Authors: Jack O'Connell
“It's all right, Ike,” she begins, measured, unrushed, slightly above a whisper. “Just sit on the floor here. That's it, down on the floor, okay, good, now lower your head a little, to your knees, just like that, fine, you're okay, you're fine, slow down now, let the air come in, there you go.”
She ends up on her knees, holding his head against her breast, stroking his damp forehead, pushing back the hair, creating a rhythm with the calm sweep of her palm against his skull. His breath begins to come normally and after a few more minutes, he raises his head from her chest and mouths the word “sorry.”
They both lean back and sit, cross-legged, campfire style, facing each other in the quiet of the narrow aisleway.
“Something's happened,” Ike says.
Eva just nods.
“I don't know anything. I swear to you. But I can't think of any way to prove that to you.”
“Neither can I,” Eva says.
Ike reaches across the space between them and takes her hand. He holds it lightly, lets his thumb run over the skin, the ridges of the knuckles.
“Tell me anyway,” he says.
Chapter Seventeen
T
he thing I hate most,” Lenore says, “is when I start breaking my own rules. And that's what's happening here. I vowed I wasn't going to start having conversations with you, okay? I don't want us to get to know each other. I'm going to get very tense if this continues.”
Woo gives the same smile she's seen on his face too many times already. It never varies and it's one of the most prominent items on the list of reasons she dislikes him.
They're back in Bangkok Park, back inside the confines of the Barracuda, and though that's exactly where Lenore wants to be, it also makes her uneasy. Standard procedure after a shooting would be for her to be relieved at once of any and all field work and start filing endless forms concerning her every move, submitting to hours of internal-affairs interviews, probably having to do ten hours or more with the department shrink for the relief of post-shooting trauma.
In fact, she feels no trauma at all. She has replayed her actions and decided she acted correctly. Zarelli was in the line of fire. Vicky had to be disarmed. She accomplished her objective. It proved to be a fatal shoot. There's little control over these things. Though she didn't ask, Woo has said that the odds are the dosage of Lingo running through Vicky's body would have proved lethal anyway. If additional consolation is needed, she knows she can consider the fact that, given Vicky's current life-style and environment, her life expectancy couldn't have been gauged any higher than another year or so. Eighteen months tops.
Ten minutes after Vicky's body is loaded into the ambulance and hauled off for autopsy, Dennison is on the radio with Mayor Welby, of all people. Then Miskewitz gets on the horn and, as Dennison raises his eyebrows so high they could tear, the lieutenant tells Lenore to “proceed with the investigation.”
So she and Woo end up back in the Park, staring out at the rear of the Hotel Penumbra from her favorite alley, waiting, as long as is necessary, for Mingo Bouza to show his face.
“Very simply,” says Woo through his smile, “all I'm attempting to ask you is if you've given thought to the consequences of your actions.”
Lenore slouches in her seat, her eyes glued to the Penumbra's garage. “There's something about you that's not right,” she says to Woo. “You just witnessed me blow away a seventeen-year-old girl ⦔
“Yes.”
“ ⦠and you want to know, your big question is, if I've thought about what I'm doing bribing Little Max the snitch with some drawings by some local cartoonist. This is what you're asking me?”
“Exactly.”
“Jesus Christ, you are a goddamn idiot.”
“You are so hostile.”
“That's right, that's correct, and you shouldn't taunt a hostile person. The danger is enormous.”
“I'm not trying to taunt you. I'm curious if you've carried your actions to their logical ends.”
“My actions concerning Max and the drawings?”
“That's right. I'm looking for an insight into the police mind ⦔
“Oh, what is this shit? âPolice mind' ⦔
“I'm sure this will sound trite to you, but, in fact, didn't your enticing Max with the artwork constitute a corruption of innocence, something you hate Mr. Cortez for?”
Lenore can't believe what she's hearing. She shakes her head and turns to him. “Woo, I have to know this, you're thought of as a bright guy, right? You're a freaking expert in your field, correct? But I sit here and I listen to you and, for Christ sake, to me you're as dumb as mud. Really. This isn't just a way of insulting you. This is how I feel.”
Woo isn't upset at all. “Continue,” he says.
“First off, who said I hated Cortez? Did someone hear that come out of my mouth? Mr. Expert on Language? Did you hear those words? Did I fall asleep behind the wheel here and say this and I'm not aware of it? No, sorry, never said it. You've made a huge assumptionâLenore hates Cortezâenormous goddamn assumption. Now, beyond that, you, of all people, again, Mr. Freaking Language, Dr. Language, right, you say I'm a corrupter of innocence. Listen, excuse me, I've got to say thisâMr. Asshole, okay, Little Max may be young, I'd say he's fifteen or so, which, I'll grant you, is traditionally thought of as relatively young here in Quinsigamond. But where does it say youth and innocence are the same thing? You're Mr. Language, right? Youth. Innocence. Two very different words as far as I can tell. Yep, I bribed a young kid. I manipulated him beautifully, I'm great at that. But I had no dealings with any innocence. Little Max has been a stranger to innocence for quite some time.”
Woo nods his head, tries to indicate that he's impressed with what she's said. “Very good,” he says. “Point well taken. But beyond this, you did use him as an informer. We can agree on this small, simple fact.”
“We can agree. He's an informer. I received information from him. I do it every week. I'll continue to do it. It's how the job is done.”
“I'm just wondering how you feel about informers in general.”
“In general, I think that they're pieces of garbage that can't be trusted and are wrong as often as they're right. I know what you're looking for here. How do I morally perceive them? That's what's underneath your question. Don't bother to answer. I think they're contemptible. In general. But I like Max. I would exclude Max from that answer. At the moment.”
“At the moment?”
“Things change.”
“I'm having trouble placing you, Lenore. On the political compass.”
“You've got a hunch I'm sort of this paranoid, McCarthyist creep, a loaded gun. Ticking bomb. Fascist hypocrite. Nut-case libertarian ⦔
“I honestly don't know quite what you are.”
“Well, let's leave it that way for the time being. So much more romantic.”
“Do you use drugs, Lenore?”
“Of course not. Narcotics officer, remember?”
“I was wondering what percentage of the enforcers, the policers, were guilty of the crime themselves.”
“No idea. I don't know of any. You could probably find a study somewhere.”
“No doubt. Why have you never married?”
Lenore can't help but laugh. Her face crumbles into a huge smile, then she dissolves, laughter coming full from the mouth, shoulders and stomach actually shaking. She pulls her noise into a closing whine and says, “Oh, Freddy, Freddy. I think you have a real attraction to violence. You just push and push.”
Woo loves the reaction he's gotten out of her. He folds his arms across his chest, pleased, a little proud of himself, she thinks.
“You're being wasted in academia. You should be one of those all-night radio guys. Syndicated. Open lines to all of America. Get them on the line and open them up. An audio incision from head to toe. Push and push and get every twisted insomniac to confess all their sins and crimes to the public. What entertainment. You'd be a phenomenon. Ratings history.”
“I will admit, I've always had a strong love of radio.”
“That would have been my guess. You're a radio guy if I've ever seen one.”
“You are quite a package of contradictions, Lenore. I suppose it's no secret at this point that you fascinate me.”
“I'm trying to picture that sentence coming out of anyone else's mouth. Can't do it.”
“Could we admit a mutual attraction here? Could we both extend ourselves to risk and vent these hazardous feelings?”
Lenore goes quiet and just stares at him. She opens and then closes her mouth. Then she opens it again and says, “You're either the most pathetic guy I've ever met or you're over the top, you're tooling with me and I don't even know it, you've got capacities that I'm just blind to.”
“And aren't you curious to know which it is, Lenore?”
She wishes she had some perfect, hateful line. Instead she says, with little conviction, “You tell me.”
“Like you said beforeâthings change. I think that's the bottom line, really. I think everything is in constant flux. I think that nothing in this world is stable. I think maybe the difference between being pathetic and being overwhelmingly in control is a difference of perspective. And that perspective, like a pendulum, will swing from one extreme to the other.”
He reaches across to her and just barely touches the skin on the back of her neck. He runs a finger lightly down a cord of knotted muscle. If it were Zarelli doing this, a man she's spent the past several months sleeping with, she'd be driving an elbow into his chest and curing his stupidity. Now, shocked at herself, she comes up with a weak, heartless “Don't.”
Woo doesn't stop. He shifts a bit in his seat, draws nearer to her side of the car. His voice goes low and he says, “My guess is you drink far too much coffee. The tension is just gleaming off your body. You could do with a month of massage and hot baths.”
His fingers slide around the curve of her neck, around the front to below her jaw. He has a delicate touch that surprises her, like a kind doctor, a combination of professional, learned knowledge and instinctual sensitivity. His index finger travels back up her throat to below her earlobe and probes softly at the hinge of her jaw.
“You clench unconsciously. I would guess that you grind your teeth in your sleep.”
She keeps herself from looking at him. She stares at the Penumbra garage and mumbles, “I don't sleep.”
“No surprise there,” he says, his fingers moving down soothingly over her Adam's apple.
“Stop,” she says, but her body stays rigid, her eyes frozen forward, unblinking, then closing up.
She feels him unfasten the first button on her blouse. Her eyes open, but she doesn't speak. He frees the second button. Her breath starts to come heavier and she makes a loud swallowing noise. The third button comes loose.
And the garage door swings open and Mingo Bouza pulls the Jaguar out into the street and rolls off, headed west.
Lenore shifts the Barracuda into gear and Woo's hand hesitates for only a second and then falls away from her chest. She waits a moment to give Mingo a safe lead, then pulls out of the alley and begins the tail.
They both stay quiet and Lenore's glad for this. She leaves four and five car lengths between herself and Mingo. She'd rather risk losing him at a red light than give themselves away. They drive for close to an hour and, for Lenore, that leaves only two possibilitiesâeither Mingo is in love with the Jag and logging time behind the wheel just for the kick, a fairly innocent fix, or Cortez has told him to watch for a tail and he's making a safety arc, driving a huge circle around the borders of the city.
But if Mingo expects a tail, he's not doing a thing to lose it. He drives long stretches of speedwayâChin Ave, Hooey Road, William Brown Hill. He keeps at a constant rate of motion. He stays in the same lane for long stretches of time. It makes Lenore more than a little suspicious. She wishes she had the time and appropriate conditions to give this some thought. She wishes she could take a half hit of crank and pump some weight in a dim and deserted gym with the latest underground speed metal playing off a portable Bose and echoing off soundproofed walls. Then the truth would come to her. Her intuition could combine with the limited facts and tell her the most likely answers to the questions
Where is Mingo headed? Is he aware of my presence or just stupid? Is this a trap?
Eventually, Mingo winds toward the west side of Quinsigamond and Lenore is unsure of whether or not to feel comfort now that she's on home turf. Woo stays silent in his seat, possibly sulking over coming so close to what he wants so badly. How far would she have let him go, she wonders, and is hit instantly with a picture of herself, naked and hungry for a little more air, in the cramped backseat of the Barracuda like some high school girl with an encroaching curfew. She puts the picture out of her mind, only with difficulty, by thinking of Vicky in her long black nightgown, swaying like a limp branch up the telephone pole.
Lenore watches Mingo take a left onto Sapir Street and her stomach tightens up. She's not sure why, but she doesn't want to consider the possibility that Ike could see her with Woo. The Jaguar slows, pulls into the curb just beyond the post office, and Lenore pulls into the parking lot of a convenience store on the corner of Breton and Sapir. She sinks in her seat and Woo glances at her, then does the same.
Mingo climbs out of the Jag carrying an oxblood briefcase, looks around as he fumbles with the keys to lock the car door. Then he crosses the street with a small jog and heads into the Bach Room. Lenore watches the screen door swing closed and then, absent-mindedly, she begins to rebutton her blouse.
“You play gin rummy?” she asks Woo, still staring at the Bach Room entrance.