Before Now (Sometimes Never) (4 page)

What the hell is her name? Something with a P. Parris or Page. Penny?

I tap her shoulder, signaling for her to move her head or get a mouth full. She sits back on her heels and grins at me. She’s not nearly as pretty as I thought she was last night. But her hand keeps moving and I decide I don’t give a shit what her face looks like because she has a truly amazing talent.

I close my eyes so I d
on’t have to look at her as I come. It’s fucked up, I know, but I don’t even remember her name. She’s just some girl that acted like she was better than me, so I brought her down to my level for a few hours.

I’m not complaining about the wake-up call. I needed to get up anyway. I grab a
handful of tissues—fucking pink—from her nightstand and clean myself up. As I shove my legs in my jeans, she wraps her hands around my waist from behind, and I cringe.

“What are you doing?”

“I have to go,” I say, detangling her pink polished fingers from my stomach. “Got shit to do. I’m already late.”

“Oh.” She sighs and I can imagine the disappointed expression on her face. I don’t bother to look. Instead, I throw my shirt on and plop down on the edge of the bed to put my boots on. Her hands slide up my back and I have to force myself not to shake her off.

“When do you think you’ll be done?”

I laugh and shake my head. “Look…”

“Piper,” she provides coolly.

Piper. That’s it
. “Piper, I had fun, but I’m not looking for a relationship.”

Her teeth snap together and she stares at me. “Me either.”

I laugh again, this time with bitterness. “Yeah, I’ve heard that before.” I kiss her cheek and push myself up. “Thanks for the wake and take. See ya later.”

“Fuck you, Park.”

I grin as I snatch up my keys. “You already did. Twice.”

I duck out the door just as something shatters against the wall.

***

I
avoided the Saturday morning breakfast this past weekend. I also learned to avoid Monday afternoons after walking into the bathroom to find Lucy in her cut-off jean shorts and a tank top, bent over the bathtub scrubbing soap scum away. Apparently Jessie pays her to clean once a week. Now I make a mental note to add the laundry room on Wednesdays to my list of places to steer clear. She’s too tempting and I can’t afford to be tested.

I almost walk
back out when I see her folding towels in front of a dryer. She’s in another one of those long skirts, only she has one side pulled up and tucked into the waist. I have a great view of her crazy sexy legs and it physically hurts to look at her. She smiles as she pulls the headphones from her ears. “Hi Park. Haven’t seen you around lately.”

I place my bag on a washer and scratch my neck. “I’ve been busy.”

“You taking summer classes?”

I turn my back to her and start dumping my clothes. “No.”

“Been working?”

“Yeah.”

She gets quiet and I glance back at her. Her arms are folded in front of her, emphasizing her chest. When my gaze makes it back to her face, she narrows her gray eyes at me. “Are you going to be weird around me now or are you always like this?”

Her fiery attitude catches me off guard and I grin at her. “Like what?”

She shrugs her slim shoulders. “I don’t know…cold?”

I chuckle. “That’s me in a nut shell.”

“What are you out of the shell?”

“This is it,” I say hoarsely. I don’t want her to know more. Hell, I honestly don’t know if there even is more.

I stare at her, at her big eyes and full lips, contemplating throwing her on top of one of these washing machines. I don’t know what she sees when she looks at me, but there’s raw heat in her gaze, like she’s full of passion. Like she wants to see what I’m full of. Like she already can. And I want to be a part of it. I want to feel it.

She
licks those damn lips and I have to discretely adjust my jeans. If she wasn’t the forbidden fruit, I wouldn’t hide. I’d show her exactly how sexy I find her. I’d let myself feel something good for a little while.

But she is forbidden
.

“Okay,” she relents. “So, I was thinking about making dinner for everyone—”

“I have a gig tonight—”

“—t
omorrow.” She tucks her hair behind her ear. “Do you DJ with Jessie?”

“No.” I turn back to my washer and pour in some detergent.

“What do you do? You said gig.”

“I sing.”

She arches her brows. “In a band?”

“No. I’
m a wedding singer,” I deadpan. “Yes in a band.
A Fool’s Paradise
.”

Realization colors her features and she squints at me. “Park…”

“Yeah?”

“No. Nothing.” She bites her lip and shakes her he
ad like she knows better than to tell me what she was about to say. Now I really want to know.

“What were you going to say,
Lucy?”

“Nothing. I just remembered you.”

I cock a brow and move in front of her. “You remember me?”

“Not you, just something…never mind.”

“Oh. You’ve seen us play?” I chuckle. Our shows get pretty intense.

She picks up her basket and backs away from me. “I’ll see you later.” She pauses, biting at her lip again. If she keeps that up, I’m going to start biting it for her. “You’ll come tomorrow? For dinner?”

I hold her gaze. “Probably shouldn’t.”

“That stuff with
Jessie—it wasn’t about you. I just hate him acting like that. He thinks he’s my big brother. I’d like us to be friends. You should come.”

“Friends?”
I nearly spit the word. Fuck friends. I don’t need another
friend
.

“
Yeah.” She grins and adjusts the basket in front of her.

I smirk at her and let my eyes graze over her body. “I don’t know how to be friends with someone I’m attracted to.” If she’s not going to listen to
Jessie’s advice, I can at least be honest with her. And it is the truth. I have no clue how to be friends with a girl anymore.

Her lips part and that stormy look glazes her eyes. “You’re attracted to me?”

I nod, dropping the smirk because she looks sexy as hell shifting her feet nervously. “Can’t help it. You’re hot.”

She rolls her eyes. “Well, learn to help it, Park, because I’m not the kind of girl
that has one night stands. But I’m nice, and I’m a pretty loyal friend. I think you could use a good friend.”

I swallow tightly as she shifts the basket on her hip and starts for the stairs. “Be there at six,” she calls.

Fuck that. I’m not going
.

***

I roll over, my hand landing on something soft and warm. I squint one eye and try to focus on the girl in my bed.

Motherfucking
goddamnsonofabitchingshit
. They are not allowed in my bed. I never bring them home. I always—
always
go to their place. I must’ve been beyond wasted last night. I hate this part. I hate trying to get rid of them. And now she knows where I live. Which means she can come back.

I nudge her shoulder. Her short, dark hair spill
s into her face as she moves with my hand. “Hey. Wake up.”

The girl opens her eyes and blinks at me. “What?”

“You need to go,” I rasp.

She closes her eyes and I’m afraid she’
s going to fall back asleep. I poke her in the ribs. “Hey.”

“I heard you. Gim
me a minute. I’m still drunk.”

I rub a hand over my face.
Shit. So am I
. “I’d let you stay, but my roommate will get pissed.”

“Well we wouldn’t want to anger
Jessie,” she says sarcastically.

Wait. I’m too out of it to catch up. “You know
Jessie?”

She laughs, her eyes still closed.
She points a long, slender finger at her chest. “Cousin.”

You have got to be fucking shitting me. I let my head drop back on my pillow and stare up at the ceiling. No.

No
.

I did not do this.

I’m having some weird-ass dream.

I did not have sex with
Jessie’s cousin.

I turn my head and she’s peering at me out of one eye. I am so screwed.
Jessie’s going to kick my ass out on the street. Life lesson number 5: Don’t mess with your friend’s family. Especially the crazy ones.

“I’ll be gone before he wakes up. He’ll never know. Now chill out and go back to sleep.”

“No. You need to go. Now. I’ll pay for your cab.”

She sighs heavily. “How gentlemanly of you.” She sits up, her naked body exposed to me. Yeah. I was wasted beyond belief. She’s anorexic skinny.
Not something I’ve ever found attractive. I can see every ridge in her spine as she leans over to grab a cigarette.

“You can’t smoke that in here.
Jessie makes me smoke on the fire escape.”

She rolls her eyes and
tucks the cigarette behind her ear. I watch her get dressed, fighting the urge to help her so she can get the hell out of my room. “So…” She clears her throat and screws her lips to the side. “I’ll see you around.”

I grab my wallet from the jeans on the floor and hand her t
wo twenties, trying really hard not to acknowledge the fact that I’m paying a girl I just slept with. “Yeah. See ya.”

She stops in front of the door. “Just so you know, you couldn’t…we didn’t…”

“We didn’t?”

She
narrows her eyes at the hopeful connotation in my voice. I can’t help myself. I sigh with relief. “No. You were too drunk to get it up.” With that, she throws open the door and stomps down the hallway, not bothering to be quiet. When the front door slams, I fall back on my bed and into a sleepy oblivion.

***

I step out of the shower, not bothering to dry off as I wrap a towel around my waist. Picking up my iPod, I open the door, letting the steam out, and pad back to my room.

There’
s a knock at the door and I cringe. My head is killing me, plus I’m pretty sure I already know who it is. I purposely locked the window after Jessie left for Lucy’s dinner. I stalk to the front door and fling it open, not bothering to mask my irritation. How am I supposed to avoid her when she searches me out?

“What?”

Lucy crosses her arms. “Why aren’t you in my apartment?” She looks past me, trying to see inside and I feel my lips lift in a crooked smile at her refusal to acknowledge I’m in nothing but a towel.

“I’m not going,” I say. Her eyes drift back to mine and I can read the disappointment clearly in her gaze.

“You’re being stubborn.”

I rest my arm on the door frame above my head and lean toward her. She doesn’t react in any way and I grin at her.
“I’m following orders.” I flick my eyes over her body, from her loose hippie braid, all the way down to her bright orange Converse. I smile at that. When I’ve made my way back to her face, she’s watching me take her in. She sighs and shifts her weight to her other side. I lean out further, deliberately moving closer than is necessary, but she doesn’t back up. It’s like she doesn’t register my bare chest, inches from hers. I’m trying to mess with her, but her indifference to me is making me want to up my game, and turning me on at the same time.
That backfired like a motherfucker
.

“
Jessie knows I invited you. He’s okay with it.”

I drop my hand and step back. “He’
s okay with it?” I ask, disbelieving.

She nods and her gaze moves over my chest.
About time
. “Well, I told him and there’s nothing he can do about it.”
To you, maybe
.

“Why are you pushing this? Why’s it so important to you?”

“I don’t know. I like you, I guess.”

I grin at her. “You like me?”

She laughs and bites her lip. “I told you, I think we could be good friends.”

“Oh, we could be
great
friends, Lucy,” I say, letting my smile turn animalistic. “But then I’d end up homeless.”

“I’m serious.”

I rest my hands on my hips, right above the towel. “So am I.”

She growls at me. The sound sends a shot of need to all the
right places and I have to force myself stay where I am. She talks so big about friendship, but I’m sure I could get her in bed if I actually put forth the effort. I bet I could run the tip of my tongue over that mole below her ear and make her whimper. I bet I could brush my fingers along the inside of her thigh and have her begging me to move higher. I bet—