A Question of Guilt

Table of Contents

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Title Page

Copyright

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Postscript

ALL THAT GLISTERS

THE DARK SIDE OF YESTERDAY

FORGOTTEN DESTINY

HOSTAGE TO LOVE

MORWENNAN HOUSE

MOTH TO A FLAME

NO HIDING PLACE

THE PENROSE TREASURE

PORTHMINSTER HALL

A QUESTION OF GUILT

THE REUNION

SEAGULL BAY

SHADOWS OF THE PAST

THE TRUTH GAME

TUCKER'S INN

THE YEARS TO COME

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Copyright © 2012 by Janet Tanner.

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Tanner, Janet.

A question of guilt.

1. Women journalists–Fiction. 2. Arson investigation–

England–Somerset–Fiction. 3. Romantic suspense novels.

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ISBN-13: 978-1-78010-359-4 (epub)
ISBN-13: 978-0-7278-8234-9 (cased)

Except where actual historical events and characters are being described for the storyline of this novel, all situations in this publication are fictitious and any resemblance to living persons is purely coincidental.

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Have you ever seen an avalanche? I have. I've heard it too, and it's the most awesome, terrifying thing. The roar of it vibrates in the air and that wall of snow rushing down the mountainside makes the whole world shake and tremble. I only saw it briefly, over my shoulder, as I skied for my life, and I promise you, I never want to see it again. But that roar, like a wild animal about to devour you, I still hear that in nightmares.

I could so easily have died that day, buried beneath goodness only knows how many feet of snow. I try not to think about it, but I know it will be a long time, if ever, before I can get up the nerve to ski off-piste again. And I'll probably never be up to it physically, anyway. I shattered my leg as well as breaking my wrist and my collarbone when I shot over the overhanging rock that saved my life and where I lay stunned whilst the snow roared past, a foaming white ocean I could no longer see.

When I woke up in hospital I was grateful for the pain because I was alive to feel it and I might so easily not have been. Later, as the weeks and months dragged by, I became awfully tired of it, and frustrated. Let's face it, I'm no saint. When my leg throbbed relentlessly and I had to have more surgery I had to work very hard to keep reminding myself how lucky I had been. I had. I had! But there were times when I felt I was being sucked down more surely than if I'd been buried alive that day.

I never did find out what started that avalanche, but I know it could have been something quite insignificant. Like a pebble starting a landslide, when a little shower of rubble becomes a cascade, so that ocean of snow may have begun with one little breaker. But of course it didn't end there. Long after the snow had settled, the chain of events that avalanche started was rolling relentlessly on. Leading me, though I didn't realize it, into a web of blind alleys and dark secrets towards a nightmare that would put my life in danger all over again.

Everything that happened began with the avalanche. My questionable decision to go off-piste that day was the catalyst. If I'd stayed on the slopes, I wouldn't have ended up badly injured; if I hadn't been injured, I wouldn't have been at home in Stoke Compton, bored and frustrated, looking for something to help the days pass more quickly. I'd have been simply getting on with my life. Tim and I might still have been together, and I'd have been too busy with my job – a reporter on the regional daily,
Western News
–
to think of anything beyond Crown Court cases and the regeneration plans for the city docks area and the occasional interview with some local celebrity. I would never have begun asking questions about an old case of arson that had happened in my home town, thirty miles away.

Would I have pursued it if I'd known what lay in store? The answer to that has to be yes. I'm a journalist first and foremost; I'm nosy and persistent. And I have a strong sense of justice. But I had no idea, none at all, of the nightmare I was letting myself in for. Or that I was to discover, the hard way, that sometimes the very people you think you can trust turn out to be those you can't trust at all.

But I'm going too fast. If I'm to tell you what happened, make any sense of it, I have to start at the beginning. Well, what was the beginning for me, anyway.

When I got out of hospital I was still incapacitated to a certain degree, and definitely in need of some tender loving care. Coping by myself in the city flat I shared with Tim was barely practicable given the way things were. If he had been in a nine-to-five job within striking distance, I could probably have managed, but he wasn't. He's a captain with one of the budget airlines, which means he works irregular shift patterns and is often away overnight. Tim in a luxury hotel in Malaga or Madeira with the rest of the flight crew wouldn't be a great deal of help to me if I needed urgent help.

I wasn't sure, in any case, if I wanted to rely on Tim. For some reason I was having second thoughts about whether he was the right one for me. I couldn't actually pin down what had changed, only that it no longer felt right. Perhaps it was just that I was unsettled after the accident, depressed and seeing things through a dark haze; that was probably it. But I would have expected to want to cling to security, not push it away. I looked at Tim and felt this nagging doubt in the pit of my stomach; wondered if it had been the glamour of his job that had attracted me, not the real man inside the smart black uniform with gold braid on the shoulders. All sorts of things about him started irritating me, just silly little things really, like the way he raised a critical eyebrow and turned down the sound system whenever he came into the room, as if I was noise-polluting the planet all by myself, or tidied the magazines and newspapers I'd been leafing through into a neat pile or even whisked them away altogether. Once upon a time I'd found such habits endearing, now I prickled with annoyance. And I didn't like it. If I was going to spend my life with this man, it didn't bode well.

I couldn't help wondering if I was irritating him too. There was an impatience in his manner, as if he blamed me for what had happened – and perhaps he did. He hadn't wanted me to take the skiing holiday at all and I knew he didn't think I should have ventured off-piste. He'd said so often enough. Foolhardy, he'd called it.

‘Surely there must have been weather warnings?' he'd said. Weather warnings loomed large in his life as a pilot. ‘Surely you checked?'

‘Of course I did. I'm not stupid.' I sounded petulant, I knew. Being incapacitated and in more or less constant pain wasn't doing much for my temper, however hard I tried to remain positive.

Tim's expression told me he wasn't altogether sure he agreed.

‘The trouble with you, Sally, is that you don't always stop to think about the consequences of your actions. When you get an idea in your head, you do tend to jump in with both feet.'

‘Not any more,' I retorted ruefully. ‘Not with a metal pin in my leg and a plaster cast.'

‘That,' Tim said, ‘is a bit like shutting the stable door after the horse has bolted.'

‘Oh, give it a rest Tim, please! We can't all be perfect like you.' I snapped. And immediately felt guilty and miserable. I wasn't the only one affected by this. It wasn't a lot of fun for Tim either. And however much I might protest that I'd taken all the right precautions, that the avalanche was a fluke and I hadn't been the only one caught out that day, I still felt like a naughty child who'd brought all her troubles on herself by her disobedience, and inconvenienced everyone else into the bargain.

‘The best thing would be for you to go home for a while, until you're stronger and more mobile,' Tim said, and I knew he was right.

Twelve years ago I'd been only too ready to leave; the family farm on the outskirts of a small country town, which my father ran himself with the help of just one regular farmhand in winter and some casual local labour in summer, had felt like a prison when I was eighteen. Now, battered and bruised mentally as well as physically, I longed for peace and tranquillity and the time and space to consider my future. I looked forward to Mum fussing over me, cooking the delicious meals I'd sorely missed, putting hot water bottles in my bed, bringing me a mug of warm milk with a tot of whisky in it. I thought nostalgically of cows in the lane, jostling as they were driven in for milking, instead of city streets with nose-to-tail traffic. And I pictured the night sky inky black and studded with stars instead of the orange street-light glow I'd grown used to.

‘It would be the answer, wouldn't it?' I said.

Mum had offered, of course, when she and Dad had come to visit me in hospital, but I hadn't been quite ready then to sacrifice my independence. Now I was. And the fact that Tim seemed pretty relieved at the thought of getting shot of me and the difficulties I was causing him made up my mind.

I went home to Rookery Farm, Stoke Compton, ensconced in the rear seat of Dad's comfortable 4 x 4 and for the first few weeks it was heaven on earth, balm for my battered body and soul. But as I began to get better the rural idyll began to pall, and I found myself remembering just why I'd been so keen to leave in the first place.

I missed my job as a reporter on a regional daily; I missed my friends; I missed the hum of the city; I even missed arguing with Tim. I was going crazy with boredom – there's a limit to how much daytime television you can take – and I was even fed up with reading, though it had been such a luxury in the beginning. When I moaned about it to him on the phone, Tim suggested I should use the time to try to do some freelance journalism, maybe a magazine article instead of the hard news that was my bread and butter when I was at work, and I did toy with the idea. But I couldn't think of a single thing to write about. Nothing ever seemed to happen in Stoke Compton; I couldn't imagine editors falling over themselves to buy pieces on Mum's WI meetings, or the price of animal feed, and the same torpor that was driving me crazy seemed to have sapped my ability to think outside the frame.