An English Ghost Story (18 page)

She sat in the Summer Room, surrounded by real antiques (in shocking, unrestored condition which made her love them more than the waxed and show-polished pieces her elves had sought in lock-up garages under railway arches) and said a private goodbye to Oddments.

It had seemed like an escape, an opportunity, but turned out to be a disaster, a millstone. But it had been hers, a real business. She had a degree, she had work experience, she was not a housewife. After all, she wasn’t exactly an ideal home-maker, so she had to be something else. There must be something at which she was excellent. As a girl, she’d been told that everyone was outstanding, everyone a star. You just had to find that thing at which you shone, and the world opened up its glories like a vault when the correct combination clicks.

Steven never said how much Oddments had cost him. Whenever he went through the fiasco, he talked about how much debt ‘we’ were in. But she knew what he felt. It was Kirsty being silly, running up frivolous debts, never thinking it out. If it hadn’t been for the surprise pay-off that had let them buy the Hollow, his business might have gone under with hers. Then, she was sure, he would have cut her and the kids loose, and set himself up with Tatum Hoyle in a new partnership.

Before antiques, she had done other things: run an indie label that hadn’t put out its first record because Vron could never finish mixing her debut album as a singer-songwriter, invested in the importing of a Czech beer whose shelf life was up by the time the first vanload was in Britain. Once Tim was old enough to go to school, she’d taken courses in business studies, law (when she had wanted to be a lawyer, specialising in child custody cases) and radio production (when Vron thought she could get a community broadcasting licence). She’d even completed some.

Repeatedly, she had tried to make a space that was hers alone. She knew Steven thought of these projects as crazes. When she was setting up Rose Records, just after Jordan was born, he was enthusiastic and helpful, even securing some investment from his clients. The label’s long, unproductive fizzle bled his belief in her out of him. Subsequently, he was polite but elaborately long-suffering. He’d never shoot her ideas down, instead sabotaging them with a few tiny phrases. Vron said Steven’s favourite sentence was ‘Yes, but we have to be practical.’

Everyone was right: Vron could be a monster and had wrecked lives. But Vron was her friend, her healer, and always ready to commit to anything Kirsty thought of. She missed Vron, missed having her around for coffee, endless gossip and the occasional joint (last gasp of her student habits), missed having someone outside the family to complain to. If she were here, Vron would be nagging Kirsty to go through with her ideas about the Hollow, not imposing caution on her. Steven was her husband and said he loved her without conditions, but a sensible part of him shut her out. Vron would encourage her in anything, no matter how ‘impractical’ or even insane. She understood how important it was that Kirsty have a life of her own. Steven’s downer attitude had passed to Jordan and Tim. Flat expressions came on the kids’ faces whenever Mum was going mad. They’d just get out of the way until it blew over.

To Vron, nothing ever would blow over.

She hadn’t talked with Vron since before the move. It had been a condition of what Tim called the peace treaty, that her best friend be cut forever out of their lives. They were all making sacrifices; but why had hers been a person, rather than a thing? The office Steven left behind had no feelings of its own. Kirsty had been expected to drop Vron as easily as she let her subscriptions to motivational magazines lapse.

Vron and Kirsty had spent some part of the day together for over twenty years, since they first met in the fifth form.

She must be in an agony. Or was she?

Vron always asked about other people’s feelings, never confessed to any of her own. She had exes, a daughter, a sister, other patients, an extended network of friends and pick-ups. When she was with Kirsty, she never thought of them, never talked about them. She would always focus exclusively on Kirsty. She said Kirsty should have a sealed-off compartment in her mind, to keep her own self separate from her family.

Which would be worse? Vron wandering the streets bereft, fading to ghostliness without Kirsty, or Vron continuing as normal, occasionally reminded of her lost friend but getting on with the tangle of her own life?

Vron didn’t have a telephone. The twentieth century was nearly over, but she didn’t believe in phones or faxes or e-mail. She said machines got in the way of real communication. Aside from face-to-face meets, at which her eyes would unnervingly fasten on Kirsty’s and penetrate her heart, Vron’s preferred means of communication was a postcard. Kirsty had been getting postcards almost every day for years, with notes reminding her of appointments, visits and things to do. Vron would send cryptic clues which took hours to solve (at school, they had both been crossword-puzzle and Agatha Christie fiends) or runic symbols whose meaning was only clear when they were added up and looked at sideways and sometimes not even then.

Apart from the books – words from other people endorsed by Vron – there had been nothing. They were both cold turkey.

The books, though. They meant Vron hadn’t forgotten. The second,
Ghost Stories of the West Country
, meant she was thinking of Kirsty and the Hollow. She wasn’t completely shut out of new developments. Without having set foot here, she’d made discoveries.

Kirsty knew Vron understood this place. Perhaps better than any of them did yet.

She was keeping Vron in reserve, knowing she might need to summon her in the end. There were powers in the Hollow and Vron was used to dealing with powers. Steven and Jordan called her a witch, though that wasn’t true. It was funny that her husband was trying to cope with their magical house by deploying all his Steven-sense. This place was made for the intuitive, logic-defying, lateral-thinking mind of women he would call witchy. If she was to make the best of the Hollow, she needed to be more like Vron and less like Steven.

It hit her that she would have to tell Vron about the Oddments account; she was an additional signatory and might still be getting letters from the bank. There was the matter of that £35.79. If Vron were here, she’d tell Kirsty not to pay, to let the bank yowl for their pennies. They weren’t going to sue over the price of a few bottles of shampoo.

‘I need someone’, she said, out loud, ‘to talk to.’

The room hung there, solid, empty.

She had thought there might be friends here. Like the friends who worked the magic chest of drawers. The presences who had called them out into the orchard at midsummer. The girl in the little shoes who had shared her rage.

‘I’m sorry,’ she said. ‘It’s just Kirsty being silly.’

‘You shouldn’t say that.’

She jumped, almost out of her skin, and turned.

‘Jordan?’

A woman had spoken. It was not her daughter.

Her friend was in the fireplace, in shadow. A little girl in Drearcliff Grange uniform, with an adult’s head, deeply lined face and waist-length, grey-dusted black hair. Her straw hat hung around her neck. She had Vron’s eyes, which glittered in the dark.

‘Who are you?’ Kirsty asked.

‘Who you need me to be.’

The voice was a little like Vron’s, a little like Jordan’s, a little like the woman who had read the Weezie books on the wireless when Kirsty was a little girl. Her friend also sounded like that voice Kirsty was always embarrassed by and refused to recognise: her own, recorded and played back. Herself, not as she was in her own head, but as others heard her.

This was a ghost. Not Apple Annie or the Gloomy Ghost. The ghostness was more important, somehow, than of whom she was a ghost.

‘Are you Louise?’ Kirsty asked, wondering. ‘Her ghost? Or are you Weezie?’

The old girl shrugged. That was who she was, the Old Girl. Not Louise or Weezie, but something of both and something older. And, in the echoes of Vron and herself, she was Kirsty’s ghost. Shaped especially for her.

She ought to be scared, she supposed. Even after all that had happened at the Hollow, this was unexpected. Back in the city, Steven would have written it off as the type of weirdness Vron was always polluting her with. But the family were settled here.

Kirsty sensed an escalation. Her earlier communications with what Tim called the IP were through the things in the drawers or in wordless wonder. The Old Girl was talking with her, adopting her means of communication, taking a step out of the shimmering to be with her.

‘Why have you come?’ Kirsty asked.

‘I am here for you, Kirsty.’

The Old Girl knew her name. She was not just a hologram or photograph, cast off by strong emotion, but a being who could think for herself. This creature had a personality, a mind, a purpose.

‘You need me,’ the old girl said. ‘You know why.’

The Old Girl kept to her place, but Kirsty saw her more clearly.

‘You are my special friend,’ she said.

The Old Girl nodded, gravely.

Kirsty felt a melting burst of relief and love. She would never be alone at the Hollow, alone in her family. Always, there would be someone in her corner, giving her strength.

She wasn’t haunted. She was protected.

* * *

J
ordan woke up, not knowing what time it was, and crawled out of bed. She still wore the dress, which hung loose on her like the skin of a dieting sumo wrestler. It was her reward. She wriggled out of it, bundled it up, and threw it into the wardrobe, pushing it to the back. She wouldn’t need it again. She was ready for the next size in, the lovelier dress still. A look in the mirror revealed she was still unsightly. Flesh still moved independent of her bones, but there must be some improvement. Posting the Letter had been like shedding a burden. Evidently, it involved losing weight too.

She remembered something the Wild Witch said about not being able to fix your body until you’d fixed your mind. One thing you had to give her was that she was slim. She hadn’t put on a pound since her teenage years. Mum’s weight went up and down like a yo-yo, along with everything else, but Veronica – even as a child, Jordan hadn’t liked to call her Aunt Vron, as Mum sometimes insisted – never changed. Perhaps there was something in witchery after all.

At the Hollow, there was magic. Jordan knew and accepted that. It had surprised and delighted her at first. Now she lived with it every day and wanted something more. The mere fact that there were wonders in the world, that she was privileged to see the curtain of reality lifted a little, had been a passing distraction but nothing was changed. She still had to live, to better herself, to cope.

It was mid-afternoon by her clock. She’d slept away the morning. She popped a couple of aspirin for her head, washed down with Evian water from her secret stash. No one could say she hadn’t had breakfast.

She patted her belly. It was grossly huge, but didn’t feel empty. During her first great struggle with her body, hunger had been like a rat chewing inside her stomach. This time, she had help. She felt fine. Even the headache was gone, as if she were living in an advert.

Rick would not yet have the Letter. She’d missed yesterday’s last collection, but it would have been picked up from the postbox first thing this morning, hours ago while she slept, and was now in the trusty hands of the Royal Mail. Tomorrow, Saturday, the letter bomb would go off.

Then she’d never think of him again.

She found jeans – too tight, argh! – and a floppy T-shirt with thin-making vertical stripes. It was time to leave her room and recommence negotiations with the rest of the family. They’d take some selling, but she had everything straight in her mind. Her only problem was a need to lose a little weight by the end of the summer. She wanted to be presentable by the first day of her new college. She did not have a disease, she had a goal.

To compromise, to lull her parents along, she would accept a cup of tea. But no biscuit. Custard creams and chocolate digestives were
streng verboten
.

She opened her bedroom door. A semi-circle of dead shrews greeted her, red showing in stiffened grey fur, toothy blank-eyed heads pointed at her doorway, ratty tails carefully extended. She hesitated to step over the fan of tiny corpses.

It was a sign.

She shut the door and sat on the bed, feeling sick.

* * *

T
im conducted a series of U-Dub test firings, sighting on a diamond-shaped pattern of knotholes in the wooden door halfway up the side of the barn. After five shots, he was accurate to a hundred feet. He pulled back a further ten feet, deeper into the orchard, got the range again, set his stopwatch going, and fired off, rapidly reloading between pulls, another five pebbles in sixteen seconds.

Three hit within the diamond. Worth ten merit points, easily, but he wouldn’t rest until all five shots went true. It was down to him now, not the magic. He couldn’t let his allies be a crutch.

The Ipkick was pleased with the start of the guerrilla campaign. Tim hadn’t been sure but had gone along with it. Psychological warfare was effective, but his simple soldier’s ways would have preferred something that did a goodly amount of concrete damage.

The birds killed the shrews, or they were squashed under tyres on the road and scraped along the verges. Nasty little creatures anyway, like mutant mice with sharp teeth and constant aggression. The Ipkick warned him away from live shrews. They could open a serious wound with a bite, and had the habit of locking their mouths in flesh and not letting go until their heads were cut off.

A shrew was a kind of nasty girl, too. That was what made the action appropriate.

The BS was under notice now.

If she chose to escalate, it would not be his fault.

He thought about DefCon 1. All-out war. He dreaded it, of course. No soldier
wanted
war, no matter what the conchies and civvies said. But it was the duty of all soldiers to be ready.

* * *

C
areful, he had been told. Warned. The word had come up on his screen again, several times. He saw it sideways, in the folds of curtains, in newspaper headlines. If he looked straight on, it was gone, but that wasn’t the point.