Beyond Jealousy (5 page)

Ace had been the one fucking her the last time they'd visited. He'd cuffed her wrists to her thighs, wrapped that wild hair around one fist, and ridden her hard, every thrust pushing her mouth down Cruz's shaft until she gagged. It had taken him a while to believe she really wanted it like that, rough and choking, but Jeni had just laughed and promised to suck the Eden right off him.

Ace had helped with that, too.

Jeni went silent, not even breathing as her pussy clenched around him, gripping his cock in hot, wet pulses.

His body was poised on the edge of release, a physical response he automatically distanced himself from. Then he closed his eyes and imagined all the things he was here to forget--Ace's teasing smile and Rachel's soft hair, the play of tattoos along Ace's skin and the way Rachel moaned and leaned in to Cruz's kisses...

He came too fast for it to feel better than nice, but he still groaned and rocked his hips, dragging it out until the last shudders of Jeni's release faded. He stroked her arms as he eased away, rubbing the reddened skin of her wrists where his fingers had dug in. "You okay?"

She collapsed to the mattress with a noise that was half giggle, half groan. "You're an intense motherfucker, aren't you?"

Coming from a woman who liked to have Ace flog and fuck her to giddy completion in front of an audience, Cruz figured he should consider that a compliment. He stretched out on his back next to her and ran a hand over his face. "I suppose I am."

She groped on the nightstand and came up with two cigarettes and a lighter. She lit them both at the same time and passed him one. "I've been after Ace to bring you back. Didn't figure on you showing up alone."

He stared at her ceiling, because closing his eyes again would invite the image of Ace leaning into Rachel, his hands all over her body. "Guess he was busy tonight."

"Mmm. Trouble in paradise?"

"Is that where we are?" He stared at the cigarette without putting it to his lips. He'd smoked when necessary for cover, but he'd never much seen the appeal. "I thought Eden was supposed to be paradise."

Jeni laughed and rolled to her side. "Eden's a giant fucking cage. Sector Four's the closest thing we've got around here to real freedom." She ran her toes up his shin. "It's a hundred if you want to leave soon. Three for the night. Though something tells me I enjoyed myself more than you did."

It was twice what she charged Ace, even when he brought Cruz--and half what Ace usually left tucked under her jewelry box. Money never seemed to matter to him, and it had taken Cruz a while to understand that Ace had a far more valuable currency to trade.

Cruz couldn't offer her a tattoo, but he'd count three hundred a bargain if it kept him out of his rooms and clear of any awkward apologies. "I'll stay, if you don't mind."

She arched one eyebrow. "Jesus Christ. What did they do, fuck right in front of you?"

Only practice kept him from flinching, and he took a drag from the cigarette to cover his momentary discomfort. Exhaling, he watched the smoke drift upwards. "You're blunt. I don't know if that's refreshing or irritating."

"If you want me to stroke your ego, too, it'll cost you way more." But she grimaced. "I could've warned you, though. Ace and Rachel. That's some sort of crazy, epic shit right there."

"That's what everyone says," Cruz agreed, turning to study her more closely. Jeni worked shows at the Broken Circle, but she wasn't an O'Kane. A position like that gave someone a good vantage point for observation--familiar but invisible. Trusted, but not intimate. "If they're so epic, why haven't they been a thing forever?"

Jeni's eyes locked with his. "You'd have to know Ace. More importantly, you'd have to know what he used to do before he joined up with Dallas."

Most of Eden knew of Ace, though fewer people would associate Alexander Santana with Dallas O'Kane's tattoo artist. "I know some of it. He slept with a lot of prominent women in Eden and broke up a few marriages when their husbands discovered the paintings he'd given them."

One corner of her mouth ticked up in a rueful smile. "Slept with them? Sure, he did--after they paid him. He was a high-class whore, sweetheart, and those proper Eden ladies chewed him up and spit him out."

Maybe it should have surprised him, but it was only a more pragmatic assessment of what most people in Eden thought--that Ace had seduced those women into being his patrons, trading sex for access to a comfortable life and high quality art supplies.

That had been scandalous enough, in part because his rumored lovers had already made similar bargains with their husbands. In Eden, it was a woman's place to exchange infrequent access to her body for the comforts of a secure life, making Alexander Santana a disruption to the natural balance of power.

Cruz rolled over to stub out the cigarette as a few more pieces of the puzzle slipped into place. "Jared and Gia. That's how he knows them?"

"Yeah. They all had the same mentor, Eladio."

"And the good ladies of Eden don't chew Jared up?"

"He can hold his own." Her smile faded. "He's not like Ace. He's not looking for love."

Ace would be the first to turn the words into a joke, one about how artists fell in love every day before noon and got their hearts broken by dinner. Cruz could never tell how much truth lay beneath the words, and that bothered him. Once upon a time, assessing motivation had been easy for him.

Or maybe it had only seemed that way because he'd always been objective.

"Rachel probably knows," he murmured, rolling onto his side so he could study Jeni's expression. "She's from Eden, too. Those sculpted paintings he used to do are infamous."

She hesitated. "I don't know Rachel very well, just from around the club and backstage, but she seems pretty open. I think maybe she can't read Ace because she doesn't get how much he's hiding. She expects everything to be on the level, and it's not."

"But you know Ace?"

"Enough to know he plays it off, but he's got some fucked-up shit going on."

Cruz caught a strand of her disheveled hair and wrapped it around his finger. "If you were me, what would you do?"

She held his gaze. "You want pretty words to make you feel better?"

Pretty words wouldn't make him feel better. "I like you blunt."

"Then I'd run like hell. Get as far away from both of them as possible, before they could break my heart." Jeni finished her cigarette and passed it to him to crush out. "But that's Ace's move, right? He's scared out of his mind, Rachel's oblivious... Let's face it, you might be the only one who can take them in hand and make something happen."

Take them in hand. Simple words. Filthy ones. They wouldn't have seemed possible even a couple months ago, but he'd crossed so many lines. He'd betrayed his oaths, turned his back on his city, killed his former commanding officer.

This was nothing. A little fucking, and what was more harmless than that in Sector Four, the carnal playground of Dallas O'Kane? Rachel and Ace had been on a collision course since long before he'd met them. If he didn't want to end up left behind, he had to be between them when they finally crashed together.

The last hour before dawn was a dangerous time for anyone to be out and about in the sectors, even a man wearing O'Kane ink.

Ace didn't give a shit.

Jared's house might have been in what passed for the nicer part of Sector Four, but you could split the difference between
nice
and
slums
and come up with two big hands full of nothing. Even here, close to Eden and the well-patrolled brothel neighborhood, Ace kept his attention focused and his hand close to his gun.

He turned the corner and bit back a frustrated curse. A silent black car with tinted windows idled in the street, which meant there was nothing to do but lean back against the building and pull out a cigarette. He knew Jared always shooed his clients out before dawn, but tonight, with the wind biting through his jacket and his guts twisted in knots, Ace wasn't feeling patient.

He'd never understood how Jared could entertain Eden's richest adulteresses in his own bed before rolling over for a peaceful night's sleep. Ace had always gone into the city, meeting in secret apartments or sometimes in their own beds under the noses of their oblivious husbands. It was easier that way, easier not to get too attached. Easier to remember that fucking them to their first real orgasm might put wide-eyed adoration in their eyes for a few weeks, but he was still the paid help.

The front door opened as Ace discarded his cigarette, and he watched from the shadows as a rumpled Jared dropped a kiss to an equally rumpled brunette's cheek before leaning against the doorjamb. The brunette swayed a little as she walked to the car, her giddy flush a sharp contrast to the stone-faced man who climbed out to open the door for her.

She paused, glancing over her shoulder, and Ace bit back an amused snort. Jared was still on, playing the moment for all it was worth--barefoot with his shirt hanging open to reveal a perfectly sculpted body, ignoring the bitter temperature to present a flawless picture of lazy contentment. The pretty brunette would carry that last glimpse of him into her flustered dreams and be calling him again before the week was out.

No wonder the bastard was so fucking rich.

The car pulled away. Jared glanced at Ace with a rueful laugh before clutching his shirt around him with a shiver. "Goddamn, it's cold. My nipples could cut glass."

Ace should probably summon a leer for that--it wasn't like he hadn't had his hands and mouth all over Jared's nipples and every other damn part of him--but the swiftness of the transition set him off balance. "Then it's a good thing you put them away. You gonna watch until her car makes it through the gates, or can we go inside?"

"She'll be fine." Jared jerked his head toward the dim interior of his apartment. "Make yourself at home."

Yeah, the woman would be fine. Some dumb fucker had rolled one of Jared's clients on her way back to the city a couple years ago, thinking she'd be an easy mark and that Jared wouldn't care if it happened away from his street.

And he hadn't seemed to--until a week later. The thief had been celebrating by trying to find the bottom of a bottle of pricey O'Kane bourbon when Jared strolled into the bar and caved in his skull with a crowbar.

Another quality Gia and Jared had in spades that Ace had always lacked. He'd killed a lot of fuckers out of protective rage and self-defense, and more than a few in stone-cold vengeance, but he'd never been good at practical ruthlessness.

Inside, Jared waved him toward the couch and poured two stout drinks. "Should we pretend you were just in the neighborhood?"

"Like I don't always come crawling over here before dawn for the same fucked-up reason?"

"In recent memory? Yes." The reason was always the same, even when the catalyst changed. Ace came to Jared because he was safe. Because he'd been there for most of Ace's life, charging ahead and excelling at every challenge while Ace foundered behind. But Jared had never abandoned him. He was the one who'd walked away and found a home and a family with Dallas O'Kane.

Ace knocked back the liquor just to feel the burn. "I was so busy trying not to break Rachel's heart that I didn't see it shatter. I've been walking on the pieces for months, grinding them into fucking dust."

Jared watched him, his eyes shadowed with sympathy. "That sucks."

It drove a choked laugh from him, one that warped somewhere in his chest and came out as a pained noise. Everything inside him was pain, and he didn't know how to let it out. "Yeah. Yeah, it fucking sucks."

"All that time, and she didn't say anything? Kick your ass, cry at you,
something
?"

"She started running around with Cruz," Ace ground out, tossing the glass to the couch cushion so he could shove both hands into his hair. It was like everything after that night had split into two worlds--hers built on the agony of rejection, his twisted by the pain of watching her pick someone else.

They'd been living alternate lives, crossing just close enough to grind salt into the wounds because neither thought the other was bleeding.

"We've had this conversation before," Jared chided gently. "She hooked up with Cruz. She also dropped him. And instead of asking her why, you picked him up."

He hadn't meant to, not at first. Jasper had stepped up to take some of the weight of the sector off Dallas's shoulders, and Dallas had shuffled Cruz into the empty space at Ace's side with a stern command to put aside their personal shit and get the work done. The gang came first.

And then... Emotional decisions. Muddled rationalizations. He had vague memories of spewing some of them on this couch, drunk off his ass and trying to convince Jared he was in control of the situation. That he had a plan.

He hadn't been lying to his friend. He'd been lying to himself. He'd been lying for months, because the truth was fucking terrifying. "I have no goddamn idea what I'm doing."

"That's a start." Jared retrieved his empty glass and refilled it. "I'm guessing you talked to her."

The memory of her mouth surfaced, her lips parted, her tongue slicking against his, bold and hungry but still nervous. Open, the way she always was, brave even in the face of her own terror. "Yeah. We talked."