Burn for Me (7 page)

Chapter Nine

When Jamie walked into The Panting Dog the next day, she was feeling pretty good. Their deal had been working out quite well, and the last few nights had been fantastic. He made her body sing, and last night, she’d been able to do something for him. She’d enjoyed giving without taking anything back for herself. He seemed to need it, and she was glad she was the one woman who would give it to him.

Becker was behind the bar, finishing up a phone call. Likely to a supplier, since he was discussing shipments and orders. She nodded a quick hello as she headed to her regular post, dropping her purse next to the iPad where she kept track of the wine sales.

She spotted a thick envelope taped to her iPad. Her name was on it, written in blocky letters. A man’s handwriting, for sure, but what intrigued her was the simple sketch of a dog’s paw next to her name. She slid a finger under the flap and opened the envelope.

Come to me in my dreams.

Her heart threatened to melt. It was a line from a Matthew Arnold poem, one she adored. Then, words from Smith.

These nights have been amazing. To “Another Time” very soon.

Okay, now a flock of butterflies swarmed her insides, turning her to mush. Damn him, with his double whammy of sweet words from a poet and sweet words from his own pen. Triple points for the dog paw since he knew she loved dogs. The grinding of a drill echoed through the bar, and, oddly enough, it thrilled her. Smith was here and she would be able to see him.

Wait. She wasn’t supposed to want to see him for more than sex, so why was she so dang excited for the possibility of a few minutes with him? She didn’t have time to contemplate, though, because Becker hung up and said a quick hello. He sounded frustrated.

“What’s going on?” she asked.

He scrubbed his hand across his jaw. “Just want this construction to be over soon and get things back to regular around here.”

“It has been a while, hasn’t it?”

“It’s taking longer than I thought,” he said, reaching for a glass and filling it with water from the sink as the drilling ended, replaced by hammering.

Jamie winced; the sound of the hammer seemed to reverberate in her skull. She could feel a headache start to take root from the noise. “It is getting a little annoying.”

“I know. What I would give for some silence in this place when the customers aren’t here,” Becker said, shaking his head and looking like a man longing for solitude. Odd that he’d chosen to run a bar when he seemed to crave quiet rather than crowds. But she wasn’t going to play amateur shrink. Instead, she honed in on how she could help him with the matter at hand, because she wanted to keep proving her value as his manager. An idea started to form. She flashed back to something Diane said a few days ago about adding some new hires at the winery, and how they’d worked out well.

“Well, let’s just move the project along then,” she said to Becker, a cheery tone to her voice.

“How so?”

“Smith needs to hire some help and I know how he can do it,” Jamie said, and marched to the unfinished section.

Smith’s back was to her and he had on headphones, singing along to some country song as he hammered nails into the wood.

He could carry a tune, and she added that to his list of positive traits. Good voice, head full of poetry, sinful body. And his heart in the right place, from his volunteer work to the sweet way he’d looked out for her when Diane had showed up crying the other day—quickly giving her the space she needed to talk to her sister. She stopped in her tracks momentarily, letting her mind wander. She could imagine herself in his house, him maybe working on some fix-it project, her tiptoeing over after breakfast and softly running her fingers along his skin. He’d turn around, plant a devastating kiss on her mouth, then carry her up the stairs two by two to the bedroom.

Pin her down, hold her close, make love to her.

Oh, crap.

She could not start thinking of him that way. It was sex, only sex. They weren’t making love, and certainly not in some imaginary house in her fantasies.

Because if it didn’t work out—and of course it wouldn’t work out—he’d eventually end it because they wanted different things—then she’d be saying sayonara to a friendship she didn’t want to give up.

He hammered once more, and the sound crashed into her head, sending off a new pang. She pressed her hand to her forehead as Smith turned around. “You okay? You got one of those nasty migraines again?”

“Yeah,” she said in a strained voice because it was coming on fast.

He reached for her shoulders, turning her around. He said nothing. Instead, he let his hands do the talking, his fingers kneading gently into her neck, then the dip of her shoulders. She sighed deeply and leaned into his touch. He lifted her hair so he could press his thumbs against the base of her scalp. The whole time, she moaned, but not the way she had in his truck or the storage room or his bedroom. The sounds came from relief, from the fact that he was taking away the pain, bringing her body back to the way it should be.

“You have magic hands,” she said softly, as the tension poured out of her, replaced only by the soft, noodly feeling of a massage well done.

“You feeling better?”

She nodded into his hands.

“Don’t stop, please.”

“Never,” he whispered, and she wasn’t sure if he was even talking about the massage anymore. But she knew this much—she didn’t want this thing between them to stop. Any of it. She inched her whole body closer as he moved on to her shoulders, rubbing her tight muscles between his fingers. Her back was nearly pressed against his chest, and she could feel his erection against her backside. She wriggled playfully against him once.

“You like that, too?” he asked.

“I like all the things you do,” she whispered. “That’s the problem.”

“But it’s not a problem. It doesn’t have to be a problem if you just give me a chance,” he said, and that idea was starting to grow on her. She didn’t know how to admit it, though, so she stayed silent for now, as he kept up the work on her neck and shoulders, then moved his hands into her hair.

“I don’t have a headache anymore.”

“I’m so glad to hear that.”

“You have no idea how much I needed this,” she said, and it sounded as if her voice might break. “I’ve been dealing with these stupid tension headaches forever and nothing has made them go away like you.” She snapped her fingers to demonstrate, then turned around to face him. “Thank you. Where did you learn how to do that?”

“I went to masseuse school. Didn’t you know?”

She grinned, then swatted his chest playfully. “Seriously. I know you studied business in college. But you’re like a magic cure. How do you do that?” she asked, then cursed herself for opening this can of worms. He probably learned how to give massages from a woman.

“Look, I could give you some line about how I’ve always been good with my hands, and it’s true. But I’m pretty sure that the talent you just saw came from the fact that I put myself through college making pizzas.”

She cracked up—of all the reasons to be good at massage, she’d never have picked
that
one. “Are you serious? You never told me that before.”

“I was a pizza boy. I got a job at this local pizza joint near school, and I worked my ass off five nights a week making pies. Yep, I can knead dough like nobody’s business.”

“You are a hard worker. I’m impressed too that you put yourself through college.”

“Paid every cent myself. I’ve just always believed you have to work for what you want in life.”

“I believe that, too. My parents offered to help me with a down payment on my first house, but I wanted to do it myself. So as I was tending bar, then managing bars, I saved the money to get myself a little house. It’s small, but it’s mine, and I love it. And speaking of working hard,” she said, shifting gears to a more serious note. “I have an idea for you.”

“Okay, what is it?”

“Now I know you don’t like to ask for help,” she said, doing her best to be gentle but firm. “But I want to help you with your business.”

He gave her a strange look as if she were speaking a foreign language. “What do you mean?”

“Well, you need to expand. You’ve hinted at that before. But you won’t hire anyone because you got burned when that guy you worked with stole from one of your clients, right?”

“Right,” he said, taking a step back, and she knew she was touching a nerve. Smith was very much man against the world, a true do-it-yourselfer.

“My sister runs my parents’ winery and she just hired a bunch of new part-timers to help out. Day laborers. She said they’re great and working out well. And I would really like to connect you with her and see if maybe you can hire some of them too.”

“Yeah, but how do I know it’ll all work out?” he asked, his voice wary.

“You don’t, but she’s good at her job and it seems to be going well so far.”

His features softened. “I guess I can talk to her. I know Becker wants me to get moving on this. But you sure she only uses trustworthy guys?”

“Of course. Diane is very thorough about vetting them.”

“All right. I’ll talk to her and see if I can throw some work their way too,” he said, then ran his hand gently along her arm. “Thank you for wanting to help. It means a lot to me.”

He was starting to mean a lot to her, and that was scary. True feelings were more than she’d bargained for when she masterminded this week-long affair. That’s why she had to stick to her guns, and be over and out after their one date. She’d miss him too much—their friendship and their fun—if they turned serious and then fell to pieces, as they surely would.

At the very least, though, she’d let herself fully enjoy their last night together. The week had neared its end, and she’d promised him one real date. They’d go out with a bang.

Chapter Ten

The restaurant overlooked the town square, tables spilling out onto the sidewalk, and tourists strolled by, weaving in and out of the shops, as they talked throughout the meal—he told her some of his favorite stories about absurd calls he’d gone on for the fire department, and she shared some of her silliest bar tales. She also let him know that she’d talked to Diane, who was eager to help him find some good hires, and wanted to chat on the phone with him tomorrow about next steps.

He was going to need to convince her that there would be a tomorrow for them.

As the waiter cleared their plates, Smith gestured to the square where some kids were playing frisbee, couples sat on benches, and a statue of the Hidden Oaks founder presided over it all. “Soon, you’ll be able to dunk me there.”

“Damn straight. You know you’re going down,” she joked.

He leaned in closer to her, trailing his fingers down her bare arm in the way he knew made her shiver. “Speaking of going down, I don’t believe we’ve added that to our repertoire yet,” he whispered in her ear. He knew he was supposed to be serious, but hell, he loved teasing her. He adored flirting with her. He could not resist being playful.

“Smith,” she chided. “There are kids around.”

“Well, I wasn’t going to do it here. Unless you want me to.”

“No. Not here. But aren’t we going to a movie? You know, the whole real date thing.”

“We had dinner. I can take you to a movie, or I can
take you
. And I can
have
you.”

“You know you can have me that way. I’m just glad I have you all to myself for this week.”

“You can have any part of me all to yourself.”

She rolled her eyes. “Always innuendo with you.”

“I can do innuendo or I can be in you.” He turned serious then, because that’s what she needed. “Jamie, I want you this week and every week. We’ve had a great date, haven’t we?”

She bit her lip briefly, then nodded. “Yes,” she said, as if she were admitting something difficult.

“I knew we would. We’re good together, aren’t we?”

“Smith,” she said, as if his name was a warning.

“What? We have. It’s just a fact of life. And the sooner you admit it, the better off we’ll be. Go to the festival with me. On another date.”

She laughed. “How about I just kiss you right now?” She placed her hands on his cheeks and captured his mouth with hers, like she was staking her claim to him. She gave him the kind of hard and hungry kiss that he liked to bestow on her, and it was as if the world had gone dark and she was all there was. He was swimming in her scent, in the fragrance of her neck, the sweet taste of her mouth, the fruity smell of shampoo in her hair. She was so pretty, so feminine, and so forward in the way she was owning their kiss in public. He shivered as her fingernails traced lines in his hair, as her tongue darted in and out of his mouth. She sucked on his bottom lip, lightly grazing her teeth into him. Then she stopped and nibbled on his ear, little flicks on his earlobe that made him growl. He slipped his hands underneath her shirt, pressing his palms against the small of her back. Her skin was so hot, and so was his, and he could no longer hold a single thought in his head that didn’t have to do with getting her naked.

“Let’s skip that movie,” she said.

“If you insist on skipping the date part…”

“I do insist. I want you.”

“Those are my three favorite words. Wait. So are these:
I live closer
,” he said.

“Your house. Now.”

Fifteen minutes later, they’d barely made it inside his home when she grabbed the waistband of his jeans and claimed his mouth again. Damn, she was a feisty one. He wanted to thank his lucky stars, because who would have thought that she’d be his perfect match in
and
out of the bedroom? He sure hoped she was seeing it too, from the way they chatted and had a good time, to
this.

She pressed her lips against his in some kind of sweet devouring and trailed her hands down his shirt, yanking it loose from his jeans. She danced her fingertips across his stomach.

“I’m going to do my laundry on your abs.” She mimed rubbing fabric across his midsection.

“You can use me any way you want,” he teased, and even though he knew he needed to win her on all accounts, his body was in overdrive with desire right now. For her. “But I’m going to do something to you right now that I’m pretty sure you like a lot,” he said, and kissed her back lightly, sliding the tip of his tongue across her lips in a way that made it clear what he planned to do next. “I love it when you ask for it. Will you ask for it?”

He pulled back to savor her reaction.

She breathed out hard. Closed her eyes. Opened them again. Swayed toward him. Her chest fell against his and he could feel her breasts through the fabric of her sweater. In a hungry voice, she rasped out, “Will you go down on me please?”

A grin slowly spread across his face. “I am at your service.”

He spun her around so her back rested against the wall in his hallway.

…

If it were possible to die from desire, then this might be Jamie’s last moment on earth. She wanted his touch so badly, it felt like a primal sort of need. An ache that had to be filled, and bless this man, he didn’t make her wait. He slid a hand between her legs, pressing his palm against her damp panties.

Then two hands were under her skirt, and he stripped off her underwear in seconds. Before he kneeled down, he returned his hand to her wetness. She quivered, her whole body trembling at his touch. He brought her finger to his mouth and sucked on it. “Mmm,” he said, shaking his head appreciatively. “You taste like you’re dying for me to lick you all over and make you come on my tongue. Is that fair to say?”

Heat flared through her, threatening to turn her molten. She could barely speak, could only nod and breathe out a strangled “Yes.”

He kneeled down, resting his strong hands on the inside of her thighs as he kissed her between her legs. His lips were made for this and he went down on her as if it was air, as if it was breath, as if the taste of her was the very thing he craved for sustenance and survival. He kissed and ran his tongue across her, and when she thought she couldn’t bear any more ecstasy, he slid one strong finger inside her, and that was all it took.

She’d been hovering near the edge, teetering on the crest of a mind-blowing orgasm, and with one more touch, and one more delicious slide across her, she was there, the pressure of her climax both exquisitely intense and freeing, as she called his name over and over. She grabbed his hair, pulling his face against her, as she came on his tongue.

She flashed back to their other times. He’d been rough and hard, and she’d loved that. But just now, she’d seen another side of his touch. He savored her, he delighted in her, he cherished her. She loved all these sides of him.

Soon, he rose, and though he looked pleased with his work, he also looked at her tenderly, and with such passion, she knew there was no turning back. Not from hope, and not from the possibility of heartbreak. She’d tried to keep him at arm’s length, but that had been all for naught. She craved him in every way, and while she knew this was ending, she wanted this time with him to be more than just sex.

Later, when they fell asleep together in his bed, she drifted off, thinking how very much she liked being in his arms.

That was the problem. It was absolutely the biggest problem she faced right now. She’d painted herself into a corner, and she had no idea how to get out.