Authors: Clare Morgan
When you had first found me, I had been the sex addict Ila who could fuck a stone if I got that. I was a part of too many orgies and even after you took me out of that hell, I was still Anthony’s own fuck doll. You accepted me with all those flaws and even though we are a changed person and we have taken up new identities, I know if shouldn’t have judged you. I am sorry, Andrew.”
As Elaine was embarrassed by her past and she felt inferior because of the things she had done, I wanted to let her know that it was alright to vent her anger.
“We are not the same person anymore. We had taken our vows that we won’t go back and be the person we once were. So, it was okay of you to lose your mind, I am not angry at you Elaine rather I want to apologize and seek your forgiveness.”
As I said those words, I knew how much I needed to say it. I had realized that it was important for us to be on the same page. If the two of us were not together, it would bring in greater doom for all of us.
She nodded and we hugged and kissed one more time. I filled her in on all the details and I even told her about Victoria’s offer.
“How can she do this? It means that if you want us to be together, you need to leave. Oh damn, I don't even know what to say. Why did God plan a fate so vile? What am I going to do? I can’t choose between you and Rosie. You both are important to me. I can’t be without you.”
At that moment, I knew I should have told Elaine about the plan. I had thought that I would fake being with Victoria, but this is the thing about both pain and joy – you can never fake it.
If I told Elaine about many plans, she wouldn't be going through the same pain and knowing how cunning and shrewd Victoria truly was, I knew that she would easily see through my plan and this could put our little daughter in danger.
As much as I hated to be the reason for Elaine’s tears, I had to do this to save each one of us. With Victoria, I realized that I could take no more chances and even if it meant temporary pain for Elaine, I would have to do that.
“What have you thought about Andrew? You are not going to leave me, will you?” she asked and her voice was broken and I could feel the pain in it. I wanted to let her know that I would never leave her, but I couldn’t.
The only way to save her was to break her heart once. Victoria needed to be sure that I was not lying and if I told Elaine the truth, it would be easy for her to relax. It wasn’t like I did not trust Elaine, but I knew how woman’s heart worked. When they were actually going through an emotional turmoil, it is very evident on their face.
If he would let her know the secret, she would be a little relaxed and this might end up making the difference. Knowing the kind of a cunning woman Victoria had become, there was no scope for absolutely any kind of error.
“Elaine, I haven’t thought everything. I am of course trying to look for a way to help us out, but I need you to know that in the worst possible scenario if nothing else seems to work out, I will need to let go of each one of you. If you both can have a safe and secure life sans me, you will need to do this for our daughter. You can stay here and you will have Janet. John is there to take care of you too and you have so many more friends. Yes, it will be hard but life teaches all of us to be strong and you will too.
Don’t worry, right away. I have nearly ten days to look for a way and trust me, I am going to put in my best efforts but Victoria has all of us trapped from all corners. I can’t even let the whiff of the case go near the police as this would mean that the two of us would land up in prison and our daughter’s future would be in the shit.
If I don’t find a way, I would have to agree to Victoria’s offer. She is going to make me pay for leaving her and if this is what destiny has in mind, I have nothing to do but accept it.”
“But, how am I going to live without you, Andrew? I love you, Andrew!” Elaine said and cried as she realized that her days may be numbered.
There is few pain in the world that can be measured to that of facing a heartbreak. Elaine’s life had turned upside down in such a little time. A few months before, she would have never guessed that she might end up losing Andrew forever and the pain that she felt was too immense.
I could see how she was suffering and I wanted to fuck what would happen and let her know that there was no way I would go back to Victoria, but every time I almost told her my plan, I could see Rosie’s little face and behind her stood the viciously evil lady Victoria.
I dreaded the time when I had saved her life. I dreaded the time when I had decided to work for her in exchange of her bailing me out of my dues and I dreaded every other thing with her. But, most of all I dreaded falling for her. I dreaded being the person who would be with her.
She was a serpent, a true monster and someone I really hated. If there was one person I would wish was dead, it would always be Victoria.
Chapter 24:
Elaine had become eerily quite of late and even though I tried to make her mood light, I could see how broken she was. I knew it would be so hard for her. She knew that she could have only one of the two – her husband and her daughter and no woman would ever want to be forced to make such a choice.
Elaine loved me dearly and Rosie was her heartbeat. How could she ever pick one of the two? I wanted to bare my secrets, but I was not in a position to do so. The days were ticking and time was slipping by.
I had no idea what to do and we both just let time pass us by. I wanted to make the most of these little moments with Elaine and as I slid closer to her and took her hands in mine, I saw that she was crying.
“Oh Elaine, don’t cry. You and I have been through hell together. Maybe, if Jesus wants us to be together he will show us a way. We need to be here for each other.”
“Is this a way to pay for the sins I did? Do you think I should try and go back to my dad? They are really powerful you know. Maybe, they would help us out? Do you think I should try and get in touch with them?” As Elaine asked me these questions, I realized how much she had been thinking.
“I know a lot of people who could help us. Working in this circle made me in touch with a lot of influential people but the deal breaker is the fact that Victoria has our daughter. More so, she has people sneaking on us all the time. If she gets even the slightest idea that we are trying to harm her, she would harm our daughter and this is what is stopping me or else I would have killed her a long time back.”
Elaine nodded and melted in my arms. I rubbed her fingers and I kissed her. She didn’t move and didn’t deepen the kiss but just let me kiss her. It was my little way of making her feel that things would be all right, very soon.
“You have always been the right person to fix everything, Andrew. You saved me when I felt like there was nothing that would make me sane again. Do this for me, please. Help me out, Andrew, I feel like I am going to break apart and there is nothing that can keep me sane.”
Seeing Elaine in such a state made me terribly weak. I knew that I was at fault. No one deserved this kind of pain and I was shocked at what the world had in store for me. While I did have a plan in mind, but I had not once thought of what would happen if it didn’t work out. What would I do if in the worst possible case I failed to help Rosie? Would I ever forgive myself if I will become the reason for her loss?
I took her in my arms and hauled her to our room. I didn’t know for sure what the future had in store and I wanted to make the most of every moment. Every single second that I spent with Elaine was precious to me and I wanted to make such deep and passionate love that absolutely nothing would obliterate me from her mind. I was looking to eternalize her in that moment and I was ready to do anything to get it.
“What are we going to do?” Elaine asked as I carried her to our room. She knew that I was going to make love to her and this would be one of our memorable nights together. The last time I had made love to her, Elaine was vulnerable but she had no idea that we may have a goodbye soon. This time, would be different and I wanted the two of us to remember every bit of it.
I turned on the night lamp and the room was bathed in a sensuous light. I held her hand and I guided her to the bed. I untied her hair and they fell on the shoulder and she looked even more beautiful like it was possible.
“I am going to make love to the deepest corners of you, I want you to remember every moment of this and I am not going to let you go. Even if our future is not going to let us be together, I want you to remember that we are going to always belong to each other. Some of us do not come with a fate that we can call our own. Often it may so happen that we will find ourselves struggling and we will drift apart, do not give up hope. No one has seen tomorrow and who knows we might once again unite and then, it will spark the right changes and we may again get another shot at romance. Tonight, let us raise a toast to all memories we have made and the ones that we will definitely make.”
She looked at me and smiled a little. Her smile didn’t quite reach up to her eyes and I knew that she was a little hurt and not fully convicted yet. But, that didn’t mean that I couldn’t try.
I slowly undressed her and when I saw her silhouette in the light of the dim lampshade I could remember the moments when I had realized I was in love with her. All the beautiful moments that we had spent together came back to me. We had made a wonderful life for us and if Victoria hadn’t come back to haunt us with her presence, I would have been really thankful for the life I had been living.
“You are so beautiful, Elaine. I will never get tired of loving you,” I whispered in her ears and she blushed. Somehow, I had still the same magic and it worked wonders on her. I could feel the way her breath started coming in short gasps as she was turned on already.
“Elaine, I am going to bring every part of you to life. I want you to feel ever moment of it with me,” I said in her ears and she quickly kissed me. It was one of the briefest kisses and yet it conveyed a lot of feelings and emotions. I knew that this felt more like the goodbye love than the one we were making to cherish our memories.
I wanted more than ever to believe that my plan would work out, but there was a huge what if that was still looming in my mind.
I undressed her completely and she helped me get out of my clothes too. We lay on the bed and were absolutely naked. The thing about making love is that you do not just need to bare your body but also your soul. I never had apprehensions doing that because if there was one person who knew all about my good things and my flaws, it had to be Elaine.
She had seen me in my worst of conditions and she knew all the sins I had done in my life as Larry McGee. She has been with me during my lows and had not judged me for the mistakes I did. There is something special about being with someone who accepts you for your flaws. If I could be anything with her, it gave me the right confidence to be my ownself and I was thankful for it.
“What are you still thinking, Andrew?” Elaine asked as she sensed that even though I was present with her, I was still lost in some thoughts.
“I was just thinking about how lucky I am to have you by my side. I am grateful for all you did for me and for accepting me with every flaw that I came with. I can’t tell you how happy I am for all you did for me.”
“I think these should be my lines. Of the two of us, I had a wilder past and I don’t even know how many things I would need to apologize for. I am done wondering and fussing about what is going to happen. For this one night, I simply want to celebrate us and not give a fuck to what the tomorrow holds for us. Can we do that?”
I nodded because I wanted exactly that too. We wanted to be lost completely in each other’s touch and as I gently and passionately kissed her lips, she parted them immediately and then met my tongue midway and continued to dance in unison.
We were both hungry for each other and the heat that was between us was massive and I wanted to surrender myself to it. My hands were all over her body and I wanted to never stop kissing her.
I let my hands rest low on her bra and when I cupped her ass, she made a tiny little sound and I loved it. Her breasts were firmly pressed against my chest and I could feel pleasure shoot in my body. She put her hands in my hair and then slowly broke the kiss and licked my ears. I always got turned on by this wild cat move of hers and I wanted her to take the lead this time round.
“Make me yours,” I said and she followed my words. She left a trail of hot kisses and went down until she sat in between my legs and took a firm grip of my dick. She cradled my dick in her hands and flicked the top of it. A great sense of pain shot through me, but as soon as she lowered her mouth to soothe the pain, my hard dick melted in her warm mouth. I was completely lost in her loving embrace and I knew that I could die at the moment and feel nothing but joy and pleasure.
She knew exactly how to make me cum and as she played a symphony with the help of her tongue, I could feel my dick cherish the presence in an apt manner. She kept sucking it and she increased her pace and I felt my breath coming in shorter gasps.
“Oh goodness, you are a sex kitten,” I cried and she went on and on with her constant sucking. When I knew that I couldn't hold it any longer, I ejaculated in her mouth and filled her. She had the smug smile of someone who was content with both her and my performance and she told me, “that is my good boy,” and we both relaxed.
We didn’t rush through anything and she simply rested by my side and the two of us stared at nothing in particular. Sex wasn't always about banging each other, but it was also about all these little tiny intimate moments that we spent with each other. I was happy just being with her and what wouldn’t I do to have this all my life.
I could spend the whole of my life doing nothing but just having Elaine by my side and it would be a sheer bliss to have this joy. But, this is the thing about life, you never know which moment turns out to be your last and so here I was, not knowing, what to do and staring at the end of the relationship I really cherished.
After spending an hour simply resting in each other’s arms and discussing our old memories and some precious moments, I knew that it was time for me to show her my passion. I slid her body without any kind of warning and then gently started to suck her nipples.
I had always loved doing this and she made some moaning sound and it definitely delighted me a lot. I knew that I wanted this and I knew that Elaine was enjoying it, but in the end, we were both scared of the future that was about to follow.
As we kept on kissing each other, we could feel the sense of passion get stronger every minute. I drew her tits and started to bite them. The pink tissue became red and swollen and I sucked them one more time to soothe the pain. I wanted more than ever to let her feel how passionate I was for her.
I spent my own sweet time enjoying her. I went on and on and then when I knew that I was done playing with her nipples, I traveled further down and reached her navel. I spent a lot of time teasing her nipples and I licked it fervently. I knew that she loved every bit of it and I wanted to make her feel special.
When I buried my face in between her legs, she knew that the real treat was about to begin. She blew me a kiss and I pressed numerous kisses on the side of her thigh. I kept on traveling further upwards from there and when I saw how wet she was I smiled.
“I love it when you are so wet for me,” I said and she arched her legs wider to give me all the room I needed. I gently licked her and lubricated her vagina enough so that she was ready to take me in. As my tongue kept on pushing further and I made some invisible circles, she started to scream and I loved the sound of my name.
“Fill me in, now,” she said and I obeyed like a good boy. I pushed my dick inside her hole and then I kept going further in, a little by little. I wanted to go the whole way but I was in no need to rush things. As I let my dick slide inside her hole and I reached the very end of it, I could feel my body melting in the embrace. I knew I was about to cum and I could feel her body vibrating under my touch too.
As I finally touched her most sensitive spot, she came with a climax and I came together. We both filled each other and I wanted to remember this single moment of synchronized pleasure forever. I knew this was yet another proof our perfect memories which we would always cherish.
In that brief moment, I was happy. I knew I had a hundred things to think of and there was a lot that I needed to worry about, but for that moment, my life seemed complete and I wanted the rest of it to fall in shape.
“I wish everything in life turns out to be as perfect as this moment,” Elaine said and all I could say was amen. I knew that we both wanted the same thing and there was a part of me that had the hope that we would both get what we were seeking. The power of love was strong and there was a lot of pull in it. I would eventually manage to win this game and I knew that if I believed in my love, I would make it true. I would fight Vitoria and I would turn out to be successful. I couldn’t lose this game because the stakes were too high.
I didn’t just love Elaine, but I belonged to her and I existed only for her. This was all I wanted and once I had Rosie with me, I would make Victoria learn the right lesson.