Complete Works of Thomas Hardy (Illustrated) (929 page)

 

The Guards’ last column yielded; dykes of dead
   Lay between vale and ridge,
As, thinned yet closing, faint yet fierce, they sped
   In packs to Genappe Bridge.

 

Safe was my stock; my capple cow unslain;
      Intact each cock and hen;
But Grouchy far at Wavre all day had lain,
   And thirty thousand men.

 

O Saints, had I but lost my earing corn
   And saved the cause once prized!
O Saints, why such false witness had I borne
   When late I’d sympathized! . . .

 

So now, being old, my children eye askance
   My slowly dwindling store,
And crave my mite; till, worn with tarriance,
   I care for life no more.

 

To Almighty God henceforth I stand confessed,
   And Virgin-Saint Marie;
O Michael, John, and Holy Ones in rest,
   Entreat the Lord for me!

 

 

THE ALARM

(1803)
See “The Trumpet-Major”
IN MEMORY OF ONE OF THE WRITER’S FAMILY WHO WAS A VOLUNTEER DURING
THE WAR WITH NAPOLEON

 

      In a ferny byway
      Near the great South-Wessex Highway,
   A homestead raised its breakfast-smoke aloft;
The dew-damps still lay steamless, for the sun had made no sky-way,
      And twilight cloaked the croft.

 

      ’Twas hard to realise on
      This snug side the mute horizon
   That beyond it hostile armaments might steer,
Save from seeing in the porchway a fair woman weep with eyes on
      A harnessed Volunteer.

 

      In haste he’d flown there
      To his comely wife alone there,
   While marching south hard by, to still her fears,
For she soon would be a mother, and few messengers were known there
      In these campaigning years.

 

      ’Twas time to be Good-bying,
      Since the assembly-hour was nighing
   In royal George’s town at six that morn;
And betwixt its wharves and this retreat were ten good miles of
hieing
   Ere ring of bugle-horn.

 

      ”I’ve laid in food, Dear,
      And broached the spiced and brewed, Dear;
   And if our July hope should antedate,
Let the char-wench mount and gallop by the halterpath and wood, Dear,
      And fetch assistance straight.

 

      ”As for Buonaparte, forget him;
      He’s not like to land! But let him,
   Those strike with aim who strike for wives and sons!
And the war-boats built to float him; ‘twere but wanted to upset him
      A slat from Nelson’s guns!

 

      ”But, to assure thee,
      And of creeping fears to cure thee,
   If he SHOULD be rumoured anchoring in the Road,
Drive with the nurse to Kingsbere; and let nothing thence allure thee
      Till we’ve him safe-bestowed.

 

      ”Now, to turn to marching matters:-
      I’ve my knapsack, firelock, spatters,
   Crossbelts, priming-horn, stock, bay’net, blackball, clay,
Pouch, magazine, flints, flint-box that at every quick-step clatters;
   . . . My heart, Dear; that must stay!”

 

     — With breathings broken
      Farewell was kissed unspoken,
   And they parted there as morning stroked the panes;
And the Volunteer went on, and turned, and twirled his glove for
token,
   And took the coastward lanes.

 

      When above He’th Hills he found him,
      He saw, on gazing round him,
   The Barrow-Beacon burning — burning low,
As if, perhaps, uplighted ever since he’d homeward bound him;
      And it meant: Expect the Foe!

 

      Leaving the byway,
      And following swift the highway,
   Car and chariot met he, faring fast inland;
“He’s anchored, Soldier!” shouted some: “God save thee, marching thy
way,
   Th’lt front him on the strand!”

 

      He slowed; he stopped; he paltered
      Awhile with self, and faltered,
   ”Why courting misadventure shoreward roam?
To Molly, surely! Seek the woods with her till times have altered;
      Charity favours home.

 

      Else, my denying
      He would come she’ll read as lying -
   Think the Barrow-Beacon must have met my eyes —
That my words were not unwareness, but deceit of her, while trying
      My life to jeopardize.

 

      ”At home is stocked provision,
      And to-night, without suspicion,
   We might bear it with us to a covert near;
Such sin, to save a childing wife, would earn it Christ’s remission,
   Though none forgive it here!”

 

      While thus he, thinking,
      A little bird, quick drinking
   Among the crowfoot tufts the river bore,
Was tangled in their stringy arms, and fluttered, well-nigh sinking,
   Near him, upon the moor.

 

      He stepped in, reached, and seized it,
      And, preening, had released it
   But that a thought of Holy Writ occurred,
And Signs Divine ere battle, till it seemed him Heaven had pleased it
   As guide to send the bird.

 

      ”O Lord, direct me! . . .
      Doth Duty now expect me
   To march a-coast, or guard my weak ones near?
Give this bird a flight according, that I thence know to elect me
   The southward or the rear.”

 

      He loosed his clasp; when, rising,
      The bird — as if surmising -
   Bore due to southward, crossing by the Froom,
And Durnover Great-Field and Fort, the soldier clear advising -
      Prompted he wist by Whom.

 

      Then on he panted
      By grim Mai-Don, and slanted
   Up the steep Ridge-way, hearkening betwixt whiles;
Till, nearing coast and harbour, he beheld the shore-line planted
   With Foot and Horse for miles.

 

      Mistrusting not the omen,
      He gained the beach, where Yeomen,
   Militia, Fencibles, and Pikemen bold,
With Regulars in thousands, were enmassed to meet the Foemen,
   Whose fleet had not yet shoaled.

 

      Captain and Colonel,
      Sere Generals, Ensigns vernal,
   Were there; of neighbour-natives, Michel, Smith,
Meggs, Bingham, Gambier, Cunningham, roused by the hued nocturnal
   Swoop on their land and kith.

 

      But Buonaparte still tarried;
      His project had miscarried;
   At the last hour, equipped for victory,
The fleet had paused; his subtle combinations had been parried
   By British strategy.

 

      Homeward returning
      Anon, no beacons burning,
   No alarms, the Volunteer, in modest bliss,
Te Deum sang with wife and friends: “We praise Thee, Lord,
discerning
      That Thou hast helped in this!”

 

 

HER DEATH AND AFTER

‘Twas a death-bed summons, and forth I went
By the way of the Western Wall, so drear
On that winter night, and sought a gate -
      The home, by Fate,
   Of one I had long held dear.

 

And there, as I paused by her tenement,
And the trees shed on me their rime and hoar,
I thought of the man who had left her lone -
      Him who made her his own
   When I loved her, long before.

 

The rooms within had the piteous shine
That home-things wear when there’s aught amiss;
From the stairway floated the rise and fall
      Of an infant’s call,
   Whose birth had brought her to this.

 

Her life was the price she would pay for that whine -
For a child by the man she did not love.
“But let that rest for ever,” I said,
      And bent my tread
   To the chamber up above.

 

She took my hand in her thin white own,
And smiled her thanks — though nigh too weak -
And made them a sign to leave us there
      Then faltered, ere
   She could bring herself to speak.

 

“‘Twas to see you before I go — he’ll condone
Such a natural thing now my time’s not much —
When Death is so near it hustles hence
      All passioned sense
   Between woman and man as such!

 

“My husband is absent. As heretofore
The City detains him. But, in truth,
He has not been kind . . . I will speak no blame,
      But — the child is lame;
   O, I pray she may reach his ruth!

 

“Forgive past days — I can say no more -
Maybe if we’d wedded you’d now repine! . . .
But I treated you ill. I was punished. Farewell!
     — Truth shall I tell?
   Would the child were yours and mine!

 

“As a wife I was true. But, such my unease
That, could I insert a deed back in Time,
I’d make her yours, to secure your care;
      And the scandal bear,
   And the penalty for the crime!”

 

- When I had left, and the swinging trees
Rang above me, as lauding her candid say,
Another was I. Her words were enough:
      Came smooth, came rough,
   I felt I could live my day.

 

Next night she died; and her obsequies
In the Field of Tombs, by the Via renowned,
Had her husband’s heed. His tendance spent,
      I often went
   And pondered by her mound.

 

All that year and the next year whiled,
And I still went thitherward in the gloam;
But the Town forgot her and her nook,
      And her husband took
   Another Love to his home.

 

And the rumour flew that the lame lone child
Whom she wished for its safety child of mine,
Was treated ill when offspring came
      Of the new-made dame,
   And marked a more vigorous line.

 

A smarter grief within me wrought
Than even at loss of her so dear;
Dead the being whose soul my soul suffused,
      Her child ill-used,
   I helpless to interfere!

 

One eve as I stood at my spot of thought
In the white-stoned Garth, brooding thus her wrong,
Her husband neared; and to shun his view
      By her hallowed mew
   I went from the tombs among

 

To the Cirque of the Gladiators which faced -
That haggard mark of Imperial Rome,
Whose Pagan echoes mock the chime
      Of our Christian time:
   It was void, and I inward clomb.

 

Scarce night the sun’s gold touch displaced
From the vast Rotund and the neighbouring dead
When her husband followed; bowed; half-passed,
      With lip upcast;
   Then, halting, sullenly said:

 

“It is noised that you visit my first wife’s tomb.
Now, I gave her an honoured name to bear
While living, when dead. So I’ve claim to ask
      By what right you task
   My patience by vigiling there?

 

“There’s decency even in death, I assume;
Preserve it, sir, and keep away;
For the mother of my first-born you
      Show mind undue!
  — Sir, I’ve nothing more to say.”

 

A desperate stroke discerned I then -
God pardon — or pardon not — the lie;
She had sighed that she wished (lest the child should pine
      Of slights) ‘twere mine,
   So I said: “But the father I.

 

“That you thought it yours is the way of men;
But I won her troth long ere your day:
You learnt how, in dying, she summoned me?
      ’Twas in fealty.
  — Sir, I’ve nothing more to say,

 

“Save that, if you’ll hand me my little maid,
I’ll take her, and rear her, and spare you toil.
Think it more than a friendly act none can;
      I’m a lonely man,
   While you’ve a large pot to boil.

 

“If not, and you’ll put it to ball or blade -
To-night, to-morrow night, anywhen -
I’ll meet you here . . . But think of it,
      And in season fit
   Let me hear from you again.”

 

- Well, I went away, hoping; but nought I heard
Of my stroke for the child, till there greeted me
A little voice that one day came
      To my window-frame
   And babbled innocently:

 

“My father who’s not my own, sends word
I’m to stay here, sir, where I belong!”
Next a writing came: “Since the child was the fruit
      Of your lawless suit,
   Pray take her, to right a wrong.”

 

And I did. And I gave the child my love,
And the child loved me, and estranged us none.
But compunctions loomed; for I’d harmed the dead
      By what I’d said
   For the good of the living one.

 

- Yet though, God wot, I am sinner enough,
And unworthy the woman who drew me so,
Perhaps this wrong for her darling’s good
      She forgives, or would,
   If only she could know!

 

 

THE DANCE AT THE PHOENIX

To Jenny came a gentle youth
   From inland leazes lone,
His love was fresh as apple-blooth
   By Parrett, Yeo, or Tone.
And duly he entreated her
To be his tender minister,
   And call him aye her own.

 

Fair Jenny’s life had hardly been
   A life of modesty;
At Casterbridge experience keen
   Of many loves had she
From scarcely sixteen years above;
Among them sundry troopers of
   The King’s-Own Cavalry.

 

But each with charger, sword, and gun,
   Had bluffed the Biscay wave;
And Jenny prized her gentle one
   For all the love he gave.
She vowed to be, if they were wed,
His honest wife in heart and head
   From bride-ale hour to grave.

 

Wedded they were. Her husband’s trust
   In Jenny knew no bound,
And Jenny kept her pure and just,
   Till even malice found
No sin or sign of ill to be
In one who walked so decently
   The duteous helpmate’s round.

 

Two sons were born, and bloomed to men,
   And roamed, and were as not:
Alone was Jenny left again
   As ere her mind had sought
A solace in domestic joys,
And ere the vanished pair of boys
   Were sent to sun her cot.

 

She numbered near on sixty years,
   And passed as elderly,
When, in the street, with flush of fears,
   One day discovered she,
From shine of swords and thump of drum.
Her early loves from war had come,
   The King’s-Own Cavalry.

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