All-American Girl (19 page)

I then said the only thing that an older sister can say to a younger one who is acting like she thinks she is all that. Lord knows, Lucy has said it to me often enough.

After I said it, Theresa sent me to my room.

But I didn't care. I liked it better in my room anyway. In fact, if I had my way, I'd never come out of my room again, except maybe for meals and of course for
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
. But that's it. Because every time I leave my room, it seems like, I just get into trouble. I'm either saving people from getting assassinated or getting into arguments about Picasso or being told I'm blind.

Well, that's it. I'm staying in my room forever. And nobody can stop me.

They made
me come out of my room to go to Grandma's for Thanksgiving dinner.

I tried to lock myself in there again the minute we got back, but unfortunately there was a message on the machine from Mr. White, reminding my parents about the International Festival of the Child, at which my attendance was required. Apparently, if I wasn't there some crisis of world proportions would break out, so my mom said I had to go.

But that didn't mean I had to like it.

I mean, let's face it, this teen ambassador thing was getting old. It was worse than German, practically. Every time Jack saw me he was all, “So where's my ticket to New York?” which was, of course, what the winner of the From My Window contest got, an all-expenses paid trip to New York. Plus, you know, international fame and celebrity.

And I had to pretend to be all, “Ha ha ha! A winner has yet to be announced, Jack.” To which Jack would reply, “Yeah, but it's me, right?”

And then I would be all, “We'll see.”

We will see. Even though I knew good and well the winner wouldn't be him. But what could I say? I mean, I didn't want to be the one to break the news to him. I knew how much the contest meant to him.

So I just said nothing. I smiled and said nothing. While inside, I wept.

Well, okay, not wept, but you know what I mean. I was bummed.

Anyway, Saturday night I showed up at the stupid International Festival of the Child, which was at the White House, and which as far as I could tell was just some bogus concert and a dinner. There weren't even any kids there, that I could see. I was the only one!

And the music, no surprise, wasn't that exciting. The Beaux Arts Trio. That's who they booked. I guess Alien Ant Farm wasn't available.

The Beaux Arts Trio wasn't that bad, though. They only played classical music, like the kind we listened to on the radio in Susan Boone's studio. And while it wasn't exactly No Doubt, it was still nice, in its own way.

Nothing else about the evening was, though. Nice, I mean. For one thing, I fully had to get dressed up. Mr. White had expressly asked my mother to make sure I didn't wear any of my own clothes. Instead, I had to wear this new dress Mom picked out for me at Nordstrom's.

On the plus side, it was black. On the minus side, it was made out of velvet and was very scratchy, and looked stupid with my now-raggedy old cast. My mom tried to make a sling for me out of this big lace shawl of hers, but it kept coming untied, so finally I just left it on my chair.

Plus I had to wear panty hose. Black panty hose, but still.

You would think there'd be something a little exciting about attending a private concert at the White House, in the Vermeil Room, which is all gold, with the president and the first lady, the prime minister of France and his wife, and some other important foreign supporters of the rights of children. You would think so, but you would be wrong. It was all extremely boring. The White House wait staff were walking around, serving glasses of champagne—7-Up for those of us who weren't yet twenty-one, of which I
appeared to be the only one—and these gross hors d'oeuvres.

I joked that the 7-Up was a particularly fine vintage, but nobody got it, everybody there being pretty much humorless…

Except for David, of course. But I didn't notice he was there until after I'd told my little joke. And when I did, of course—notice David, I mean—I practically spat a mouthful of 7-Up at the ambassador to Sri Lanka.

He—the ambassador—looked at me like I was crazy. But that was better than how David was looking at me, which was like I was something furry that had crawled across his salad plate. His mom, I saw, had made him dress up, too. But since he had no stupid cast on one of his arms, David actually looked good. Really good. In fact, in his dark suit and tie, he looked hot.

When I realized I was thinking this, however, I almost started choking again.
David? Hot?
Since when had I started thinking of
David
that way? I mean, sure, I'd always thought of him as cute. But hot?

And then all of a sudden
I
felt hot—though whether it was because I'd realized I thought of David as hot or whether I was merely experiencing the consummate embarrassment a girl feels when she bumps into a guy she'd used to try to make another guy jealous, I couldn't say. All I know is, my face turned about as red as my hair. I know because I caught a glimpse of myself in one of the gilt-framed mirrors on the wall.

Was this, I wondered, part of the whole frisson package? Because if it was, I wanted nothing more to do with it. Rebecca could have her stupid frisson back. It sucked as much as the hors d'oeuvres.

David, of course, was too mature, and too much of a gentleman, to snub me. He came up and said, with another one of those smiles that was just polite, nothing else, “Hi, Sam. How are you doing?”

I had to choke back what I wanted to say—which was “Terrible, thanks. And you?”—and just give him the standard “Fine, thanks,” since I didn't think it would be too cool to get into the whole thing—you know, my apology—in front of all the celebrants for the International Festival of the Child.

“How about you?” I asked. “We missed you on Tuesday at Susan's.”

David's green eyes were cool. “Yeah,” he said. “Couldn't be there. Prior commitment.”

“Oh,” I said. Which wasn't what I wanted to say at all. What I wanted to say was,
David, I'm sorry! I'm sorry, all right? I mean, I know what I did was horrible. I know I'm a terrible person. But could you please, please, please forgive me?

Only I couldn't say that. For one thing, it would smack—just slightly—of groveling. For another, David's dad went up to the front of the room and asked us all to take our places, as the concert was about to begin.

So we all filed into the room where the concert was and sat down. I ended up sitting behind and sort of off to the side of David. So I had a pretty solid view of him through the whole thing. Well, of his left ear, mostly, but still.

And I swear, I didn't hear a note those famous musicians played. All I could think, as I stared at the back of David's left ear, was:
How am I going to make this right?
It kind of surprised me how much I wanted to. Make it right, I mean. But I did.

After the concert, everyone went up and shook hands with the Beaux Arts Trio. The president introduced me to them as the girl who had saved his life and as the U.S. teen ambassador to the UN. The cellist raised my hand to his lips and kissed it. It was the first time any guy outside of my immediate family had ever kissed any part of my body. It felt weird. But that was probably only because he was so old.

“And what,” the pianist wanted to know, “does the teen ambassador to the UN do?”

The president told him about the From My Window contest. Then he added, with a laugh, “And she's been giving Andy a run for his money.”

Andy was the first name of Mr. White, the press secretary. And I had not been giving him a run for his money, that I knew of. In fact, I had surrendered all of my Superballs to him, and had even stopped begging to look at the perv letters.

“Apparently,” the president said in a jokey voice, “there's some disagreement over which entry to the art contest best represents American interests.”

This surprised me. I had not been aware before that David's dad knew what was going on in the press office.

“There's no disagreement,” I said, even though the president hadn't exactly been talking to me, and also, there most certainly was a disagreement. “Maria Sanchez's painting is the best one. It's my pick for winner.”

I wasn't, you know, trying to start an international incident or anything. I didn't even really think about what I was doing. You know, arguing with the president of the United States. It—the thing about Maria Sanchez—just sort of came out before I stopped to think about it.

The president said, “If Maria Sanchez is the artist of that painting with the illegal aliens, it is not the one going to New York.”

Then he turned and said something in French to the prime minister, who laughed.

And I forgot all about David looking like such a hottie in his suit. I forgot all about how I wanted to apologize to him, and how rotten I felt over the way I'd treated him. I forgot all about my uncomfortable dress and panty hose. All I could think about was
the fact that the president had given me this one thing to do—this teen ambassador thing—supposedly as a reward or something for saving his life…

And I was happy to do it, even though, you know, I kind of was beginning to feel like I was being underutilized. I mean, there were a lot more important issues out there for teens that I could have been bringing international attention to than what kids see out their windows. I mean, instead of sitting in the White House press office for three hours after school every Wednesday, or attending International Celebration of the Child concerts, I could have been out there alerting the public to the fact that in some countries, it is still perfectly legal for men to take teen brides—even multiple teen brides! What was
that
all about?

And what about places like Sierra Leone, where teens and even younger kids routinely get their limbs chopped off as “warnings” against messing with the warring gangs that run groups of diamond traffickers? And hello, what about all those kids in countries with unexploded land mines buried in the fields where they'd like to play soccer, but can't because it's too dangerous?

And how about a problem a little closer to home? How about all the teenagers right here in America who are taking guns to school and blowing people away? Where are they getting these guns, and how come they think shooting people is a viable solution to their problems? And why isn't anybody doing anything to alleviate some of the pressures that might lead someone to think bringing a gun to school is a good thing? How come nobody is teaching people like Kris Parks to be more tolerant of others, to stop torturing kids whose mothers make them wear long skirts to school?

These are important problems that I, as U.S. teen ambassador to the UN, should have been addressing. But what did they have me doing instead? Yeah, that'd be counting paintings.

And you know, it was starting to occur to me that the whole teen ambassador thing had just been made up, a way for the president—who, I was starting to think, cared more about his image than he did about the teens of this country—to look good. You know, giving a high-profile job to the girl who'd saved his life, and all.

But I didn't say all that. I should have. I totally should have.

But I was conscious of all these people—the Beaux Arts Trio, the French prime minister, and the ambassador to Sri Lanka, not to mention David—standing there, listening. I couldn't make a speech like that in front of all those people. I mean, I couldn't even talk to the reporters who hounded me every day, and all they wanted to know was which I liked better, Coke or Pepsi.

I had a lot of views about stuff—that was certainly true. What I did not have was a lot of confidence about expressing them to anyone but my family and friends.

But there was one thing I knew I had to do. I had to get Maria's painting into the From My Window show in New York. I
had
to.

And so I put my hand on the president's arm and said, “Excuse me, but that painting has to go to New York. It is the best painting. Maybe it doesn't show America at its best, but it is the best painting. The most honest painting. It has to be entered in the show.”

There was a kind of silence after I said this. I don't think
every
single person in the room was looking at me. But it sure felt like it.

The president said, looking very surprised, “Samantha, I'm sorry, but that isn't going to happen. You're going to have to pick another painting. How about the one with the lighthouse? That's a good representation of what this country's all about.”

Then he started talking to the prime minister some more.

I couldn't believe it. I had just been dismissed. Just like that!

Well, you know what they say about redheads. What happened next, I couldn't stop. I heard myself saying the words, but it was like
some other girl was saying them. Maybe Gwen Stefani was saying them. Because I sure wasn't.

“If you didn't want the job done right,” I said to the president, loudly enough so that it seemed to me that a lot of the wait staff and most of the other guests, including the Beaux Arts Trio, turned to look at me, “then you shouldn't have given it to me. Because I am not going to pick another painting. All the rest of the paintings are of what people know. That painting—Maria's painting—is of what one person sees, every day, from her window. You may not like what Maria sees, but keeping everyone else from seeing it isn't going to make it any less real, or make the problem go away.”

The president looked down at me like I was mentally deranged. Maybe I was. I don't know. All I know is, I was so mad, I was shaking. And I imagine my face was a very attractive shade of umber.

“Are you personally acquainted with the artist, or something?” he asked.

“No, I don't know her,” I said. “But I know her painting is the best.”

“In your opinion,” the president said.

“Yes, in my opinion.”

“Well, you're just going to have to change your opinion. Because that painting is not going to represent this country in any international art show.”

Then David's dad turned his back on me and started talking to his other guests.

I didn't say anything more. What could I say that I hadn't said already? Besides, I had been dismissed.

David, who had come up behind me without my noticing, went, “Sam.”

I looked up at him. I had forgotten all about David.