Authors: John Steakley
Then the pain hit him. It clutched at his middle, doubling him over in agony. He pitched forward in his seat, dropping the mug clattering onto the floor. The searing anxiety shot bolting up and down his spine. The pain, the Pain! As if no time had passed and nothing had happened.
Desperately, he forced his thoughts to blank. He must hold them there. Blank. Blank. Empty. Think of nothing. Dont, dont, dont let It out. . . .
In a few minutes of long controlled breaths, he was safe.
He could move. He stood up, ignoring the cup at his feet and the stares of the techs arranging the chairs. He headed back to the squad bay. Back to another shower.
Afterward, his face was pale and shaken in the mirror. It had been very close. Too damn close. It made him angry. Fool! he growled at himself. Idiot!
With a snort of disgust, he shook his head, shaking off the beads of water from the shower that were maybe tears as well. He stared angrily at his own reflection, stared hard. He must concentrate. Psyching. . . . Psyching. . . .
After a while, he felt it start to happen. He felt himself dropping away. Dropping back to nothing, to the nothing he had been and to the nothing he still needed to be. But he couldnt get all the way. He couldnt quite get back to where he wanted.
He couldnt quite get back to the Engine Felix. But he would, he told himself with bitter certainty. He would. Hed better.
Felix slipped carefully through the center of the maze toward the ridge and the Dorm beyond. He had left the walls ten minutes before with the rest of the scouts.
Find out whats what, a Major Aleke had told him.
We dont want any surprises.
Felix had nodded and, finding himself in loose command of the other five scouts, had simply lined them up at quarter kilometer intervals and sent them off. He had ended up, by virtue of this system, with the center of the maze. He cursed at the effort involved. The others were surely far ahead of him by now. Railsmith, for instance, had the smooth edge of the killing runway and. . . .
Help! Help! Oh shit! sounded from somewhere. From someone. . . Was it Railsmith? That would make it to his left.
Help! Help! Blasters! Look out!
Felix controlled the command prime band. He keyed it and spoke, trying to sound controlled.
Who is this? Railsmith? Is that you?
Felix? Felix! Yes, its me! Help!
Felix cut him off. Where are you, dammit?
At the Dorm! Im here with. . . Oh, shit! Were coming back!
Well, do it then, he snapped angrily. Stupid jerk! He paused a moment, considering. Railsmith was to the left. Hed probably come straight back down the edge of the runway, sidestepping the piles of dead ants. Felix headed for the killing area to cut him off.
Other voices sounded alarms all up and down the lines. He interrupted their exclamations long enough to shout Scouts in! Unnecessary, of course. From the sound of them, they had been retreating when it had happened.
Cursing eloquently, he clambered over the last three walls of the maze onto the edge of the runway just as Railsmith and another scout appeared over the ridge in panicked flight. The other scout. . . Jiller, maybe, damned near died at Felixs abrupt appearance right in front of them. He dropped his rifle and skidded to a stop on his butt.
Pick that up, growled Felix. Then, to Railsmith, What is it? Blasters?
Felixs calm appeared to offend Railsmith deeply. Hell, yes, blasters. Theyve all got cm. Everywhere! Never seen so many.
Felix resisted pointing out that Railsmith had never seen any before. Instead he tried getting something in the way of coherent details.
But thats when the heat ray struck them.
Holy shit! screamed Jiller, jumping three meters straight up.
Cmon, dammit, Felix snarled, dragging them sideways into the cover of a gulley. The two scouts started tearing down the length of it. No, no! Felix shouted. Shoot them! Like this!
Rifle in hand, he leaned around the edge of a dune and fired at the half dozen ants coming down the runway. All, he noted grimly, carried blasters.
Whats with you? demanded Railsmith angrily. Youre so damned brave, are you?
Good point, Felix thought. Then, So lets get the hell back to the fort. He stepped back onto the runway. More ants had appeared over the ridge, firing blasters. This way, he waved.
Railsmith stared. They can shoot us that way! Theres no cover! Im going back through the maze.
Felix grabbed and held him. Cmon, you idiot.. The blasters cant stop us in time. They arent blazers, dammit! Besides, he added, indicating the maze with a gesture, theyll catch up to us in this shit.
Railsmith looked hesitant. Jiller looked frozen.
Cmon, Felix repeated, waving them forward again.
Ill cover.
He stepped out around the dune once more and fired at the hurtling ants. The first seven crashed instantly to the sand, piling up the others behind. He waved the other two scouts on. Run, dammit, while they cant shoot.
The scouts obeyed at last, streaking past him onto the Siliconite-packed runway. Felix provided another couple of seconds of covering fire. The ants were too jammed up onto themselves to require much more.
So eager, he thought grimly. They want us too much to even look where theyre going.
Then he followed the other two. As fast as he could run.
Felix sat on a stool atop the Command Platform working the wand over the relief holo of the area between the bunker and the Dorm. Where he touched the tip of the wand to the surface of the screen, a star would appear, symbolizing every place the scouts had reported contact with blaster carrying ants.
The brass standing over his shoulder as he worked moved quickly forward when he put down the wand. Somebody gasped when the full extent of the sightings was seen.
Well, hell, said somebody Felix hadnt met, theyve got every approach covered.
I didnt even know Dorms carried blasters, said somebody else, a captain, looking accusingly at Felix. They didnt tell me either, he replied dryly.
Major Aleke spoke up. Thats not the point. The point is: what are they trying to keep us from seeing. What are they hiding? He looked around at the others. No one responded.
Colonel Khuddar was insistent. Well? Anybody got an idea? Felix?
Felix considered a moment. Maybe nothing, he said at last. They may just want to keep things tight while they bake reinforcements.
I still think wed better have a look, said the Major. He looked then, as did everyone else, toward the CO, Brigadier Hammad Renot.
The Old Man was silent, as he had been since Felixs arrival. Felix found little hope in that.
What do you say, Felix, insisted the Major. How about taking a look?
Felix met his gaze. They dont like me, he replied carefully.
Ah, cmon, Felix, barked Khuddar heartily, slapping Felixs shoulder with gusto. Those blasters are puny things. You know how long they gotta focus on the same patch of armor before the plassteel goes?
Felixs voice was wooden. How long? he asked.
Khuddar hesitated briefly. A long time, he said at last.
Believe me, a long time.
Perhaps if the colonel would demonstrate the first run … Felix suggested in the same wooden fashion.
He missed the colonels angry reply. He was watching the major instead, who had sidled up alongside the Old Man. The others turned to watch as well. After a few seconds of the armored version of whispering, the major got his response: a short, decisive nod.
All right, Felix, said the major. Go.
Felix stared at him. Are you kidding?
Now just a second there. Scout. . . began somebody. The major cut him off with a gesture. Go, Felix. Right now. Thats an order.
Felix stood up. He sighed. It would be, he said.
Felix had decided to use the gap in the ridge they had used to flee the Dorm that first time. He couldnt make the best sighting from there, he knew. But neither could he make the best target.
He clambered over a wall, pausing before dropping to the gulley on the other side. He looked back instead. The network of the maze sloped away from him. It looked like something rats should be running through, not people. Almost, he thought with a shudder, as if the ants had planned it that way. He dropped over the wall into the next gully. He examined the next crusted wall of sand, as always, higher than the last one. He sighed. He figured he had no more than two or three more to climb before he reached the gap.
He leaped, without further hesitation. No sense waiting for them to sense his presence, assuming they hadnt already.
Two walls later he got lucky. The last wall, complete with gap, was below him. Through it he could see the top of the Dorm itself. There was an ant there, too. He unclipped his blazer and killed it, then dropped into the gulley and looked through the gap.
An ant looked back at him.
Felix gasped and leaped back, firing from the hip. The ant, and two more behind it, were blazed down. The edges of the gap were immediately illuminated by bursts of blaster fire coming from the direction of the Dorm. He couldnt, wouldnt, take a chance on looking through it now. Perhaps if he leaped quickly to the top of the wall itself?
From opposite ends of the gulley, ants appeared firing blazers. He fired in both directions, slicing them apart. More blaster fire struck him, this time from the top of the wall he had just exited. How the hell did it get up there? he wondered wildly, firing. Thats where he had just been.
More blasters erupted from the ends of the gulleys. There didnt seem to be any place else to go. Felix leaped back up onto the next wall alongside the ants body. The gulley beyond was filled with them, all carrying blasters, all firing upward.
He unclipped a blazebomb and dropped it amid them, then tore off running down the top of the wall as it blew. The wall ended suddenly. He leaped to the next. It collapsed beneath his weight, needlessly cushioning his fall and half burying him in the process.
Blasterfire hit him from all directions, the ends of the gulleys, the tops of the walls. . . Shit! They were following him along the tops of the walls!
He threw blazebombs in all directions. He fired at a lone ant blasting at him from what he hoped was the direction of the killing area and home. His blazing cut the ant in half. He hopped, running, over both halves and ran wildly past them.
Twenty seconds later he had managed the smooth killing area. He ran down the runway, sidestepping the thousands of bodies, toward the fort. It took him another twenty seconds, but he was soon safely behind the walls.
No one liked his report. He could understand that.
The colonel eyed the pitifully meager data Felix had added to the screen. He tapped an armored finger on the surface. It looks bad, he commented thoughtfully.
Felix leaned forward and tapped his finger beside the colonels. Better here than there, he said pointedly.
They sent him away. Gruffly. Angrily. They said they would call him when they needed him.
Felix said he was afraid of that.
An hour later he was back in the maze, perched atop a wall some hundred meters or so into it. The sighting was only slightly more extensive from this point of view than from the walls of the fort and considerably more dangerous but the brass had insisted.
We want all the extra warning we can get, the Colonel had told him.
That I can get, he amended. But only to himself. Fatheads, Felix thought from his perch. What was the point in building the goddamn bunker in the first place if they were going to send people out of it every chance they got? And for what? He was able to Scan maybe thirty approaches more from where he was than the lockouts on the wall could see. But the nature of the maze screened at least that many. They could be close and coming from almost any direction without him seeing them.
Shit, he thought. Fatheads.
Still, he had to admit he enjoyed talking to them. Needling them. He was worried some about damage he might be doing to Shoens career. But not enough to stop it. Frankly, he thought with a grin, he was having too much fun.
He caught himself. Fun???
Whats got .into me, anyway?
Ants, reported a voice he didnt recognize one of the other scouts similarly perched. Southeast from the bunker. Anybody else see em?
Felix did. He said so. They were halfway across the maze and coming fast. Looks like some of em are sweeping for a southerly assault.
He stood up unsteadily, tracking the bouncing skullheads in the distance.
Major Aleke cut into the frequency. He sounded breathless.
Felix?
Felix.
Ants?
Ants.
What else?
Felix barely hesitated. Just ants so far. Scouts in! With that he cut the circuit and scrambled back toward the bunker.
Felix knew better than to report to the Command Platform in person. After gathering all information from the other scouts, he sent Railsmith along with it. Then he looked for a seat among the scores of alerted warriors scrambling along the wall to watch.
Dominguez appeared in front of him. He grabbed hold of Felix with both armored hands and held him still. He placed his faceplate against Felixs.
Just ants so far? he echoed.
And they both began to laugh. To giggle, really. Helplessly, they collapsed together. They laughed and laughed. Whats got into me? he thought, trying to catch his breath.
Six hours and forty-five minutes into the drop, the second attack began. It came from two directions at once, without pause between the waves. The main runway held the bulk of the attackers. The southern wall fought off the rest. Altogether, there were half again as many ants the second time. Wave after wave after wave.
It didnt help. The ants were running into instant death, as before. It was brutal. It was ugly.
It was short.
Half an hour after the attack the order came to go out for another specimen. Some lieutenant brought the message. Like Kent, Shoen had been absent for quite a while. Felix and Dominguez went alone, leaving Morleone and Ling on the wall.