Authors: Susan Krinard
Had Zora's parents been like her? How many others had she herself known without realizing it? And Jacobâ¦
A chill of horror gripped Serenity. She had ridden beside Jacob Constantine, spoken intimately with him, fought beside him, and he had never once looked at her with cruel lust in his eyes. He had never become an animal in her presence. He had kept his word about Leroy.
And he had held her in his arms and told her Bonnie's death wasn't her fault. She could still feel the strength of his body, the solid beat of his heart, the warmth of his breath in her hair. She had wanted him to hold her forever.
Until she had remembered.
Serenity's legs crumpled. She crouched, half leaning against the wall, pressing her hand to her chest as if she could soothe the wild thing leaping madly inside her ribs. Her emotions were so raw that she knew the only way she could master them was by keeping them locked within. Above all else, she had to make sure Jacob never knew what she had learned. After the trial, she would see that he left Avalon immediately. She would find some excuse to send him on his way.
Yet once she was calm again, she was able to recall the other things Zora and Jacob had discussed. Zora was the only woman at Avalon who knew the whole truth of Serenity's past, but she had told Jacob only part of it. Had she confided in him because they were the same kind? Because she really thought Jacob would be willing to find the Renier gang?
“You are a hunter of evil men,” Zora had said. He'd been shocked when she had told him that the killers of Serenity's family were werewolves, but then he had asked for their names. He had spent many years tracking outlaws. Could he know something about the Reniers?
Serenity sucked in a deep breath, got to her feet and walked into the sickroom where Changying was hovering over her patients. Frances was sitting up, while Judith lay on her bunk, breathing through her mouth.
“How are they?” Serenity asked.
“I'm fine!” Frances said before Changying could answer. “When can I ride again?”
“In a few days, if you continue to rest,” Changying said.
Frances cast her a rebellious glance. “I should have
been with Bonnie and Zora.” Her eyes filled with tears. “If I had, maybeâ”
“You couldn't have done anything,” Serenity said, as gently as she could manage.
“I know what I'll vote for when we have the trial!”
“You're too young to be involved in something like this,” Serenity said. She turned to Changying. “We'll bury Bonnie tonight, as soon as Caridad and the others have returned. Then we'll hold the trial. Is Judith well enough to attend?”
“I'll come,” Judith said, poking her head up from underneath her blankets. “I want toâ¦help put Bonnie to rest. And make sure that man⦔ She shivered and sank back down.
Changying hurried to her side, laid her palm on Judith's forehead and tucked the blanket higher around Judith's neck. Then she turned back to Serenity.
“Would you condemn this man so soon after Bonnie is laid in the earth?” she asked.
Changying's distaste was evident in her soft voice, but she had seen Bonnie's body. Serenity couldn't believe she wasn't just as eager to see Leroy punished as the rest of them were.
“We can't afford to hold him prisoner,” Serenity said sharply. “There is too much work to be done, and Bonnie would wantâ”
“She would not wish this,” Changying said. “Constantine could take him away.”
“That's not good enough.”
“You have already decided this man's fate.”
“He'll have a chance to speak for himself.”
Except Jacob would be speaking for him. And she would have to listen.
She walked away before her discussion with Changying could turn into a quarrel. Nothing the Chinese woman could say would make a difference, not to her or anyone else who had loved Bonnie.
Unable to eat and afraid to think, Serenity went to the bedroom where Bonnie lay and sat beside the bed, letting anger and hate fill up all the empty spaces in her heart. The hours passed, and sometime late that afternoon she heard Caridad, Nettie and Michaela ride in. She went to meet them, and soon most of the other women were gathered in the yard. Zora hung back, but Serenity felt her glances and was certain that the Indian woman knew that her true nature was no longer a secret.
But now there were other, more urgent concerns. Telling Caridad and her partners about Bonnie was horribly difficult, and by the end everyone but Caridad and Zora was weeping. Caridad gripped her guns and stared at the shed.
“Cari,” Serenity said, “shooting is too good for him.”
With a brief nod, Caridad took her horse toward the barn. Nettie and Michaela followed, heads bowed and steps heavy.
Serenity knew she had to be strong for all of them. Strong enough to face her greatest fear without flinching. She went to join Zora.
“It's all right,” she said.
Zora needed no other reassurance. The tension in her face relaxed. For a moment Serenity thought she
would speak of Jacob, but she only touched Serenity's arm lightly and slipped away.
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LL THE WOMEN
assembled by the house an hour later. Victoria had spent the time making a proper coffin out of spare wood. Now she, Helene and Serenity dressed Bonnie in her best dress, laid her gently in the coffin, and then covered her sleeping face with a beautiful lace shawl that Helene had brought with her when she'd come to Avalon.
The place they had chosen to bury Bonnie was just at the base of the foothills that rose steeply out of the valley, climbing around narrow arroyos and rocky outcrops toward the abrupt wall of the mountains. All of the women took turns digging, and well before dark they had made a space big and deep enough for the coffin. Nettie offered a quiet prayer, and then they slowly covered the coffin with earth. Michaela planted a cross she had made at the foot of the grave. There was no sound but quiet weeping; even the coyotes were silent.
When Serenity finally turned away, she found Jacob watching from a low rise above the grave. He had come so silently that not one of them had noticed him. His head was bowed, but as she walked toward him, he lifted his head and met her gaze. He didn't look any different than he had when they'd ridden back with Bonnie that morning. There was nothing to show him for what he was, but she saw in his eyes, as she had in Zora's, that he knew what she had overheard.
Yet she couldn't speak to him, though she knew herself for the very coward she had sworn not to be. She walked past him without a word.
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T WAS FULL DARK
when the women gathered again in the dining hall. Changying, Judith and Frances sat in the back of the room, Judith still wrapped in her blankets.
Jacob was nowhere to be found, and Serenity hoped with all her heart that he had decided to leave Avalon. She was about to send Caridad and Zora to fetch Leroy from the shed when Jacob walked into the room, pushing the outlaw ahead of him by the collar of his shirt. Serenity felt an almost painful surge of relief, followed quickly by amazement that she hadn't noticed how like a predator he moved, how casually, powerfully inhuman he was in every act and motion.
“We've been waiting for you,” she said.
He looked at her silently for a long moment, the gold flecks in his eyes burning like flames suspended in a stormy sea.
“Where do you want him?” he asked.
Serenity gestured toward the chair facing the benches and tables on the other side of the room. Jacob forced Leroy onto the seat and knelt to bind his hands behind the chair's back.
Leroy stared at the cold faces of the women who were to sit in judgment. His lower lip trembled. Jacob spoke to him in an undertone, and the outlaw shook his head violently.
Serenity began to speak, relating the story in all its ugly detail. She never raised her voice or revealed her anger and grief. Leroy stuttered in protest several times, but Jacob quickly silenced him each time with a cold stare and a quiet word.
Then it was Jacob's turn. He didn't offer any real defense. He briefly mentioned that it had been Leroy
who shot Bonnie, but it was merely a dry statement of fact. He admitted that Leroy was a bad man who deserved to hang. But he went on to repeat what he'd said before to Serenity: that every man deserved a fair trial with a judge and jury of his peers, no matter what he had done. He made plain that all the women involved would be able to testify against Leroy in a court of law, and that there was no possibility he could avoid the lethal punishment he had earned.
He was eloquent, though he, like Serenity, never raised his voice. Even Serenity was drawn in by his reserved but earnest passion for the law. Every word he spoke served to remind her that he was utterly unlike her tormentors.
But when he was done and a tense silence had fallen over the room, there was not a face that had softened. Even Helene, the gentlest of them all, wasn't moved.
“You've heard Mr. Constantine give his testimony,” Serenity said. “I know he intends to take Leroy back and see him put in jail. But beyond that, he has no control over what happens. Even
he
cannot guarantee this man's punishment.”
“He won't get away,” Jacob said. “I won't leave until he's tried and hanged.”
Serenity didn't look at him, knowing she couldn't bear what she would see in his eyes. “We will put it to a vote,” she said. Victoria rose and handed out small scraps of paper and pencil stubs to the other women.
“Write âgo' if you think we should let Mr. Constantine take Leroy,” Serenity said when everyone was ready. “Leave the paper blank if you disagree.”
Not a pencil moved. Victoria collected the scraps of paper. She brought them to Serenity.
Every one was blank.
Hands shaking, Serenity turned to Jacob.
“It's decided,” she said.
Leroy spat a stream of curses. “You ugly bitches ain't gonna hang me!” he shouted. “If you try and touch me, I'll kill every last damnedâ”
Jacob seized Leroy by the back of his neck, tore the ropes free with his other hand and lifted the outlaw out of the chair. “You should be grateful, Leroy,” he said. “At least you won't have to rot in your own piss waiting to die.”
“No!” Leroy shrieked, struggling in Jacob's grip. “I have a right to a fair trial!” But it was clear that the stuffing had gone out of him.
“You should have thought of that before you came back looking for blood and an innocent woman ended up murdered,” Jacob said. He held Leroy firmly as Caridad produced a long rope with a neatly tied noose at one end. Changying rose, took Frances's arm, and led the protesting girl from the room.
“You don't have to take any part in this, Mr. Constantine,” Serenity said, staring after them. “You can leave whenever you want.”
“I'm already a part of this,” he said.
“Then bring him outside,” Caridad said, gently swinging the rope. “We have just the right place.”
She strode out of the bunkhouse, and the other women filed out after her. Serenity hung back until she was certain that Jacob had followed with Leroy.
He wouldn't break his word. She believed that, even
though that belief went against everything she had accepted as truth about his kind.
She went on to the barn, where several lanterns had been lit and Caridad was tossing the rope over one of the sturdy roof beams. Zora had brought a stool, and as Leroy cursed and fought in Jacob's grip, she placed it under the dangling noose.
Jacob hoisted Leroy onto the stool as easily as he would an infant. The outlaw collapsed, his legs sprawling on either side of the stool, and started weeping uncontrollably.
Jacob looked at Serenity. “You sure you want to do this, Miss Campbell?” he asked.
A bubble of shame formed in Serenity's stomach and climbed into her throat. She swallowed it down.
“Please step back, Mr. Constantine. Zora?”
With Zora's help, Serenity lifted Leroy to his feet. He didn't even struggle as she dropped the noose over his neck. Caridad stepped forward, ready to kick the stool out from under Leroy's feet, but Serenity shook her head. It was her responsibility, and hers alone.
She closed her eyes and swung her leg back. She never completed the motion. The deafening blast of a gun went off beside her, making her stagger and setting her ears to ringing. Leroy's head sagged in the noose, and his body went limp.
Jacob holstered his gun. Serenity had never even seen him draw it. She felt an almost tangible wave of shock as the others realized what he had done.
“Through the heart,” Caridad said with unwilling admiration. She glared at Jacob. “
Cabrón!
You have robbed us!”
Spinning on his boot heel, Jacob headed for the barn door.
Serenity caught up with him.
“Why?” she asked. “Did you think you were being merciful?”
He met her gaze. His eyes were cold.
“I couldn't let you do it,” he said.
“You didn't have the right!”
“Did you want it that badly, Serenity?” he asked. “Is blood the only thing that will satisfy you?”
The growl in his voice left her bereft of an answer. Without another word, Jacob strode out of the barn and stalked across the yard toward the outer corral.
Victoria came up beside Serenity, laying her rough hand on Serenity's shoulder.
“He's dead,” she said. “That's all that matters, isn't it?”
Her voice was as flat as the Texas prairie, but Serenity knew the blacksmith was troubled. She glanced at the other women. They were avoiding each others' eyes, and none of them would look at Leroy's body.
Was it guilt? Did they feel what Serenity felt now, forced by Jacob's blunt accusations to recognize something ugly in themselves?
No. The ugliness had all been in Leroy and the men who had killed Bonnie.
Serenity returned to the stool, pushed it out from under Leroy's feet and climbed up onto it. She drew her knife and slashed the rope. The body fell.