Come to Me Recklessly (29 page)

He was so big and beautiful, every inch of him, and I trembled beneath his brazen, hungry stare. Desire swelled between us, sparks of energy igniting in the air. But it was more than lust. Heavier. Denser. Fuller.

All consuming.

He lowered himself, his breath at my ear. “It was always supposed to be you.” He fisted his hands in the sheets at the sides of my head, his body straining over me as his erection nudged at my center. My eyes went wide as he slowly spread me.

Fire and light.

Heaven and hell.

The most exquisite kind of torture.

And I couldn’t see.

Could only feel.

Christopher filling me. Taking me whole.

“Fuck,” he grunted. Then his words slipped into a strained whisper. “So good… so fucking good.”

My lungs felt strangled as he scored deeper into my body, marking me in my darkest places. In places I had no idea existed. Places that had been created just for him.

Uncontainable, tears broke free as all the love I’d kept shored up inside spilled over. I squeezed my eyes shut, unable to process the magnitude of it.

It was stunning.

Staggering.

His voice was suddenly at my ear. “Shh… baby… don’t cry.” Christopher dragged his lips over the flood of emotion I couldn’t hold back, kissing me all over my tearstained face. He lifted my arm and draped it around his neck, and his hand slipped under my back to bring me closer. He pulled back so he could look at me. “No more tears. It’s just you and me.”

He withdrew slowly, and then rocked into me, hard and fast.

I released a gasp, and those intense green eyes watched mine, pulling me deeper into them, and I lost myself a little more. He drove into me again and again, lifting me higher, this boy who’d always made me feel as if I could fly.

And they fluttered around my consciousness, frantic wings of pleasure that twisted up my insides. My stomach tightened. “Christopher.” It was a plea from somewhere in my spirit.

His movements became jerky, and he shifted, striking me deep. The base of his erection hit that sensitive spot and I knew I couldn’t take much more.

He clutched me tight, the action purposed and strong when he did it again.

White-hot light burst behind my eyes. Blinding. As hot and blinding as the tremors that shot through my body as the most acute pleasure erupted in my core. A torrent of it rushed just under the surface of my skin, taking me whole, my entire being lifted to the highest high.

Ecstasy.

I floated on it for what felt like forever, while my walls clenched around him, gripping him tight while Christopher jerked and cursed. His body went rigid when he came.

Panting, I clung to him and buried my face in his heaving chest as I tried to regain my failing senses.

But the only thing in this world that made sense was him.

It took him the longest moments to come back down. Tremors vibrated his stomach when he cautiously eased out of me and fell onto the bed at my side. On a heavy exhale, he pulled the condom off and tossed it in the trash, and he came right back for me, kissing the top of my head before he palmed it and ran his hand down the back, nestling me in the crook of his arm.

Little pleasured pulses still tingled through my body, and I pressed against him, reveling in the way his muscles ticked and jerked beneath my hands.

Contentment settled fast, the two of us saturated by bliss.

I traced along the colors on his chest. “I love you, Christopher,” I whispered.

He grabbed my hand and pulled my fingertips to his lips. “Not letting you go. Not ever again.”

“Never,” I agreed.

He drew the covers over us and tucked me close in the middle of his enormous bed.

He brushed a soft kiss to my forehead. “Sleep, my sweet girl.”

And I did, so easily drifting off into the sweetest kind of sleep.

Because nothing in this world could touch us.

Daylight blazed through the edges of the window blinds. Groaning, I rolled to my back and blinked away the sleep.

Samantha.
 

The thought of her slammed me hard.

Like a fucking vise, my chest tightened when I realized she wasn’t lying at my side. Frantic, I shot up in bed. I heaved out a sigh of relief when I heard someone rattling around in the kitchen.

Shit.
 

I rubbed at the sore spot right over my suddenly frenzied heart. The girl had me wound so tight I couldn’t breathe.

And if last night hadn’t undone me, nothing would.

All right. So maybe I was
undone
. In the most fucking phenomenal of ways. Hadn’t ever felt so good. Not in my whole life, because my
life
was finally here. Filling up all that dead space that she’d hollowed out when she’d gone.

I rolled out of bed and snagged my boxers from the floor. I pulled them on and ran a hand through the disaster on my head, all too eager to go in search of my girl.

Yeah.

My. Girl.

Still couldn’t quite catch up to the fact that it was true.

Quietly, I slipped through the bedroom door. The air got all locked up in my throat when I found Samantha standing in my kitchen in front of the coffeepot. She was just pressing
BREW
.

Feeling a rush of satisfaction, I leaned my shoulder up against the wall, observing her from the side, and there wasn’t a single thing I could do to look away.

She wasn’t wearing anything but the T-shirt I’d been wearing last night, the fabric brushing her thighs. She was barefoot, and her blond hair was all mussed up from where my fingers had been buried in it all night. Rays of sunlight slanted in through the living room window.

My girl all lit up in a halo of light.

Like the woman she’d always wanted to be had finally worked its way out.

I swallowed hard, and she glanced over at me when she realized I was standing there. I watched the redness crawl to her face, and she chewed at that damned lip that I was already wanting to devour. She took a step back to face me, fidgeted with the hem of the shirt she was wearing, my shirt.

Lust curled my insides, right where it got all messed up with the love I had for her.

God, she was going to be the death of me.

“Good morning,” she whispered, seeming unsure of what to say.

“Morning,” I said, pushing from the wall. I took a step toward her, an irresistible need to be closer taking me over.

We fumbled through an awkward beat of silence, like neither of us knew exactly how to act after what we’d shared last night, those hours powerful and profound.

“Woke up and thought you left,” I admitted finally, fucking hating the way it sounded grating up my throat. But hell, told her I wouldn’t lie to her. Figured the shit she’d worked up inside me counted.

Her gaze dropped to the ground, before she tilted her head up and to the side, staring across at me like she was searching for an answer. “Where would I go?”

Relief gusted through me and took that second’s unease with it.

Good answer, sweet girl.
 

A smirk twisted up the corner of my mouth. Couldn’t do anything to stop it, either. I lifted my chin in her direction. “Nice shirt.”

She reddened more but shocked the shit out of me and did this cute little curtsy thing, dipping her knees and holding the shirt out to the sides.

I just about fell to mine.

Fuuuck.
 

She was so sexy it hurt.

“You like it?” It was all flirt. Pure tease.

I rubbed my fingers over the smile forcing its way out. “A lot,” I said, my eyes raking up and down, not even trying to hide it, because this girl needed to know exactly what she did to me. Finding her in my kitchen this way.

Best. Morning. Ever.

“You wearing anything under it?” And I tried to keep it a tease. But shit. Could anyone blame me for really wanting to know?

For a flash, those blue eyes widened in embarrassment. Then she smiled another coy smile as she lifted the hem, just enough to let me peek at the edge of the black lace panties she’d been wearing last night.

And damn, if I didn’t love the playful tone that just took over our mood, if I didn’t love waking up to her in my house, if I didn’t love every damned thing about this moment.

Fuck.

I just loved.

Simple as that.

Taking another step toward her, I cocked my head to the side. “Now, that is a complete and total shame.”

“Oh, is it?” she challenged, blue eyes flashing with amusement. I stalked toward her. Because not touching her? That was no longer an option.

She backed up against the island. And the girl was fighting this huge-ass smile, teeth clamping down on that lip, trying to contain her laughter.

With a grin, I grabbed her by the back of the hips and lifted her. She squealed in surprise, throwing her arms around my neck.

“Christopher.” She swatted at me, and I laughed.

“What?” I asked with all kinds of feigned innocence.

She wrapped all that soft, toned flesh around my waist and locked her ankles at my back.

Every inch of my body hardened.

“You’re going to drop me.”

“Not a chance.”

I set her on the edge of the counter, and she pulled back to look at my face. It was her smile that got all tangled and snagged in my heart.

She looked so free.

Happy.

It made me happy, too.

I reached out and traced my fingertips along the rim of that mouth, the red candied bow that had been my torment for so many years. My voice dropped low. “You make me insane, Samantha.”

Self-conscious laughter quietly rolled from her, and she shook her head. “That’s a good thing… because I’m not feeling so sane myself.” The words softened. “I still can’t believe I’m here. It feels like some kind of a dream. One I’m terrified I’m going to wake up from.”

I ran my hands up and down the outsides of her thighs, enjoying the feel of the creamy skin way too much. I leaned in close to her ear. “You’re right where you’re supposed to be.”

Contentment bled through a throaty sigh, and a smile fluttered across her face.

I teased a kiss across her lips.

That mouth.

This girl.

So sweet.

A tiny moan slipped up her throat, and she threaded delicate fingers in my hair.

And she kissed me like I wanted to be kissed.

She kissed me like she was free.

On a growl, I dragged her closer and pressed her tight up against me. Need vibrated through my entire body, passing through to her, passing through to me. Every emotion one. Me and this girl the same.

Belonging on another level.

Because she’d always belonged to me.

My hands wandered her legs, all the way back to where her knees were locked tight to my hips, slipping back up to her waist. Samantha kept sighing as our tongues dipped and played.

God, it felt so good.

My fingers flitted around the hem of her shirt, before I bunched it enough to run the tip of my finger under the leg of that black lace.

A shiver rolled through her.

“Think we need to get rid of these.” I gave them a little tug.

Samantha giggled, shy and seductive, and I felt that sound way down deep in my chest. “You do, huh?”

“Mm-hmm. I think we really, really do.” I stepped back far enough to begin to peel them down her legs.

She shivered more.

“Gorgeous,” I hissed. Every curve. Every inch.

I glanced up at Samantha’s face. Eager blue eyes watched me with all that modesty. With all that goodness. But completely open, all the same. She helped me by twisting her feet out of her panties.

Desire fell like a storm, a billow of love and lust and devotion building strong.

Still, there was something about this moment that felt light.

Like all that weight I’d been carrying around for years had been lifted from my back.

It was so different from what we’d experienced last night. Last night we’d finally hit the edge. There’d been no more room for denying what we meant to each other. Resisting it was no longer possible.

Last night I’d given myself to Samantha in a way I’d never given myself to anyone else before. I’d fucking loved her. Cherished her. And all the vile numbness I’d drowned in for years had evaporated. Erased with her touch. For the first time in seven years I’d allowed myself to feel everything.

Every emotion. Every ounce of pain that lingered in her tentative touch. Every fragment of remorse.

Last night was a commitment. A promise.

But this morning? This was freedom. About the fact that we just got to belong.

I dropped the little scrap of lace to my kitchen floor, and as much as I liked my shirt on her, it had to go. I lifted it over her head, and her hair fell back down around her shoulders and over the swell of her breasts. Perfect tits peeked through the flowing strands, nipples puckered and hard. Samantha moved to rest back on her hands, and I grabbed her by the knees.

And there she was, all spread out on my kitchen counter.

Shit.
I raked a hand over my face, about two seconds from coming unglued.

“You’re the best damned thing I’ve ever seen.”

A flush covered her heated body, her words thick. “You’re the only one I ever wanted to see me this way.”

She shifted forward and hooked her index fingers in the band of my underwear. She gazed up at me as she began to slowly work them down. “But I want to see you more.”

My cock was fucking straining, and my entire body clenched when she groaned, looking down when she freed me. It was a needy sound that came from deep in her throat.

She pushed my underwear farther down my legs and I kicked them aside.

She was shaking when she reached out and trailed her fingertip around the defined ridge of my aching head, everything tentative and unsure when she slipped her hand around and gripped me soft, then squeezed me tight.

My stomach jerked and I rocked into her hand. “Baby… fuck… that feels good.”

She looked up at me, her blue eyes all unsure and perfect as she began to stroke me. Without breaking her gaze, I riffled through the top drawer next to her to find the stash I kept there. I tossed it to the counter beside her.

With a little quirk of her brow, she frowned, fighting with the overt want seeping from her pores and all that sweetness she kept locked up inside. “You keep condoms in the kitchen?”

So maybe our worlds had traveled in different directions, far and fast, and I knew she’d never come close to understanding how dark mine had gone. The shit I’d done. Guess it was wrong I found some depraved satisfaction in it. Didn’t ever want her to know how ugly my world had got.

Still, we’d ended up right back in the exact same place. Samantha shining all that light on me. Washing me in good. While I led her out to the shoreline. Coaxing her to dip her toes in a little of my world.

“What else is it good for?” I murmured. I dipped down to take one of those pert nipples in my mouth, rolling it with my tongue.

Yeah, that was sweet, too.

She groaned and arched, drove her fingers in my hair. Her voice was shaky. “Um… I don’t know. Cooking. Eating.”

“That could be arranged,” I murmured as I traveled along her belly, kissing her, making her jump and squirm as she jerked and pulled at my hair. Grabbing her by both knees, I spread her wide.

I just needed to taste.

I swept my tongue through the bare, heated flesh. She was so fucking wet and tasted so fucking good. Better than I even remembered, that one memory I’d been desperate to ingrain in my mind not coming close to doing this girl justice. I sucked on one lip, probably too hard. I knew I’d mark her, and a sick, twisted part of me wanted it all the same. I turned to the other and repeated the action.

Samantha gasped and writhed. “Christopher… wha…”

She fell silent when I changed course, focusing all my attention on her clit, and any objections turned into all these mewls and moans, little
yeses
and a multitude of pleas.

I kissed her senseless, lapping then sucking that little bud, nipping at it with my teeth, sucking some more.

“Christopher.” She fisted my hair, and I pressed two fingers inside her warmth, added another as I pumped them in and out of her body.

Her entire being shuddered as she came against my mouth. I lifted up, slowing my fingers as I watched her ride out her orgasm.

It was single-handedly the sexiest thing I’d ever seen.

She was still panting and trying to catch her breath when I tore open the condom. I kept watching her as I began to roll it on my cock that was raging, this violent need to get lost inside her almost overwhelming.

“I love you, Samantha,” I said, and all that light from earlier no longer seemed to apply, because I was feeling frantic. My hands shook when I palmed her thighs, digging in to drag her closer to the edge.

I positioned myself at her center. “Already dying to be inside you again,” I mumbled, trying to get a handle on the way she made me feel.

Sucking in a breath, I slipped my throbbing head an inch into that needy warmth. I floundered around inside myself, looking for some restraint, not able to fathom how one girl could control me this way.

I pushed a little deeper, and her tight, tight walls gripped my cock. I drew a sharp shot of air into my lungs.

Blunt fingernails dug into my shoulders, scratching, digging. Samantha seemed to be fumbling for the same. “Oh my God… Christopher… that feels so good.”

“Supposed to feel good, baby.” It was a ragged grunt, my body fucking shaking as I filled her whole.

She was still clutching me. “Let’s just say I finally get what all the fuss is about.”

My gut clenched, and I bit back the urge to fuck her wild, not for a second able to tolerate the idea of this girl being in someone else’s hands. Instead I pulled all the way out and eased back in to the hilt.

“Christopher… please.”

I pulled out, rocked into her again. “Yeah?” I asked, almost taunting, needing more.