Always Us (The Jade Series #8) (52 page)

A nurse walks in carrying the baby, all wrapped up in a blanket, a pink cap on her head. “Someone’s here for a visit.”

The nurse hands the baby to Jade, who smiles as she takes her. Jade smiles every time the nurse brings the baby in.

“I’ll come back and get her later,” the nurse says, but Jade’s not paying attention. All her attention is on the baby.

I sit next to her on the bed and Jade holds the baby up for me to see. “Garret, look what we made.”

“We did good.” I lean down and kiss Jade, then gently kiss our new baby girl. “She’s beautiful. Just like her mom.”

“She has your eyes.”

“You think so? I think she looks more like you.”

We both just stare at her. It
is
kind of amazing we made something so perfect.

“Did you pick out a name?” I ask Jade. We decided we wouldn’t pick a name until we saw our baby. Because what if we picked a name and it didn’t fit? We wanted to meet her first and make sure her name fit her.

“Abigail Grace,” Jade says without hesitation.

We talked about Grace for a middle name, but not Abigail.

“Where did you come up with Abigail?”

“When I saw her, the name just popped in my head. Look it up and see what it means.”

I get my phone out and go to the baby name website we’ve been using for ideas.
 

When I find the name I smile. “It has a couple different meanings. One is father’s joy and the other is brings joy.”

“Then it’s perfect.” Jade talks to the baby. “You’re definitely going to bring us joy. You already have.”

“Abigail Grace Kensington.” As I say it, she gurgles a little. “I think she likes it.”

“Garret, we don’t have to name her that. It’s just an idea.”

“It was the first name that came to you when you saw her. That means it’s the right name.” I put my phone away and scoot closer to Jade on the bed. I look down at our baby. Jade’s looking at her, too. We can’t seem to take our eyes off her.

“What name were
you
thinking of when you saw her?” Jade asks.

“I wasn’t thinking of names. I was too overwhelmed by the fact that I have a daughter. And that I’m a dad.”

“How does it feel to be a dad?” She hands me the baby.

“I’m not sure how to describe it.” I look down at her, sleeping in my arms. “All I know is that I love her. I loved her before I even met her. And I’m already overprotective of her. She’s never dating by the way.”

Jade laughs.

I give her a serious look. “I’m not kidding, Jade. And she’s going to an all-girl school.”

“Let’s worry about that later. She’s only a few hours old. Born right on her due date.” Jade leans her head on my shoulder, her eyes on Abigail. “Five years ago today you proposed, and I found out you were out of the organization for good. If they’d taken you, I don’t know where I’d be right now. I wouldn’t be married.” She runs her hand over the baby’s head. “And I wouldn’t have her.”

I hand Jade the baby again and put my arm around her. “But that’s not what happened. Which means May 15th will always be a good day.” I squeeze her into me and kiss the top of her head. “I love you, Jade.”

“I love you, too.”

The nurse comes in again to take the baby and Jade falls back to sleep.

My phone rings and I go out in the hall so I don’t wake up Jade. My phone’s been ringing all day. Sean and Harper called. Then Ryan and Chloe. Then Lilly, William, and Meredith. I haven’t talked to my dad yet. He’s flying back from Europe today, but he must be home now because he’s the one calling.

“Hi, Dad.”

“I hear I’m a grandfather.”

“Yeah. You have a granddaughter. Abigail Grace.”

“Congratulations. How’s it feel to be a father?”

“Truthfully? Like I’ll be worrying for the rest of my life.”

He laughs. “Yes, I remember that feeling. But Garret.” He sounds serious now. “Don’t worry about things you don’t need to worry about anymore.”

He knows I still worry about the organization. He always tells me not to, but I still do. I probably always will, because I know it’ll never go away. You can’t defeat it. It’s too powerful and the members are embedded in every facet of society. Large corporations. Judicial systems. Law enforcement. Government. And they’ll do everything they can to stay in power, because they know if they don’t, another group just like them will take over. There will always be people who crave power. People who want to control the masses. Control the system. It’s always been that way. And that will never change.

Sometimes I wonder if the organization will come back for me when my dad and William are gone and I have no one left to protect me. I’m one of the few people who knows about them and that makes me think they’d want me back someday. I’ve told my dad this and he assures me it’ll never happen. He says that so much has changed there the past few years, that it’s nothing like it used to be. They recruit people now, instead of forcing people to be part of it. But I still worry.

“Garret, did you hear me?”

“Yeah. Sorry. It was a long day. I’m just tired.”

“Get used to it. You won’t be getting much sleep anymore.”

“Did you get the pictures I sent?”

“Yes. And she’s beautiful. Let me know when you want Lilly and me to come out there. We can’t wait to meet her.”

“Come out whenever you want. Jade was just asking when you guys would be here.”

“Then we’ll plan on being out there in a couple weeks.”

“Okay, I’ll tell Jade.”

“Is she there? I’d like to talk to her.”

“She’s sleeping. She’s really tired.”

“Well, call me tomorrow when she’s had time to rest.”

“I will. Bye, Dad.”

“And Garret?”

“Yeah?”

“Enjoy this time. It goes fast. And if you miss it, you’ll regret it.” He’s talking about himself and missing all my teen years. He still feels bad about that. He doesn’t need to. I’ve forgiven him. “I’ll let you go. Call me if you need anything. Goodbye, Garret.”

As I put my phone away, I see Frank and Karen getting off the elevator. They brought the small travel bag Jade packed for the hospital. They were in such a hurry to get Jade to the hospital this morning that they forgot to bring it.

They come up to me and Frank hands me the bag. “How’s she doing?”

“Good. She’s taking a nap right now.”

“It’s good she’s getting some rest,” Karen says. “She won’t be getting much sleep when she gets home.” She smiles. “You should be taking a nap, too. You won’t be getting much sleep either.”

I nod. “Yeah, that’s what everyone keeps saying. That’s okay. I don’t need much sleep.”

“Well, we don’t want to wake Jade up,” Frank says. “We just wanted to drop off her things.” Frank takes Karen’s hand. “You ready to go?”

She tugs him toward the nursery. “We have to go see the baby first.”

He looks back at me, laughing, as she pulls him down the hall. “I guess we’ll see you later.”

“Yeah, bye.” I wave him on.
 

The next day after lunch, the nurse stops by with the baby. It’s a different nurse than the one who was here yesterday. An older lady with gray hair. She gives the baby to me this time because Jade still has her lunch tray in front of her.

The nurse takes the tray away and says to Jade, “The doctor will be in to check on you later this afternoon. If all looks good, you’ll be discharged.”

“Really?” Jade glances up at the nurse. “That fast?”

She smiles. “You’re young. Healthy. Didn’t have any drugs. The delivery was smooth. No complications. So you’ll be sent home. Unless you want to stay another night.”

“No, I’d rather go home. But you’re giving us the baby?”

The way Jade says it is so damn funny. Like she can’t believe they’d send the baby home with us.

The nurse is trying not to laugh. “Yes. She’s all yours.”

“But is she ready? I mean, don’t you need to check her over? Make sure she’s okay?”

“She’s already been checked. And she’ll be checked again before you leave. She’s a very healthy baby. I’ll give you some time with her, then I’ll come back and get her.”

“Thank you,” I say to the nurse.

She nods, and walks out of the room.

I’m still holding the baby and Jade points to her and says, “Garret, they’re sending her home with us. Today!”

Now that the nurse is gone, I laugh. “Yeah. She’s ours, Jade. We have to take her.” I bring her over to Jade.

“I know. It’s just that she’s so tiny. We might break her.”

“We won’t break her. I read all the books. I’m ready for this. And so are you. You just need to get home and practice.”

Jade looks down at Abigail. “I’m nervous, Garret. What if I screw up?”

I sit on the side of the bed, lifting her face up to look at me. “Everyone screws up. It’s part of parenting. We’ll just do the best we can. And you’re going to be a great mom. You already are.”

She gazes down at Abigail again. I know Jade’s going to be a great mom. She just needs to convince herself of that.

 
We leave the hospital at six that night. Karen and Frank are waiting for us at the house. Karen had dinner ready for us, which was good because we were both starving. The hospital food was really bad so we didn’t eat much while we were there.

After dinner, Karen gives us some tips on taking care of a newborn since she’s an expert in this area. It’s great having Karen here. She and Frank are going to stay another week to help us out. And Grace lives in the guest house, so she’ll be a big help with the baby after Frank and Karen go home.

Grace is 76 now but you wouldn’t know it if you saw her. She’s young for her age. She doesn’t have any health problems and she’s in good shape. Probably because she stays active, gardening and taking walks. Sometimes I think it’s also because she still has access to the clinic. Since Arlin was part of the organization and William still is, Grace will always have access to the clinic.

By nine o’clock, Jade and I are both wiped out and ready for bed. The baby’s sound asleep in the bassinet, which is by Jade’s side of the bed. Jade’s lying there, just watching her.

I lie down beside her, my arm around her middle. “I thought you’d be asleep by now.”

“I just like looking at her. Now I know how my mom felt when she wrote me that letter. She said that after I was born, it was like nothing else mattered. I get it now.” Jade turns to me. “Garret, if they ever come after us again. If they ever even try to get near her, I’ll kill them.”

Jade and I never talk about this anymore. We don’t talk about the organization at all. I know we both think about it, especially when William’s visiting and he suddenly has to leave. He doesn’t say where he’s going, but we know he’s off doing something for the organization. We just don’t talk about it.

“Jade.” I sweep my hand over her cheek and lock my eyes on her. “They will never come near her. And if they even tried, I would kill them myself. Nobody will hurt her or try to take her from us. I promise you.”

Maybe it’s too bold of a promise. Maybe I shouldn’t have made it. Given our history and what we’ve been through, I never completely trust that we’ll be safe. But what I said to Jade is true. If they even attempted to harm my family, I would kill them. Not just members of the organization, but anyone.

I haven’t forgotten the rules my father taught me all those years ago. Rule number two. Protect your family above all else.

I shouldn’t even be thinking about this. They’re not going to come after us. And if they did, I know William would take care of it. Or my dad would. They’d never let anyone harm us. And I wouldn’t either. I was already protective of Jade, and now that I’m a father, that protective instinct has kicked into overdrive. I would do anything to keep my wife and my daughter safe.
 

“She’s so tiny,” Jade whispers, her eyes back on the baby. “And sweet. I can’t stop looking at her.”

“I know. She’s pretty damn cute. Just like her mom.” I pull the blanket over us. “We need to get some sleep. She’ll probably be up in an hour.”

Jade falls asleep, but I stay awake, watching the baby.
Our
baby. We have a daughter. I’m a dad.

I tug Jade closer and kiss her head. God, I love her so much. And I love my baby girl. I love my whole damn life.
 

JADE

I love summer, because every summer we have both sides of the family come and stay for an entire week. We eat and swim and hang out on the beach. It’s one of those big family gatherings I always wanted as a kid, and now I have them every year.
 

Everyone left last week, except for Lilly. She’s living with us this summer. She used to come for just a couple weeks, but last year she stayed with us for most of the summer, so we invited her to stay with us again this summer. She’s 13 now, almost 14. I think Garret secretly wants her here so he can keep an eye on her. Keep her away from boys. She’s growing up and she’s really pretty and boys are noticing. She’s tall for her age and thin, but developing on top to the point that Garret keeps buying her baggy t-shirts and sweatshirts to hide her growing breasts. It’s too funny.
 

This week, Sean and Harper are visiting. They only live an hour away but they come stay with us for a week or two every summer. They just had baby number three. Another boy. I’m starting to think Harper’s going to keep having babies until she finally has a girl. Not that she doesn’t love her boys. She totally loves them, but she’d still like a girl. Probably because she loves
my
girls so much.

Garret and I had another baby girl. We hadn’t planned on having another baby so soon, but we felt like Abigail needed a little brother or sister and we didn’t want to wait. It’s funny, because for years I was so afraid to have just one child, but then I had Abigail and couldn’t wait to have another.

It took me some time to get the hang of taking care of a baby. There’s so much to learn. But Garret helped and Grace did, too, and eventually I figured it out. Now I feel like an expert taking care of Hannah. That’s her name. Hannah Julia Kensington. Her middle name is in honor of my mom. She wasn’t a good mom, but that wasn’t her fault, and I know from that letter she wrote me that she never wanted to treat me the way she did. And now that I’m a mom, I feel even more sorry for my own mom and what happened to her. Royce took away her chance to be the mom she wanted to be. He drugged her to the point that she didn’t even know I was her daughter. She missed out on all those moments that I now cherish with my own daughters.