Beyond A Wicked Kiss (55 page)

"That is a certainty. You are a whore."

"No."

"You lifted your skirts for Westphal."

Ria said nothing.

"You spread your thighs for him."

Ria could feel their eyes on her, their narrowed gazes boring into her. She could have been wearing a suit of armor and still felt as vulnerable as she did in the thin batiste gown.

"You invited him into your bed," Beckwith said without inflection. "And you let him mount you."

Ria had brought her hands to her ears then, only to have them pulled away and held. She was forced to hear the intimacy of her lovemaking with West described in the most vile terms imaginable. And when the words finally provoked tears, Beckwith smiled.

The memory of weeping in front of them heated Ria's cheeks now. She picked up her fork and stabbed at the egg. Nothing she had done shamed her as those tears had. They had waited until she could hardly breathe for the shudders that wracked her, until her head was bowed and her spirit crushed, and then Sir Alex led her back into her bedchamber and locked her inside.

Jane was no longer in the room, and Ria was able to find a small measure of relief in her absence. She had checked the door through which Jane had been removed and found it locked. It was too much to hope, she thought, that someone would make the sort of mistake that might lead to her leaving this place.

Ria raised the forkful of egg to her mouth, then set it down without taking a bite. The smell of the food made her stomach roil. She could not imagine that she would be able to swallow it without being sick. Placing the tray on the floor, she wondered if she was being observed even now. Would someone come in and insist that she eat what was prepared, or were there allowances made when no demand was expressly made by one of the bishops? She had not been ordered to eat, she recalled. The tray had merely been presented to her.

No one came. Ria knew this did not necessarily mean she was unobserved, and she kept this in her mind as she pulled a blanket around her shoulders and rose from the bed. The house was quiet, eerily so. Except for the occasional creak of a floorboard under her feet and the rush of wind across the skylight overhead, she heard no other sounds. As much as she abhorred the idea of being watched, the uncertainty of it, coupled with the silence, was almost as unnerving.

Ria blew out the candle on the washstand so the room's only light came from the fireplace. She walked the perimeter of the room as she had done before, this time examining the paneled walls more closely, looking for a sliver of light that might indicate an opening to another room. She found it beside the fireplace, just to the left of where Jane had raised her hands and hooked her gold bracelets to the wall. Ria pushed very lightly at the panel but would have been astonished if she could have moved it. When it didn't budge, she turned around and surveyed the room from this angle. She was able to gain some idea of what was visible when the slotted panel was opened. Most of the bed could be seen, but Ria thought if she stayed close to the head, she was not entirely within an observer's line of sight. The area just below the panel and along the fireplace wall was also not visible. Stepping as little as a foot away, however, would put her back in view.

Ria continued her exploration but found no other means by which she could be watched. She wished she knew what use she might make of this understanding and settled for the small comfort the discovery brought her.

When the room's chill drove her back to stand in front of the fireplace, Ria reflected on what Beckwith and the others intended for her. She did not know precisely when she had ceased thinking of them as the governors of Miss Weaver's, only that they were firmly in her mind now as the Society of Bishops, and that everything West had told her about them, she had come to experience herself.

Their cruelty still had the capacity to take her breath away, but she supposed that in time she would become inured to it. How could one survive otherwise? Jane seemed well on her way to finding a place within herself where she could escape the vicious attentions of the bishops, and Ria suspected the same would be true for her.

By making one girl subject to the painful consequences of disobedience by another girl, the bishops had found an effective method for quickly gaining cooperation. Ria knew that she might inadvertently cause Beckwith or one of the other bishops to punish Jane, but that she would never deliberately provide them with an excuse to do so. It seemed likely the other girls would act no differently. Rebellion held little appeal when someone else must always be made to pay for it.

Ria returned to the bed and huddled at the head of it. When a wave of shivering passed, she slipped between the sheets, drew the blankets around her, and turned on her side toward the fireplace. She craved sleep, but more than that, she craved escape. To that end, she closed her eyes and waited for the weariness that anchored her limbs to the bed to have the same influence on her mind.

That peace was denied her as her thoughts merely tripped and tumbled over each other. West. Miss Weaver's. Jenny Taylor. The bishops. West again. Jane. Amy Nash. The altar. West in her bed. The Society watching. Whispering. The
ton
observing. The
Gazette
reporting.

Soldier. Sailor. Tinker.
Spy.

Ria could not suppress a shudder, nor turn her head into her pillow fast enough to stifle her small cry. It was no longer a simple thing to distinguish what part of her reaction was hope and what was despair.

She had always known West would come for her, but she had avoided considering what it would mean when he did so. The bishops would use her to punish him, to force his surrender just as they had used Jane to make her compliant. She thought she could bear anything for herself, but to see West being made to do the bishops' bidding, that was pain of another kind, and she had no sense of her tolerance for it, nor his.

She slept at last, fitfully at first, then more deeply. If there were dreams, she did not recall them upon waking. The room was already being cast in shadow when she opened her eyes; the skylight revealed that dusk was upon London. She was surprised she had been allowed to sleep so long, but she did not mistake it as a courtesy extended. It was far more likely the bishops had some other business to occupy them.

She had barely begun to stir when a movement in the hallway caught her attention. Cocking her head she heard a key turn. Almost immediately, the door swung into the room. Jane was there, this time with Sir Alex a step behind her. Ria watched Sir Alex lock the door and palm the key, then indicate to Jane that she could proceed to the bed.

Ria did not miss the look of concern on Jane's face when she saw that the tray of food had been ignored. Jane did not speak to her but directed her comments to Sir Alex.

"She hasn't eaten. There is nothing on her tray that has been touched."

Sir Alex's dark blue glance dropped to that food at Jane's feet. "Perhaps she thinks it is tainted. Show her it is not."

Jane bent and picked up one cold finger of toast and bit it. Swallowing, she held it out to Ria. With her head turned away from Sir Alex, she was able to mouth the word
please.

Sitting up, Ria took the offering. It had the grit of sandpaper on her tongue, but she managed to swallow one bite, then another. Sir Alex came to stand at the foot of the bed and watched silently until Ria ate some part of everything she'd been given.

"Place the tray on the mantel, Jane," he said, "then yourself at the wall."

Ria did not look in Sir Alex's direction, but she sensed he was closely observing her reaction rather than watching Jane. She did not make the mistake of asking him why Jane must attach herself to the wall. She understood now that it was in aid of proving Jane's obedience, and the purpose was simply that he wished it so. Ria's eyes were drawn away from Jane and back to Sir Alex as he reached into the pocket of his frock coat. She thought he was simply putting the key away, but then she realized he was exchanging it for something else.

She blanched when she saw the bracelets he held out in his open palm. They were not identical to the ones Jane wore, but their purpose was precisely the same.

"Until yours are ready," he said. "Give me your wrists."

Ria thought she could not do it, yet she watched her hands extend themselves toward him, her palms turned upward, just as if they were possessed of a will separate from her own. What Sir Alex placed around her wrists and locked individually into place were iron cuffs. They were not connected by a chain, but the cuffs could be fixed together as desired with an iron pin. Sir Alex showed her how it worked by crossing her wrists so the hooks on each cuff fit together to make a tunnel for the pin. Once the pin was in place, she could not grasp it with her own fingers to pull it free. Someone else would have to do that, and Ria understood immediately that it would not be Jane or one of the other girls. She would be freed just as she would be bound—at the whim of the bishops.

Sir Alex laid his slender hand over the cuffs. "They are heavier than those you will come to know later, but that is all to the better, I think. You will not mind the bracelets so much once you have worn these for a time."

Ria thought he would remove the pin from between the cuffs, but he did not. He touched her face instead, brushing her cheek lightly with his knuckles, and spoke to her in a pleasant, matter-of-fact tone, just as he might use if they were conversing over tea.

"You cried very prettily earlier," he said. "I have often wondered if you could be made to cry. Jane does, you know, though not as easily now as she did in the beginning. She imagined herself in love with me. Did you know that? Go on, you may speak."

"Yes," Ria said, keenly aware of Jane's presence. "I came to realize that. I don't think she would have left the school otherwise."

"Love makes fools of us, is that it, Miss Ashby?" He did not wait for a response. "It must certainly be true in your case. You took the bastard duke to your bed. I readily admit I could not credit it at first, but Miss Taylor was most convincing in her missive. She came upon you, it seems, in your own apartments at the school. It was careless of you to entertain Westphal there, but perhaps more careless that you did not make certain you could not be disturbed. As headmistress, you must see that your conduct has to be above reproach. We thought we could count on that." He shrugged. "It seems we could not."

Sir Alex's thumb made a pass across Ria's lower lip. "Do you think Westphal will have you after you have been with us?" he asked. "There is a wager on the outcome of it. We are going to arrange a tasting. What do you think of that?"

His words meant nothing to her, but the barely audible moan from Jane did. Ria's blood ran cold. If this
tasting
could elicit that response from Jane, then it must truly be something to be feared.

Sir Alex stood and walked over to Jane. "Do you have something you wish to say?"

"No, my lord."

"Then mayhap you are weary of standing."

"No, my lord."

"Look at Miss Ashby, Jane, and tell her what a tasting is."

Jane's head swiveled in Ria's direction. Her lips parted but her voice failed her.

"Tell her, Jane, or I swear I will not wait to have Sylvia punished for your disobedience. Miss Ashby is handy enough for those purposes." As if to make good on his threat, Sir Alex started to turn back to Ria.

"A tasting is when they all have a turn at you," Jane said in a rush. "They... they watch each other and... and count their strokes and place wagers on who will stay between your thighs the longest."

Ria had not yet recovered any color to her face, so there was no more to be lost. What she could not do for a moment was breathe.

Sir Alex's blue eyes darted between Ria and Jane. The smile that edged the corners of his mouth upward was a satisfied one. "Well done, Jane. I think you explained it very well indeed. Miss Ashby certainly seems to have gotten the gist of it." He helped Jane down from the hook and escorted her to the door. He inserted the key and turned the handle with a small flourish. "Go on," he told her. "You may leave. I'm quite sure you have neglected your chores."

"Yes, m'lord." Jane ducked her head and hurried from the room. She was not quick enough to escape the flat of Sir Alex's hand as she passed. His palm landed smartly on her bottom and the sound of it covered her sharp intake of air.

Sir Alex shut the door and twisted the key, pocketing it again. "She's a good girl," he said as he turned back to Ria. "I doubt that I will tire of her soon."

"What is to become of her?"

"A better question is what is to become of you. Jane is no longer your concern." He smiled suddenly. "But I will indulge your curiosity. This place is not vastly different from the school in Gillhollow. You might say it is Miss Weaver's
other
academy. We also tutor the girls, first so that they may serve our own needs, then so they may serve the needs of others. The best among them become courtesans, the less talented are sold to brothels. Damaged goods become the property of the street."

Damaged goods. He spoke blithely of girls he had used as
damaged goods.
Ria felt as if there was a great weight pressing against her chest; drawing a full breath was not possible. "It is a slaver's trade."

"You are bold of a sudden, Miss Ashby. You must learn to guard your tongue. My patience is not infinite. Jane is not far, and it is a simple enough thing to call her to attend us again." He beckoned Ria to stand, then called her forward. "You did not think you could do it, did you?"