Sebastien pulled her to him then. He smelled slightly oniony, which Lily sort of liked; she found herself pleasantly surprised by his moments of undeniable masculinity, and the way they offset his light eyes and freckles and cerebralism. Sometimes she wished she could tell him this; so many times when he went on and on and on she’d wanted to take his hand or grab his thigh and tell him,
Stop it. Just stop it. I was impressed already
. But she felt that this would disappoint him somehow; that it would be vulgar; that it would be conventional. And sometimes Lily wondered if maybe she wasn’t the person he was actually trying to impress, anyhow.
“Benign intentions?” said Sebastien, kissing her temple. “I thought you were a wicked woman.”
“I guess maybe I am,” Lily said glumly. “I mean, that seems to be the prevailing assessment.”
“All right, my sulking salmon,” said Sebastien, clapping her fraternally on the shoulders. “Let’s go out. I’ll grab my walking stick.”
Outside, the moon was huge and cantaloupe colored, looking too heavy for the sky. Lily had thought the walking stick thing was a joke, but Sebastien had indeed produced one from one of the cavernous back rooms and now carried it majestically, tapping on the ground from time to time. His parents had bought it in Fiji, he said. It had chips of abalone shell that glowed like the eyes of something nocturnal, and Lily gave it a wide distance as they ventured through a thin woods and over a small hill toward where Sebastien had said there was a river.
Lily wanted to frolic. The creepiness of the walking stick made her nervous in a giddy, childish, not entirely unpleasant way. And outside, in this soft summery evening, the trouble with Beatriz did not seem so important. You could not get everyone to like you; you could waste your whole life trying, and still it would not work. Lily did a cartwheel. Sebastien held the walking stick in the crook of his elbow and golf clapped. She did another—passably, she thought. They were pretty hard to do now; she had no idea when they’d become so difficult. But this was like a lot of things, she supposed—you wandered away from something for what felt like a minute and by the time you thought to come back to it, it had already been gone for a very long time.
Lily had only three months left in Argentina.
They walked until they reached the river. Above it, the sky was clear, and the moon was so big that Lily could see its whorls; it looked like a chalky thumbprint in the sky. The moment might have been romantic—Lily could feel Sebastien gearing up to take her hand, to kiss her—but she wanted to shake off the feeling. She felt mischievous, scheming; she wanted to make Sebastien do something frivolous,
something that he simply could not look cool while doing. She didn’t know why she hadn’t thought to take him out earlier. It had always seemed too egregiously typical, she supposed. But now she saw that being in the world had wrong-footed Sebastien in a way she rather liked; she felt that she was now on a sort of home field advantage.
“Do you want to play Pooh sticks?” she said.
“What?”
“Like in
Winnie-the-Pooh
?”
“I’m afraid I’m unfamiliar.”
“You never read
Winnie-the-Pooh
?”
“My parents’ tastes skewed more continental, I’m afraid.”
“You drop a stick in the water and see whose stick gets to the other side of the bridge first.”
“It sounds like a thrill.”
“Well, it was a game for fictional stuffed animals, so yeah. It’s dumb. Let’s play. Find a stick.” Lily had never thought to do this before, either—to just go ahead and tell Sebastien to do something. She was forever being deferential, forever letting him set the terms of their conversations, forever allowing him to lure her farther and farther into swampy and sardonic terrain on which she’d never have a hope of standing upright. But now they were outside, and the sound of the river was making it hard to banter, and Lily knew that Sebastien would do whatever she told him to do.
“What?” he said.
“Go find a stick,” she said severely. “Make sure it’s a good one.”
Sebastien gave her a baleful look and walked off into the woods. Lily ran off into some scrubby weeds and found a twig. She ran back, breathless. Her hands were dirty. This was friendship; this was the stuff of memory and future nostalgia. They reconvened on the bridge.
“Okay,” she said, peering into the water. Below them, the river was roiling obsidian; the reflection cast by the moon was shaky and insubstantial. “Let go.”
They let go. Lily grabbed Sebastien and pulled him to the other side. A stick emerged a moment later, and then another. “I can’t tell
which is which,” said Lily. She was laughing a bit more buoyantly than she ordinarily might. This was her little impulsive adventure, after all, and she knew she had to make it feel as though they were having joyful and terrifically arbitrary fun. In the modern world, this was usually the girl’s job. She’d seen enough movies to know.
“It’s mine,” said Sebastien. “I’d recognize it anywhere. Mine won.”
“You cheated!” said Lily. She hit him. She’d been planning on accusing him of cheating all along, no matter what happened.
“You let me win!” he said.
Lily spanked him playfully and then grabbed his hands and pulled him to the ground. She was trying to be a spritely elf of high spirits and curiosity. She was trying to be a person who might cause trouble sometimes—but only because she was so lively and nonconformist, only because she was so special, and not because she ever meant any harm.
Lily strung her fingers through Sebastien’s. They lay in the grass for a long time and Sebastien told her many things about the constellations. And although Lily knew for a fact that at least some of the things he was saying were wrong, she decided to pretend that she did not.
That night, lying in bed—after taking off her shoes in the entrance, carefully picking her way across the linoleum, and closing the door to the basement with the most exquisitely gentle of clicks—Lily could not sleep. Within her, a tremendous sea of unease was twisting into a cyclone; the dreamy magic of the evening was over, and she was left with a stark and uncomfortable fact: Beatriz hated her. Beatriz
hated
her. And not just for things she did, but for things she had not done. Katy managed to fly below the radar, and why was that? Was it only because her face was so pretty, and so pretty in such a sweet way? Was it because she never ventured an opinion at dinner? Or was there something she was actually doing right, something that Lily could actually learn from? Was it true that Katy was somehow paying more attention?
Lily sat bolt upright. “How did you know they were being sued?” she said.
It was possible that Katy was asleep—it was late, the lights were out, and Katy had not spoken when Lily had entered and climbed the ladder to the top bunk, her toes painfully monkeying around one rung and then the next—but somehow, Lily did not think so: The room vibrated with some other awareness, and Lily suddenly felt sure that Katy had been waiting for her.
There was silence. Lily felt the minor heave of Katy rolling over. “Sebastien told me,” she said at last.
At this, Lily nearly bonked her head on the ceiling. “Sebastien told you? How?”
“I went over there to ask him.”
Lily lay back down. Her heart was pounding. She tried to keep her voice steady and light. “I didn’t know you guys were friends.”
Lily could feel Katy shrug. “We’re not, really.”
Not really friends, as Lily well knew, could mean any number of things. It could mean enemies, or frenemies, or fuck buddies, or fuck frenemies, or any countless variations thereof. It would be far too horrid to ask for clarification, of course, so Lily did not. “I thought you couldn’t stand him,” she said instead.
“Well, I said we
weren’t
really friends. And anyway, no, I can totally stand him.”
A realization was opening up in Lily, a knowledge of galactic vastness and obviousness. Of course. She thought of the way Katy always steered the conversation toward Sebastien—who really cared that much about some other girl’s sex life? She remembered the night after that first dinner, when Sebastien and Katy had stood on the porch together—Sebastien looking flustered, Katy smoking a cigarette (who would have thought?). Lily had seen them from the basement bathroom window, though she hadn’t cared enough to really think about it at the time. But she saw now that Sebastien had probably preferred Katy from the start and had settled for Lily only as a consolation prize. And perhaps the two of them had had some ongoing whatever—
attraction or flirtation or fling—its exact nature did not really matter; it did not really change anything. Sebastien might even really love Lily, for all she knew, with a sort of diffuse, redirected, anonymous love. That’s how most boys were, in her experience; they could love with real tenderness, but their love was almost always aimed at a woman’s most generic qualities—her sweetness or softness or relative beauty, her archetypal feminine characteristics, whatever Freudian maternal shadows she cast—and so it was fungible, nonspecific. Empty, finally, even if it was technically real. Just look at Harold and the accounting major! Lily had been wise to practice a strategy of passive resistance, of conscientious objection, throughout that entire relationship. Boys were all the same, even Sebastien, who had seemed so promisingly weird. All he really wanted was a woman (any woman!) who was sweet and reasonable and attractive. And Katy was all of these things—she was, in fact, more of these things—than Lily would ever be.
“Anyway, he may not be my favorite person in the world,” Katy was saying. “But it’s very obvious he’s totally nuts about you.”
To this, Lily said nothing. She rolled over. She stared at the ceiling for a long while. She did not sleep. And this time, she was positively sure that Katy was not sleeping, either.
On Wednesday, the DNA results came in.
As Eduardo had expected, there was nothing of Sebastien LeCompte anywhere in the house. As Eduardo had also expected, there was nothing of Javier Aguirre, the nightclub owner whom Lily had named. What was more, Aguirre had supplied an ironclad alibi—a night at a strip club, complete with security footage you did not want to see and bookended by ATM withdrawals. The DNA that was all over the crime scene—in the semen in Katy’s body, in the spots of blood on the carpet, in the contents of the astonishingly unflushed toilet bowl—derived from a man named Ignacio Toledo, who’d been a sometime bartender at Fuego and had apparently not shown up to work since Katy was killed.
Toledo had been arrested twice before—once for possessing paco cocaine and once for vandalizing a car, though what he’d really been trying to do, no doubt, was steal it. He’d testified against his friends
both times and had spent eighteen months in Villa Concepción for the second conviction. He didn’t have a history of violence, at least not that the state had noted, but that did not matter. We all create our histories as we live them; every killer had once lived many years as an innocent. And if there were two great democratizers of violence, in Eduardo’s experience, they were prison time and paco cocaine.
As Eduardo had further expected, there were also several substantial signs of Lily Hayes at the scene of the crime—on Katy’s mouth (the defense would try to explain this via the improbable CPR), on one of Katy’s bras (Eduardo couldn’t quite imagine what they would come up with for that one), and, most incriminatingly, on the knife. Eduardo knew what the defense would say about that: It was a kitchen knife, after all, to which the whole household had had access. In the interviews Eduardo had conducted, neither Beatriz nor Carlos Carrizo could summon a single memory of Lily cooking anything, ever; furthermore, Lily herself had never once mentioned cooking in Eduardo’s previous conversations with her, during which he’d established an extensive accounting of all the usual aspects of her daily life. Still, the panel would likely find it perfectly plausible that Lily
might
have handled the kitchen knife at some point during her stay with the Carrizos—and really, who could be perfectly sure that she had not? In the end, in fact, it was the bra clasp that was murkier—and in some ways, more important. Here was an object that Lily should have had no occasion to handle, and here was proof that she had.
“Why did you tell us that Javier Aguirre did this?” Eduardo asked Lily. She was flanked by her two lawyers, who had been hired days ago by the Hayes family but only recently become cognizant, it seemed, of their client’s ongoing propensity for unsupervised chats with the prosecution. Eduardo knew both of them slightly: Velazquez, whose bald head gleamed so forcefully it looked spackled, and Ojeda, who was so fat that you had the sense that, if you were very, very quiet, you might actually be able to hear him getting fatter. Ojeda was good at his job—he was brilliant and ruthless and clinically efficient—and he deployed
his fat, Eduardo was sure, as a method of getting people to underestimate his capabilities. Eduardo couldn’t help but feel a grim admiration for this tactic, as well as a certain affinity with it. Velazquez and Ojeda would forbid Lily, of course, from speaking with Eduardo in any more conversations pertaining to her role as a defendant. But her mention of Javier Aguirre as a possible suspect meant that any hypothetical prosecution of him would mean Eduardo’s calling Lily as one of his own witnesses, and even Lily’s lawyers could not stop him from speaking with her about that.
“I didn’t,” said Lily.
“You could be charged with slander, you know. There could be a civil case.”
“I didn’t tell you that he did it.”
“Do you want me to read you the transcript?”
“You forced me to say someone!”
Eduardo pretzeled his face into an expression of bewilderment. “How did I force you? Were you threatened? Were you in any manner physically coerced?”
Lily looked down. Her unwashed hair made heavy curtains around her face; behind it, her eyes were quartzitic and glittering. She did not answer.
Eduardo leaned forward. “Why, Lily? Why did you name Javier? Did you have problems with Javier? Problems at work?”