Black City (29 page)

Gregory’s eyes burn with fury, and he lashes out, hitting me across the face and knocking me to the floor. A loud growl fills the room. Ash bares his fangs at Gregory. There’s nothing human about him now. He looks like a wild animal, full of anger and power.

Gregory edges back, his leg hitting the side of the bed.

“I’m okay,” I say.
Don’t do anything, Ash, please . . .

Beetle and Day run into the bedroom, followed by Sebastian.

“Just you try it, mongrel. There’s a bunch of witnesses. You won’t get away with hurting me,” Gregory says to Ash.

“What did Ash do to you?” Day says, spotting the blood oozing down my neck.

Ash takes another step toward Gregory, his fangs still bared.

“Ash, let it go. I’m fine,” I plead.

“Arrest him!” Gregory orders Sebastian.

“Seb, if you arrest Ash, I’ll get in trouble too,” I say. “You owe me.”

A meaningful look passes between us. He knows I’m referring to his dark secret, the one I’ve been keeping for him all these months.

“I think you need to leave,” Sebastian eventually says to Gregory. “And if one word about this gets back to the Emissary, I’ll kick you out of the Trackers.”

Gregory leaves the room, slamming the door behind him.

Ash reaches out for me. “Are you all right?”

I flinch, still angry at him for drugging me, even though I know I was partly to blame for giving him mixed signals.

Sebastian jabs a finger at Ash’s chest. “If you
ever
touch her again, it’ll be the last thing you do, nipper.”

He takes my hand and hauls me out of the room.

* * *

Sebastian doesn’t say a word to me until we’re back in my bedroom.

He sits on the edge of my bed. “So you’re into drugs now?”

“No.”

“Then what were you doing with that half-breed?”

I flush at the memory of what we were doing on the bed before he bit me. Sebastian puts two and two together.

“He’s a twin-blood!”

“You’re one to talk! You cheated on me with a Darkling,” I snap back.

Sebastian painfully grabs my arms. “I only screwed her because you weren’t giving it up! If you’d slept with me, I wouldn’t have needed to find it elsewhere.”

“You’re hurting me,” I say.

Sebastian immediately releases me, running a hand over his shaved head.

“How can you choose him over me? I love you,” Sebastian says.

“You don’t love me. You never have—you just want to own me,” I reply.

Anger flashes in his green eyes. “I’ll have him arrested.”

“If you arrest him, they’ll execute me. Is that what you want?”

“No,” he says quietly.

“Get out of my room,” I say.

“Don’t think I’m going to forget about this,” he says before leaving.

I sit down on the bed, my whole body shaking. The phone on my nightstand rings. It’s Day.

“I know we’re not friends anymore, but I wanted to check to see if you were okay,” she says.

I should be mad at her, but right now I need a friend. I start crying, tired and emotional after all the drama.

“Nat, don’t cry. He’s such a jerk, I can’t believe he bit you—”

“I’m not crying about Ash,” I say through my tears. “And he didn’t attack me. We were kissing, and we got carried away.” I figure there’s no reason to lie about this; she already knows we’re an item.

“Oh, I thought . . . Never mind,” she says.

“What did you think? That Ash and I had split up?”

“Yes,” she admits.

“So let me guess: you thought we could be friends again now that Ash was out of the picture. Was that it?” I snap, angry at her, angry at Sebastian, just angry at everyone.

“No, I thought you’d be upset and might need someone to talk to who’d understand. I split up with the boy I loved, so I knew how heartbroken you’d be,” she replies.

“Oh . . . ,” I say.

“I’m trying to say I’m sorry, Natalie. I want us to be friends again.”

I sigh. I do miss having a friend. “If we’re going to be friends, you have to be nicer to Ash. He’s got a kind heart, you know that deep down. He brings your family food,
and
he’s been helping Beetle.”

“He’s still a dealer.”

“He has no choice, Day. He needs the money.”

There’s a long pause on the other end of the line.

“Deal,” she finally says.

We chat for a short while, the conversation light and easy. It’s like we never fought. I hang up the phone, feeling a little better.

I lie back and lightly touch the two puncture wounds on my neck. I care so much for Ash, but today he scared me. If it weren’t for our Blood Mate connection, would we even be together? For the first time since we first kissed, I don’t know how to answer that question.

25

ASH

I RUMMAGE AROUND
my pocket for my door keys. My hands are shaking from adrenaline, I’m still so wound up from everything that happened tonight. The keys slip out of my fingers and fall into a nearby bush.

“Fragg!” I yell, slamming my fist against the door.

Shame weighs on my shoulders as I think about Natalie and how she recoiled from me when I tried to touch her.

I scare her.

She’s my Blood Mate, and I scare her! Why did I bite her? Of course she didn’t want me to do that, what freak would?
She was after something else.
I could kick myself; I’m such a fragging idiot.

I find my keys and quietly enter the church, sneaking past Dad, who is asleep in the kitchen, keeping guard over the crypt. I head to my room in the bell tower. It’s hexagonal in shape, with a tarnished brass bell hanging in the center of the room and tall glassless arches where windows should be. Most of the arches have been boarded up, but two have been left open. During the day I pin black plastic sheets over them to protect myself from the worst of the sunlight or bad weather, but at night I take them down to get a better view of the city. I don’t have many possessions, just a few books and some sketches on the walls. Most of the drawings are of Black City, but there are a few of Natalie up there now too.

I stop dead. Studying one of the drawings is Evangeline, dressed in a blue robe that complements her inky-black hair. She traces her finger down the picture of Natalie.

“What are you doing here?” I ask.

She tears her eyes away from the picture. “I brought you something.”

We sit down on my creaky bed. A waft of Calder lilies fills my nostrils as Evangeline pulls her hair to one side, smiling shyly up at me. Yearning unfurls in my stomach. I bet Evangeline wouldn’t be scared if I bit her. In fact, I know she’d enjoy it; all Darklings do. I angrily shake the thought out of my head. I shouldn’t be having these thoughts. Besides, if I did bite Evangeline, I could contract the Wrath. Sometimes I forget she’s infected; she looks so healthy.

Evangeline hands me an ornamental wooden box.

“I found this in Annora’s room. I thought you might like it,” she says.

I open the box and slowly sift through the contents, studying each item carefully. I choke back the emotion as I realize what this box contains: all my mom’s most treasured possessions.

There are three faded photos: one of me as a cub, one of my extended family, another of Mom and Dad on their wedding day. There are other mementos, like an old Legion Liberation Front pamphlet with Sigur’s photo on it; a gold amulet shaped like a quarter-circle, with strange script written around the rim; and a lock of white hair tied with ribbon.

Evangeline lightly touches my leg as I look through Mom’s belongings. It feels so natural, I don’t think to move her hand.

The last things in the box are eight envelopes bound together with string. They’re all addressed to me. I eagerly open them. In each envelope is a handmade birthday card, one for every year we were apart.

“She never forgot you, Ash,” Evangeline says.

A solitary tear snakes down my face. I look away, embarrassed.

“It’s okay,” she whispers, wiping the tear from my cheek.

Her hand lingers on my face, and my skin tingles where she’s touching me. Moonlight streams through the open window, making her pale skin look dewy and iridescent. My pulse races.

“Annora told me so many stories about you,” Evangeline says. “I have to admit, I was a little jealous of you.”

“Me? Why?” I ask.

“You have people who love you. Your mother, your father,” she says. “I lost my parents during the war. I miss them so much. It gets—”

“Lonely,” I fill in for her.

She nods, lacing her fingers through mine. “But I’m not lonely anymore, now that you’re in my life.”

Life would be so much simpler if Evangeline were my girlfriend.
But she’s not, Natalie is.
I let go of her hand. Evangeline looks away, hurt.

“Can I see Annora?” she asks.

I nod.

We sneak down to the crypt, careful not to wake Dad. Mom is huddled in the corner of the room, shaking with pain. Her breath rattles, like there’s fluid in her lungs. She’s entered the final stages of the disease. Grief eats at me. I always dreamed that if she ever came back, this empty space she left inside me would disappear, but it’s just gotten bigger.

Evangeline covers her mouth with her hand, stifling a sob.

I hang back, careful not to get too close, and study Mom, trying to find traces of the woman I remember from my childhood. I see glimpses: her reading to me when I was a cub; the fire in her eyes as she spoke about the Darkling civil rights movement; her and Dad dancing to a song on their anniversary, her cheek resting on his arm, her long dark hair in waves down her back.

Her hair is now lank ribbons falling out in clumps; her eyes are yellowed; her flesh, rotting. She’s not my mother—she’s a monster. I wish she hadn’t come back. I don’t want to remember her this way.

She lets out a moan and shudders as a wave of pain washes over her, then another, then another.

“Mom,” I say, my voice choked.

I have to do something, but what can I do? There’s no medicine to help her, no cure.

Evangeline rushes over to her, unafraid.

“Evangeline, no!” I say.

“I’m already infected, Ash,” she reminds me.

Evangeline tenderly strokes Mom’s limp hair, making soothing noises. I’m so grateful she’s here and able to comfort my mom when I can’t.

“Thank you,” I say to Evangeline.

I kneel down beside them, keeping out of Mom’s biting reach.

Another wave of pain grips Mom, and she wails. Evangeline holds her.

“Annora used to sing to the Wraths when she was nursing them in the ward,” she says to me. “It distracts them. Sing to her, Ash.”

My mind’s blank. I can’t think of any songs. Then one tune comes to mind, a lullaby Mom used to sing to me when I was little. The words to the song slowly come back to me, and I sing it softly to her.

“Hush, hush, don’t you cry. Listen to my lullaby. Sleep, sleep, dream of me. I am always watching over thee. Love, love, I love you true. I will always be there for you.”

Mom sighs, and the shuddering stops. It seems to have helped a little. She attempts a smile, but can’t quite manage it.

“Ash . . . ,” Mom whispers.

She stretches out a clawed hand toward me.

I hesitate.

She’s your mom.

I cautiously reach out my own hand, and our fingers meet. I smile, but it’s bittersweet, because we both know this might be the last time we touch.

26

ASH

USUALLY I’M NOT KEEN
to get to school, but I’m desperate to see Natalie. I pick up Beetle on the way and hurry toward the town square, not taking my usual detour down City End to visit the Boundary Wall.

“How did it go with Mr. Tubs yesterday?” Beetle asks.

We didn’t get a chance to talk about it last night, since Sebastian turned up with Natalie. I tell him what happened, about how Natalie and Evangeline are going to run some tests on the Golden Haze, feeling a bit useless that there’s nothing more I can do to help.

“I hope they work it out soon, before they try to pin the deaths on any more Darklings,” Beetle says, reminding me of my arrest last week.

“I’m sure Natalie will work it out,” I say.