I let the fingers of my right hand trail slowly downward.
“Come on,” said Nicco. He leaned his face close into mine, smelling of oil and olives. My fingers found their goal and closed around it as best they could. “I have three Brothers of Agony waiting to meet you,” he snarled. “Each one ready to work eight hours at a stretch; each one ready to keep at it until I say it’s over.”
I looked Nicco dead in the eyes, then. I don’t know what he saw, but it was enough to make him draw his face away from mine. I smiled a jagged smile.
Now. Now I could feel it coursing through me. Hope. And hate.
“I hope you paid them in advance,” I said. Then I brought Jelem’s coiled rope up between Nicco’s legs. Hard.
Chapter Twenty-eight
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here was a series of
pops
so close together, they almost sounded like one. Nicco’s eyes opened wide and rolled up into his head. He fell over. I stood there, swaying on my feet, a smoking coil of rope in my hand. Then I bent down and wrapped the rope around Nicco’s neck.
The knots in the rope were spaced just right for crushing a victim’s throat—not surprising, considering Jelem’s template had been crafted for an assassin. As I twisted and squeezed, I noticed that three of the paper runes weren’t smoldering like the rest—they were still white and pristine. Glimmer to spare, then.
Nicco didn’t put up a struggle; in fact, I don’t even think he was aware he was dying. His face went blue, then purple, but I kept tightening the garrote until blood began to well around the edges. Even then, I didn’t stop—couldn’t stop. Deep down, I knew he was dead, but part of me kept saying,
Make sure. Make sure!
So I did, until my hands began to cramp up, until my arms were trembling with the effort. Even then, I had to consciously tell myself to ease up on the tension, to stop.
When I finally peeled the rope from around his neck, I had to wipe it on his clothes to remove the excess blood. I knew I should have felt something—relief, disgust, satisfaction—but all I could find was a vague sense of futility. Nicco was dead, but things hadn’t changed—not in any way that mattered.
I straightened up to find the square empty of the living. It was thick with the gloom of evening now. I blinked and rubbed at my eyes. The darkness felt good.
I turned to go back to Mendross’s stall and the book. Then I caught sight of Degan and stopped.
He still had his back to the base of Elirokos’s statue, but now he was leaning against it in exhaustion. A half circle of corpses lay piled around him like some grisly barricade. Not one of the bodies groaned, not one shifted in pain, so thorough had been his slaughter.
Degan was covered in gore from the chest down and from his biceps to his fingers. His own sword hung limply in his right hand, and it took me a moment to make out a new cut that had laid that arm open between the shoulder and the elbow. He still had Cretin’s blade in his left, but that hand was shaking visibly.
I looked around the square for Iron. He was nowhere in sight.
I coiled the rope carefully in my left hand. I retrieved my rapier and walked over to Degan. I stopped short of the ring of carnage.
“So,” said Degan, his voice coming out low, flat, exhausted. He indicated Nicco’s body with the extra sword. “How was it for you?”
My hand tightened around the rope until it creaked.
“You son of a bitch!” I said.
“Ah, straight to business, then.” Degan looked down at his blood-slicked boots. He flicked a small bit of someone else’s bone off the tip of his foot. “First, let me ask you something,” he said, looking up and meeting my eye. “If I had simply asked you—after you cut your deal with Solitude, after you’d come here to deliver it into Iron’s hands—to give the journal to me instead, would you have?”
I stared at him. I knew what I desperately wanted to say, but I couldn’t bring myself to lie to him.
Degan nodded. “I thought as much. So, given that, you see why I had to invoke the Oath.”
“No, I don’t,” I said. “You don’t have to do this.”
“Don’t I?” Degan leaned his head back against the stone. “Why not? Because Solitude says so? Because Iron does? Because they think the emperor will somehow destroy an empire he’s gone to amazing lengths to save?” Degan closed his eyes. “Why did you attack Shadow?” he said.
“What?”
“You heard me. Why did you attack a Gray Prince on your own?”
“Because he threatened Christiana,” I said. “He threatened Kells, the organization, everything. Shadow was going to use them as leverage against me, and sooner or later, when I wasn’t useful anymore, he’d make an example out of them. I realized the best chance for them was my dusting
him
.”
“But you must have known you couldn’t win,” said Degan. “That you might have died even before I got there.”
“I had to try,” I said. “There wasn’t any other option.”
Degan smiled softly. “It’s the same with me and the journal,” he said. “I can’t let them doom the empire just because they think the emperor is a threat. That’s why I called in your Oath—because it’s the only way to save both the empire and you.”
“What do you mean?” I said.
Degan rolled his head back and forth against the granite, his eyes still closed—a tired man’s head shake. “You don’t think Shadow is going to give up on you, do you? If you haven’t guessed, I didn’t kill him. He’s still out there. And he’s not going to be happy with you when he finds out that not only did you attack him, but you also delivered the journal to Solitude. I don’t care what she promised you—you can’t hide from Shadow, Drothe.” Degan opened his eyes and looked at me. “Unless . . .”
“Unless?” I said, knowing I was being led but not caring right now.
“Unless I take the book from you,” said Degan. “Shadow knows you wouldn’t be able to stop me if it came down to a fight. If I ‘took’ it—however that might end up happening”—a grin here—“he couldn’t blame you for the book not making it to him.”
“Maybe,” I said, “but there would still be my having attacked him. And he’ll be none too pleased with you, either.”
“Leave that to me,” said Degan. “He’s not as good as he thinks he is.”
“He was good enough to survive last time.”
“He won’t always have pocket change handy.”
I crossed my arms. “So you’re saying
he
was the one who got away from
you
after all the Rags were dealt with?” I said.
“Let’s call it a mutual fade due to extenuating circumstances,” said Degan. “Besides, I had to backtrack and get your rope for you.”
I ran my thumb along one of the knots. “And you just
happened
to bring it to Mendross’s stall to deliver it to me? Today? Right now?”
“If you stake out a place long enough, you’re bound to get lucky. Besides, you tend to check in with your little fruit seller first and last when something is going down.”
Was I that predictable?
“Yes, you are,” said Degan.
I made a face. Then I sighed. “What now?” I said.
Degan pushed himself to a fully standing position. “I call in your Oath and take the journal,” he said. “Nothing’s changed.”
“No, nothing has,” said Iron Degan.
I spun around. Iron was stepping out from between two stalls. He was walking easy, his sword lolling in his hand. His shirt was soaked with sweat, and his short hair lay plastered to his head. There were two fresh cuts on his right forearm and a scrape along the knuckles of his left hand. Besides the split Degan had given him on the cheek, he had picked up a shallow gash along his jaw. None of the wounds looked serious.
I glanced at Degan. He was eyeing Iron, studying his condition. It was no great leap to figure he wasn’t overjoyed.
Iron stopped outside the ring of bodies. “Has he told you what else happens if he succeeds?” he said to me. “About the consequences of his using your Oath like this?”
“Using it how?” I said.
“Bronze here is using the Oath you gave him to directly oppose the Oath of another degan—mine. That’s a no-no.”
“It’s been done before,” said Degan.
“Ancient history,” said Iron, “and a different time. We don’t do it anymore. But that’s not the worst part, is it, Bronze?”
Degan stood silently, head lowered, staring out at Iron from beneath his brows.
“Bronze here took the Oath with you,” said Iron, “
knowing
I was involved, and likely on the other side. By accepting your Oath, he set himself up to come into conflict with me.” Iron now openly glared at Degan. “Not only did he walk into the problem—he helped create it. It’s that last part the Order won’t be able to look past.”
“Which means what?” I said.
“Which means,” said Degan, “that if I kill Iron and take the journal—in direct conflict to
his
Oath—I get cast out of the Order and hunted down.”
“While if I kill him,” said Iron, “he just has his name removed from the rolls, permanently. No Bronze Degan ever again. Well, that, and he’s dead, of course.”
“But degans must have had their Oaths conflict in the past,” I said.
“That’s not the point,” said Degan, standing up straighter. He hefted both of his swords, then tossed the Cretin’s aside. “It’s about knowingly opposing a brother or sister and his or her Oath.” A sneer entered Degan’s voice. “It’s about keeping the peace rather than keeping our promises.”
“No, it’s
about
loyalty,” snapped Iron. “It’s about following the traditions of the Order and
keeping your word
to those who have sworn to follow the same path as you!”
“My word is mine own to judge,” said Degan. He switched his sword to his left hand and danced the tip in a small, intricate design. He frowned and looked up at Iron. “Believe me—if I could have found another way out of this, I would have taken it. But you’re wrong, Iron—about the emperor, the empire, and what we need to do—and that doesn’t leave me any other choice.”
Iron stepped to more open ground, away from the corpses. He brought his sword up, the guard just below his chin, and saluted smartly. “To old times.”
Degan stepped out past the ring of bodies. “It’s been a pleasure,” said Degan, though I couldn’t tell if he was talking to me or to Iron. His salute was awkward in comparison to Iron’s, slow and uneven in his left hand. My stomach sank.
Both men took their guards. Iron shifted his foot. Then he was dead.
I blinked. What the . . . ?
I can still see them: Degan, bent forward, his right hand on Iron’s wrist, pulling on Iron’s sword arm as his own sword slides beneath it. And Iron, his sword extended but off-line, his eyes narrowed in concentration, Degan’s sword entering beneath his ribs and coming out somewhere between his shoulder blades.
For the briefest of moments, both men stood frozen before me, as still and imposing as Elirokos on his granite block. Then I blinked, or breathed, or the world turned again, and time resumed.
Iron smiled. He opened his mouth to say something, but only a faint sigh and some pinkish froth escaped. Degan grimaced and nodded in turn. Then Iron collapsed.
Degan levered his blade out of his sword brother and stepped back. He let out a shuddering breath.
“That was close.” He mopped shakily at his forehead. “I was afraid he’d see it coming.”
I gaped at Degan.
Degan gently wiped his sword on Iron’s shirt and slid it home in its sheath. Then, with great reverence, Degan took Iron’s sword and cleaned it on his own clothes. He dipped his finger in Iron’s blood, dabbed a spot onto the sword’s handle, another on its scabbard. Then he took both and stood up, sliding the blade home.
“Let’s go,” he said. “Now that we’re done, I doubt the Rags will keep their distance much longer.”
I fell into step behind him, still going through the combat in my head, still failing to fill in the missing pieces.
“I suppose that’s that,” I said.
“For me and the degans?” said Degan from in front of me. “Yes.”
“So what do I call you now?” I said.
Degan didn’t answer.
“What are you going to do with the journal once you have it?” I said.
“Destroy it.”
“What?”
“What else do you expect?” he said, his voice growing tight. “As long as it’s around, it’s a threat.”
“What about the emperor?”
“What about him? I don’t know what he’d do with it, but even if it’s locked away somewhere, it could still be used. Better if it’s gone altogether.”
“But not all of it deals with reincarnation,” I said. “Hell, not all of it even deals with imperial glimmer! There’s information on the beginnings of the empire in that book—from someone who saw it firsthand.”
Degan spun around so fast, I nearly fell over. “It’s not a relic to sell, Drothe! Not a game piece to trade. Not a history book to read.” He gestured back at the square, back at Iron. “Do you think I did this lightly? I gave up my life for what that damn book could do, and now you try to tell me to trade it? To only destroy
part
of it? Have you even looked around to see the damage that it’s caused?” He pointed over to where the journal lay, outside Mendross’s stall. “That journal is
dangerous
,” he said, “and not just to the emperor. It’s going in the fire!”