A Lady's Pleasure (2 page)

Turning, she took deliberate aim and dropped the heavy, mud-caked boots.
Brown toes curled back in the nick of time.
"Do you move cupboards best in the dark, Colonel Coally?" she asked politely.
"Not at all, Miss Abigail." The gray eyes staring up at her were narrowed. "I thought only to spare your blushes."
He stood up and dropped the blanket.
Abigail dropped the sodden mass of clothes that was the only thing between them and dove for the candle.
The cottage plunged into swirling darkness. At the same time, something brushed against her hip.
She instinctively put out her handand grabbed naked flesh.
Hot, hard, naked flesh. It was shaped rather like a thick pump handle, half-cocked, with skin as smooth as silk. Underneath it was a throbbing vein
She jerked her hand back. "Colonel Coallyyou surprised me."
"Miss Abigail." The voice in the dark was colder than the wind shrilling through the broken window. "If you insist upon grabbing what you cannot see, you will someday suffer from more than surprise. Edge your way over to the bed and stay there. I don't want to have to worry about surprising you again."
Abigail stood her ground. "Nonsense, Colonel Coally. This is my cottage. I am quite capable of assisting you."
"Let me put it another way, Miss Abigail. I am not so much worried about surprising you as I am of being surprised myself. Use your wits, lady: You have no shoes on. I have no desire to minister to both a broken window
and
bleeding feet."
Speechless with fury, Abigail stared up into the blackness.
Surely he could not have thought that she had grabbed him on purpose. It was
he
who had brushed against her!
And then, how dare he comment about her witsor her person! A gentleman
did not
mention a lady's feet.
"Very well, Colonel Coally."
She stalked to the bed, skirting wide the area in front of the broken window.
The mattress sagged beneath her weight. Planting her bare feet firmly together on the cool plank floor, she wondered where the colonel planned to spend the night. Then she wondered what it would be like to sleep with a man. Naked. With his warm flesh curved around hers.
The grate of wood on wood interrupted thoughts that she had no business thinking. The colonel was pushing the cupboard across the floor, steadily, heavily. The gale whistling through the cottage abated to a dull moan.
"There. That should hold it."
Suddenly a hand weighted down the top of her head, slid down to her ear, her cheek. The fingers were cool, slightly damp from the rain. They rasped against the softness of her skin, against her breast
Fire shot through her body. "What do you think"
Her hand that reached up to push his away was clasped in a firm grasp.
A hard, calloused grasp.
He forcibly curled her fingers arounddog-eared paper.
"This was lying on top of the cupboard."
So that was where the wind had whipped the other journal.
She held her spine ramrod straight. "Thank you, Colonel Coally."
He released her hand. "My pleasure, Miss Abigail."
Heat dispersed the cold of the darknesshis body was mere inches away from her face.
She wondered if he had donned the blanket again. A particularly intriguing scene from
The Pearl
flashed before her eyes.
If she leaned forward, would she kiss wool or
"Are you all right?" he asked abruptly.
"Perfectly, thank you." She jerked her head back, wondering if she was losing her mind. "And you?"
The end of the mattress dipped. "I'm an old warhorsemoving a cupboard is hardly dangerous work."
Abigail rolled up the damp journal. The colonel was far from decrepitas he must very well know. There was not a single strand of gray in his hair. "Fishing, Colonel Coally?"
"Merely stating a truth." She jumped at the shock of a heavy thuda boot dropping onto the floor. Another thud followed. Then the entire bed shook. She sensed rather than saw him scoot across the mattress to sit with his back against the wall. "I am thirty-five years old. The last twenty-two years have been spent in the Army. What are you doing out here all by yourself?"
Abigail refused to be cheated of her anger. "What are
you
doing here, Colonel Coally?"
There was a brief silence. "Convalescing."
She craned her head back in the direction where she knew he was sitting. All she could see was darkness. "There is another cottage near here?"
"No. Not nearby."
Straightening, she listened to the tempest outside the cabin for long seconds. "Twenty-two years ago you would have been thirteen, Colonel Coally. The age of consent for a no combative position is fifteen."
"You are correct, Miss Abigail." The voice in the darkness was dismissive. "I lied."
Lied?
Twenty-two years ago or now?
"What are you convalescing for?"
Again that silence, followed by a reluctant, "A bullet wound."
She remembered his limp. And the sight of a well-shaped muscular ankle sprinkled with fine black hair. "In the left leg."
"Yes."
Abigail followed the war movement through the newspapers. "By a Boer?"
"Yes."
The seaside cottage was miles away from the nearest thoroughfare. She had deliberately chosen it for its isolation. "That still does not explain why you are
here,
Colonel Coally."
The silence was longer this time. She concentrated on the cool damp of the journal rolled in her hands and not the throbbing warmth that came from the end of the bed where his legs stretched out.
"My horse threw me. I walked for a while, but there was no shelter to be found. Then I saw your light ... and here I am."
"But why were you out in the storm?"
"Why do you read erotic literature?"
Abigail prepared to defend her choice of reading materialit was educational; it was amusing;
it was none of his business.
She surprised herself by baldly stating, "Because it is the only way a woman can learn about sex."
A current of electricity passed through the darkness, as if lightning had struck nearby.
"I could be mistaken, of course," the colonel's voice was gravelly, "but I believe there exists another method that a woman may discharge her curiosity."
"I never met a man who I was interested in 'discharging' my curiosity with, Colonel Coally," she said repressively.
Outside the cottage, the force of the storm rose. The wind howled around the cupboard. Waves pounded on the beach below. Thunder roared in the skies above.
It occurred to Abigail that a very real danger existed. The wind
could
take the thatch roof off. Waves
could
swell up out of the ocean and swallow the tiny cottage. Lightning
could
"I wanted a woman."
The unexpected words jarred Abigail back to reality. "I beg your pardon?"
"You wanted to know what I was doing out here in the storm. I rode out, hoping to find a village. Or a tavern. And a willing woman."
The confession was abrupt.
Colonel Coally begrudged the need that had driven him out into the night. As Abigail begrudged the conventions that did not allow a lady the same privilege.
She should have felt shock at the admission no gentleman made to a lady; instead, she felt the lingering remnants of rancor evaporate. It was replaced by a strange sense of camaraderie.
This man had seen her trunk filled with erotica and he had not judged her. It was the height of hypocrisy to judge him now, when he obviously had his own needs.
"I envy you, Colonel Coally. Were I a man, I, too, would have ridden out in search of companionship."
"It wasn't companionship I rode out for, Miss Abigail."
"I know very well what you rode out for, Colonel Coally."
"Do you, Miss Abigail?" The voice in the dark was curiously passionless. "Do you know what it is like for your body to burn and throb until you want to throw aside everything you have ever believed in for just one moment of oblivion?"
Abigail closed her eyes against a lifetime of wanting things that could never be, gently reared as she was. Things she would never have, spinster that she now was. "Yes, Colonel Coally. I do."
The bed shifted. "Do you have fantasies, Miss Abigail?"
Unbidden images danced behind her eyelids. Forbidden images of a man's naked desire filling a woman's body. Sexual images of things she had never done. Things she had never seen. Things she had never even read about.
Yearnings that in the next three weeks she must somehow put aside.
"Yes." She opened her eyes and stared into the darkness. "I have fantasies."
"Tell me." The abrupt command was harsh.
"I..." How could she tell this man who was a virtual stranger what she had privately dreamed about for years? But the darkness provided a certain anonymity. It almost seemed as if she talked to herself ... or a fantasy.
"I fantasize about what it is like to kiss. Not the small peck that I give and receive from my family and friends. But a real kiss ... like they do in my books. With their ... tongues." Before she could lose her courage, she blurted, "Do men and women really kiss that way, Colonel Coally?"
"Sometimes. What else do you fantasize about, Miss Abigail?"
Abigail transferred the journal to her left hand and scooted sideways across the mattress so that her back rested against the iron headboard. The sole of her right foot brushed against wool and a muscular leg.
Heat shot up her calf.
She curled her foot underneath her skirt. "I... fantasize about what a man looks like. I mean ... I have little nephews and I... have changed their nappies. They are ... not really very impressive. Yet in the books they describe a man as being ... much larger.
There.
Are men as large in real life as they are in books?"
It could have been the intake of his breath that she heard. Or perhaps it was hers. Because suddenly she realized exactly what it was that she had grabbed in the darkness, all silky sinew with pulsing veins.
And yes, it had been very large indeed.
"Some men are large, some men are small." The voice in the dark deepened. "Just as some women have large breasts, and some have small. Is it important to you?"
"Yes," she said softly, wondering what or even
if
he had thought about her breasts during that fleeting touch, wondering how large were his measurements, wondering if all men were his size. Then she laughed self-consciously, embarrassed yet strangely exhilarated at discussing a man's anatomy. "I meanI suppose it would not matter as long as a man can give a woman satisfaction. Is it possible, Colonel Coally? Can a man give a woman satisfaction?"
"Do you doubt it, Miss Abigail?"
"Oh, yes, Colonel Coally. Every time I look at one of my pomaded, bewhiskered brothers-in-law I doubt it. I try to imagine them kissing with their tongue oror touching a woman's breast oror kissing a woman between her legs, and, quite frankly, I cannot. I cannot imagine them doing any of the things I read about. I cannot even imagine them begetting their own children. They have fat bottoms, Colonel Coally. I simply cannot imagine those fat bottoms pistoning up and down."
Fat bottoms pistoning up and down
rang out over the muted frenzy of the storm.
Abigail clasped her right hand over her mouth in horror at the words that had come from it. At the same time, a shout of laughter burst from the other side of the bed. The mattress shook and shimmied.
"I am glad that you find my speech amusing, Colonel Coally," Abigail said stiffly.
The masculine laughter subsided. "I suddenly find this whole conversation amusing. Here you are, telling me your darkest fantasies, yet you address me as 'Colonel Coally.' And here am I, equally reprehensible, calling you 'Miss Abigail.' Let's call a truce, shall we? For the duration of the storm, let us be simply Abigail and Robert."
It was absurd, of course, but calling the intruder by his first name seemed more intimate than telling him her "darkest" fantasies. As long as he remained a colonel instead of a man, then he was a part of the storm and she remained a spinster lady merely engaged in safe, however illicit, conversation. But cross that barrier and
"Very well." Abigail took a deep breath to still the rapid acceleration of her heartbeat. "I find that I am sharing my fantasies, but you are withholding yours. What do you fantasize about ... Robert?"
"A woman, Abigail. I fantasize about all the things I would like to do to a woman."
Abigail's breath caught in her throat. She envisioned his tanned hands caressing the pale skin of a woman's body. And wondered what they would feel like touching
her
body.
Liquid desire pooled between her thighs.
"What about ... size? Do you fantasize about the size of a woman's breasts?"
"No."
The short answer did not encourage further questioning. But this was the first manindeed, he was the first personwho had ever discussed sex other than in terms of polite platitudes and
Abigail wanted to know more.
When she returned to London in three weeks' time she would have this memory, at least, to chase away the lonely nights.
"Well, then. What sort of things would you like to do ... to a woman?" she asked casually, almost flippantly, while inside her chest her heart thudded against her ribs.
"Everything." The disembodied voice was a dark rasp. "Everything she has ever dreamed of. I want to ram my body into a woman until I lose myself inside
her
body, until her pleasure is my pleasure. I want to make her scream and beg for more. I want her to make me forget that I have spent the last twenty-two years of my life killing."
Abigail felt as if the air had been sucked out of her lungs.
Death was a part of war. The newspapers were filled with the tallies. Abigail read the accounts, mourned the victims, and had never once thought about the survivors, those soldiers who fought in the name of Her Majesty. Men who were not born to kill, but who did so nevertheless. Men who would suffer their actions for the rest of their lives.
As the autocratic colonel was obviously suffering.
For long seconds she clutched the cool, damp journal in her left hand, riveted by the raw need that radiated from the man at the foot of the bed.
As a soldier he had faced death; the only danger Abigail had ever experienced was that of exposure, should her erotica be discovered. As a man, he had endured physical pain; the only pain Abigail had ever borne was loneliness, pretending to be what she was not. Yet she felt the colonel's desire as keenly as she felt her ownhe forced to seek forgetfulness in the midst of a storm, she forced to bury her frustration between the pages of illicit books and journals.