The last thing he said was weird. But cool. He said this, “Mr. Ring have faith man. Be strong. We have faith in you, and we aren’t giving up on you.”
And then I woke up.
I don’t know what to say. I am still digesting all of it. I am certain it was real. Positive of it.
After I woke up yesterday from that dream I felt significantly better physically. I almost want to say uncannily better. The bruising had notably improved, and my overall level of pain and discomfort had gone down. It was still sore, but much less so.
Abby and I were together all of yesterday doing shit around campus. Both of us are on light duty, so helping Ollie and Melissa was out of the question. Abby probably could have, but I really wanted to spend some time with her, and I don’t think she was cool with me being on my own moving around doing shit.
Our project for the day was weapons maintenance, and armory work. Putting all our eggs in one basket is stupid, obviously, so after we broke down and gave everything a good once over, we set up a second gun storage area down in the maintenance garage. Back in… shit a long ass time ago I set up a quick bail out bag with a .38 and some food down in the garage. We amped that up and set up one of the lockers as a small armory. We put a .270 bolt action, a 12 gauge, one of the 9mm pistols we’ve accumulated, and a fair amount of ammo for each in the event we need to get the fuck out of here in a hurry. There’s rope, mirrors, matches, a hatchet etc. Enough basics to start again if we need to gtfo in a hurry.
We also made sure that each of the occupied halls had one shotgun, one rifle, one handgun, and sufficient ammo for each in the event we had to fall back or re-arm during an assault. This way, each home/hall has a small armory. Security really isn’t an issue, even though the Hall E main armory is under lock and key. All of the Halls lock on exit, and campus is never unoccupied now, so it’s not like it’ll be easy for anyone to break in to steal guns.
I built up the nerve over lunch and told Abby about the dream. She thought I was bat shit crazy, but I explained it to her, told her about how it made me feel, and I related to her the night of the dream I had about Cassie. The same night the horde of undead arrived here inexplicably carrying books. March 3
rd
. Once I said that, she was convinced that at the very least, we had to swing by 114 Park Street to see what was there.
It was nice to spend time with Abby. The more time I am with her, the more I cherish her. She is like the little sister I’ve already lost to this… bullshit. I do miss Becca. Abby’s almost like my daughter. I don’t even know what that means. I’m not a father yet. All I know is that she makes me smile, she makes me laugh, and I feel her joy as if it were mine. I can only hope that my joy, and my experiences with her are giving Charles some satisfaction, wherever he might be.
Abby and I played stupid about the dream conversation last night when everyone came home from their downtown work. The three musketeers are on slow down work while we’re shorthanded. Primarily we’re looking at fence removal, and building supplies. If they see an easy house to clear, they hit it. With all the people returning to town, we’re debating the wisdom of just taking all the food. I mean… what if these people really need the food?
The haul yesterday for them was moderate. Some lumber in a garage, a little bit of food, some decent supplies. Nothing to write home about.
I did ask Gavin and Patty an awkward question, which I needed the answer to before I moved any further on the whole, “Doug Manning” dream thing. I asked them what happened after I blacked out that day.
They answered immediately. Doug was dying, and he knew it. They knew it. He didn’t want to suffer, and he knew that he’d come back as the undead if he wasn’t, you know, dealt with. Gavin said that Doug begged him to kill him, but he didn’t have the guts to put a barrel to Doug’s forehead and finish him, so after they got Doug to the backyard out the door he’d come in through, Patty put the AR to the back of his head, and did him.
She said he was calm at the end, and she said that she shot him with little warning, so he didn’t get nervous about it. I could see clearly on both of their faces that the whole thing has fucked with them badly. I can’t recall, but I think that’s the first time Patty’s had to kill someone like that. Shooting a dead person in the head is a lot different than pulling the trigger on a living, breathing, crying human being.
But it needed to be done. She knew it, Gavin knew it, and every one of us sitting there listening to their story knew it.
What is necessary is rarely easy.
I’m glad he died quickly. I hope Patty is okay with all of it down the line. Losing a husband and son is bad enough. Killing those about to die is just terrible insult after grievous injury.
Today the crew went out to do more of the same. Fence accumulation and house clearing. While they were out Abby and I searched campus for a digital camera to give to Blake, and found one buried in one of the girl’s dorm rooms. Abby knew just where to look. I guess it pays to be a kid when you’re looking for kid stuff.
When the “out and about crew” returned they had some interesting information to share. They’d cleared out two houses today, and both of them had a fair amount of stuff inside, which was great. However, right as they were wrapping up they heard a long series of gunshots from what Gilbert guessed to be about a mile from their location. They sat low, and about fifteen minutes after the gunfire stopped, they saw a large diesel box truck drive by, heading south on one of the side roads in town. They all said they saw three or four folks crammed into the front.
Scary stuff. No idea what that story is all about. More survivors moving around town I imagine. I should be excited, but I’m not. I’m also a little surprised we haven’t heard any radio traffic from the safe house walkie. I had hoped that we would’ve gotten word from someone, but alas, silence.
After dinner I got up and turned off the music. We’ve all gotten into the ritual of listening to cd’s and itunes or whatever while we eat. We try to keep the music low key, and relaxing. It’s weird I know, but it works for us.
Me turning off the music was enough of a sign that something was up that I didn’t need to quiet everyone. It just so happened that everyone was at the table in Hall E tonight too, which made it easier. Gilbert was just wrapping up eating his last few bites of the quiche thing we had when I sat back down to speak my peace.
I told them I needed them to do something for me, and that I needed them to trust me. Everyone nodded, and I remember now that Abby reached across the table and took Gavin’s hand. She knew what I was about to say already, and I think she wanted some grounding in Gavin. He looked at her and smiled.
I told them about my dream of Doug. I told them all about his family, and where he said they went, and I plainly told them I thought it was real. After the dream I had about Cassie, and the weirdness of how we only seem to be dreaming of the dead, everyone seemed to understand where I was coming from. I didn’t have to fight hard to convince them.
From there I asked them if they could check on them tomorrow, and see if I was crazy. The house is a little off the beaten track from where we’ve been thus far, but it should be fairly good. If they announce themselves, and tell them our story, I think we’ll be okay.
We agreed that first thing tomorrow, Abby, Patty, Gilbert and Gavin would visit the Manning family at 114 Park Street. No one put up a fight about it. After that, we all did what we normally do after dinner, which ranges from go to bed, to watch a movie, to write on our laptops talking to a fictional person.
Gilbert hooked my arm just I as I was about to retire up here to write this. He looked me straight in the eye, and said this to me, “Adrian, I don’t doubt for a second that we’ll find that wife and those two girls tomorrow at that house. I have a feeling you’re seeing a truth that the rest of us aren’t meant to. But son, what’re we gonna do if they’re there like your dream friend said? That’s three more mouths to feed. And two that can’t work? Shit son, you just shot their father. How do you think they’re gonna receive us? Right now we look a lot less like help, and a lot more like we’re coming back to finish the job.”
He shook his head, let go of my arm, and walked away.
He’s right of course. Once again I could be sending my friends to their death tomorrow by asking them to do this.
But really Mr. Journal, how will that be any different than any other day around here?
-Adrian
Providence
Tap tap tap.
With her eyes fused shut Michelle flinched from the gentle finger tapping at her bare shoulder. She knew who it was, and she knew what it meant. Every day for Michelle began the same way. Even if she swore to the ends of the Earth when she lay her head down that she would wake up earlier to avoid his touch, he always woke her up a moment before she would’ve herself. It was uncanny.
A bloody dead boy was her alarm clock now, and the toll of his dawn bell was three gentle taps. Every day it took her several seconds to build up the courage in the chill of the morning to open her eyes and look his dead face. Despite being stone cold dead and having his left arm torn completely off at the shoulder, he always smiled at her, especially when he woke her. He’d only been ten years old at most when he died. His yellow teeth bared in an awkward rictus, she fought every day to smile back. It was hard to dredge up anything other than revulsion when she saw his pale white eyes set in sunken sockets.
It was often cold in Africa at dawn. People who had never been there might think that was impossible. Africa had a reputation for being hot, not cold after all. Michelle knew what to expect though. Michelle had spent quite some time here before everything… happened. Researching, exploring, wandering the places man had tread on millennia ago. No matter how many mornings she’d spent shivering in the dampness, it never ceased wearing on her. Being cold to Michelle meant being miserable. Soul wrenching miserable.
Humanity had begun here, and its unraveling had started here as well. Michelle knew because she’d witnessed the beginning of the end with her own eyes, only a few months prior. So much had changed since then.
Her wakeup routine and the presence of the undead for example.
The night prior Michelle had taken refuge inside a small van that was abandoned on the side of the road. The van’s fading yellow paint was cracked and pocked from top to bottom, showing angry red welts of rust. It had smelled powerfully of sweat and old leather when she found it, but she was exhausted, and the little dead boy with one arm didn’t object when she got inside to rest.
The little dead boy, always walking ahead of her, never looking back. She’d tried to stop several times to see if he’d keep on walking without her, but he always stopped. He’d look back then, and come back to fetch her, as sure as the sun rises. Him and his pale white eyes, waiting for her to start putting her feet in front of each other again, one laborious step at a time. The only way to get his eyes off of her at that point was to walk behind him. Go the other way? Oh dear… that had been a terrible mistake.
Any direction the dead boy wasn’t walking in was the wrong direction to walk. The rest of the dead were always in that direction. As long as she followed in his wake, the walking dead were nearly nonexistent. The few that they did come across he dismissed with a gentle wave of his one remaining hand, sending them walking off into the distance. He was her personal Moses, parting the proverbial undead Red Sea.
Such an appropriate comparison she realized.
The little boy had appeared to her when she woke up the morning of June 23
rd
in the Congo, hundreds of miles away by now. Michelle and her research partner Michael had traveled deep into the jungle at midnight to witness an ancient and primordial burial ceremony there. Something had happened. Something had gone wrong, as wrong as anything can possibly go.
The temperature in the hidden glade had dropped sharply that night, and a foul taste had pervaded her senses. More powerful than just a smell, or a scent on the air, the slippery, metallic copper essence of blood had wormed its way inside her, and she knew something more powerful, more eternal than anything she’d dreamed possible had visited them.
Speaking in a voice that seemed to penetrate her mind far more than just her ears, the voice issued a decree stating that humanity had failed, and we were to be judged by our dead. Michelle had nightmares even to this day about the looks on the faces of those gathered with them at the ceremony, bearing witness to the almighty’s judgment. They all knew deep down inside, deeper than the darkest recesses of their souls, that the end was nigh.
Then, almost as a threat, the voice spoke to her and only her, and the words clung to her mind like black mold, sickening her thoughts.
“Your people will earn their redemption, or all will suffer with me for eternity. YOU will bear witness to their trials Michelle Annabelle Lewis. YOU will tell all those that listen.”
Despite a lifetime of religious study, and almost sixty days of walking amongst the dead since, she still didn’t know what that statement really meant. Was she a witness? What did that mean? Was she a prophet? It was the first and strongest thought in her head whenever she found herself obsessing over that night, and the cold voice in her head.
Michelle couldn’t start another day like this. Not another headache, not today. Her body ached from sleeping curled up in the fetal position on the torn van seat. Her mouth was dry from too little water, and her belly ached from too little food. If she started another day thinking about that horrible night back in June, she’d be insane by midday.
Fat load of good a Doctorate in Theology did her as she sat up and put her tired and worn shoes on the metal floor of the old van. She shivered in the dawn chill. To her right, out of the corner of her eye she could see the dead boy standing in the dirt just outside the van, watching her. He did that a lot when they weren’t walking. Staring, observing, judging. Almost as if he was assessing her condition, or her behavior.