“Well, Miss, it’s been quite a time,” he said.
“I don’t know about that,” she said. “They had me out of
where I was working before you could say Jack Robinson. And not a word to warn you.”
“That’s strange,” he said. “They told us they were sending five weeks ago.”
“That’s S.E.V.E. all over.”
“We’re under S.E.C.O. here,” he said.
“S.E.C.O.?” she gave a little scream. “Are you sure there isn’t some mistake?”
“Oh no Miss,” he said, and showed her the papers. He’d kept them, as a sort of talisman, on top of everything else, in the left-hand drawer of a kitchen table they’d given him for a desk.
“That only shows,” she exclaimed. “It’s been going on for weeks, you can see from the dates here, and there’s me been doing everything so I could get forty-eight hours leave, to visit my mum up north.”
“You’ve got your mother away?”
“Yes, she’s evacuated with some relations near Huddersfield. You wouldn’t think they’d miss me for that little time, while I was changing jobs, would you?”
“There it is,” he said. “But we might be able to manage you the trip. We do a deal of travelling around.”
“D’you really mean it? Why,” she almost grumbled, “that would be nice.” She did not seem to want to go now. “What are you on here?”
“Process plants for parabolam,” he replied.
She did not know what this was, so she tried him out.
“Why, fancy that, with me that’s been on penicillin.”
“On the production side?” he asked.
“I was in the lab,” she said. “With the card indexing. But I’ve never worked with one of those,” she complained, pointing to the two long and narrow steel cupboards that flanked his desk, to the system he had installed, and which had kept him sane throughout the first re-flowering of Rose.
“That’s my visible system,” he explained. “If you’d like to draw
up your chair,” he went on, and did this for her. “It’s like this.” He could always be glib at his work. “We’re a firm of engineers and we’ve no factory, it was burned to a cinder in the blitz. So we have to get everything we do made out,” he said. “Everything, down to the last nut and bolt. Well, of course, in times like these, when each engineering firm’s got more on its plate than it can manage, we’d be out of business if it wasn’t for the Government thinking we’re so important that they make other companies turn out our work for us. So we get S.E.C.O. support, which is pretty high, as you’ve found yourself, for a start. We do all the designing and drawing, and we’re responsible for the performance when the finished plant is installed. Also it’s our end of it to follow up the stuff while it’s being made, to see that things don’t get behind, or that the Admiralty, or M.A.P., doesn’t nip in ahead and put ours back in the list. So everything that we order goes onto these cards, one card to each item, with the due date for delivery, and who it’s to go to.”
“Oh dear,” she said.
“And there’s the index. And here’s the cross index. The whole thing’s visible. Tell at a glance, I don’t think. It may seem loopy to you but this is the one way our particular job can be done.”
“I see,” she said, while he sat back, having talked too much for him. “I wonder if I could meet one of the other girls,” she said.
“I say, you must excuse me,” he begged. “You want to know where to put your things?” And he took her out to the friendliest typist, in the Board Room office.
It was a great relief to have her. The main advantage was, it let him get back to his digs at a reasonable hour each night, and that at a time when he had got over Rose, that is to say when he could keep quite a bit relaxed. But he found he never seemed to do much in the evenings, all the same. He had explained it by making out that his staying sorry for himself about Rose, and his being overworked, prevented him going off free at nights. Yet now that he was so much freer, he seemed rather at a loose end.
So he began to look about him. Even in the office; in spite of the saying, “Never on your own doorstep.”
It began one afternoon, over the tea and bun at three thirty, as they sat side by side.
“I wonder if you’d mind,” she said. “I get so muddled. What is what we’re doing for?”
He took a sip. “Steel,” he replied.
“Oh, they make steel in them, then?”
“No. Parabolam,” he told her once again. “Used in special steels.”
“Sounds strange,” she commented, and sniffed. She was drearily untidy, but there was something there, he thought.
“What’s parabolam, then?” she asked, to keep the ball rolling.
“Comes from birds’ droppings.”
She looked at him, surprised. “Here,” she said, “you wouldn’t be having me on, by any chance?”
“Word of honour,” he said. She waited.
Like any silent man he talked technicalities freely, once he got started. “It was an accident,” he began, “like it was with stainless steel, when the heads were on an inspection round the foundry yard and one of ’em spotted something he’d noticed before, a bit of bright scrap through the rain. So they had it analysed, and there you are. Now it’s what you cut your meat up with.”
“Well, I never knew that,” she said.
“It was exactly similar with parabolam,” he went on, “only this time it was birds’ droppings. The swallows used to nest under the staging, where they charged the furnace. One day the foundry manager had all the nests cleared out, together with the filth below. And the labourer he gave the job, was too tired to take the mess down, he shovelled it in with the charge into the cupola. And what came out with their molten metal was so hard they couldn’t machine the casting.”
“I can’t hardly believe you.”
“Well I may have been exaggerating a trifle. Anyway, they all
got to work and it was isolated. In the end, they discovered there was a higher percentage of what it takes where sea birds roost. So we ship it in the raw state from South America, and the stuff is burned in those retorts we buy from Dicksons. In burning, a gas is released, which is treated in the catalysts. From there the vapour passes to those cooling chambers, that come from the A.B.P. people, and then the cold gas deposits its crystals onto what you won’t believe, you’ll think I’m play acting, onto ordinary common or garden laurel leaves they place on those long racks which Purdews make us.”
“I know a girl named Laurel. Hardy we call her.”
“I knew one called Rose.” Each time he said her name he noted he felt nothing any more, so much so that he hardly bothered to watch himself these days. He went on. “After which the leaves are washed, and it’s got to be laurel because of the chemical properties in the leaf. Then we take the water out on a Bennetts evaporator. And bob’s your uncle. Sells for £250 a ton into the bargain. That’s roughly the lot. If you wanted it in detail you’d have to question Corker.”
Corker was the technical director who designed this plant.
“I’d never ask him in my life,” Miss Pitter said, with reverence.
“He’s mustard,” Mr Summers muttered, relapsing into silence. But he watched her. In the five minutes they had before the phone began to ring again, she could get no more out of him.
There definitely was something, he thought.
That night, she came from the girls’ washroom just as he was on his way out of the office.
“What’s it like in the air?” she asked.
“Don’t know yet,” he said.
“Oh, you are comical,” she laughed, and was really amused. He began to feel excited, nervous in his stomach. He told himself he had never been like this before the war. She was complaining about something in the office. He did not pay attention, he was noting his inside. They came to the bus stop.
“No one here tonight,” she said. He did not answer.
“One of the girls told me you had the M.C.?”
“Me?” he asked. “Not me.”
She waited. He said no more. They got on the first bus.
“But they said you’d been a prisoner of war?”
“That’s right.”
“It must get you right down, being cooped up like it?”
He made no reply. She gave in.
“What number is this?” she asked, when they stopped.
“A nine,” he said.
“Gosh, I don’t know what I’m doing, I’m sure,” she cried. “See you tomorrow,” and was gone. He thought about her that night as he lay awake for hours.
The next day, at the first opportunity, she began again. As she started she asked herself, “Well what’s the odds?” After all, she knew she was quite uninterested.
“That was queer, my getting on the wrong bus with you, wasn’t it?” she said. She was leaning against the card index system. “Since mum’s been evacuated I’ve caught myself doing daft things, really, ever so often. It’s the loneliness.”
He looked at her.
“Not that we don’t have good times at my hostel,” she went on, “but mum and me, we were good companions. You know, got on together. Not like mother and daughter at all.”
“Yes, that’s it,” he said.
“‘Dot,’ she’d say, because that’s my name, Dot and no comma, ‘What’s on round the corner?’ and with that we’d drop whatever it was we were doing, and go out to the movies. But she couldn’t stand the bombing.”
Charley was spared any necessity to reply because the telephone began to ring. It kept on pretty well all day.
And he began to notice.
He was not frank about it, he shied away in his mind, but there were her breasts which she wore as though ashamed, like
two soft nests of white mice, in front. Their covered creepiness, in this hot summer, nagged him. And, every time he looked, he felt she knew, as she did.
Most of the working day she sat at his side marking up the cards, or turning up references as he phoned the suppliers. Often, she had to lean across to get at the second cabinet. He began to take in her forearms, which were smooth and oval, tapering to thin wrists, with a sort of beautiful subdued fat, also her hands light nimble bones with fingers terribly white, pointed into painted nails like the sheaths of flowers which might at any minute, he once found himself feeling late at night, mushroom into tulips, such as when washing up, perhaps.
He dreaded getting into this condition.
Or sometimes, while he dictated, it was the softness there must be on the underside of her arms which caught his breath, and that he remembered after, and then the finished round of muscle, where the short sleeves ended, as he read out to her, “Their ref. CM/105/127 our ref. 1017/2/1826,” because he would not leave the girl to copy these from the correspondence on her own.
Prison had made him very pure. His own name for all this was lust. It shook him. But he did nothing whatever about it. Perhaps because all of her seemed a contradiction. Those arms came out of frocks that did not hang properly, from below untidy hair her blue eyes were sharp, yet worried, and also too self sure; her legs were quite customary, yet the arms were perfect; and ever more uneasily he watched those breasts.
He imagined he could see her arms without her noticing, so he was more open with these. But he did not touch.
Her arms built great thighs on her in his mind’s eye, while she might be asking him, “About those needle valves in stainless …”, made her quite ordinary calves into slighter echoes of what he could not see between knee and hip, as she might be saying, “Now those break vacuum cocks …”, but which, so he thought,
must be unimaginably full and slender, when she wanted to know where the “accessible traps” came from, white, soft, curving and rounded with the unutterable question, the promise, the flowering of four years imprisonment with four thousand twirps. And he would lift his great brown eyes, and say, “They come from Smiths,” while she wondered, “Are my stockings straight, I wonder?”
It made him ashamed the way he felt about her.
But this was the sole promise there was in being alive. Hopelessly turned over to himself, as well as conscientious to a degree, so careful in his work there were occasions she could have shrieked at the way he wrote, time and again, to the same firm holding them to the last promise they had made, so careful with his words, tactfully nagging, letter after letter, never leaving them alone, so Dot was the only carrot in front of his nose, because he found of an evening, when he got back, that he barely existed, lived in a daze now that Rose was over.
Sometimes he would dream of red-haired fat women. But they were not at all like Rose.
As for Miss Pitter, she sniffed when one of the girls back at the hostel asked how her new place was shaping. “I don’t know what they took me away from my old job for,” she said. “This is a Fred Karno war, if you ask me. And the man I work with is dippy.”
She never mentioned his great big eyes.
Nevertheless, she began to get involved with the card index system. The main thing was, she found it dead accurate. She had thought Charley so wandering, the first few days, that she at once did a check through with the order book. There was not an item wrong. Then, as fresh orders were issued each day through the drawing office and she had to enter up the particulars on the cards, together with the details of what had been delivered, which she took from the advice notes, she began to be more and more frightened she would make a slip. Without knowing, she was becoming enslaved by the system.