“I’m sure they’re fine,” the woman said, tucking dishwater-brown hair behind her ear and giving him a quick smile that didn’t quite meet her eyes.
She was lying.
“How can you be sure?” He pushed up from the recliner so fast he wobbled the table next to him and the lamp on top of it started to fall.
Blondie dove in and grabbed the tumbling shade just in time. “Easy there, big guy. He’ll be home. I’ll text Jocelyn now and find out where they are.”
“Who the hell is Jocelyn?” He didn’t care that he was yelling. These were a bunch of damn strangers. Strangers
scared him. “And who the hell are all of you? I never saw any of you on that show!” He threw the remote on the floor so hard the batteries popped out and skittered everywhere.
And that very moment, William walked in the front door. Missy, looking like a drowned rat, was right beside him, eyes wide, hand over her mouth.
“What going on?” William demanded, marching toward Guy, his eyes fierce and furious.
That just made Guy madder, damn it. “You tell me, son! You disappear and leave me with a house full of strangers.”
“Guy.” The blonde stepped closer and he waved her off, his hand flying too close, making her duck.
“Stop it!” William lunged at him, way past furious now. His tone turned Guy’s innards into water and his legs into Jell-O.
“What the hell are you going to do, Guy? Hit her?”
Guy cringed and cowered back, stunned by this William he didn’t even know.
“It’s okay,” Blondie said, coming closer. “It was—”
“No!” William shouted. “It’s not okay. It’s not okay to take a swing at a woman or at anyone, for that matter, Guy. Do you know that? Do you
know
that?”
“Will.” Missy slipped into the room, curling her arm around Will’s, her jaw quivering. “Don’t.”
“Don’t?” He spun on her. “I
didn’t
last time, Joss, and look how great that turned out for us.”
What was he talking about? Tears welled in Guy’s eyes and he tried to wipe them, but that just sent his glasses tumbling to the floor. Missy immediately bent to pick them up for him.
“Here.” She straightened the arms and gave them
back, and then she turned to William. “This isn’t the time or place for this conversation. And it’s too late, anyway.”
“What are you two talking about?” Guy demanded, his mix of anger and sadness and fear all balling up in his belly. “William, you left me with a house full of strangers and I… I was scared.” He looked at the blonde, her name suddenly popping into his head like a gift from the memory gods. “Zoe was very nice and taught me how to play cards and… and…” He waved toward the couple with the teenager. “And they were nice, too, but… William.”
Shoot, he was crying and there was no way in heaven or hell he could stop. “You left me and I thought… I thought…” He blubbered and Missy grabbed a tissue from a box on the table. Taking it, he blew his nose, realizing that the entire room was dead silent.
They were all looking at him. The strangers, expectantly. The girl from
Clean House
, pitifully. And William. How had it happened that William would look at him with such hatred? “Are you mad at me, William?” He could barely say the words.
Will just swallowed and took one of those long breaths that he always took when Guy had left the stove on or misplaced his needlework or come out of his room hollering that there was a stranger in the mirror.
There was
always
a stranger in the mirror, and, right this minute, he couldn’t stand that anymore.
“Don’t hate me, William!” he cried. “That would be like losing a child all over again. I… can’t.”
Missy’s eyes widened, but William stepped closer. “Stop crying, Guy,” he said, but not in his normal voice. Not the kind voice that always made Guy feel like he really could stop crying.
“I can’t stop crying,” he said.
“Yes, you can.” Missy came next to him. Closer, in fact, than she’d ever come on her own since he’d met her. She was a cool one, always keeping an invisible fence around her, scrunching up her face when he tried to touch her, giving him icy looks like she knew something he didn’t. But right now she wasn’t so chilly. She was as kind as William used to be. “Just sit down, Guy.”
But he didn’t move. Instead he stared at William, who stared right back. What was going on in that young man’s head?
“Son, I don’t want to lose you again.”
William’s eyes closed, but he didn’t answer.
“Because when you came back to me after all those years…” Damn, Guy’s voice cracked and they were all staring at him. Even the teenager. He hated to be on display like this, but if this was what it took for William to know the truth, then he’d do it. “I thought I’d lost you forever and ever. They told me you were gone.”
Confusion pulled at William’s brow. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“You do, though, William,” Guy insisted. “You know what I’m talking about.”
“Actually, I don’t.” He stooped over and picked up the clicker and batteries, avoiding Guy’s eyes as he put the thing back together again. “But just calm down—”
“I don’t want to calm down!” Guy yelled.
Missy jumped back with a soft gasp.
“Sorry,” he said quickly, reaching for her, but she stepped away from him, holding up a hand.
“Don’t.” William was between them in a second, as if he were guarding her or something.
“I’m not… going to…” One of his loose threads tugged at his brain. An old, frayed bit he rarely thought about, but he could just imagine what was happening in his head as that thread curled into one of the many holes in his brain and tried to tie something together.
William… and this girl.
William… and… someone.
But no matter how hard he tugged, he couldn’t pull the memory. “Please don’t be mad at me,” he said instead, to both of them. “And, William, understand how scared I get when you’re gone. I lost you once, I really thought I’d never ever see you again, and all I had was my daugh—” The thread plucked and, suddenly, he could remember.
Both of them stared at him, jaws open. Oh dear, what had he done now?
“Your what?” Missy asked.
He closed his eyes. “I had a daughter.”
Nobody in the room said a word; not a single person so much as breathed.
“But she died when she was really, really young.” Guy reached toward William. “That’s why you’re everything to me, son. Everything.”
“ ’Kay, Guy. Let’s call it a night then, buddy.”
“Oh, thank you.” Guy felt the waterworks, but he didn’t care as he reached out to hug Will. “I love you, son. I love you so much.”
Will didn’t hug him back, but that was okay. He was here. His son was here.
Jocelyn managed to snag a ride back to Barefoot Bay with Lacey and Clay, even if Will wasn’t happy about that. He walked her to the car and promised to talk to her tomorrow,
but she’d had enough revelations, enough emotion, enough Guy, enough close calls, enough of everything.
Solitude screamed for her.
She rode in the back cab of Clay’s truck with Ashley, who, while texting, sent wayward glances at Jocelyn.
“Yes, Ash, the thing with my father is a tough situation,” Jocelyn finally said. “You can ask me about it, honey.”
Lacey looked over her shoulder to give Jocelyn a grateful smile.
“I was really wondering why you came home all wet.”
“We got caught in the rain.”
She leaned close and whispered, “Aunt Zoe said you totally don’t have your bra on.”
Jocelyn’s jaw dropped but, damn it, Clay heard and laughed.
“Listen to your iPod until we get home,” Lacey said sternly, fighting a smile. “But if you want to talk about your dad, Joss, I’ll come up to your villa and Clay can take Ashley home.”
“Thanks,” Jocelyn said. Solitude screamed, but she really needed to talk to Lacey, too. For a minute. “I’d like that.”
Ashley gave her another sideways look and Jocelyn gave her thigh a friendly punch.
“Hey, what’s that for?” Ashley asked.
“For Zoe. Give it to her next time you see her.”
When Jocelyn and Lacey stepped into the dimly lit villa, Lacey was the one to drop on the sofa with a huge sigh. “Well, you missed all the drama.”
“I got enough, thank you very much.” She turned on the softest light in the living area and looked down at her T-shirt. “Why does Zoe have to notice everything?”
“Where is it?” Lacey asked, curling a long stawberry-blonde curl and giving a sheepish, teasing smile.
“Somewhere in right field.”
“At Mimosa High?” She practically choked.
“Don’t be scandalized. I’m sure it’s not the first bra to be left at that field. Hell, there’s probably an entire Victoria’s Secret catalog buried under the bleachers.” Jocelyn headed to the back. “I’m going to change. Help yourself to some water or… milk.”
“You have any?”
“No, but it was nice of me to offer, wasn’t it?”
After she changed into sleep pants and a tank top, brushed the rain out of her hair, and clipped it up, Jocelyn returned to the living room to find Lacey flat out on the couch, sound asleep.
“Whoa, mama. Somebody’s tired.”
Lacey blinked, sighed, and rolled over, grabbing a pillow with a soft moan. “Oh, I’m so glad I went for the expensive fabric on these pillows.”
“So your drool won’t stain?”
She smiled, eyes closed. “This babymaking job is tiring.”
“ ’Specially when you’re building a resort in your spare time, raising a teenager, and attending family drama performances.”
She opened her eyes. “He’s really messed up, isn’t he?”
“Confused, I believe, is the proper term.” Jocelyn opened a water bottle. “I kinda wish this were wine.”
“There’s some in there,” Lacey said. “I stocked your fridge.”
“No wonder you’re exhausted.”
“So…” Lacey dragged herself up. “You want to tell
me what happened with Will or would you like to hear how Tessa took the news?”
Jocelyn slammed the bottle on the table hard enough to spill a little water. “You told her?”
“We told everyone. Well, we told Ashley at home first. Then we told the gang tonight.”
Guilt squeezed. “Damn, what was I doing? I should have been there for Tessa.”
“Zoe was there. You were leaving underwear on the baseball field. Did you do it?”
“No.” She rolled her eyes. “Nothing is sacred, is it?”
“Is it?” Lacey sat up a little higher, getting her own water. “Is sex with Will Palmer sacred?”
What a damn good question. “It’s not… meaningless, let’s put it that way.” The need to share her fears rose up a little, but she tamped it down. She shared judiciously. And so, so rarely. And this subject? Totally off limits. “How did Tessa take the news?”
“She was fine. I think she already knew.”
“Really?” Wouldn’t she have said something to Jocelyn? They’d talked so much about infertility in the past eight or ten years. “God, I hate how we’re always keeping things from each other.”
“From the Queen Secret Keeper.”
Jocelyn shrugged. “My secrets are out,” she said. “My dad’s mean and badly…”
“Confused.”
“Yes. And I came home from a walk with my old next-door neighbor missing some clothes. I have no secrets left.” Just one.
“Coco Kirkman.”
Okay, two. “No word from those reporters?” she asked.
“Clay talked to Slade Garrison and he saw them sniffing around the harbor asking questions, and don’t take this personally, but most of the people on this island barely remember you. Of course Slade knows who your dad is, since he was the former sheriff, but he retired so early, even before your mom died. But since then, he’s been off the radar, and really, those reporters are getting nowhere. Charity is your only real danger.”
Charity was no danger. “I need to go see her tomorrow. I’ll find out if anyone else is asking about me.”
“You’re safe up here,” Lacey said.
“I know.” A rush of affection rolled through her, making Jocelyn reach over and give Lacey’s ankles a squeeze. “Thank you for this sanctuary. You have no idea how much this means to me.”
Lacey smiled. “You can pay me back.”
“Anything. Name it.”
“Take the job.”
Jocelyn laughed softly. “I walked right into that one.”
“I’m serious.”
“Lacey… I don’t know.”
Lacey sat up completely, awake and alert. And, oh God, on a mission. “You could be close to Will.”
“What makes you think that’s a plus?”
“The bra in the outfield.”
She’d never live that down. “A little trip around the bases does not a relationship make.”
Lacey looked skyward. “You are so into him, why are you lying to yourself? And he’s like… wow. He adores you. It’s all over his face. He couldn’t even string a noun and a verb together to make a sentence in the sub meeting yesterday.”
“That’s not because of me.” That was because of what Guy did.
“Bull.”
“It’s not, but listen, taking your job offer is not about Will. Or any man. Not that there really is any other man to consider, but—”
“Of course there is.”
“No.” She gave Lacey a serious look. “I’m not seeing anyone in L.A. Not even clients,” she added with a rueful laugh.
“That’s not the man I meant. I meant your father.”
“Oh. Him. I’m putting him in a home.” Wasn’t she?
Lacey’s look was sheer compassion and possibly a little mind reading. “Are you certain about that?”
Maybe she should go get the pictures hidden in her bureau and put the whole conversation to bed. “Relatively certain.”
“Because Zoe said…”
“What?”
She shrugged, sliding her feet to the floor and slipping them into flip-flops. “Nothing. She was mistaken.”
“What did Zoe say, Lace?”
“She thought you might be changing your mind, is all. I think she’s developing a soft spot for the old guy.” Lacey stood, smoothed her wrinkled top, and pulled out her phone to glance at a text. “Clay’s going to meet me and walk home with me,” she said.
“Okay.” Jocelyn stood to hug her friend, holding her tighter and longer than she held most people. “I’m honored that you think I have this job in me.”
“Are you kidding? The place would be run like a German U-boat. But it’s more than that,” she said, reaching
up to cup Jocelyn’s face. “You need to take risks, Joss. You need to take chances. If you don’t, you’re always going to be protected.”