Aryn's Desire: A BOLD Security Novel (Finding Submission Book 1) (13 page)

“Overwhelming?” She smiles and hands me a beer.
 

“Thanks,” I tell her with a smile as I take it from her. “And yes, very much so.”
 

“You’ve never been to a party like this before?” she asks. Her voice is soft, comforting and innocent. I find myself drawn to her for some unexplained reason, almost like I can confide in her more than I probably should.
 

“Yeah, I didn’t even know about it until yesterday.”
 

She gives me one of those ‘oh-ouch’ looks. “Are you staying here, with Master Orion and Dacotah?”
 

“Master Orion?” My eyebrows knit together.
 

“Sorry, most of the people here use aliases in a club setting. Derek is his name.”
 

“Oh, yes. I came with Dex and Raine.” I can’t help but wonder why Dex doesn’t use an alias, given who he is and all, but then again, he sits behind the drums, you’d be surprised at how many people don’t know who he is.
 

“Dex is very nice. Raine is sweet. How do you know them?” she asks and I suddenly feel the hair on the back of my neck stand on end and I rub at it, not sure what caused it, but I let it go and Master Caden walks past Diamond and I.
 

Derek approaches us. “Master Orion,” Diamond addresses him and lowers her head.
 

“As you were, Diamond. Everything alright here?” Derek asks Diamond and I’m surprised by that, then I remember something that Cotah had said about keeping things safe for the subs, always.
 

“Perfect, just talking with Aryn.”
 

Derek smiles at her. “Good. Can I steal him for a minute?” Derek asks her and she nods and excuses herself.
 

“Uh…” If I were twelve, I might have actually pouted.
 

“Sorry, I heard her ask you how you know Dex and Raine and I wanted to give you a couple of pointers about the anonymity that we maintain here. It’s the reason we introduced you as Aryn and not Beck.” I nod my understanding. “No one here knows who Dex is, or if they do, no one has said anything about it. Master Orik is aware because he doesn’t have a filter when it comes to certain people.”
 

“How so?”
 

Derek laughs, “He’s a 69 Bottles fan.”
 

I join him in laughing as well and there are a few heads, including Master Caden’s, that turn in our direction. Now why I managed to notice Master Caden out of everyone else in the room is beyond me, but I did. Our eyes lock, but somehow I manage to keep talking to Derek. “That was probably a hard pill for Dex to swallow the first time.”
 

Derek sobers and I am still locked with Caden and I can’t understand why. Derek squeezes my shoulder, pulling me out of my stare down with Master Caden and I look at Derek, sheepishly mind you.
 

There is a knowing smile that spreads across Derek’s lips but no explanation of why. “I would just keep things to friends, when it comes to Dex and Raine. But the details you choose to share inside of these walls or the club’s walls are your choice. Outside of the club is different.”
 

“I understand.”
 

He smiles then says, “Good. One more thing.”
 

“Anything,” I say quickly.
 

“Did you have any intention of playing tonight?” Derek asks me, and he’s serious but, I’m not so sure that he is. I get the impression that if I say yes, he is going to tell me that it isn’t a good idea.
 

“If you mean…no, I don’t plan on…yeah, no.” I’m suddenly unsure about what it is that I’m really doing here. I haven’t a clue how to do any of this stuff and least of all, where to begin with anyone.
 

“Okay then.” He smiles and releases me, turning toward where Diamond had wandered off after he stole me away from her. He jerks his head back toward me and Diamond smiles and starts to approach again. “Watch, enjoy.” Derek leans in and whispers, “Though sex isn’t off the table.”
 

“I…” I don’t know what to say to that, but I let it go and Derek releases my shoulder, stepping back and walking toward Cotah, who kneels before her Master in a way that makes me surprisingly envious.

EIGHTEEN

THE NIGHT PROGRESSED.
 

Diamond and I talked quite a bit, but eventually she started wandering around, talking to other Tops and then helping with the aftercare of some of her friends. I envied her involvement but oddly enough, I was comfortable watching.
 

Derek has Dacotah bound in rope against one of the crosses and she seems to be in pure heaven. Dex has Raine on another of the crosses and he is doing all kinds of different things to her. I wander ever closer to them, finding myself more comfortable around them than anyone else.
 

Some of the scenes have gotten pretty intense and intimate as the night has progressed and while I know they don’t mind the audience, I feel like I am intruding.
 

“Aryn?” Someone calls my name and I turn to see Master Caden commanding my attention.
 

Somewhere along the night, he hooked up with Diamond and has her strapped to a table toward the middle of the room. I abandon Dex and go over to him.
 

“Want to see something really fun?” Master Caden asks with a tone of excitement in his voice. He is holding something white, something that resembles that Halloween webbing.
 

“What is that?” I ask him, true curiosity in my voice.
 

“It’s called flash cotton,” he says as his eyes light up. He makes no secret of looking me up and down, but it doesn’t bother me, considering he has Diamond laid out on the table. I take it more as a sizing up than anything else.
 

“Flash cotton?” I ask.
 

He smiles as he lays it out across her stomach and along her breastbone. Ironically enough, the first thing I notice is the fact that she is strapped down, not the fact that she has shed her corset and is wearing only a pair of black boy shorts. He reaches into his pocket for a lighter and my heart rate increases momentarily when I realize he is going to set whatever this is on fire.
 

I want to stop him as I’m momentarily panicked by the prospect of what he’s about to do. Diamond squirms on the table with a most delicious sound of pleasure coming up her throat. Okay, she’s obviously consented to this or had it done to her before, so I let it go.
 

Master Caden brings the lighter to a raised point in the cotton near her belly button and he rolls his thumb across the lighter and ignites it, also igniting the cotton on her stomach. My breath hitches as the cotton goes up in a quick puff of smoke and Diamond squirms again. Her light pink colored nipples harden and she writhes, silently begging for more.
 

“Wow,” is all I manage to say.
 

I’m still a little unnerved by what I saw, playing with fire and all, but I am also intrigued by what exactly the purpose of that was. He sets her up for another round. “What’s it feel like?” I ask. The words spill out of me before I can catch them.
 

Master Caden cocks his head at me. “Would you like to try?”
 

The look in his eyes tells me that he’s pushing for more information from me, or he has this unsettling need to get me laid out like Diamond is on this table and it makes my skin crawl.
 

“No thanks. Was just curious what Diamond thinks about it.”
 

There is displeasure and maybe even disappointment that crosses Master Caden’s features at my rejection. For the first time in my life, I feel the overwhelming sludge of disappointment slide over me, along with a desperate need to please him and I cannot wrap my head around why that is.
 

The thought of pleasing him takes control of my thoughts and the instinct to lower myself to my knees before him becomes almost too much to bear.
 

Lost in the idea that I’ve somehow managed to disappoint someone I don’t know sends me walking toward the kitchen, down the hallway and as far away from Master Caden as I can get, as fast as I can get there.
 

*~* CADEN *~*
 

“Well, that didn’t go as well as I’d planned,” I grumble as I finish with Diamond. We hadn’t set any ground rules for playing together. The cotton was something that got brought up in a discussion with someone else and she was itching to try it. And while I was more than willing to take things further, play with her some more, my urge to play walked out the door with Aryn.
 

What did I say that sent him running for the door?
 

I shake my head, vowing to let it go.
 

Derek’s words come back to me, “he’s straight…” and I inadvertently backed him into a corner.
 

“You gave him that look,” Diamond says.
 

We have no rules for Top and bottom etiquette because she and I aren’t partners. “What look?” I ask her.
 

“That look, Master Caden. Your Dom face. He wouldn’t be the first Dom that has had problems with your Dom face. You have an uncanny ability to make even the strongest Tops weak in the knees. What makes you think he’s any different?”
 

“I do? Huh, I guess I never considered it that way.”
 

She smiles at me before cheekily replying, “It’s why subs flock to you.”
 

I help Diamond off the table, unsure of what to say to that. I guess maybe she’s right, but I’ve found so many subs lacking in what I desire. Like I told Derek tonight, I’m ready for someone steadier, more permanent to play with regularly. My eyes wander toward the door Aryn left through. I have an intense need to follow him.
 

*~* ARYN *~*

“Shit,” I grumble as I round the corner into the security team’s area of the house and smack straight into Celeste.
 

“Where’s the fire?” She smiles at me.
 

“Uh, nowhere?” I raise an eyebrow at her, but I slide past her, heading toward my room.
 

Without a second thought, I turn around to look at her and I’m not at all disappointed in what I see. I need to find a way to get rid of this rising storm within me. I turn toward her, pinning her with a gaze that says ‘I’m not fucking around anymore’ and ask, “Are you off?”
 

“No,” she states simply. “Just roaming through, why?”
 

Her response is like ice water being poured over my head and it only takes me a second to realize that I need to maintain a professional relationship with her I simply respond with, “Nothing.” I turn back around, open my door and close it quickly, though slamming it might be a better description.
 

I lean against the door and bang my head on it trying to wipe away the memory of Caden’s eyes as he stared me down. The eyes that had me uncomfortable and running for the hills. But it’s no use. My cock, which grew hard as steel under his gaze, twitches in my jeans and I groan. Pushing off the door and stripping off my shirt, I head into the bathroom.
 

I turn on the shower, my third for the day, a record, and I strip out of my shoes and jeans.
 

My cock stands straight out, stiff and desperate for release.
 

I grip the base as I step into the shower.
 

I stroke up, hard, tugging on it, wishing it would go away, hoping that I am not about to do what I’m going to do. Jerk off, compliments of a very demanding, overwhelming and sexy as fuck Dom.
 

I let the water cascade over me, warming me, and I close my eyes, pulling up images of Celeste, and what she looks like under that get up.
 

Gorgeous tits, suckable nipples, devouring her clit with my mouth, sliding my fingers deep inside her slick sex. The longer I suck on her clit, the harder and fuller it gets…the longer it gets, the more…the minute I explode all over the shower walls, I’m staring hard into the dominating eyes of Master Caden.

NINETEEN

I AVOID BREAKFAST the next morning. The advantage of one night stands is the ability to disappear and never have to look at that person again. In this case, I didn’t sleep with anyone, but I can’t find it in myself to look at Caden. Not only because I got off thinking about him last night, but I ran away from him so abruptly.
 

I’m still not entirely certain what it was that sent me running for my room, but I’m pretty sure it has something to do with the fact that I’m not entirely sure I’m ready for this lifestyle.
 

Okay, fine. I am ready for it, but I never expected to feel the way I did last night from a simple look. I’ve seen similar looks in Dex’s eyes when he looks at Raine, though I didn’t understand them until this week. They’ve always been there. It’s a typical Dom expression. One meant to have maximum impact of disapproval and it’s highly effective.
 

I text Dex around one, asking if they have plans for the day and he comes back letting me know that Derek’s guests have left and they’re just going to hang out and watch the game.
 

Dex isn’t much of a football buff, but we’ve watched games together before. Usually in bars. He asked me to join them and what the hell, Caden is gone, right?

The next two days are filled with various errands, including Christmas shopping in Charlotte with Dex and Raine. I was glad I finished my shopping back in Los Angeles because these two are the only two I’d be buying presents for.
 

The mall was ridiculously crowded and to my surprise, Dex was recognized twice. He was gracious, for once, and signed some autographs. After that we’d left the mall for another one. With today’s social media network, it was only a matter of time before the word was out that we were there. Again, this is Dex and the band’s drummer, but most people will take whoever they can get from 69 Bottles. Casey’s had the same problem with Mouse and Peacock and Talon has resigned himself to avoiding public shopping at all costs.