Authors: John Steakley
Holly, do you really think you can?
If I cant stop him, at least I can drain his arsenal. I can make him use up irreplaceable munitions. There will be a chance that someone will be able to overthrow him. He brought his head back to level and met my gaze. You know, Jack? Youre the only one who came.
You locked everybody out, didnt you?
I had to be secure. I asked for volunteers first.
I hadnt heard that part.
He blinked. You mean thats not why youre here?
Not at all. Borglyns won. I came to get you.
Oh. Well, I wont go.
You cant, I know.
But there just isnt anyone else! He stared at the floor between his boots. I wish there was. Anything, just. . . Three tears plopped loudly onto the polished floor. He sniffed, wiped his nose with the back of his hand. Im sorry. Im just so scared.
Me, too.
He looked at me with such innocence and said. Well, Jack, you ought to get started. Its going to start any minute.
I lit a cigarette instead of answering. I puffed and thought. Now what? He had a damn good point about the time. And he had a damn good point about what Borglyn would become. Dammit! I hadnt expected this. He didnt want to be a martyr. He had no interest in being a hero. He would have given up his role in a second, if. . . If there had been anyone else. But there wasnt. Only him. He was the only one who could make a difference. Not that he would. He wouldnt. He would die. But he was the only one who could, who might. He had to.
I guess Ill stay, I said without thinking.
He looked surprised. I bet I did, too. Why?
I shrugged. I wont leave without you.
I could use your help.
You sure could. You wouldnt have a chance alone.
And with you? he asked, smiling.
I shook my head. Dead as dirt.
An overhead thunderclap, the first mortar, signaled the beginning. Holly leaped to his feet and ran to the door and unsealed it. You know how to work a blazer cannon? More or less, I answered without conviction.
There were six along the wall running across the top of the T. Holly grabbed the third from the left. I took the fourth. I peered suspiciously at the console. A monitor, on the barrel most likely. I keyed the screen. It glowed brightly, receded, then coalesced on the river below. I grabbed the triggers and fired a burst at the water. It worked.
It worked on water. It worked on trees and on sky. But not on mortars. Borglyn had told the truth. There wasnt a target in sight. Damn!
Meanwhile, mortar shells were ripping the hell out of everything. Great holes appeared out of the smoke along the riverbank. The holes began working their way up the slope to us. Closer and closer, seemingly more and more powerful. Distant concussions echoed from direct hits on the Complex.
Then they hit our wall, about five meters to Hollys right. The floor warped violently with the shock wave, tossing Holly up and back into the center of the floor. He bounced like a dead man. I rushed to him to see if he was as bad as he should be. He just rubbed his head and smiled. He was getting up to remain his cannon station when it just blew off the wall, console and all. We ducked no more than half a second after it had hurtled high over our heads.
It got worse. Four blasts slammed against the outer wall within three seconds. The warping floor bounced us like babies about the room. Chunks of masonry crashed to the floor from high above. The sound of it was. . . Godlike.
It stopped suddenly, all at once. We got to our feet. Holly rushed to a panel on the wall and read some dials. Uh oh, he said quietly. And was silent.
Dont do that!
Huh? Oh, I think we have a lacing split here.
Thats bad?
The lacing is behind two half meter layers of reinforced plastiform.
Whats behind the lacing?
He made a face. Mostly paint.
Holy shit! I cried, grabbing him and dragging him back from the front.
It wont collapse, Jack.
It will when the grenades hit it.
What grenades?
They stopped the mortar barrage for something!
Shouldnt we be shooting em as they run up to throw? To do that, we would have to approach the guns. The guns are on the. . . .
Wham! Two, three, four, five, six. Pause. Three more almost at once.
On the floor from the first one. Holding my ears. Opening my eyes reluctantly, sure of seeing blood.
Smoke and dust were filling the room thick and black and brown and gray, but I saw through it for just an instant, just long enough to recognize the river through a two-meter-high, meter-wide, gash.
They had pierced the first wall.
On impulse, I grabbed a concussion grenade from one of the scattered cases. I threw it, without looking, out through the smoke. Screams followed its detonation. I grabbed up three more and threw them, too.
Now was the time to go to the cannon. Wait here, I said to Holly who lay sprawled and choking dust.
No. No, Im fine, he lied and thumped awkwardly headfirst into a cannon station.
My cannon had been where the gash was. I stepped one over and keyed it up. I had a target for maybe a second and a half. Once he may have been where my beam struck.
Dammit! barked Holly. He took his eyes off of his screen and frowned in my direction. You know, Id like to shoot back at least once. But unless its a tree, theres never any damn target.
Bingo! Shoot em.
Huh?
The trees?
Why?
They burn?
So?
They buur down.
We made a forest fire. It was quite an impressive blaze in no time at all. The far side of the river disappeared behind the wall of smoke. I decided to take a small chance. I stepped through the gash and looked around.
Chunks of plastiform were scattered all over the slope to the water. Much of it was from our wall, but the vast majority of the debris had been blasted from the walls on either side of the core. But no breaches, as Holly had promised. Instead of standing still for the punctures, and making an entrance, the other walls simply collapsed atop one another.
One spot, repeatedly targeted, had a massive cone of masonry
that seemed to have been torn through a good five meters. But the pile was right where the wall had been and just as obstructive.
I took another quick chance. I trotted around to the ground underneath an eave. Bootprints covered the entire area. This is where they stood when they threw the grenades and made the gash. I stood in one of the spots and pressed myself against the wall. Out of range.
After forty-five minutes of waiting for something to scare us, we decided to get a bite to eat. I was starving. I hadnt eaten since. . . I wasnt sure. Not today or yesterday or. . . . Damn. Felix had been just yesterday. Damn.
Borglyns programming was fun for a while. Mutineers and deserters werent much at firefighting. They were damn good at trenches, though. They had two of them dug deep enough for the mortars long before the fire went out. Pretty far back, though, observed Holly.
He was right. Too far back to melt the barrels, anyway. Cannon are not made for distance. Then I saw what Holly meant. I didnt know much about artillery, but Borglyn had called them medium range mortars. They were a kilometer away.
The question was answered as we watched. The crews began firing at us. We rushed to the outer room, ready to seal it off if need be. It wasnt necessary. It wasnt even dangerous. I sat in the gash, enjoying fresh air and a smoke and admired the splashes for half an hour. Not that they didnt have the range. They did. At least two shells whistled over the Dome. But no accuracy.
When the shakes came, an hour into the respite, I went to the head and sat them out. When I returned, I pretended not to see Holly having an even worse time. I could do that, had been doing it for him since it had begun. It was really getting to him. Too smart not to appreciate what could happen, he was also too sensitive to ignore it. A nice man.
An hour later, the fire was finally going out. I figured we had another hour yet to come. It was an exhausted, ragtag crowd across the river.
You think it will matter to them? wondered Holly aloud.
He was leaning against the wall as before, his head back and staring.
Who?
The people who are left after.
Under Borglyn?
Uhhuh.
Depends on how well we do. On how much we make them work for it. Therere only two of us, after all. Far as they might know, only you. If we make them treat us like an army, itll be remembered.
Do you think we can?
No.
Why not? Weve done pretty well.
But were out of trees.
He laughed shortly. I would like this to count, he said wistfully.
Well, I said encouragingly, it would help if we could make them flatten the hillside. Or better still, land the Coyote. Should that be our goal?
Hell, no. Were either doing this to win, with the idea of trying to win, or its masturbation.
Id still like to see the Coyote. You think we will?
I had been pondering that. We might, I said carefully. But I dont think it will attack us. Nothing eats fuel like a Novablaze.
He nodded. We sat there, watching the smoke rise into the sunshine.
Hey! I blurted suddenly. Its daytime.
Holly smiled. Has been since it started.
I relaxed. I suppose so, I mumbled.
What was I doing? Why was I here? I knew how it was going to end. I knew. But still I went along, on and on as if not really examining the madness would make it safer.
Holly. Sweet Holly. I knew why he was here. He felt he had to be. He felt he was the last hope and therefore responsible to try. I understood that. I understood those reasons. For him.
I did not understand those reasons for me. Yet here I was.
Idiot.
There were a lot of things I didnt understand lately. Like that morning when I had. . . .
What? he asked.
I guess I was mumbling.
Tell me, he said excitedly, sitting up and leaning forward.
I smiled. Its not as much fun as that.
Is it bad?
Mostly.
About what you did?
No. About something else I did. This morning.
What?
I killed Five people in the City.
He blinked. Why?
Im not sure.
Why dont you just tell me what happened.
So I did. About Wice and about Northrup, the tortured fool. And about Lopes. About the other three.
The thing of it was, I knew I was going to do it before I felt like doing it. Well, I didnt want to do it. I had no passion for that fight. But I knew I was going to do it because….
Because it was the right thing?
Oh, shit. I hope not.
Afraid of becoming noble? he asked, his eyes twinkling. That, too. But basically, thats the worst reason I can think of for killing. That its the right thing to do. You kill out of outrage or fury or to keep from dying or something like it, thats fine. Hell, kill them rather than bother with them or be bothered by them. But if youre killing them because its the right thing to do, its only because youve done so many wrong things up until then to make that spot. Its not the right thing to do. Its the best of the last of your choices. Thats the longest Ive ever heard you talk at one time.
Thats because you never ask me about my hair. Later, I asked Holly about the eaves. He said fine. We set the last of the charges as the first bunch appeared from the right. I leaned out the hatch and shot one of them. The others flattened against the wall, out of range. Holly was all for blowing it right then. But I wanted to wait for the lefthanders to show up, too.
When the first blazebomb rattled at us from the right, I acceded. Holly keyed the charge from the control room so we could see it better. It got everyone of them. But it kept falling and rolling, great chunks cascading over and over. When it had finished, we had a ridge of debris from the Dome to the river. It was five meters high at its highest point. Weve cut them off! announced Holly with a cheer.
No. Theyll blow it open. But it got their attention. We blew the second on the grounds that no one could be that stupid. It made another ridge. All the way to the river. Hot damn.
So ended the second attack.
Things started happening pretty fast after that.
The trouble was, the whole thing had been damn near a blur all along. From the beginning when the squirrel woke me up to Wice to. . . no more Wice and then no more Crusaders and then no me for a couple of hours. To crazy Borglyn to crazy Holly.
Now crazy me.
They came in the third wave moments later. They came to the ridges we had made by blowing the eaves down the hill. They didnt blast them, though. They just stood behind them, out of sight and out of range, and threw things at us. They didnt bother with catapults or launchers. They hauled out the people wearing that open-air armor. Their artificial muscles were plenty. They threw concussion grenades and blazebombs, which I had expected. And smoke, which I had not. Idiot.
They had us anyway. We had no place to go. Only one place from which to fight back. The smoke wouldnt hide us from them. But they could use it. And they did.
Get ready to blow this first one! I yelled to Holly as the first half dozen blasts rocketed masonry along the front wall.
Cant we wait? Holly yelled back gamely, running to another cannon console.
No! I screamed back. No! We cant stay in this forward room! Weve gotta go back to …
Look! Theyre coming up at us! he said, ignoring my cussing and firing away with the cannon.
But the smoke bombs hit then, cutting off most of our effectiveness. And then the first of the grenades hit, rocking us back and rocking the wall itself. Through the dust and smoke coming in I saw it waffling back and forth on either side of the gash. It was crumbling and warping and shaking. . . .