics to assure us that in time,
a
few million or billion years, may be, but still in time, the whole thing will have come to an end. Not dead; for to be dead implies a condition called Death, and Death itself will have ceased to be. Not forgotten either; for there will be nobody to do the forgetting. Neither forgotten nor remembered. The end laid down by the great law of entropy: the- impregnable vacuity of ultimate Nothing.— Ca vous amuse, madame?'
With an almost imperceptible, half-mocking, half-listening, inclination of her head she answered, 'Pour le moment,—oui, monsieur. Ca m'amuse.'