Authors: Isabel Wolff
‘And if they don’t get it?’
‘Then I’ll be out. I’m on a three-month contract so I’ve got to get results.’
‘Can’t you reduce the fees? Be a bit more competitive that way?’
‘We can’t afford to. It cost eight million to build—the land was very expensive and Nick Faldo designed the course.’
‘Then couldn’t you do an incentive thing? Like giving people a discount on the joining fee if they sign up now.’
‘We already are doing that.’
‘Women members?’
‘Of course. With access to all areas.’
‘Pay and play?’ He nodded.
‘Yes—they’ve reluctantly agreed, at a hundred a day.’
‘What about advertising?’
‘The budget’s already way overspent. The meeting was very stressful,’ he went on. ‘The shareholders made it clear that they expect me to pull a pretty spectacular rabbit out of the hat, but I don’t know how. I mean, I ran the resort at
Palm Springs very efficiently but I’ve never had to make a success of a club from a standing start.’
‘And there are a number of them down there already, aren’t there?’
‘Exactly. So we’ve got to offer something
new
.’
‘Hmm, well, I wish I could help you. When do you open?’
‘In mid-August, just before your birthday.’
‘And how’s it going in other ways? Are you adjusting to life in the UK?’
‘A little. At least the weather’s decent at the moment.’
‘It is. This has been a long fine spell. So what are you missing about Palm Springs?’
‘My friends, of course—and valet parking: it took me forty-five minutes to find a space this afternoon.’
‘And are you getting to know people yet?’
He shook his head. ‘Not really—that’ll take months. I just wish your mother would be friendly,’ he added. ‘I’d find the move here a lot easier.’ He was fiddling with his bread roll. ‘Actually, I’ve seen her again.’
‘Have you?’
‘At the gas station two days ago. I don’t know whether or not she spotted me, but I suspect she did as she drove off very fast. But I thought I should make the first friendly overture, so what I did was…’ He was looking slightly sheepish.
‘What?’
‘I called her. I found the number for East Sussex Llama Treks in the local phone book and left a message, asking her to get in touch.’
‘And did she?’
‘No. So I tried again the next day and found she’d blocked my number. So at least I know where I am. I just wish she’d be a bit more…reasonable.’
‘Well…’ I sighed. ‘You know what she’s like. Plus, she’s got problems of her own at the moment.’
‘Really?’
‘With the llamas. She needs a lot more business. They only really come into their own at the weekends because that’s when people do the treks. At the moment they’re not busy enough during the week and that worries her.’
‘I see.’
‘So, maybe she’ll be a bit more sociable when things pick up.’
‘I do hope so,’ he sighed. ‘I mean, I know I wasn’t the world’s best husband, Miranda. I know your mother felt neglected.’
‘That’s because you
did
neglect her, Dad—and me.’
‘Yes,’ he sighed. ‘That’s true. I was a young, selfish man. I decided to follow my dream. But you’d think that, after twenty years, she’d give me a break.’
‘Hmm. I do know what you mean.’
‘Anyway,’ he glanced at his watch. ‘I’d better get going. It’s quite a long drive.’
And I was just waving him off when I heard the phone. It was Daisy, back from the self-defence class.
‘It was
fantastic
,’ she exclaimed. ‘So
empowering
! You really
must
come. It was all about reducing one’s “victim potential”; and then assessing the threatening individual and deciding which of three courses of action to take—“Immediate Retreat”, “De-Escalation”, or “Confrontation”. He’s a
really
good teacher,’ she gushed. ‘So you’ll be there next week, won’t you?’
‘Yes.’
‘Do you promise me?’
‘I do.’
‘And have you heard from David again?’
‘I have.’
‘And?’
‘I’m seeing him on Saturday.’
‘
Good
. And I’ve been thinking about it, Miranda—the better you get to know him, the easier it will be to
tell
him, won’t it?’
‘Maybe.’ I wasn’t sure about that.
‘So what are you going to do this time?’
‘I don’t know. But he says he wants to do something “fun”.’
‘Ice skating,’ he said, when he called me on Saturday morning. ‘How about that? Why don’t we go ice skating?’
My heart sank. I’d look inept and inelegant. ‘Ice skating? In the summer?’
‘Why not? It’s better actually because it’s not so crowded. And I bet you haven’t been for ages, have you?’
‘No. The last time was when I was nine.’
‘So shall we go? We could go to the Queensway Ice Bowl, then have dinner.’
I chewed on my lower lip. ‘O-kay.’
‘Great. I’ll meet you outside at half-seven.’
When I came out of the tube at twenty-five past, David was already waiting. He was wearing jeans and a pale yellow shirt, and holding a bag. He smiled when he saw me, then kissed me on the cheek; and as he drew me into a hug I noticed his nice lemony scent again. As we went down the stairs I could hear the dull rumble of the bowling alley and the percussive bleeps of the amusement arcade.
‘I’ll be
useless
at this,’ I said, as he bought the tickets.
‘We won’t do it for long—just an hour. It’s a bit tacky here in some ways, but at least the rink’s reasonably big. Now, Miss Behaviour—you need skates.’
‘What about you?’ He smiled, then pulled a black pair out of his bag, along with a green jumper. ‘You’ve got your own ones?’
‘I used to play a lot of ice hockey. When we lived in the States.’
‘Ah.’ I remembered the hockey stick I’d seen in his room. ‘So you’re hot stuff then.’
‘Not bad. It’s something I do from time to time and I thought it would be fun to do it with you.’ I handed in my shoes at the counter and was given a pair of dark blue skates which looked more like ski-boots and were as hard to get into.
‘Let me help you,’ David said. I felt my face warm up as he held my right ankle and I held onto his shoulder. ‘What small feet you have, Grandmama,’ he said as he snapped shut the straps. Then he laced up his own skates, we pulled on our jumpers, and stepped gingerly onto the ice.
‘Let me just find my balance,’ he said. ‘Stay right there.’
‘Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere.’ As I clung to the handrail with both hands, shivering slightly, David suddenly sped away from me, like mercury, under the coloured lights, and in less than a minute had lapped the rink twice. Then he swished up to me so fast I thought he’d crash into me—then braked with a sharp parallel turn.
‘Gosh,’ I said. ‘You
are
hot stuff.’
‘Well I should be—I did it for years. But it’s not hard. I’ll show you. Come on.’ He extended his right hand—he wasn’t wearing gloves—and I anxiously reached out my left. I took a small step then skidded, and, with a burning surge of adrenaline, grabbed at the rail with both hands.
‘I can’t do this,’ I said, my heart pounding with the shock. ‘I just
can’t
. I’m so afraid of falling.’ I felt a slight twinge in my rib.
‘You won’t fall.’
‘I
will
.’
‘It’ll be easier if you give me your hand.’ I awkwardly turned myself round to face him. ‘Give me your hand,’ he repeated gently.
‘O-kay.’ Now I steadied myself against the rail with my right hand, while David clasped my left. Then he pushed off and I began to inch forward.
‘That’s
good
. Yes, that’s it. We’ll just go slowly round like this a few times.’
‘Uhhh,’ I murmured as three teenagers shot past with a rasp of steel on frost. ‘I’m going to be hopeless at this.
Ooh!
’ The right skate had suddenly slipped away from me again, but David had caught me under the arms. He laughed as he hung onto me, then lifted me upright.
‘I’m sorry.’
‘Don’t worry. I
won’t
let you fall. But don’t walk on the ice, Miranda, try to
glide
on it.’
‘I can’t.’
‘Yes you can. Just push forward with each foot—like this.’ Now he went in front of me and took both my hands in his, skating backwards while he gently dragged me forwards. ‘That’s better. Stand a little straighter.’
‘I can’t. I’ll fall down again.’
‘You won’t. I’m holding you.’
‘I
will
,’ I said, panicking. ‘I’ll lose my balance and pull you over too.’
‘You’re so light you can’t. That’s it. Now bend your knee, then push to the left, now the right, now the left. That’s it—
yes
—good—hey, you’re skating!’ I laughed with relief and surprise. ‘The trick is just to go very slowly at first.’ We went round like this for about fifteen minutes or so. I gradually gained confidence, I looked at the other skaters. There
were some boys careering around the perimeter, the wings of their jackets flaring, and a middle-aged couple who’d clearly skated for years. In the centre of the rink a small girl pirouetted gracefully, hands clasped above her head; she was clearly practising some routine. And now, as David spun me slowly across the ice in his arms, I became aware of the music. It was Cyndi Lauper.
If you’re lost you can look and you will find me. Time after time
.
If you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting…
‘You’re not falling, are you?’ said David.
‘No,’ I smiled.
Or, rather, I am
.
‘You won’t fall,’ he said gently. ‘Because I’ll hold onto you.’…
Time after time
. He held me closer.
Time after time…
‘You won’t fall,’ he whispered again, as he spun me slowly off the ice. ‘You think I brought you here to show off, don’t you?’ he added. ‘Well, it’s not true.’
‘Isn’t it?’ I laughed.
‘No. It was an excuse to hold your hand. Okay,’ he went on, as I felt my face flush. ‘Let’s go and get something to eat. Now, was that fun?’ he asked as we walked up the steps.
‘Yes it was. I really enjoyed it.’
‘That’s good—so what do you feel like?’ We began to stroll down Queensway. ‘We could have Moroccan, and smoke a hookah by the looks of it there, or do you fancy that Chinese over the road?’ We passed Bayswater underground, the pavement thronging with people, the illuminated blue dome of Whiteley’s ahead. ‘There’s that Malaysian one,’ David pointed out, ‘or the Maharajah. I know there’s a nice Lebanese a bit further down. Or how about that Italian one over there?’
‘Yes. Italian. I suddenly fancy a risotto.’ The restaurant was pleasant, quiet and smoke-free. ‘So tell me about your trip to
Barcelona,’ I said as we were seated. ‘What were you doing there?’
‘Some shots to illustrate a new book about ETA.’
‘Oh. And…why did they ask you to do that?’
He shrugged. ‘Why not? But as it happens, I’m fascinated by that kind of thing.’
‘By what kind of thing—Basque separatism?’
‘No. Extremism.’ The waiter brought us two glasses of red wine. ‘Political extremism of any kind. I’m fascinated by what these people must actually
feel
as they make, or plant, the bombs which they know will maim and kill innocent strangers. Don’t you find that interesting?’ he added.
‘Why should I?’ I asked abruptly. David looked at me, slightly surprised. ‘What I mean is, I’d rather…turn my mind away from things like that.’
‘Well, I don’t blame you.’ We perused the menu in silence for a moment.
Tell him. Tell him
. ‘David?’
‘I think I’ll have the linguini. Yes?’
Say it now
. ‘There’s something I’ve got to tell you.’
He looked up at me. ‘What?’ My heart was suddenly beating so erratically that I lifted my hand to my chest. ‘Oh God,’ he said with a mock grimace. ‘You’ve got some awful “confession” to make again, haven’t you? Like last time. I can tell by the look on your face. Okay then. Hit me with it.’
‘Well… I…’ I looked at him.
I can’t do it. I just can’t. He’ll never see me again
. ‘My…ankles are aching.’
He laughed. ‘Another
dreadful
admission, Miranda—aching ankles! Well there’s only one remedy for that. We’ll have to go skating again.’
I’m skating all the time—on very thin ice
. ‘There’s an open-air rink at Broadgate. We could go there in the winter—if you’re still speaking to me, that is.’
No, no—if you’re still speaking to me, which I can guarantee you won’t be
.
Then he started talking about ice hockey and explaining the rules.
‘I’d love to play here, but it’s impossible—I get my fix by watching it on cable TV; but when I was a teenager I played a lot. I was in the New Haven Junior Allstars,’ he said proudly as our main courses arrived. ‘My greatest moment was when we won the New England under-sixteens tournament. It was on my fifteenth birthday. I’ve never forgotten it,’ he said as he picked up his fork. ‘March twenty-first, 1982.’
‘Your birthday’s on March the twenty-first?’ I echoed.
‘Yes. Why?’
‘Nothing…’
‘Does that date mean something to you?’
It was the day it happened…
‘No. Not really, erm… It’s the first day of spring.’
‘It is. And when’s yours?’
‘August seventeenth.’
‘Oh, not long. I’ll take you out for dinner.’
No you won’t. Because by then you’ll hate me
. ‘You fascinate me, Miranda,’ he suddenly said. I felt my face flush. ‘I just feel that there’s so much going on in your head. I feel there’s something—I can’t put my finger on it—rather intriguing about you.’
Yes. I am intriguing. That’s how we met
. ‘I find you…’ he narrowed his eyes, ‘…enigmatic. And yet you’re so easy to talk to,’ he went on. ‘I love talking to you. I probably bore you, going on in the way that I do, but when I’m with you I just can’t help it.’ I fiddled with the single yellow rose in its tiny vase. ‘But I wish I knew more about
you
. About
your
life. What about your friends and your family?’ So, as we ate, I told him about my parents’ divorce, and Hugh, and my half-sisters, and Daisy, and about my father coming back to the UK. ‘And are you close to both your parents?’ he asked, as I put down my fork.