All Shall Be Well (23 page)

A sliver of moon hung above the fading pink in the western sky. People pushed past, hurrying home to their suppers in the gathering dusk. Kincaid looked east and west along Heath Street at the array of restaurants—Italian, Mexican, Indian, Greek, Thai, Japanese, even Cajun. If one wanted traditional British fare, Hampstead was not the place to be.

Although hungry, he felt too restless to settle down to a restaurant dinner, whatever its persuasion, on his own. He walked the short half-block west on Heath Street to the top of
Fitzjohn Avenue and pushed open the door of the Italian deli. The smells of garlic and olive oil poured out into the street, tempting other passers-by. Inside, the counter beneath the window held pottery bowls filled with dark purple olives and multi-colored pastas, seafood marinating in olive oil, peppers and aubergine mixed with sliced garlic. Overwhelmed by the profusion, Kincaid bought his usual, a ready-to-cook pizza made with roasted sweet peppers and fresh mozzarella.

He stopped in the off-license across the street for a bottle of red wine, then started down the hill toward home, thinking that he might almost be going to some long-awaited assignation.

In a sense, he supposed he was, although the faded blue copy-books kept no account of time.

The wind scoured the streets today, shredding scraps of paper and hurling grit into the air, stinging skin and eyes like nettles. Punishment
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Waiting in the bus queue, huddled behind the Plexiglas partition, suddenly I thought of long-ago evenings spent sitting on the veranda in Mohur Street. There was a stillness to things then, an almost melancholy anticipation. Something exciting seemed always waiting just round the corner, if I could only see it
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Did I ever imagine that days could be lived with such numbing repetition?

Seems odd leaving Bayswater after so many years. At least I knew the shopkeepers, even the neighbors’ cats. Carlingford Road radiates quiet and respectability in comparison, all the things I used to find least appealing. Have I grown old without noticing?

I feel more at home in this flat than anywhere I’ve lived since childhood. I don’t know why. It fits me somehow, or I fit it. The furniture looks as though it’s been here for years; my things seemed naturally to find their appointed spots. When I wake at night I know exactly where I am and I can find my way around the flat in the dark
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Met my downstairs neighbor, Major Keith. What a funny old bird, so formal and polite, yet something about him seems familiar. He lifts his cap to me, calls me Miss Dent. It’s the Major who keeps the garden looking so lovely. Now that the air’s warming a bit he’s out every day, tidying this and that, but really I think he’s watching for the first buds, the first green shoots to push through the earth. Even though he doesn’t speak to me much, I don’t think he minds my sitting on my steps while he works
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This cough is worrying me. I thought it was a spring cold, but it’s lingered now for months. Suppose I’ll have to see someone about it if it doesn’t clear up soon
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My poor Theo. What am I to do if this doesn’t work out? Surely he can manage this little shop with some semblance of competence? But then he’s never done so—why should things suddenly change? Wishful thinking on my part, I’m afraid
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It’s funny how much we depend on our bodies without ever really thinking about it. Cells and organs chug away, blood runs, heart pumps. We worry endlessly about accidents and falls and catching things. Betrayal from within is the last thing we expect
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And cancer is the most insidious enemy, the body turning on itself like some secret cannibal. How could this happen and I not know it? Not feel it? Not sense a spot of decay stretching fingers outward?

Radiation and chemotherapy, the consultant says. Will I poison my body’s hideous child?

Dear god, I feel so bloody helpless
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Sometimes I go hours without thinking of it. I manage to pretend I’m like the others, whole and healthy, manage to pretend that the decision to grant planning permission on some project is of earth-shaking importance, pretend I care whether the new cafe has better chips than the old, pretend anything other than my own body matters
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It comes out in tufts, in handfuls, like plucking a bird. Decorates the bottom of the tub with long, dark swirls, fills combs and brushes with thick mats. I’ve thought of putting it out in the garden for the birds to use in their nests. How absurd
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May would laugh, tell me Yd got my comeuppance. She berated me often enough for my vanity. I’ve taken to wearing caps, a beret mostly, like a travesty of a French peasant. Can’t bear to see Theo
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New clerk at the office while I was away for the last course of treatment. Such a lame duck, with her missing buttons and terribly fair skin that flushes whenever anyone speaks to her. She watches me when she thinks I’m not looking, her expression one of … what? Not pity, I’ve seen that often enough. Concern? It’s very odd
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They’ve washed their hands of me, abandoned me to Morpheus. So sorry, can’t do any more for you, let us get on to someone who will feel properly grateful
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Too weak now to work, left without much fanfare. What did I expect?

Meg Bellamy’s come, first bringing cards and flowers from the office, then on her own when the rest of staff’s communal guilt began to fade
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Reading Eliot again. These long, golden autumn afternoons do seem to have an almost physical presence, an existence separate from my experience
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I’ve been rereading all my favorites, folding the stories around me like the comfort of old friends
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The Major and I have developed a routine. We don’t speak of it, of course, that would be somehow stepping beyond the bounds of propriety, but we observe it faithfully nonetheless. On fine afternoons I sit on the steps and watch him work in the garden, then when he begins to clean his tools I make tea. Sometimes we talk, sometimes not, comfortable either way. On one of his most loquacious days he volunteered a little history: he served in India, in Calcutta, during and after the war. Must have been the colonial manner that struck a chord when I first met him. He would have been a young officer when I was a child, might even have known my parents, considering the incestuous nature of the compound
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Since they stopped the treatments my hair’s come in again, thick and short, like a child’s, and as I’ve lost weight my breasts have shrunk to almost nothing. I’ve become androgynous, a fragile shell of skin and muscle wrapped around memories
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I shall need a nurse soon
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CHAPTER
16

“You didn’t know he served in India?” Gemma swiveled in Kincaid’s chair, having usurped it when she arrived before him at the Yard.

“Until Jasmine died I’d hardly passed the time of day with him,” Kincaid said rather defensively from the visitor’s chair on the other side of his desk. “Why would I have thought to ask him that? And if you’re going to take over my office,” he added, “make yourself useful and put out a request for his service records.”

The phone rang as Gemma reached for it, the distinctive double-burr stilling her hand for a moment in mid-air. Lifting the receiver, she said, “Superintendent Kincaid’s office” in her most efficient manner, then pulling pad and pen toward her began to write. “I’ll pass it along. Ta.” She reread her scribbled notes, then looked at Kincaid. “A Mrs. Alice Finney left a message for you with the switchboard. Said there was no need for you to call her back, she just wanted to tell you she remembered his name. It was Timothy Franklin.”

“That’s it?”

Gemma raised an eyebrow. “What’s that all about?”

“A boy that Jasmine seems to have been involved with just before she cleared out of Dorset like the hounds of hell were
after her. Give Dorset Constabulary a ring and see if they can trace him. And while you’re at it,” he continued before she could protest, “get on to the Constable at Abinger Hammer. Theo Dent doesn’t have a driver’s license—I checked—but I’d like to know if he bought a ticket at the local station last Thursday night, or if he called a taxi, or if anyone else might have driven him to a different station or loaned him a car.” He stopped, waiting for Gemma’s pen to catch up. “And find out if he owns a bicycle.”

“I don’t think—”

“I know you don’t, but I’d like to check it out anyway. Theo Dent may be as innocent as Mother Teresa, but Jasmine’s death bailed him out too bloody conveniently for my liking. Don’t worry,” he added with a grin, “we’ll get on to our Roger. This morning, in fact. We’ve an appointment with the head at his old school before lunch. It was the best I could do. No college or university, and he never seems to have held a steady job.”

“Somehow that doesn’t surprise me,” Gemma said acidly.

“Did you drive this morning?”

“No. You?”

He shook his head. “We’ll sign a car out, the sooner the better. There’s one stop I’d like to make along the way.”

Kincaid watched Gemma’s obvious enjoyment as she eased the Rover through traffic. “Makes a nice change, doesn’t it?”

“A covered wagon would be an improvement over my Escort,” she said as she slipped into a parking space along Tottenham Court Road. “Not bad for a Thursday morning. I expected to have to queue for it. And thank heavens the rain’s stopped.” The thin haze covering the morning sun showed promise of burning off in the course of the day.

Martha Trevellyan answered the door almost before the sound of the buzzer had died away, showing not the least surprise
at finding coppers on her doorstep. Kincaid wondered if she’d seen them crossing the road from the flat’s front window.

“Sergeant James.” She smiled at Gemma and motioned them in. “I hope I look a bit more business-like than the last time you dropped by,” she said, gesturing to her sweater and skirt. “I’ve even managed make-up. What can I do for you?”

Kincaid introduced himself, then said, “Just a quick question—won’t take up more than a moment of your time.” He looked around at the neat living/office area, thinking that the lack of personal clutter matched Martha Trevellyan’s brisk manner. He sensed, though, that some of the briskness might be manufactured, and that Martha Trevellyan was a bit more wary of them than she’d like to admit. “I assume you had references for Felicity Howarth. You hadn’t any indication of problems with terminal patients? No carelessness in administering drugs, anything of that nature?”

She stared at Kincaid, mouth open in shock. “Of course not! I’d never take on someone without a clean record. My business depends on the quality of the care. And Felicity wasn’t only experienced—she had special training.”

“What sort of special training?” Gemma asked, pulling out her notebook and pen. “I didn’t know there was such a thing.”

“There’s a training course just for the care of the terminally ill. Felicity was a graduate. It’s in Winchester or Exeter, something like that.” She moved toward her desk, then pulled her hand back and folded her arms tightly across her chest. “I’d like for more of my nurses to be as well qualified, but it’s difficult. The demand becomes greater all the time.”

“You’ve quit smoking again, haven’t you?” Gemma said, nodding toward the clean and polished ashtray on the desk.

“I’m still reaching for them. Hand’s faster than the brain.” Martha smiled apologetically. “My resolution won’t last long, though, if my morning keeps on like this.”

“Can you remember exactly where Felicity took this training?” Kincaid asked, content to let Gemma diffuse the tension he’d generated. It had served its purpose. Martha’s initial reaction to his question had been unguarded enough to convince him of its sincerity.

“I don’t need to remember. I’ve got it right here in my file.” Pulling open a drawer, she flipped through the brightly colored files with practiced ease. “Here it is. Not Winchester. Dorchester. I always get those two confused.” She handed a piece of paper to Gemma. “Copy the address if you need it, but as far as I know it’s a very reputable course. Do you need the references from physicians as well?”

“Please.”

“I’d stake my reputation on Felicity Howarth’s competence,” Martha said slowly. “I feel that strongly about it. In fact,” she added a bit ruefully, “I suppose I already have.”

“I don’t think you’ve any cause to worry, Ms. Trevellyan.” Kincaid smiled at her, paving the way for a graceful exit. “We’re just tidying up loose ends.”

By the time they reached Richmond the haze had dissipated and pale sunlight filtered through the fringe of leaves overhanging the road. Kincaid checked the map. “Petersham’s just a bit further on, and according to the directions they gave me over the phone, the school’s just off the main road.”

“I’ve heard that one before. Your navigational skills leave something to be desired.”

He looked up at her profile. Although her gaze was fixed intently on the road, the corner of her mouth turned up in a hint of a smile. “You can’t drive and navigate both, so you’ll just have to live with my deficiencies, won’t you?”

Shortly after they entered Petersham, a high, red-brick wall began to run alongside the road on their right. “Slow down,
Gemma. The entrance should be along here.” A sharp right turn through an open gate revealed an expanse of green lawns, symmetrically laid out red-brick buildings, and beyond the school, shining in the sun, the Thames.

“Oh my,” said Gemma as she parked the car, “our Roger did have a difficult time of things, didn’t he?”

A secretary showed them to a book-lined study with long French windows overlooking the river. They waited in silence. Gemma stood watching the swans moving languidly on the water, and Kincaid noticed that the black jersey she wore made the contrast more evident between her bright hair and pale skin.

The door swung open and the head charged into the room, black gown flapping like crow’s wings. About Kincaid’s age, with thinning hair, glasses and an incipient paunch, he radiated gale-force energy. “I’m Martin Farrow.” He shook their hands in turn with a quick, firm grip. “What can I do for you?”