Angela's Salvation (6 page)

He was
very proud of her for making her own stipulations, and knew it was a step in the right direction.  "I can promise that when I'm done with you, they will all be drooling at how far you've come."

"So when do you want to start this?" She was getting weary,
the all day training and her emotions being so overwhelmed here with him, were taking a toll.  As far as she was concerned they had an agreement, as long as he didn't overstep his side of things, she would accept his odd offer.

"Tomorrow at three, I'll have a car waiting for you.  Just make sure you play out your part to the other contestants during the day." Glancing down at his watch, he knew she needed her rest for tomorrow.  "I'll drive you back to the hotel."

She hoped this wasn't a decision she'd regret, but with everything she'd feared when she first arrived here, the conclusion to this meeting had been much more amicable than she'd ever thought.  "Fine, and don't worry I'll have them all convinced how tragic I am before I return."

"As long as you understand personally that you have more potential than any of the others
, we'll make a great team."  Walking back to the piano, he picked up his wallet and keys and walked out of the room, expecting her to follow. Making his way out to his sports car, he opened the door for her before moving around to the driver's side. He had so many ideas on how to make her shine, that he gave little thought to the real person sitting beside him as he drove her back home.

Angela was exhausted as they finally pulled up to the hotel, and she couldn't wait to grab a shower and get some rest.  He opened her door for her, and she could tell his mind was already in a different place.  "I'll see you tomorrow, Mr. Fitzgerald," she whispered quietly.

"Until then, Ms. Wilkerson."  Closing her door he walked back around to his side of the car, "Be prepared to change your life tomorrow."  With those words he slid into the car and drove off.

She made her way back up to the suite, pleased that Lizzy appeared to out.  Taking a quick shower, she dressed in a daze before finding her bed.  His words were still filtering through her mind as she managed to doze off, and for reasons she couldn't contemplate she wondered if the changing he would do might help her get over her past.

The nightmare began as she relived the moment that had forced her to run away.  This night was different than the last two years where he'd sneak in through whatever barrier she'd managed to devise.  Usually it was stockings tied from the head of the bed to the doorknob, or a chair placed under the handle, anything her young mind could conceive to let him know he wasn't wanted here.

The photo's she'd found of herself that he taken of her in the shower without her knowledge, or the memory lapses that she always worried he'd drug induced, those were nothing compared to that one fateful night.  Her mother was working the late shift at the hospital again, and she was already terrified that he'd attempt to slide into her room and grope her, which was his normal way of showing his power.  It was for that reason that she usually didn't sleep on the nights her mom had to work these shifts.  There were days in a row where she fell asleep in class because she couldn't sleep at home.

That night her mom wouldn't be home until sunrise, and although she'd tried to make plans to stay with a friend, her report card was so terrible she was grounded and her mother wouldn't hear of it.  It was hard to make good grades when you slept through classes.  She'd tied the stockings and added the chair to the door as a precaution, but neither of those things had stopped him from walking in.

He gave her the speech, the one that she memorized from hearing it so many times, of how much he loved her and how she was turning into such a beautiful young woman.  It made her nauseated when he told her how gorgeous her breasts were, and that her body was made to be worshipped. 
That night she had pleaded with him to leave her alone, there was something in his eyes that told her he wanted something more than he had already taken.

Technically, she was still a virgin,
but he had touched her in ways that made her hate her own body when it responded to his disgusting ways.  He'd used that against her too, saying that if she hadn't enjoyed what he was doing to her, that he would have left her alone. He reminded her constantly that it was her fault he did these things to her.

At
seventeen, she didn't understand that the human body would respond to stimulation without her own mind being depraved and had accepted that she was just a whore, like he convinced her.  Even as he held her down and his mouth found her most sensitive area, she had felt nauseated, but her body had found pleasure.  Her own self-loathing kept her still as he turned her over and used her own fluids to lubricate her other entry.

He made it a point to tell her tomorrow night, he'd take her cherry, but he didn't have a condom tonight so he'd break in the other end.  Getting her
pregnant would make their dirty little secret known and he couldn't allow that, he'd said with a laugh that would haunt her for the rest of her life.

The pain as he took her forcefully, made her scream out in
agony, and she wished that the torture would end in death so she could escape this abuse.  He promised her that it would be easier next time, and she needed to feel this to know what a horrible person she was.  When it was over he kissed her cheek, and told her that she had pleased him and left her alone to suffer in silence.  For hours she'd cried until there was nothing left inside of her.

Close to dawn, she made the decision to leave and never come back.  Knowing no one would believe her, and even if they did, she deserved everything he'd done, she packed as much as she
could in the one overnight bag she had, and snuck out before her mother came home.  He'd promised her that if she every spoke of their secret, he would make them believe she had seduced him, and she believed it.

All she could think about was getting as far away from him and those people that would condemn her for being such a
tramp.  She hitch-hiked her way as far North as possible and with nothing but a desperate hope for freedom, she finally ended up in the streets of New York.  Knowing that if he ever found her, he'd force her to do those horrible things again, she vowed to never be discovered.

The first two weeks on the street had been almost as much of a living hell as being with him had been.  Eating out of garbage cans, and finding a safe place to rest for a little time, became her life.  She couldn't visit the homeless shelter for fear that they'd turn her in for being a run away. 
On the good nights some kind soul would give her a few dollars, and she'd allow herself the treat of a hotdog from one of the vendors.  If it hadn't been for Rachel finding her, she knew her fate would have been worse than the abuse she'd suffered at her stepfather's hands.

Waking up in a cold sweat, she heard the screams coming from her own lips, and refrained somehow from slapping Lizzie as she shook her.  Forcing her eyes open to her reality, she took a few deep breaths, before speaking. "I'm sorry, I guess I was
having a nightmare." She couldn't tell her new friend what she was dreaming about, and hoped she never asked.

"That one must have been a horrible dream," Lizzie said with a smile.  "It's a little after five, do you want
to order room service?"

Thankful that Lizzie didn't question her, she slid out of bed on shaking legs. "I'll make us some breakfast if you'll give me a few personal minutes."
  Taking a few minutes to collect herself as she left the room, she wished again that her past would stop haunting her.

She made them omelets, and they ate in companionable silence. Cooking was one
of her ways of calming herself and since she'd been taken in by Rachel, she'd become a great cook.  After those two weeks on the street, even the smallest of meals made her content.

"So how did
the meeting with Fitzgerald go?" Lizzie asked sipping on a cup of coffee.   She wondered if that was the reason for her friend's nightmares.  Anyone that read about the man knew he could be a complete asshole.

"Apparently he thinks I need a lot of work on my stage performance to keep up with you guys, and he's offered his help." 
Taking their empty plates she put them in the sink and mindlessly began washing them off.  She didn't like lying to people, so the less she said, the better she'd feel.

"He must know you have potential if he's willing to offer you his personal assistance," Lizzie smiled warmly, wanting her friend to feel that this was
a blessing and not a curse.

"Either that or he doesn't want me to ruin his show," Angela gave a self-depreciating grin.

"You forget I watched you perform in New York, Angela, there's no doubt in my mind how talented you are."  This was a competition, but she felt no need to be catty to other performers, unlike some of the other contestants here.

"Thanks Lizzy, I really appreciate how nice you've been to me."  She couldn't imagine what it would be like to be stuck with a bitch of a roommate like Trisha, and gave silent thanks to her good
fortunes on that end at least.'

"I like your company," Lizzy grinned, "oh
by the way Devon and a few of the others are ordering pizza and goofing off after rehearsals today, he asked me to invite you." 

"I'm working with Mr.
Fitzgerald for the last two hours of every day this week, but I should be back in time."  She actually liked the idea of hanging out with her two new friends, although she'd reserve judgment on the others when she found out who was going to be there.

"Wow, I don't know if I'm jealous or glad it's you," Lizzie laughed at the prospect. "What's he like to work with?" She asked curiously.

"Pretty much like you'd expect, overwhelming and in your face," she figured that was a pretty accurate description.  Although he hadn't been really rude last night, he'd certainly stepped over her personal boundaries.

"Glad it's you then," Lizzie sipped her coffee again and shrugged her shoulders playfully.  She'd dealt with vocal coaches for years
and they could be rude and unsympathetic, she could only imagine how tough Fitzgerald would be from the rumors that floated around.

"Thanks," Angela laughed at her non sympathetic approval, "if we don't want to get chewed out we'd better get ready for classes.
  She said it in a joking manner, but their first teacher of the day was not the type of person you wanted to piss off.  She had pretty much let them know yesterday that she considered her time very valuable.

"By all mean, we can't have Mrs. Landers jumping our butts on the second day of training."  Rolling her eyes, she walked off to her own bedroom to prepare for the day.

Angela washed and dried the plates they had used before returning to her own room.  Dressing in a pair of dance pants, oversized t-shirt and tennis shoes, she wanted to be comfortable for the long day ahead.  Pulling her thick blond hair up into a ponytail, she brushed her teeth and decided to go natural.  No need to put on makeup, just to sweat it off, she reasoned.

They made it to their first class with only two minutes to spare.  Trisha and her little group of 'we are the best here' cronies, were already warming up, but the moment Angela walked in she saw the glare sent her way.

"So how did you enjoy meeting Mr. Fitzgerald," Trisha said in sugary venomous voice.  The fact that he had singled a waste of time like this girl out, made her determined to strike out.

This was her acting opportunity, and it galled her to have to show weakness to this bitchy woman.  "He said I needed extra help with my stage performance so I could keep up with the rest of you."  She gritted her teeth as she demeaned herself.

Pleased that Mr. Fitzgerald had seen how pathetic the chit was, she felt her anger dissolve, and decided to offer a little fake compassion.  "You should consider yourself honored that he's taking the time out of his busy schedule to help you." Smiling sweetly, now that the woman was obviously not competition for her, she continued on.  "Angela, being on this show at all gives you the opportunity for great exposure, you don't have to win to be successful." 

Basically
Trisha was saying she was off her radar now that she wasn't standing in her way, with all her street smarts she understood how the woman's mind worked.  "Well I guess as long as I don't embarrass myself, I'll have to be thankful for this opportunity."  There she thought, I've played my part perfectly, and Fitzgerald owes me big time for letting this bitch think she's more deserving.

"Now that's the attitude you need to have," Trisha smiled, for once it was actually genuine.  They had to do group numbers, and the thought of any of the group screwing up her moment to shine would not be tolerated.  Perhaps she'd been a little too hard on the loser, she thought and considered offering a truce.

Returning her smile with a plastered one of her own, she was glad the vocal coach had arrived and she didn't have to talk anymore.  She wanted to slap the condescending bitch right off her self-imposed pedestal, but knew that it would just cause more problems.  She had four weeks to work with the witch and then she would forget she even existed, she determined.