Because He Watches Me (Because He Owns Me, Book Nine) (An Alpha Billionaire Romance) (47 page)

“Actually, yes. I do know it.”

“Hey, how are you doing?”

“Can’t complain.”

“No seriously. Tell me what’s been going on with you. I’m sick and tired of dwelling on my own stupid problems,” Nicole laughed.

Danielle laughed too. And then she told her about the guy she’d met last week who’d turned out to be a total jerk. He’d taken her out to a nice dinner and paid for it and pretty much assumed that meant he was at least entitled to a blowjob.

Nicole just thanked her lucky stars that Red wasn’t one of those guys.

Danielle said that it had been hard living in their apartment by herself, and feeling more alone, feeling the lack of a companion in her life.

“I’m going to come back and spend more time with you,” Nicole said. “We’re going to hang out more, I promise.”

“It’s okay,” Danielle said. “I’m doing fine, seriously.”

“I know you’re fine, but I think it would be fun to have a girl’s night—get manicures, get our hair done. Maybe eat ice cream later on and watch bad TV.”

“Sure,” her old roommate laughed.

“Hey, thanks again for listening and for giving such great advice.”

“No problem, Nic.”

Nicole got off the phone, smiling to herself and thinking how lucky she was. Her life was charmed and most of the time she didn’t even appreciate it, she was so wrapped up in the day-to-day silliness of work, and Red’s issues, and their relationship.

Feeling a new sense of purpose, Nicole dried her tears and went back upstairs to talk to Red and apologize for leaving the room that way.

But when she got there, he was gone.

A strange fluttering sensation moved through her stomach. She checked the bathroom and he wasn’t there either.

Next, she walked to the study, hoping against hope that she wouldn’t find him in that damn room again.

Unfortunately, that’s exactly where he was.

“Hey,” she said, watching him as he sat in that same chair near the window, drinking some kind of alcohol. It almost felt like she’d gone back in time.

“Hey,” he replied, not bothering to look at her.

“I’m sorry that I left like that. I should have stayed and tried to work things out, but I just felt upset and overwhelmed.”

“I totally get it,” he said, taking a quick sip from his glass. He swirled the liquid around absentmindedly, still not looking at her.

Nicole came forward into the room. “Are you okay?”

“No, not particularly.”

“What is it? You’re scaring me a little.”

Finally he turned and looked at her. His eyes had circles under them and his expression was pained. “I’m sorry if I’m scaring you, Nicole. You should never have to feel scared. Never.”

“I just want things to go back to normal,” she told him. “Let’s go lay in bed together and laugh and talk and kiss. This is silly.”

“No it’s not.” He shook his head slowly. “I thought a lot about how I’m treating you and I don’t think it’s very good. It’s not what you deserve.”

“You treat me wonderfully. You just have some things to work out.”

“No, it’s way beyond that,” he said. “I’m no good for you, Nicole. I’m a bad guy and anyone who’s with me is going to end up in a bad place sooner or later. I can’t let that happen to you. I care too much about you.”

She walked closer still and tried to touch his shoulder but he pulled away.

“Red, you’re tired and you’re upset. You should sleep on it and then we can talk tomorrow.”

He glanced at her sadly. “Fine,” he said.

She held out her hand. “Come to bed with me.”

“In a minute,” he said softly. Then he went back to staring outside.

She left the study, her stomach doing flips and twists as she tried to understand just what was going on. She told herself things would be better in the morning.

***

W
hen they woke
up the next day, Jeb was already gone. He’d left a brief note on the kitchen counter saying that he was sorry if his intrusion had caused any problems, and that he was glad to have met Nicole.

When Nicole showed the note to Red, he barely even glanced at it.

His eyes were red-rimmed and glassy as he drank his morning coffee. “I’ve called a car to come get you,” he said.

She just stared at him. Her stomach sank. “Did you sleep at all last night?”

“Not really.”

“Red, please—you need to get some rest.”

He sipped his coffee. “I’m not going to change my mind on this, Nicole.”

“Why are you intentionally trying to sabotage us?” she said. “After everything we’ve been through?”

“Exactly,” he replied. “We’ve been through too much in such a short time, and let’s be honest. It’s all my fault.”

“That’s not true.”

“But it is. All of these games, all of the hoops I’ve made you jump through, the mental gymnastics. It’s all because of me.” He thought about it and laughed a hollow, despairing laugh. “I’m really just like her.”

“Just like who?” Nicole said, already knowing the answer.

“Just like my mother. The manipulating, the self-obsession. We’re two peas in a pod, her and I.”

“That’s not true. You’re not like her at all. You’re a kind, loving, decent man and I won’t let you talk about yourself that way.”

“Thank you for saying that,” he smiled. The smile didn’t touch his weary eyes. “But just the same, I’m going to give you the greatest gift I can possibly give you—which is to disappear from your life.”

The tears started now. She wiped them away, angry at herself for being weak again. “This isn’t a gift. You’re taking away the best thing either of us has.”

“You’ll look back in a few months or a year and see that I did you a favor,” he told her. “Now come on. The car is waiting.”

She almost refused to go, but from the look on his face she knew it was no use. Red had made up his mind.

When she got outside to the car, the driver was already putting her bags in the trunk. Nicole turned toward Red. “Looks like you were all prepared to kick me out. Just like your mother and your brother.”

She saw him flinch a little at her words, and regretted it instantly.

“It’s very different,” he said. “You’ll never possibly know how hard this is for me. But I care more about your happiness than my own, and you deserve a far better life than I can ever give you.”

“That’s such bullshit,” she told him. The tears were coming again. “You’re just afraid.”

“Not for myself,” he said, taking her arm and gently walking her to the car. “Go on now. And have a wonderful life and remember that there’s someone who will always love you, no matter what.”

“Is this how you show your love?” she cried, getting in the car.

“Someday you’ll look back and understand,” he said, closing the door.

Nicole closed her eyes and didn’t open them again until she was far away.

***

M
any things had changed
in a single week, Nicole thought as she and Danielle came back from a night out at one of the nearby clubs.

It had been refreshing to go out and just dance with a bunch of drunken girl friends and not think about Red or anything that came along with him.

But still, she thought, entering her old apartment, so much had changed.

Just the other day, she’d seen the report on TV about Red Jameson being fired by his board of directors.

She’d already known about it, of course. The company had had a big meeting a couple of days prior to alert the employees about everything that was happening.

To say that people in the office stared at her funny lately, would have been an understatement. Everywhere she went people gawked now. And sometimes they were even bold enough to ask her what Red was doing, where he was staying, when was the last time she’d talked to him?

Red Jameson was their version of Elvis Presley or Tupac—a celebrity that might be anywhere in the world or nowhere at all.

She told them the truth. She had no clue where Red was now and what he was doing.

The Rag had even run some report on him that claimed he was the new Howard Hughes. Red Jameson had gone completely insane and was now living on a tropical island under an assumed identity with a new face given to him by a willing plastic surgeon.

The sad part of it was, Nicole thought it possible that the article in The Rag was accurate. For all she knew, Red had made sure that he could never be found and would never enter her life again in any way.

Mostly she told herself it was for the best.

But most of the time, Nicole also knew it was a lie. She missed him and she ached for him in every cell of her body—wept for the loss in deepest part of her soul.

Nicole didn’t care if he was crazy, didn’t care if he was bad news. She just knew that she loved him and he loved her, and hoped maybe someday he’d figure out what something like that was truly worth.

Lately though, Nicole had started to feel like the connection might be lost. Lately, she’d started to wonder if the man she thought she loved even truly existed, or ever had existed.

How ironic it was, then, when she and Danielle were home from the dance club, slightly tipsy, getting ready for some Ben and Jerry’s ice cream and a little bad reality TV before bed—that Nicole’s cell phone rang and she instantly knew it had to do with Red.

The connection that she feared was gone, never to return—was as alive as a downed power line, sparking and dancing on an empty street.

Before she even answered, Nicole knew it would be about Red.

“Hello,” she said into the phone, her heart pounding like mad in her chest.

“Hello Nicole,” came the reply. It wasn’t Red, though. It was the man who’d helped destroy him. The voice belonged to Kane Wright.

“Don’t ever call me again,” she rasped. “I don’t know how you got this number—“

“Let’s dispense with the hysterics,” Kane said gently. “I’m calling because I want to see you and speak to you.”

“I don’t have any interest in that,” she said.

“I’ve gone out of my way not to hurt Red Jameson because of you,” came his response in that slightly accented, cultured voice. “But if you disrespect me, I might decide to completely crush the man instead.”

“Isn’t owning his company enough? What more do you want?”

“I think we both know the answer to that, Nicole.”

She bit her lower lip. “What do you want from me?”

“Just a meeting. Agree to meet with me. You don’t have to do anything else.”

Danielle was watching her with wide, concerned eyes.

“So if I meet with you, you’ll leave Red alone?” she said.

“Please, this isn’t some Hollywood film starring Liam Neeson,” he laughed. “I’m not a movie villain, Nicole. The terms are constantly changing and I make no promises. But if you at least meet with me, there’s a chance for things to work out. And that’s something, isn’t it?”

“I don’t know if it’s worth it.”

“I promise I won’t bite. Give me a few minutes of your precious time, hear what I have to say.”

Nicole swallowed, knowing her answer was probably going to change her life, and possibly Red’s too.

“Yes,” she said.

K
ane Wright told
Nicole to meet him at his club, Venture, located in the Meatpacking District. Danielle wanted to go with her to make sure she was safe, but

Nicole told her to stay home.

“Who will call the cops if both of us go missing?” Nicole asked her. That shut Danielle up temporarily.

But as the taxi had pulled up outside the apartment and Nicole readied herself to leave, Danielle stood in front of the door. “This is a really bad idea. Why are you still fighting for him, Nic?”

Why am I still fighting for Red?

She didn’t bother trying to answer, because there was no answer—at least, nothing that would satisfy Nicole’s overprotective roommate. Nicole was fighting for Red because she had no choice, and because despite everything, she still knew that he loved her and would have done it for her had the situations been reversed.

The taxi ride was long and the neighborhoods got worse and worse as they closed in on the address for the club.

Finally, just when they reached the most run down, desolate spot of all, the cab slowed and the driver announced that they’d arrived.

Standing outside Venture, Nicole was regretting that she didn’t have Danielle by her side. The cab took off before she had a chance to ask the driver to wait a moment until she was safely inside.

The street around her was empty, and she was surrounded by urban decay—buildings that looked unused, crumbling. She thought there were likely several thriving crack houses in the area.

The club itself appeared to be closed, but she could hear the steady thump of industrial music coming from within.

Palms sweaty, heart racing, Nicole tried to open the door and found it locked. She pounded on it a few times with her fist. “Hello?” she called out, feeling like an idiot.

A moment later, the door swung open and a man in a skintight dark t-shirt stared her down. He was pale, so pale that she was sure he must be an albino. Or was he just a weird guy pretending to be an albino? Either way, Nicole decided he creeped her out in a major way. His pale eyes were like two glinting white marbles in his head. “Yessssssss?” he asked with an odd, lopsided grin.

“I’m here to see Kane Wright,” she told him.

“Oh, honey,” he clucked, shaking his head at her. “I don’t think he wants to see you.”

“He’s expecting me.” She tried to stand her ground, even as everything in her told her to just run away as fast as she could.

The albino made a screwy face as if he really and truly couldn’t comprehend the notion that Kane Wright would want anything to do with a girl that looked like her. “If you’re wasting my time, I’m going to make sure you regret it.”

Despite the man’s flamboyant manner, Nicole sensed that he was a dangerous person. For one thing he was muscular, wiry—and he also looked like he’d been in a lot of altercations in his time. Pale, thick scars were visible on his neck, his cheek, and one scar ran the length of his bicep.

“I’m not wasting your time,” she told him. “But you’re wasting Mr. Wright’s time, and I wonder if he’d like that.”

The albino man grinned at her again, a leering, greedy look. “You better hope you’re truly a guest of Mr. Wright’s honey. For your own sake.”

She crossed her arms as he closed the door and disappeared back inside. Nicole once again considered turning around and getting the hell away from this place, but before she could convince herself to do it, the door opened once more.

The albino man was back, with a severely altered attitude. “We should hurry,” he said, the grin wiped from his face. “Come with me.”

Nicole tried to restrain a smile.

Inside, she could more clearly hear the thump-thump-thump of the base from that industrial music. The halls were dark and foreboding, the dim strobe light blinking off and on, and as they walked, she was aware of shadowy people watching her pass by.

She could feel their eyes on her, watching her, thinking god only knew what about her.

Bare chested men, semi-naked women, tattooed, clad in leather—these were the people that inhabited Club Venture.

The albino man led Nicole into a stairwell, and as they walked into it, she heard moans and groans and slurping sounds bouncing and echoing off the walls. The sounds came from a flight below—what must have been the basement level. It could have been a couple or it could have been five people down there, and Nicole didn’t care to know which it was.

They started to climb the stairs.

On the second floor, the albino stopped and led them out of the stairwell, into another long hallway with doors on both sides. “Go all the way down to the last door on the left,” he told her. “Give a knock and Mr. Wright will let you in.”

She started to walk down the long hallway.

“Bye now, honey,” he called to her. “I hope to see you again real soon.” And then he flitted away.

Alone in the hallway, Nicole almost missed her albino chaperone—but not really. She walked slowly, hearing the thumping music louder again. Finally she reached the last door on the left and knocked.

When the door opened, Kane Wright was behind it. He was wearing a cream colored suit, his hair immaculate, smiling at her as if she were an old friend who’d dropped by his summer house out of the blue. “Nicole, my dear. So good to see you. Come inside, please.”

She was surprised that the room she walked into was large, well-lit, with a white carpet and white, modern furniture to match. A window on the left wall overlooked the inside of the dance club from above. Strobe lights pulsed and flashed and a mob of people moved almost as a single organism below them.

Although this room was removed from the club atmosphere, it soaked it in a little just the same.

“Drink?” Kane offered.

She shook her head once. No.

“Please, have a seat then.” He motioned to one of the white couches. She sat down and felt its immediate luxury, sank into it just enough to feel enveloped.

Nicole had taken great care to dress down for this meeting.

She wanted there to be no confusion, so she’d worn unflattering jeans, sandals, and a light gray sweater. Her hair was not particularly styled and she’d put on no makeup whatsoever.

Kane went and poured himself a drink of some sort and then sat down across from her, affable, as he always seemed to be. “Any troubles getting here?”

She shrugged. “You’ve got a strange employee working the door, but other than that it was fine.”

“Oh,” he grinned. “You must mean Jeffrey. He’s nice enough once you get to know him. And as long as you don’t make fun of him being pale.”

“What happens if you make fun of him?”

Kane took a long, luxurious sip of his drink and then smacked his lips. “I think the last guy who made a joke ended up leaving the club in a stretcher.”

“How lovely. What a nice employee to have working for you.”

Kane shrugged, clearly not interested in what she thought about his associate. “So,” he said, tilting his glass toward her, “have you heard from Red lately?”

“Why don’t you just tell me what you want?” she said, growing impatient. She crossed her legs and set her jaw, tilting her head slightly the way she did when she was angry or felt threatened.

Kane took note of her posture. “Don’t be so hostile, Nicole. I haven’t been rude to you, now, have I?”

“You threatened someone I care a great deal about.”

“It’s interesting that you’re so protective of a man who continually embarrasses you, Nicole.”

“That’s none of your business.”

“Perhaps not,” Kane sighed. “But for some reason I feel like I want to help you.”

“That’s strange. You don’t even know me.”

“It is strange. I’ve been puzzled by it myself. But I think if we can come to terms tonight, I’ll be able to find out just what I’m so taken with you.”

“Maybe you’re just lonely.”

“Perhaps. But there are plenty of women willing to keep me company, Nicole. That’s not really an issue. What’s more difficult is finding someone who I deem to be worth of my time.”

“Maybe you should try being a little less stuck up,” she said.

Kane smiled at her as if she’d just given him a huge compliment. “See? That’s part of it. I like your spunk. I like that you’re not going to back down. Sure, at first you might come off like a little mouse of a girl. But peel a few layers back and there’s Lara Croft waiting to riddle you with bullets.”

“I’m don’t raid tombs anymore. I’m officially retired, Mr. Wright.”

“Please. Call me Kane.”

“I’m not very interested in playing games, Kane.”

He nodded slightly. “Understood. But I’m not trying to play a game with you. I’m trying to get to know you better.”

“You sure have a strange way of going about it.”

“Maybe you could give me a chance to start fresh. I’d like you to come with me to The Cayman Islands next week.”

Nicole actually laughed. She couldn’t help it—she thought it was one of the craziest things anyone had ever said to her. “Do women you’ve just met often agree to accompany you overseas?”

“Sure they do,” he said. “And I think you’ve got better reason than most to give me a chance.”

“What reason is that?”

He sat back and folded his hands over his stomach. “I’ve recently found out some disturbing information about Red Jameson. Information that could be very problematic for him if it was to be made public.”

“What kind of information?”

He sighed. “Information about his illegal activities. He could go to jail for it, possibly, and certainly public opinion would be very harsh if any of it were to come to light.”

“I don’t believe you. I don’t think Red did anything illegal.”

“Spouses rarely think the worst of their loved ones.”

“You’re going to threaten to release this information about Red if I don’t agree to go to the Caymans with you?” She shook her head in disbelief. “You’re even worse than I thought.”

Kane just looked at her. “I know you’ll be angry with me for awhile, but I feel confident we’ll get past it. And if you still hate me at the end of the trip, then…” he shrugged.

Nicole stood up. “I’m not going to even dignify this proposition with a response.”

“Nicole, don’t go,” he said.

She stopped and turned to look at him. “If you want to hurt Red, I can’t stop you by having sex with you. I’m sorry but I refuse to do that.”

Kane started to laugh. “Whoever said anything about sex?”

“I think inviting me on a trip to the Caymans is pretty much telling me you expect me to sleep with you.”

“You don’t know me, Nicole,” he said, still laughing. “Red must have truly traumatized you with his behavior if that’s what you think I’m indicating.”

“Then what are you saying?”

“I’m simply asking you to spend some time with me—a few days. Let’s get to know one another.”

“I’m still in love with Red.”

Kane’s smile died on his lips. Clearly, he was a man not accustomed to being told no. “He’s weak, Nicole. When things got difficult between the two of you, he ran away. What sort of man is that?”

“I can’t change how I feel,” she said.

“I don’t expect you to.”

“Then what do you expect?” She asked, knowing she should just walk out, but afraid to do so.

Kane stood up and came a single step closer to her. “Think about my proposition. A few days in the Caymans with me. I promise there will be no demands made of you, other than you spend some time with me eating wonderful food, laying on the beach, swimming in crystal clear water. Most people pay quite a lot of money for a vacation like that.”

“And if I agree, you’ll make sure that this information about Red never becomes a problem. You won’t ever release it to anybody?”

He looked her straight in the eye. “I swear I won’t ever put it out there. And it could be very bad for him if anything ever did get out. Homeland Security in particular would be very interested.”

“Would they?” she said. “Why would Homeland Security care about what Red was doing?”

“He was helping undocumented workers from Middle Eastern countries gain access to the U.S. through employment with his company.”

“Why would he do that?” Nicole asked. “That doesn’t make any sense to me.”

“You’d have to ask him why he did it,” Kane told her, turning and walking toward the window that overlooked the dance floor. “Maybe Red Jameson isn’t the man you believe him to be.”

Nicole was spinning from everything Kane had just told her. His threats and promises buzzed around in her head like a swarm of bees. “I think I should go home now,” she said.

He nodded. “Let me get Jeffrey to drive you.”

“You’ve got to be joking.”

Suddenly Kane broke into a boyish grin. “Of course I’m joking, Nicole. Besides, Jeffrey’s having some problems with his driver’s license right about now. I’ll have my personal driver take you home instead.”

Kane took his cell phone out and texted something rapid fire. Then he looked up at Nicole. “Think about my offer,” he said.

She chewed a little on her lower lip, thinking about what two or three days alone with Kane would be like. There was no way she could ever be attracted to him. In fact, she could hardly stand to be in his physical presence.

On the other hand, if he kept to his word about this trip, all she would have to do is grit her teeth and bear it. Make conversation, go swimming, eat a few meals with him. She’d of course stay in her own room—that was a deal breaker.

And when it was over, Red would be safe again. Except that she had no idea if Kane Wright would honor the agreement.

“I’m just not sure I can trust you,” she said.

“What have you got to lose?” Kane asked.

“A lot,” she said, her eyes locking on his. “Just because I’m not rich like you, doesn’t mean I have nothing to lose.”

“Here’s my cell number,” he said, handing her a business card. “Don’t answer now. Sleep on it tonight.”

Nicole didn’t even look at his card—she just thrust it into her purse.

Kane walked her out of the room and down the hallway, into the stairwell. As they descended, he gently put a hand on the small of her back. Nicole almost told him not to touch her, but decided it wasn’t worth it.