Come Together (15 page)

“Before I went to bed, she told me that my dad wasn’t home because he was ‘fucking another woman’ and that she was going to leave him in the morning and take me with her.”

I lifted my head and looked at him. “I loved my mom, David, but
she
was cold. To me and to my dad. I never felt like she really wanted me around. I heard her say once that he loved me too much and that I was a spoiled brat because of it. He accused her of being jealous, which she was.

“My dad was never that way. He constantly reminded me that I was his little girl, and he would take care of me no matter what. That I was safe with him.” At this, I searched David’s eyes and sighed.

He sat up and inched toward me. “Keep going,” he said and stretched forward for a kiss.

I shifted, that familiar feeling blooming between my legs. When he pulled back, I grasped his arm. “Don’t leave,” I whispered.

He straightened up and held his arms open, so I turned and settled my weight against his chest. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and kissed me on the temple before sifting my hair through his fingers.

“I was terrified by what my mom had told me and couldn’t sleep. I didn’t want to leave my dad. It was the alcohol talking; she never would’ve gone through with it, but I didn’t know that at the time.

“When he eventually came home,
they had a huge fight in the middle of the night. I came out of my room, scared to death. My mom was yelling about perfume and sex and lying, and things got very surreal. I can’t remember much more than that. She pulled the knife. My instincts kicked in, and I ran in the middle. She lunged. She stabbed me by accident. There was screaming, the sound of the knife hitting the floor . . . I had this long hair, down to my waist; it was tangled and almost black with blood. That’s the last thing I remember thinking before I passed out, that I needed to get that blood out of my hair. I woke up in the hospital. My dad cried and apologized – that was the most painful part of it – and told me that I’d never see the inside of that house again. Because he was divorcing her.”

His fingers paused in my hair, but then continued threading after a moment.

“I couldn’t understand it really,” I said wistfully. “I had just started middle school. Before that, divorce was just a word I’d heard because of Gretchen’s parents. Still, I didn’t really grasp the concept. I asked the nurse for a dictionary, and when I was alone, I looked it up to make sure I understood it correctly. In the definition, the word I could never get out of my head was ‘dissolve.’ Nothing had dissolved; it had broken in half, suddenly and without warning.

“Everything changed. I didn’t want to be with my mom, but she was still my mom. I didn’t want to be away from her either. I begged my dad to let me stay in Dallas, so he and I moved into a new house. I got to stay close to Gretchen and her brother, John, my best friends. There were stories at school about why I went to the hospital, and it sucked, but John threatened to beat up anyone who came too close. Gretchen told me that I needed to cry and that she knew how I felt, she’d been through it . . . but I couldn’t. I just couldn’t. I knew I was supposed to cry, but nothing came. So it built inside of me. And built and built and built. The tears, the shame, the pain.”

David’s hands were still playing in my hair, soothing and comforting me as he listened. “When did you finally talk about it?”

I twisted off his chest to look at him and steadied myself with a hand against his pec. “I didn’t.”

His jaw hardened. “How is that possible?”

“Gretchen’s caught me in a vulnerable moment once or twice over the years. My dad took me to a therapist, but she had no patience for me. After our third session she gave up, and I told my dad I never wanted to go to another one. It’s difficult for me to talk about, because I don’t think I ever really got over how suddenly things changed. This is the most I’ve ever said about it.”

His eyes were darker it seemed, not their normal, beautiful chestnut brown. “Bill?” he asked gruffly. “Surely you talked about it with him.”

“He knew the divorce was hard and that I hated talking about it. I gave him the bones of the story, but I drilled into him that I never wanted it brought up. He respected that.”

“Unlike some people,” David said.

“Going through everything that Bill and I have has taught me some things about our relationship. I think I didn’t want Bill to know because it would mean showing him my pain and letting him in. And on some level, he didn’t want to know. It was easier for him to ignore.”

He leaned his forehead in and cupped my jaw. “That will never be me,” he said close to my face. “I want you to give me everything, because I can take it. Because I want to take it.” He looked at me earnestly, truth in his eyes. He was strong enough to take it all, to shoulder what I couldn’t.

“I lied to you,” I whispered. “I lied when I said Bill and I had talked about my scar. He never asked, and I never brought it up.”

“Never?” he asked.

“A few weeks ago, after he found out about you, I finally told him. I wanted him to know he’d fucked up by never asking.”

“He didn’t deserve you,” David said. “He was lucky as fuck that he ever got you, but he didn’t know what to do with you.”

“It was my fault too,” I said. “I kept him at a distance.”

“It’s not your fault, Olivia. He wasn’t worthy and somewhere inside, you knew that.”

I twisted back and rested against him again.

“Things are starting to make more sense,” he said, as he returned his arms around my shoulders.

“What things?” I asked.

“When you told me you had never experienced an orgasm with anyone – I almost didn’t believe you. But I get it now. Somewhere inside you knew it wasn’t right. You need to feel safe and loved in order to open up, even physically.”

“Bill loved me, though,” I said.

“But you didn’t trust him enough to let him have all of you. And you were right not to. You were holding back for a reason. In the end, no, you didn’t feel safe with him, couldn’t trust him, and your body knew.”

I took a deep breath and let his words sink in. Bill loved me, but he didn’t know me. Not like David knew me. And David had had to wait for me to figure that out. “That would mean . . .” I let the sentence trail.

“That would mean that you feel it with me. You know you’re safe with me, you can open underneath me, and you do. You open for me like a fucking flower, baby, and it’s beautiful.”

“It’s nice to talk to you about this,” I confessed. “It’s the first time I’ve ever wanted to.”

“You asked me once why it’s so nice walking together. This is why. It’s supposed to be.”

“Do you really feel that way?” I asked, tilting my head to look up at him. “After everything I just told you, and after last night with Bill and Maria, and then my parents, and your family, and we might lose Andrew and Lucy? Do you still think this is supposed to be?”

“No question,” he said, smiling.

“Okay.” I rubbed his forearm and eased deeper into his body, letting my head fall back on his chest. The bath was warm, and I was never safer than when David was wrapped around me. I relaxed.

“So sweet to have you fall asleep in my arms,” he whispered in my ear.

I blinked my eyes open to a hazy bathroom. “Did I fall asleep?” I asked softly.

“Just for a couple minutes,” he replied.

I smiled and sat forward so he could climb out. He stepped over the side while I watched, holding my knees to my breasts as the water drained around me. He dried himself off and wrapped a towel around his waist.

I followed and let him wrap me in another towel. He disappeared for a moment and returned with a simple white satin nightie, the partner to his favorite robe. He slipped it over my head when I raised my hands. My skin was sensitive from the hot bath, and the fabric was cool and soothing.

We didn’t bother with anything else. The night was chilly, so we wound ourselves around each other and buried our bodies under the heavy comforter. I was certain I’d never been so happy.

CHAPTER 11

A WEEKEND OF FEVERISH, FRANTIC SEX turned out to be the best sleep aide. I woke up to an empty bed and gave my body a hard stretch. I couldn’t remember sleeping so well two nights in a row, and I knew it was because David had worn me out. At this, I smiled to myself.

I felt relaxed after our sweet and sensual bath the night before. Finally I’d told my story, emptying myself of the past I’d locked away and tried to forget. And he had listened through it all – not only heard but listened. It was time to let him fill me now.

“Good morning, beautiful.” I blinked from the memory and looked at my gorgeous man. All mine. He stood in the bathroom doorway in nothing but his low-slung grey sweatpants and a toothbrush working in his mouth.
It
is
a good morning
.
Who knew a Monday morning could be
so
good?

“Morning,” I replied, licking my lips. Those grey sweatpants, drooping on his hips, were a reminder of our first night together. Chaste as it was, they stirred all sorts of fantasies in me. His torso was long and tan, pecs of steel, arms and shoulders that personified strength and power. I thought I could die there on the spot if I knew I’d never get to feel the crush of those biceps again. His hair was tousled, unruly from sleep and
fuck
. . . those grey sweatpants.

He raised an eyebrow at me and stopped brushing. “Love that your office is right by mine. I’ll drop you at work today. Cool?”

I nodded and took a deep breath. My thoughts were jumbled by the fact that he was half-naked and full sexy in front of me. His six-pack became more defined as he brushed, and it reminded me of the way his abs would flex when he was on top of me, thrusting away.

As soon as he disappeared into the bathroom, I scrambled out of bed. He was bent over to spit when I walked in, and when he glanced up, I caught his eye in the reflection. I stripped off my white satin nightie in one motion and flung it at him. He snatched it midair with his free hand as I continued to the shower. He was hot on my tail and as soon as I’d stepped into the stream of water, he was there, shielding it with his massive shoulders.

My face was in his hands for a rough kiss before he slid one hand down my back to grip my ass. He pulled me against his hardness, but there was only one thing I wanted desperately in that moment. I pulled away from his mouth and dropped to my knees. Bracing myself against the shower bench, I took him in my hand and wrapped my mouth around him.

“Jesus,” he said.

I took him to the back of my throat and then drew back slowly, sucking as I did. I relished the feel of him growing bigger and harder against the softness of my mouth, the brackish pre-cum that made my jaw tingle.

My tongue greedily paid respect to every ridge and vein of him. I licked anywhere I could, swirling the tip of my tongue over and under his crown until his groans echoed through the bathroom and the glass rattled from the force of his fist. My eyes flicked up to his as I held his base in my hand and opened my throat to take all of him.

I was feeling powerful, watching the effect I had on him, until one deep, rolling grunt easily muted my soft moans. He leaned himself on the wall behind me. “Hands,” he clipped. I immediately clasped them behind my back. With one hand still propping him against the stone, he took the other and tangled it in my hair as he took over. He thrust deep once and only pulled back when my eyes watered and my throat constricted around him.

“Oh, baby, yes, yes, yes,” he grunted with each flex of his hips, tilting my head up and demanding my eyes meet his. I grabbed his ass and urged him deeper, excited by the way he was unraveling for me. Right as I vibrated a moan against him, he flooded my mouth with thick semen. I swallowed the nectar, thick and gummy as it shot down my throat and dribbled down my chin.

“Fuck,” he said, resting his forearms against the wall. I coughed into my fist to quell the burning in my throat. When he spoke again his words were ragged but curt. “Get up.”

I hurried up between him and the bench, weak in the knees for what he was planning.

“Turn around, grab the edge.”

I faced the wall and bent over to steady myself against the bench. His hand ran up my right thigh, and left for only a second. The bathroom resounded with the sound of his hand connecting with my ass. My grip tightened on the edge.

“Stay.”

My breathing grew jagged, and the muscles between my legs quivered as I steeled myself to receive him. I bit my lip when I thought of how he’d just come hot and out of control in my mouth. I was impatient, wanting to feel him inside me, taking what he needed. I almost bit my lip off when I let my head fall between my arms and saw his naked size fourteen-and-a-half feet.

I felt a soapy hand between my legs. “David,” I whined. “Please.”

“Please what?” he asked huskily.

“Please, I’m so ready.”

He skated one hand up my back and grasped the ends of my hair, pulling softly. He set his other palm on my backside and rubbed it gently. I cried out when it fell against me with more force this time. “What for?” he asked.

“To get fucked,” I begged.

“How do you want it, baby?”

“Hard,” I rasped. “I need it.”