I see.
She turned to the lovely scenery and didn't ask any more questions. She didn't want to have to listen to any more answers.
Later that afternoon, when they went swimming off the point from Seawatch, several hundred yards out in the Caribbean, using the
Lady Jane
as their base, Sonya experienced the extremes of reaction to her new circumstance: optimistic enjoyment-and fearful anticipation of disaster.
The joy came from the simple act of floating and frollicking on the brilliantly blue-green waters of the Caribbean, the sun beating down hot and steady, the sky high and wide and unbelievably blue, gulls circling high overhead like monitors of their pleasure. Peterson had brought the
Lady Jane
through the wide mouth of a submerged coral reef shaped like a semicircle with its open face towards shore. This natural crescent formed a breakwater that cut the roiling waves and left only a gentle in and out swell that Sonya gave herself over to. She lay on her back, gently moving her hands to keep herself afloat, sinking and rising, bobbing at the dictates of the gentle sea. Bill floated beside her, bronze already but growing even more tan, an extremely handsome man, very gay and very vital, the perfect sort of man to be with on a day like this in a place such as this.
Then came the fear.
Something brushed Sonya's feet, startling her into a sudden, loud yelp, so that she sank, thrashed, gained the surface again.
What's the matter? Peterson asked.
A fish, I guess, she said. It touched me, and I wasn't expecting anything like that. She laughed, but stopped laughing when she saw that the incident did not amuse him at all.
He was staring intently at the water around them, as if he could see down through the glaring surface.
Sharks! he snapped.
What?
But she had heard.
She had heard too clearly.
Swim for the boat, he advised. Make as much noise as you can. Forget about being a good swimmer; just thrash the water to a boil. Noise scares them off.
In a minute or so, they were both standing on the deck of the
Lady Jane,
dripping saltwater on the polished boards, safe.
I always thought the reef formed a barrier against them, Peterson said; wiping his face with a towel. But they must have come in from the landward side, through the open end.
Sonya was shivering so badly that her teeth chattered together like clamshells. Would they have hurt us?
They might have.
Are they still there?
He pointed.
I don't see-
And then she did see: the hard, black fin, thrusting out of the water like a knife, circling, moving rapidly, now lost in the glare, now visible again.
How many? she asked.
I saw two, he said.
As she watched the shark circle and circle, as if waiting for them to come back into the water, her joy evaporated altogether. It seemed, to her, that the shark was a portent of things to come, a sign to beware-to be cautious.
The sea no longer appeared to be as beautiful as it was only minutes ago
The sky was far too bright.
The sun, instead of warming and tanning her, seemed fiercely, unmercifully hot and she realized, belatedly, that she might as easily burn as tan.
Let's go in, she said.
He started the engines.
Dinner was even better Wednesday evening than it had been the evening before: lobster tails with sweet butter, scalloped potatoes, pepper slaw, several vegetables, fresh strawberries and cream for dessert. Conversation at the table remained lively-actually, now that everyone had grown accustomed to the new addition to the table, it was livelier than it had been the night before. Unfortunately none of it could erase Sonya's feeling of impending disaster.
She retired to her room at nine-thirty, closed and locked her door, and made ready for bed. It was too early for sleep, and her nerves were too much on edge to permit her to turn out the lights just yet. She had brought several paperback novels with her, and she propped herself up on pillows, in the center of the Polynesian bed, and she began the best of the lot, trying to get caught up in the story.
Two hours later, when she had read slightly more than half of the book, she felt sleep steal in behind her eyes and begin to tug insistently at her heavy lids much like a child might tug at his mother's skirts.
She got out of bed and turned off the lights, stood for a moment in the cool darkness, listening for something but not knowing what.
Before getting under the covers, she went to the window and looked out at the night sea and the swaying palms
As before, she was taken by the beauty of the scene, and she might have stood there admiring it for a long while, might have seen nothing at all out of the ordinary if the man standing beneath the palms, some distance from the house, had not chosen that moment to stretch his legs. He leaned away from the bole of one of the largest palms and stepped back and forth a few times, on a short path, before taking up his vigil again.
Rudolph Saine?
He did not seem big enough to be the bodyguard, though he was not a small man. Or she didn't think he was. In the deeps of the shadows, however, little about him was recognizable.
She stood there, for long minutes, waiting for him to reveal himself once more. She was confident that he would not see her, for the room was dark behind her. Then, with a start, he stepped from the tree and seemed to gaze up at her, though his face was in shadows, and she could only suppose it was she who had attracted his sudden interest. She realized that, in the light of the large moon, her white pajamas must have shown up like a signal flag.
The stranger-if he was a stranger-turned away from her and abruptly walked off into the sentinel pines.
In an instant, he was lost to sight.
She stepped back from her window, as if what she had seen was part of an illusion and that, if she turned away from the screen on which it had been played-her window-it would cease to be true and real. She wondered, briefly, if she should report this to Rudolph Saine, but she decided that she really had nothing to report, nothing that meant anything. She had seen a man standing in the shadows of the palms, near the house, watching the house at night. And he had gone away. What good would that information do anyone?
Where had he gone?
Who knew?
Who was he?
She couldn't say.
What did she think he was doing there?
She didn't
want
to think what he might have been doing there. She had come here to get away from ugly thoughts, old fears, tension, anxiety. She didn't want to have to face anything like that.
And since she could not answer any of the questions Rudolph Saine was most likely to ask, she could see no sense in dredging up the mess. She would appear to be nothing more than a slightly hysterical young woman, still upset over her encounter with two sharks during the afternoon, sleepy, seeing things in the night, illusions, deceptions of shadows. She could do no good whatsoever by crying wolf at every little incident that disturbed her, for then, if the real trouble came, she would find them slow to react to her cries for help.
That was logical, wise.
Refusing to consider the import of her observation, refusing to dwell on the memory any longer at all, having convinced herself that she was right to keep her silence, she went to the large bed and got beneath the sheets, snuggled down and buried her bright, blonde head in the fluffy pillows. She would sleep
sleep
Then everything would be fine. In the morning, all of this sense of onrushing trouble, this fearful anticipation would be gone. In the morning. It would all be fine, then. Just fine. She slept
In the morning, of course, nothing had improved.
At the university, a year earlier, a boy named Daryl Pattersen, whom she had dated for a while but about whom she had never been serious, told her that he liked her so much chiefly because of her ability to ignore all of the unpleasant things in life. I mean, he told her, you don't just grin and bear it when trouble strikes. You actually ignore it! You seem to forget about the disaster two minutes after it's happened. When you get a bad test grade, I've seen you toss the paper away and go about your business as if you'd just gotten an A.
Naturally, Lynda Spaulding, Sonya's roommate, a pessimist from the word go, did not look upon this personality quirk as an attribute, as Daryl did, but she saw it as a fault, a weakness, a dangerous inadequacy that had to be watched carefully. Life isn't all roses, Sonya, as you should know by now. You try too hard to be happy, and you work too hard to forget the things that've made you unhappy.
My own private psychiatrist, Sonya had said, slapping her forehead with an open palm.
See, you know I'm telling you the truth. You're trying to turn what I say into a joke, so you won't have to think about it. Later, she said, You surround yourself with friends who're always jovial and in a good mood; sometimes, you make friends with the biggest phonies on campus, just because they're always smiling.
I like people that smile, Sonya had said.
But no one should be smiling all the time!
This morning, on
Distingue,
Sonya had forgotten all of those exchanges with Lynda Spaulding. If she remembered anything, it was Daryl's sweet and charming remarks.
Still, the air was filled with expectancy, tense, waiting.
In the next few days, there was no lessening of that tension. She began each workday at ten, with the children, going over their reading skills and seeing what she might do to improve them. Fortunately, both Alex and Tina were exceptionally bright students, and they needed no encouragement to do their work, for they were as curious as they were intelligent. By noon, when they took a lunch break, the kids were usually a good many pages ahead of the lesson which she had planned for them, like two intellectual sponges soaking up all that she could pour before them. After lunch, around two o'clock, they began work on arithmetic and spelling, some geography and history for Alex and some skill-games for Tina.
Friday afternoon, when they were studying the map of the United States during the geography lesson, Alex pointed to the eastern seaboard, traced the outlines of one state in particular. That's New Jersey, he said.
Yes, it is.
Where we used to live.
Sonya frowned. Yes. You see how far away you are from there?
Real far, he said.
She found Guadeloupe for him and, though
Distingue
was not on the map, indicated their general position in relationship to the larger island.
I'm glad they scared us out of New Jersey, Alex said.
Oh?
Yeah. It's prettier down here.
Lots prettier, Tina added.
I'd hate to be killed in New Jersey, Alex said. Down here, it would be better.
Sonya chose not to question this rather macabre statement, but went quickly on with the lesson, drawing the boy's attention to the West Coast, as far away from New Jersey as she could lead him.
By four-thirty each afternoon, finished with lessons, they were ready for a swim, a game of tag, a walk about the island-always with Rudolph Saine in tow, his burly arms, like the arms of a gorilla, swinging loosely at his sides, his scowl permanently in place, his broad face creased like putty that had been scored with a sculptor's blade.
He carried a holstered revolver under his left armpit.
Sonya pretended not to notice.
And still, nothing untoward happened.
Monday afternoon, when she had been on
Distingue
for nearly a week, Sonya was given the last half of the day off, for Joe Dougherty wanted to take his kids to Guadeloupe for a couple of movies and-he told her, shuddering as if the prospect utterly repelled him-supper at their favorite greasy hamburger emporium. I think we set the best possible table here at Seawatch, he told Sonya. She agreed. But, he said, the kids tell me that our food 'stinks' in comparison to the hamburgers and French fries on Guadeloupe.
Better not let Helga hear them say that.
Never! he vowed. I'd rather lose my fortune than lose Helga and her cooking!
Because Bill Peterson was to take the Doughertys to the main island, and because he would wait there for them, Sonya was left to entertain herself for the remainder of the day. Bill asked her to come along and promised her a thorough tour of
Pointe-a-Pitre,
but she said she preferred this chance to get familiar with
Distingue.
At two o'clock in the afternoon, when she would ordinarily have been coaxing the children into getting settled for their second study period, Sonya set out from Seawatch to walk the length of the island and then home again. She wore white shorts and a lightweight yellow blouse, sandals that consisted of little more than a sole and a strap to hold them to her feet. Despite the giant, orange sun and the cloudless heavens, she felt cool and happy, looking forward to the expedition.
She lifted her long, yellow hair and tucked it behind her ears, to keep it from blowing around her face in the gentle breeze that came in from the open sea. She felt fresh, clean and very alive.
Several hundred yards from the house, she stopped at a turn in the beach to watch a bevy of sand crabs at play. When they saw her, or sensed her, they bolted up onto their tall, multi-flexed running legs and, looking very silly, skittered for cover, dropping onto the sand and, in an instant, disappearing from sight.