A Hidden Place (19 page)

“No,” he said. “No,” and went to the door. “I’ll be back.” Taking his own turn, she guessed, at the riverside.

Nancy settled down in the shadows, exhausted. “What happened?”

Anna pivoted her head to face her. “Travis wanted to know some things.”

“He gave you the third degree?” She was quietly shocked—surely Anna was too frail for that sort of treatment.

But the alien woman said, “He needed reassurance. I cannot say whether he received it.”

“You told him about being a mirror?”

“Yes. Though I think he understood it, intuitively, long before this.”

Nancy closed her eyes. She needed sleep more than anything. Too much had happened. Weariness moved like a tide in her. “You’re that woman,” she heard herself saying, “the one you say he dreams about—”

“The pale woman. Travis sees her in me, yes. I give back that part of him—that fear, that desire.”

Nancy stifled a yawn. “And what about me? What do I see in you?”

Anna gazed back … frail, emaciated, cast out; like a piece of flotsam, Nancy thought sleepily, washed up on some uncaring reef….

“Only yourself” Anna said gently.

When she woke it was past nightfall again. Nancy had slept sitting up; her back was stiff and she was cold. She had to get back to town, she thought. Her mother might have called the police. Anything might have happened.

Travis was beside her.

“We can’t stay here,” he said. “Greg Morrow saw me last night. If he wants to make trouble there’s not much we can do about it.”

“Where else is there to go? Anyway
—”
She stretched. “—we can’t move Anna. It would kill her. There’s not much left of her but her bones.”

Bones and that terrible light. Anna sat cross-legged on the mattress, hardly breathing. Her eyes were rolled back into her head.

Nancy felt a twinge of concern. “Anna—?”

“He’s near here,” Anna Blaise said suddenly. “He’s very near here indeed.”

And she blinked and looked intently at Travis.

C
reath Burack was careful to park his battered Ford pickup two blocks beyond Bob Clawson’s modest house on DeVille Street. He did not want to be conspicuously odd-man-out among all the fine automobiles parked there. There would be enough of that to come, he thought.

He did not relish this meeting.

His gut burned, though he had eaten sparingly at dinner. He sat for a breathless moment gripping the steering wheel as the Ford’s engine cooled.

There are limits, he thought. There are limits beyond which I will not go. He wasn’t stupid; he knew the kind of fear that was sweeping the town. It was impossible to miss. The times had gone sour. There were unemployed men everywhere, families starving, farms turned to dust, murders and gangsterism and reckless talk of revolution. And men like Bob Clawson and his cronies—men of money or, failing that, of staunch propriety—were the scaredest of all.

He thought: I do not know what they want from me. But there are limits.

He climbed out of the automobile.

Liza had made him wear his best Sunday suit. Creath regretted that decision now. The collar nagged at him; the old-fashioned vest was conspicuously tight across his belly. It wore on him like an admission of inadequacy. He gritted his teeth and paced out the necessary steps to the Clawson house.

Clawson’s wife, a gushy, nervous woman addicted to the wearing of gloves, met him at the door. “Why, Creath,” she said, “so good to see you,” and led him to the parlor. “The men are all inside. Go on!”

There were times, Creath wanted to say, when you would have crossed the street to avoid me. But he only mumbled, “Yes, Evie, thanks,” and held his hat in his hand.

“The men,” as she had called them, were clustered around a dining room table. The shades had been pulled and the electric lights switched on. The air was already blue with cigar smoke. Creath entered, and the rumble of male voices tapered to a stillness.

He felt the sweat tickling down his ribs.

Bob Clawson pushed forward. The high-school principal looked dowdy and small among these lawyers and realtors and store owners. There was a primness in him he could not shake. But his hail-fellow smile and his extended right hand made Creath feel stupidly grateful. He took Clawson’s hand eagerly. It moved, wetly alive in his grip, like some kind of hairless animal.

“Creath Burack! Good you could make it! You know most of these people, I think?”

By reputation mainly, Creath thought, but Clawson’s welcome had taken him out of the spotlight, and he was … eased to see the faces turn incuriously away from him, the rumble of conversation resume. He would have liked to be invisible.

“Sure,” he said breathlessly.

“I really am pleased you could make it. We’ve been having a lot of discussions here you might find interesting. I think it’s important that people like ourselves get together in a time like this, don’t you?”

“I guess so,” Creath said.

“But surely you’ve noticed it, too? But then it’s all the more obvious from where I sit. I see the young people. Your wife made some astute points in that regard, I understand, in her little speech. I assume you agree with her.”

Creath had not heard the speech. Liza had told him about it. He had listened with only half an ear. It had sounded like the same old stuff to him. The country was going to hell in a handbasket, true enough—but he could not arouse himself to be shocked by it.

“I go along with her a hundred percent,” he said, and wondered miserably if he ought to have come at all. He did not like these men and he was certain they had not petitioned to have him here; he was here on sufferance strictly. Then why
had
he come? Because of Liza, he thought—her stem conviction that this would better them in some way. And for more pragmatic reasons. There in the corner with a glass of brandy was his banker, a man named Crocket, who held the mortgage on his house; seated at the table was Jeff Baines, the realtor to whom Creath must turn when, inevitably, it came time to sell the ice plant; and there by the potted Chinese evergreen was Jim St. Hubert, the undertaker who would one day escort him into the cold weedy soil up at Glen Acres. In pieces and fragments these men owned him. He was beholden to them.

Clawson seemed to sense his discomfort. He poured Creath a drink from a bottle of Canadian blend. “It’s important, times like this, to mend fences. Man to man. We hang together or we will hang separately. You understand?”

In truth he did not. He murmured, “Yes.”

“That’s good. That’s fine. You finish your drink, all right? Pretty soon I’ll make my little speech.”

* * *

There were chairs for everyone. Creath sat at the back, bent almost double in his effort to remain inconspicuous. The room had grown unbearably hot and his body, under these layers of dark cloth, was slick with sweat. Bob Clawson’s “little speech,” once begun, showed no signs of winding down.

The sentiments were all familiar. Vice and sedition were abroad in the land, and the law was helpless to deal with it. “I don’t mean that as any kind of slur on the work of Tim Norbloom there. We’ve talked, haven’t we, Tim?—and he agrees that something more has to be done. I want to emphasize that we are working in privacy here. The nature of the work demands it. Many of us are public servants, Tim Norbloom and myself are just two examples, and our work might be compromised if word of this got out. But we are willing to assume that risk. We assume it because we know what every right-thinking citizen in Haute Montagne must at least suspect: that hard times call for hard action.”

Creath drained the teacup of whiskey Clawson had given him, closed his eyes to better feel the alcohol working. He found himself impatient with Clawson’s fine rhetoric. You can’t bullshit a bullshitter. By God, he thought, I know what you are dressing up with your fine perfume.

And he thought quite involuntarily of Greg Morrow.
I know where she is.

Was that possible? Anna Blaise still in town, still here in Haute Montagne—could that be?

He closed his eyes. Her face was there in the inner darkness.

“We are all aware,” Clawson said, “of the way unemployed men and railway transients have been gathering on the outskirts of town. This has not been a pressing problem, though many of us do worry about the safety of our women, and I think we’ve all been more astute about locking our doors lately. I know I have—haven’t you?”

Heads nodded. Creath forced open his eyes, stared glazedly at the scuffed tips of his shoes.

“But the problem may be of greater proportion than we have suspected. I’m talking about the outright seduction of our daughters. I’m talking about young girls making clandestine visits to the shantytown at the railway trestle. I’m talking about what can only be described as a very real and terrible danger to the lives and morals of our children.”

Clawson paused, and there was the embracing silence of absolute attention.

“Fortunately,” he said, “one of our young people has been courageous enough to step forward with this information. The problem is not yet widespread, but it could become so. And that is why we must come together.”

Creath stood up. He did not mean to. Some instinct impelled him, or the liquor. “Who do you mean? Who came to you?”

Heads turned. He thought: dear God, what have I done?

Bob Clawson looked at him uneasily. “A former student at the high school,” he said quickly, “and I’ve taken the liberty of asking him to join us so you all can meet him and hear what he has to say.” Clawson opened the parlor doors behind him. “Come on in, son.”

Greg Morrow stepped inside, smiling.

The rest of it was hazy in Creath’s mind, a blur of perception. Greg described the assignations he had witnessed, or claimed to have witnessed, down by the railway trestle. Clawson added something about “the obligation—no, the
duty
we feel to do something about this while we can,” and then the mounting burble of voices. Creath stood in a corner, smiling falsely when he could force himself to do so, drawing strength from the reassuring confluence of the two walls.

Then, an eternity later, as these well-dressed and authoritative men of means began to filter out one by one, Bob Clawson approached him with his hand once more extended.

“Creath, I know you’re as concerned about these issues as the rest of us. For your own sake and Liza’s. And I want you to know you can be a big help to us.”

No, Creath thought. Leave me out of it. I will not be a party to this thing. It was true, he had wanted a reckoning with Anna Blaise, had wished he could expunge her from his life altogether (because, in all truth, the wanting of her was still huge within him: Christ God, he thought, I want her even now, even now)—but there was no redemption in what these men wanted, only some filthy act of violence born out of their fear and their boredom.

I am not a saint, Creath thought. He had done many things he was not proud of. He had hurt people. He would gladly have killed Travis Fisher … would yet, perhaps. But not this.

He thought: she could be out there.

I know where she is.

“A big help,” Bob Clawson was saying, his hand on Creath’s shoulder. “A husky man like yourself. And don’t think it won’t be noticed. We are all friends—all of us who sat in this room and pledged ourselves to the betterment of the community. And friends do things for friends. I think you must understand that.”

No, Creath thought. Debts forgiven, considerations made; it was tantalizing but insufficient. No, he thought, not even for that. I won’t—

But he saw Greg Morrow gazing at him across the oaken table, that insolent smile playing faintly across his lips. And he understood then that Greg Morrow was smarter than he had thought. Greg Morrow understood the tidal flow of wealth and power in Haute Montagne, how to use and manipulate it: Greg Morrow, humble as his station was, had invaded the Byzantine social structure of the town’s prime movers … had done this terrible thing quite consciously. Greg, catching his eye, smiled oh-so-faintly. And Creath understood. The communication was explicit.
Crawl,
the smile said.
Crawl like you made me crawl. Crawl for the rich men, or you can kiss your shitty business and your swivel chair and your cheap cigars good-bye. Because these men will break you.

Creath tore his eyes away.

Bob Clawson frowned. “We
can
count on you, can’t we, Creath? It means a lot to all of us. After that wonderful speech your wife gave, I wouldn’t want to think you’d backed out on us.”

Creath felt his lower lip trembling. He was afraid he might begin to cry. The textured fleur-de-lis wallpaper threatened to close in about him. He needed to be out of this place.

“Yeah,” he said faintly. “You can count on me.”

Greg’s smile broadened, and Creath fumbled for the door.

T
hat night there was frost on the brittle stalks of prairie grass. Anna was sleeping or comatose, and Travis ate a sparing meal of saltines, chipped beef, and tepid water. She woke at dawn.

The last of her humanity was draining from her. The flesh was taut over her skull, and the skull itself had taken on new contours, a kind of streamlining. Her soiled dress hung limply, and Travis did not wish to know what transformations it might conceal. Her aura pulsed about her; the irises of her eyes had expanded; she gazed at him from azure depths, unfathomable. He began, “You have to leave this place. Listen: Greg Morrow knows we’re here. He’s bound to make trouble. Maybe when Nancy gets back we can take you over to the railway trestle. We—”

But Anna was shaking her head. When she spoke her voice, too, was more nakedly alien, a kind of soft keening; it stood up his hackles, though all she said was,
“No.”

“You don’t understand. You’re in danger here.”

“In danger anywhere, surely? But, Travis, the time is very near. I cannot leave this place. Listen to me. Bone is close by. But he’s wounded. He needs help.”

Travis sat back on his haunches. It had been the coldest night of this autumn, and his jacket was inadequate, the barnboard walls of the switchman’s shack thin as paper. Anna did not shiver; Travis did. “Near here?”