A Short Walk from Harrods (34 page)

I unpacked, suddenly felt dreadfully flat and weary. A fine rain spilled down the windows. On the terrace the pots and tubs were draggled and sere with the last of the summer. I'd deal with all that later. Now to walk. I remember I wanted air. Even London air would do, the aircraft smells of paraffin and stewed coffee lingered.

Maria had not spared my little office: clinically neat, pens
all in rows, books on the shelves according to height, not title. I'd never be able to find anything ever again. Three piles of mail stacked according to the postage: first, second, foreign. Perhaps she'd been a shelf-stacker in Colombia. Beside my shrouded typewriter, a pile of tidy paper: ‘JERICHO.' DO NOT SHRED – the stuff which Barbara had saved. Who were these odd people?
William, James, Helen?
I had three chapters here of an unremembered novel. What was the idea? The idea was to write to deflect apprehension, waiting for X-Rays, scanners. Abandoned when darkness fell. Who were they all? And
Florence?
I had no recall. Perhaps I could rejig the stuff? It seemed to be set in Provence. I'd been in Provence only four or five hours ago; while it was still vibrant in my mind perhaps I'd better start to think about these people again? I'd think about them later.

I shouldered into the old anorak, felt for my keys, and clattered down in the lift to the street. I walked up under the dripping trees to the square, the damp cold biting through the anorak, misty rain on my face, my leg dragging a bit, but better after its ten-week exercising; I even managed to breathe fairly easily. I'd go up to the top, turn right, come down into the square, that would be enough. Managed to weave my way through a crocodile of squealing, laughing, punching schoolboys on their way to somewhere. So much life ahead of them! So many things to do, so many pits and traps before them. And they hadn't the least idea. Yet. As it should be: ignorance can be bliss.

However, I knew, more or less, what was ahead for me. I was back after a long time away. Now it was a return to work. A new phase was starting up. I turned right at the top of the square and headed home.

But no dogs leaping in idiot welcome, no scent of freshly cut hay, no scuttering lizards on the stone walls, no quick ‘plops!' from suddenly disturbed fish in the pond. No pond. No voice from the terrace calling, ‘Were the London papers in yet?'

Emptiness sighs. Perfectly all right. No problem.

Offenbach said, in one of his lyrics, ‘When you can't have what you love, you must love what you have.'

Fine. I'll go along with that.

Why not?

London
4.2.93

Sir Dirk Bogarde was an English actor and novelist. Initially a matinee idol, Bogarde later acted in art-house films such as
Death In Venice
; between 1947 and 1991, Bogarde made more than sixty films.
In his writing career, as well as completing six novels, Bogarde wrote several volumes of autobiography. For over two decades he lived in Italy and France, which was where he began to write seriously. In 1985 he was awarded an honorary degree of Doctor of Letters by the University of St Andrews and in 1990 was promoted to Commandeur de l'Ordre des Arts et des Lettres by the French government.
Sir Dirk Bogarde has a legion of fans to this day – an extraordinary commitment to an extraordinary man.

Discover books by Dirk Bogarde published by Bloomsbury Reader at
www.bloomsbury.com/DirkBogarde

A Gentle Occupation
A Particular Friendship
A Period of Adjustment
A Short Walk from Harrods
An Orderly Man
Backcloth
Cleared for Take-Off
Closing Ranks
For the Time Being
Great Meadow
Jericho
Voices in the Garden
West of Sunset

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First published in Great Britain 1993 by Viking
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