“Jonathan, I think—” What ever his wife thought was lost as another labor pain seized her. When she could speak again, she said, “I think you’d better get me to the hospital as fast as you can.”
“I will,” he promised. “I want to make sure the engine warms up before I put it in gear, though. If it quits on me, that would be . . . not so good.” Laura nodded. They might argue about a good many things, but she wasn’t going to disagree with that.
Even though the streets of Berlin were almost deserted, he drove with great care. Skidding on snow would have been bad any time. Skidding on snow while his wife was in labor was one more thing he didn’t care to contemplate.
Beside him, Laura let out a sharp hiss. She couldn’t say anything more for most of a minute. At last, she managed, “I won’t be sorry for the ether cone or what ever it is they give you to make the pain go away.”
“We’re almost there,” he said. Nothing in Berlin was too far from anything else. He could have driven for quite a while longer in Chicago. Of course, Chicago also boasted more hospitals than Berlin’s one.
As he took Laura toward the door, another auto pulled up behind his: a flivver even more spavined than his Bucephalus. The woman who got out was as extremely pregnant as Laura. Her husband said, “They can’t pick two in the afternoon to do this, eh?”
“Doesn’t seem that way,” Moss agreed.
Nurses took the two women off to the maternity ward. Moss and the other man stayed behind to cope with the inevitable paperwork. After they’d dotted the last
i
and crossed the last
t
, another nurse guided them to the waiting room, which boasted a fine selection of magazines from 1931. Moss sat down on a chair, the other fellow on the leatherette sofa. They both reached for cigarettes, noticed the big, red NO SMOKING! FIRE HAZARD! signs at the same time, and put their packs away with identical sighs.
“Nothing to do but wait,” the other man said. He was in his mid-twenties—too young to have fought in the Great War. More and more men these days were too young to have fought in the war. Moss felt time marching on him—felt it all the more acutely because so many of his contemporaries had gone off to fight but hadn’t come home again.
Nodding now, he said, “I wonder how long it’ll be.”
“You never can tell,” his companion said. “Our first one took forever, but the second one came pretty quick.”
“This
is
our first one,” Moss said.
“Congratulations,” the other man said.
“Thanks.” Moss yawned enormously. “I wish they had a coffeepot in here.” Then he looked at the NO SMOKING! FIRE HAZARD! signs again. “Well, maybe not, not unless you want cold coffee.”
“I wonder why it’s a fire hazard,” the Canadian said.
“Ether, maybe,” Moss answered, remembering what Laura had said just before they got to the hospital.
He sniffed. All he smelled was a hospital odor: strong soap, disinfectant, and a faintest hint of something nasty underneath.
They waited. Moss looked at the clock. The younger Canadian man did the same. After a while, he said, “You’re a Yank, aren’t you?”
“That’s right,” Jonathan admitted, wondering if he should have tried to lie. But his accent had probably given him away. American and Canadian intonations were close, but not identical.
Another pause. Then the Canadian asked, “Is your wife a Yank, too?” Moss laughed. “No, she’s about as Canadian as can be. Her first husband was a Canadian soldier, but he didn’t come back from the war.”
“Oh,” the younger man said, and then shrugged. “None of my business, really.” Most Americans would have kept on peppering Moss with questions. Canadians usually showed more reserve, as this one had. Of course, some Canadians still wanted to throw all the Americans in their country back south of the border once more. Moss knew his own wife was one of them. If they hadn’t been lovers, if she hadn’t warned him of the rebellion a few years before, that might have been worse. He might have got caught in it, too, instead of coming through unscathed.
With another yawn, he picked up a magazine. The lead article wondered how many seats in the Confederate Congress the Freedom Party would gain in the 1931 elections. Not very many, the writer predicted. “Shows how much
you
know,” Moss muttered, and closed the magazine in disgust.
He shut his eyes and tried to doze. He didn’t think he had a prayer. He was worrying about what would happen in the delivery room, and the chair was stiff and uncomfortable. But the next time he looked at the clock, an hour and a half had gone by. He blinked in astonishment. His companion in the waiting room had slumped onto one arm of the sofa. He snored softly.
Daybreak came late, as it always did in Canadian winter. Moss wished for coffee again, and, when his stomach growled, for breakfast. The Canadian man slept on and on. Moss slipped out to use the men’s room down the hall. He disturbed the other fellow not a bit.
A nurse came in at a little past ten. “Mr. Ferguson?” she said. Moss pointed at his sleeping comrade.
“Mr. Ferguson?” she said again, louder this time. The Canadian man opened his eyes. He needed a moment to figure out where he was. As he straightened, the nurse said, “Congratulations, Mr. Ferguson. You have a baby boy, and your wife is fine.”
“What’ll you call him?” Moss asked, sticking out his hand.
Ferguson shook it. “Bruce,” he answered, “after my wife’s uncle.” He asked the nurse, “Can I see Elspeth now? And the baby?”
“Just for a little while. Come with me,” the nurse said.
As she turned to go, Jonathan asked her, “Excuse me, but how is Mrs. Moss doing?”
“She’s getting there,” the nurse answered. “Some time this afternoon for her, I expect.”
“This afternoon?” Moss said in dismay. The nurse only nodded and led Mr. Ferguson out of the waiting room to see his wife and his son, who hadn’t waited around before coming out to see the world.
It was half past four, as a matter of fact, with night falling fast and itchy stubble rasping on Moss’ cheeks and chin, before another nurse came in and said, “Mr. Moss?”
“That’s me.” He jumped to his feet. “Is Laura all right?” The nurse not only nodded, she cracked a smile; he’d thought that was against hospital regulations.
“Yes, she’s fine. You have a little girl. Not so little, in fact—eight pounds, two ounces.”
“Dorothy,” Moss whispered. A boy would have been Peter. “Can I see her, uh, them?”
“Come along,” the nurse said. “Your wife is still woozy from the anesthetic.”
Laura didn’t just look woozy; she looked drunk out of her mind. “The peaches are spoiled,” she announced, fixing Jonathan with a stare that said it was his fault.
“It’s all right, honey,” he said, and bent down and kissed her on her sweaty forehead. “Look—we’ve got a daughter!” The nurse holding the baby in a pink blanket lifted her up a little so both Mosses could get a look at her. She was about the size of a cat but much less finished-looking. Her skin was as thin and prone to crumple as finest parchment, and bright, bright pink. She screwed up her face. A thin, furious yowl burst from her lips.
“She’s beautiful,” Laura whispered.
At first, Jonathan Moss thought that was still the ether talking. Dorothy’s head was a funny shape and much too big for her body, her skin was a weird color, she made her tiny, squashed features even stranger when she cried, and the noise that filled the maternity room put him in mind of a dog with its tail stuck in a door.
Those doubts lasted a good three or four seconds. Then he took another look at his new daughter.
“You’re right,” he said, and he was whispering, too. “She
is
beautiful. She’s the most beautiful baby in the world.”
F
ive days into a new year. Nellie Jacobs couldn’t make herself care. Her husband wouldn’t see the end of 1933. Hal probably wouldn’t see the end of January. He might not see the end of the week, and this was Thursday. He lay in the veterans’ ward of Remembrance Hospital, not far from the White House. If it weren’t for his Distinguished Service Medal, they wouldn’t have admitted him, for he hadn’t formally been a soldier. And if it weren’t for the oxygen they gave him, he would have been dead weeks before.
Nellie wasn’t sure they were doing him any favors by keeping him alive. But they also gave him morphine, so he wasn’t in much pain.
She got dressed and went downstairs and made breakfast for herself and Clara. She’d just sent her younger daughter off to school when her older one came in. “Hello, Edna,” Nellie said. “Thank you very much.” She didn’t like being beholden to Edna—or to anyone else—but here she had no choice.
And Edna didn’t say anything but, “It’s all right, Ma. Go on down to the hospital. Spend all the time you can with him. I know there’s not much left. I’ll mind the shop for you. It ain’t like I never done it before.” Nellie couldn’t resist a jab: “No handsome Confederate officers coming in nowadays.”
“That’s all right, too,” Edna answered. “I made my catch, and I’m glad I did.” After a small hesitation, she went on, “I won’t say I’m not glad to get out of the house every once in a while myself. No, I won’t say that.”
Balked because her daughter hadn’t sniped back, Nellie set a hat on her head, picked up her handbag, and said, “I’ll be back before you have to go take care of Armstrong.”
“Sure, Ma.” Edna nodded. “Be careful when you’re going down to the trolley stop, though. It’s cold out there, and the sidewalks are icy. You don’t want to fall.”
“I’m not an old lady yet,” Nellie said sharply, though she was, when she stopped to think about it, closer to sixty than fifty. Shaking her head—she didn’t like thinking about that—she hurried out of the coffeehouse. The bell over the door jingled behind her.
Her breath fogged out around her as she hurried up the street. A man in an ancient ragged Army greatcoat stepped out of a doorway and whined, “Got any spare change, lady?” Nellie walked past him as if he didn’t exist. He didn’t bother cursing her; he must have been ignored a thousand times before. He just shrank back into the doorway and waited for someone else to come along.
Three men and a woman were waiting for the trolley when Nellie got to the stop. “Any minute now,” one of the men said. He carried a dinner pail, which probably meant he had a job.
“Thank you,” Nellie said—not,
Good,
or anything of the sort. She would have given anything she had not to be making this trip, the one she’d made every day she could while Hal lay dying in the hospital. How much it tormented her measured how much she’d come to love him.
Sure enough, the trolley clanged up to the corner a couple of minutes later. Nellie threw her nickel in the fare box. The car was already crowded. A middle-aged man with a scar on his cheek stood up to offer her his seat. “Here you go, ma’am,” he said.
“Thank you,” Nellie said again, this time in real astonishment. She couldn’t remember the last time that had happened.
Who would have thought any gentlemen were left in the world?
she thought, and then,
Who would have thought there were ever any gentlemen in the world?
Except for her husband, her son-in-law, and her grandson, she still had no use for the male half of the race—and she knew her grandson was an unruly brat, even if he was blood kin.
Well, Merle can always take Armstrong to the
woodshed a little more often, that’s all.
Her stop was only a few minutes away from the coffeehouse. “President-elect Coolidge in Washington to meet with Cabinet picks!” a newsboy shouted, waving a paper at Nellie. She shook her head and hurried on to Remembrance Hospital.
Built after the end of the war, the hospital was an immense, brutally modern building that resembled nothing so much as a great block of granite with windows. The stairs leading up to the front entrance were too wide for Nellie to take them in one step, too narrow for her to take them in two. The hitching strides she had to make annoyed her every morning. By the expressions some of the other people going up and down those steps wore, they didn’t like them, either—or maybe they had other worries of their own, as Nellie did.
The only happy people she saw coming out of the place were a young couple, the man carrying a crying baby.
Maternity wards are different,
Nellie thought as she went past them.
I bet they’re the only place
in a hospital where
people win instead of losing.
She knew the way to the veterans’ ward. By now, she’d come often enough to be a regular. A nurse in the corridor nodded to her as she walked past. A couple of the nurses had even dropped in at the coffeehouse when they came off their shifts.
Two long rows of metal-framed beds, facing each other, stretched the length of the ward. Hal lay in the sixth bed on the left-hand side as Nellie came in. Just beyond him lay a younger man, a fellow about forty, whose lungs were killing him faster than Hal’s. He’d been gassed in Tennessee in 1917, and had been dying by inches ever since. Nellie had never seen anyone come to visit him. He nodded to her, his lips a little bluer than they had been the day before. Like Hal, he had a rubber attachment that fit over his nose to feed him oxygen.
“Hello, darling,” Hal said, his voice rasping and weak. His lungs weren’t all that was troubling him, not any more. The flesh had melted from his bones over the past few months. His skull seemed to push out through the skin of his face, as if to announce the death that lay not far ahead.
“How are you feeling?” As Nellie always did, she fought to hold worry and pain from her voice. Hal didn’t need her reminders to know what was happening to him.
“How am I?” He wheezed laughter. “One day closer, that’s all.” He paused to fight a little more air into the lungs that didn’t want to hold it any more. “We’re always one day closer, but usually . . . usually we don’t think about it. How’s Clara?”