Authors: Erica Spindler
Fear rose up in her, grabbing her by the throat. Not fear of her own death, but of another's. She pictured Emma, the way she gurgled and kicked her legs, the way her smile lit up her whole face and made you feel glad to be alive. And she pictured her in a pool of blood, her head blown off or throat slit.
She had to find a way to stop him.
“But why?” she whispered. “She belongs to Kate now. She's not a part of our lives. Sheâ”
He placed a hand over her mouth, hushing her. “Loose ends,” he said. “They can come back to haunt you, they must be tied up.”
He dropped his hand, swung his legs over the side of the bed and sat up. He reached for his gun, checked the clip, then lay it on the bed beside him. “I'd like to spare Kate, but that might not be possible. It probably won't be.”
Julianna stared at his back, sickened. He spoke of killing Kate and Emma with no more emotion than he would talking about lunch. Or the weather. How had she not seen him for the monster he was? How could she have believed herself in love with him?
She wouldn't let him kill Emma. She couldn't.
She darted her gaze over the room, considering her options, scrambling for a way out of this, for a way to stop him. For something she could use to stop him. She needed to get his gun. But how? He never let it out of his reach. Her gaze landed on the hideously ugly ceramic lamp on the bedside table. It would have to do.
Julianna crawled out of bed, snatched up a T-shirt and pair of shorts from the floor beside the bed and pulled them on. “You're right, of course. But Iâ¦I should help.”
He stood and looked over his shoulder at her in question. “It's my mess,” she said. “I should helpâ¦clean it up.”
He thought about it a moment, then inclined his head. “What do you propose?”
He bent to retrieve his pants from the floor, stepped into them, then reached for his gun.
Julianna saw her opportunity. Her last opportunity. She grabbed the lamp and swung. It connected with the back of his head with a sickening thud. The gun slipped from his fingers.
He straightened and looked at her, his expression registering surprise, then understanding. She swung again, as hard as she could, grunting with the effort. The lamp base exploded against his head. Pottery shards and blood flew in every direction.
As if in slow motion, John fell to his knees, then toppled face first to the floor, square on top of the gun.
Julianna stood above him, shaking, what was left of the lamp dangling from her hand. She couldn't tell if he was breathing; no way was she going any closer.
She let the lamp slip from her fingers. “That's what I propose, you sick bastard.”
K
ate awakened with a start. She sat up and looked around her, disoriented. She'd come home from the funeral and after getting Emma down for the night, had poured herself a big glass of wine and sat on the couch. She must have fallen asleep.
She glanced at the baby monitor to make sure it was on. The power indicator light glowed; a comforting, red beacon in the otherwise dark room.
Kate stared at it a moment, listening. No sound came from her daughter's bedroom. Reassured, she sank back against the cushions. She brought her hands to her face, acknowledging fatigue. Despair.
It was over. The funeral had marked the end. Not only to Richard's life, but to her own as well. The one she had known for more than ten years, the one with Richard, the one in which she had been a happily married woman. Content. And confident. Of her place in the world. That she was loved.
Suddenly, Emma whimpered, then cried out, the sound sharp and frightened.
The monitor crackled, then went dead.
Kate froze momentarily, then alarm exploded inside her. She scrambled from the couch. Her foot knocked into the glass of wine, toppling it, sending red liquid spilling across the white rug. She ran for the nursery.
She reached it in moments. A cry ripped from her lips. A figure stood beside her daughter's crib, bent over it. At her feet sat the diaper bag, stuffed to overflowing.
“Get away from my baby!”
The woman spun around. She had Emma in her arms, a hand pressed over her mouth to quiet her.
Even in the minimal illumination cast by the sole night-light, Kate recognized the woman. “Julianna? What do you think you're doing?”
The woman removed her hand, and Emma's cries shattered the quiet. “This isn't what it looks like, Kate.”
Kate inched carefully toward the younger woman, uncertain what she would do, afraid for Emma's safety. “Give me my baby.”
The infant heard her mother's voice and turned toward her, her cries becoming frenetic howls.
Julianna took a step backward. She shook her head. “You don't understand. He's coming! He means toâ”
“Give her to me!” Kate stopped before her and held out her arms. “You're scaring her.”
Julianna hesitated. In that moment, Kate saw her grip slacken and she snatched the infant from the other woman's arms and spun away from her. She held Emma to her chest, rocking and cooing. The infant quieted, her cries becoming distraught, hiccoughing whimpers.
“Haven't you done enough?” Kate asked, her voice low, vibrating with emotion. “You stole my husband and now you want my child, too?”
“You don't understand,” she said again, wringing her hands, glancing nervously at the Pooh Bear wall clock. “John's coming. Heâ”
“I don't know any John. How did you get in here?”
“The key in the false rock. Beside the side door.”
Dear God, that's how she had gotten in before.
“I'm calling the police.”
Julianna grabbed her arm, stopping her. “Don't do that! You can't. You have toâ”
“My husband is dead. He wouldn't be, if he'd been home.” Kate shook off her hand. “Get out of my house. I want you away from me and away from my child.”
Kate left the nursery, hurrying toward the living room. When she reached it, she flipped on the overhead light. The phone lay on the floor beside the toppled wineglass and ugly red stain.
“Emma's life is in danger.”
Kate stopped dead. She looked back at Julianna, taking in her tear-streaked face and stained, rumpled clothing. Kate focused on the stains, suddenly realizing what they were. Blood.
Kate widened her eyes, suddenly truly afraid. For her daughter's safety, for her own. “Oh, my God.”
“John's coming. He means to kill Emma.”
Tightening her grip on her daughter, Kate took a step backward. “Get away from us.”
Julianna held a hand out. It, too, was splattered with blood. “I have to protect her.”
Kate shook her head, heart thundering, mouth dry. “You're crazy. Unbalanced. You'reâ”
“I'm Emma's birth mother.”
Julianna's words hit Kate squarely in the gut. She stared at the other woman, stunned, numb, her world rocking. “Whatâ¦did youâ”
“I'm Emma'sâ”
“Shut up!” Kate shouted. “You're lying. You have to be!”
“I wanted to have an abortion,” Julianna began, voice shaking. “But I waitedâ¦too long. One week and three days too long.
“The doctor,” she continued, “he showed me pictures of babies at my stage of development. They wereâ¦theyâ” She looked at Kate, eyes pleading for understanding. “I didn't know. I promise I didn't.”
Julianna drew in a shuddering breath and dragged her gaze away from Kate's. She crossed to the couch and sank heavily onto it. “The doctor asked me to consider adoption. He told me about Citywide. It seemed a perfect solution. My only way out.”
Kate lowered her gaze to her daughter, tears flooding her eyes. Richard had been sleeping with Emma's biological mother. The thought made her sick.
“Did heâ¦know?” she asked, tears choking her. “Did Richard know you wereâ”
“No. I didn't tell him.” She looked at her hands, then back up at Kate. “At first I thought I'd surrender Emma and disappear. But then Iâ¦I read your profiles. Richard'sâ¦profile. I fell in love with him.”
Kate stared at the other woman, not believing what she was hearing. “You fell in love with my husband from hisâ¦because of what he had written?”
“Yes.” Julianna hugged herself. “He was everythingâ¦everything I'd always dreamed of. But I didn't just fall in love with him.” She lifted watery eyes to Kate. “I fell in love with you, too. With your marriage, your lives.”
“Soâ¦you decided to steal them? Instead of making your own life, you decided to steal ours?”
For a moment, Julianna hung her head. Then she lifted it and squared her shoulders. “I gave you Emma. You wanted to be a mother more than anything. You said so in your profile. In return for Richard, I gave you Emma.”
What could she say to this young woman? Thank you? She looked at her as if Kate should not only understand, but that she should even approve. “How did you find us?” she asked. “Ellen assured us that no identifying information would be exchanged without our consent.”
“I stole it. From a file on her desk. She doesn't know.”
Dear God, Kate realized, she had been right. About the break in, the missing photograph, the girl on the swing. All along, it had been Emma's birth mother.
“So you followed us,” she murmured. “Found a way into our lives, Richard's life. And you seduced him.”
The younger woman leaned forward, her expression earnest. “He didn't want to be unfaithful to you, Kate. He wasn't that kind of man. But we were meant to be together. We were each other's destiny. Each other's soul mate.”
Kate looked at her daughter, quiet now and gazing up at her with unblinking blue eyes. Eyes only for her. Her mother. Kate's heart swelled, love momentarily chasing away the anger and betrayal she felt, chasing away the ugliness of the past days.
“Leave now.” She returned her gaze to Julianna. “If you do, because of Emma, I won't call the police.”
“I can't do that. Iâ¦there's more, Kate. Something Iâ¦have to tell you.”
Kate stilled, something in the other woman's tone scaring her more than anything she had said so far.
“There's a man. He killed Richard and heâ¦he means to kill Emma.”
“Why are you saying this?” she cried, beginning to tremble. “Why can't you just leave us alone? Haven't you hurt me enough? Haven't you hurt my family enough?”
“He's Emma's father.”
Kate gazed at the other woman in horror. The nightmare that had become her life had just taken another bizarre turn for the worse. She went to a chair and sat on its edge. Julianna was a deeply disturbed young woman; this story so far-fetched as to be ludicrous. And yetâ¦something about it rang true. And if it were, Emma's life was in danger.
Kate looked up. “But why? I don't understand.”
“Because of me. Because he's crazy. Obsessed.”
“I'm calling the police,” Kate said, standing.
“No!” Julianna cried, jumping to her feet. “They can't protect you from him! He's a professional. An assassin, trained to do wet work for the government. Killing means nothing to him. It's a job, a way of life.”
“This is ludicrous!”
“You have to listen! The police can't help. John will wait them out. Or slip in and out without them being any the wiser. And he won't give up. Emma's a loose end. He told me so.”
Kate strode past her and snatched up the phone from the floor. Julianna grabbed her arm. “I saw pictures. Of people with their throats slit. My motherâ” her voice cracked “âshe knew about him. I wouldn't believe her, so she had a friend of hers from the CIA tell me everything. He's the one whoâ¦who showed me the pictures.”
Tears welled in Julianna's eyes. “That man, from the CIA, he's dead now. So's my mother. It's all my fault. Don't you seeâ¦he'll kill Emma.”
Kate sank onto the chair, the cordless phone slipping from her fingers. She brought a hand to her mouth. “Oh, my God. If what you're telling me isâ¦if it's true, what am I going to do?”
Julianna squatted down in front of Kate. “We have to run. Now. I hit him over the head with a lamp, but I don't know if Iâ¦if I killed him. I'm afraid I didn't.”
“We have to run?” Kate made a sound of disbelief. “I'd sooner accompany a viper into a snake pit than go anywhere with you. I'll take my chances on my own.”
“But I know him, how he works, what he looks like.” She caught her hands. “You need me. Without me, you'll be sitting ducks.”
“I don't need you. Iâ”
The phone rang. They both turned toward the unit, though neither made a move to pick it up. It rang again. Then again.
The machine answered. Kate's cheery message floated through the silent house, followed by a man's voice, deep and silky smooth.
“Hello, Kate. Pass this message along to Julianna, please. I have your answer now. You've betrayed me for the last time.” He sighed heavily. “You and Emma are dead.”