Authors: Katie McGarry
Won’t be the last. I slip out of bed and slide my Chuck Taylor wannabes onto my feet. Time to have a coming-to-Jesus moment with Uncle
Scott. That is, if he’s awake. It may be better if he went to bed. That way I can slip out without the fight.
Maybe I’ll score some food before I call
Isaiah. With a room like this, I bet he buys
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brand-name cereal.
The house has that newly built, fresh
sawdust smell. Outside the bedroom is a foyer instead of a hallway. A large staircase, the type I thought existed only in movies, winds to the second floor. An actual chandelier hangs from the ceiling. Guess baseball pays well.
“No…” A woman’s voice carries from the
back of the house. I can tell she’s still talking, but she’s lowered her tone. Did he marry or does he keep a fuck on hand like he did when I was a kid? Gotta be a fuck. I overheard Scott tell Dad once that he’d never marry.
I follow the low voices to the brink of a large open room and pause. The entire back of the house—excuse me, mansion—is one
enormous wall of windows. The living room flows right into the eat-in kitchen.
“Scott.” Exasperation eats at the woman’s tone. “This is not what I signed up for.”
“Last month you were on board with this,”
says Scott. Part of me feels vindicated. He’s lost that annoyingly smooth calm from
yesterday.
“Yes, when you told me you wanted to
reconnect with your niece. There is a
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difference between reconnecting and
invading our life.”
“You were fine with it when I called last month from Louisville and said I wanted her to live with us.”
The woman snaps, “That was after you said she ran away. I didn’t actually think you would find her. When you described the hellhole she lived in, I figured she was long gone. She’s a criminal. You expect me to feel safe with her in my home?”
Her words slice me open. I’m not that bad.
No, I’m not kittens and bunnies, but I’m not that bad. I glance down at my outfit. Jeans.
Tank top. My black hair falls in front of my face. It doesn’t matter. She made her decision before she met me. I bury the hurt, step into the room, and welcome the anger. Screw her. “You might want to listen to her. I’m a fucking menace.”
The shocked expression on their faces is
almost worth being here. Almost. I press my lips together to keep from laughing at Scott. He wears a pair of chinos and a short-sleeved button-down shirt. It’s a far cry from the outfits he used to wear when I was a kid: gangsta
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jeans that showed his underwear.
The woman is nothing like the girls Scott dated when he was eighteen. Her hair is a natural blond instead of bleached. She’s thin, but not alcohol-diet thin, and she looks kind of smart. Smart as in she probably finished high school.
She sits at a massive island in the center of the kitchen. Scott leans on the counter across from her. He glances at her, then talks to me.
“It’s late, Elisabeth. Why don’t you go back to bed and we’ll talk in the morning.”
My stomach cramps, and a light wave of
dizziness fogs my brain. “Do you have food?”
He straightens. “Yes. What do you want? I can fix some eggs.”
Scott used to make me scrambled eggs every morning. Eggs—the WIC-approved food. The
reminder hurts and creates warm fuzzies at the same time. “I hate eggs.”
“Oh.”
Oh. The man’s a conversational genius. “Do you have cereal?”
“Sure.” He enters a pantry and I plop onto a stool at the island as far from Scott’s girl as possible. She stares at a spot right in front of
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me. Huh. Funny. I’m in arm’s reach of a
butcher block full of knives. I can imagine the thoughts running through her single-celled brain.
Scott places boxes of Cheerios, Branflakes, and Shredded Wheat in front of me.
“You have got to be fucking kidding.”
Where the hell are the Lucky Charms?
“Nice language,” the woman says.
“Thanks,” I respond.
“I didn’t mean it as a compliment.”
“Do I look like I fucking care?”
Scott slides a bowl and spoon to me, then goes to the refrigerator for milk. “Let’s tone it down.”
I choose the Cheerios and keep pouring until a few toasty circles trickle onto the counter.
Scott sits in the chair next to mine and the two of them watch me in silence. Well, sort of silence. My crunching is louder than a nuclear bomb blast.
“Scott told me you had blond hair,” says the woman.
I swallow, but it’s hard to do when my throat tightens. The little girl I used to be, the one with blond hair, died years ago and I hate
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thinking about her. She was nice. She was happy. She was…not someone I want to
remember.
“Why is your hair black?” The lawn
ornament at the other end of the island has officially become annoying.
“What are you exactly?” I ask.
“This is my wife, Allison.”
The Cheerios catch in my throat and I choke, coughing into my hand. “You’re married?”
“Two years,” says Scott. Ugh. He does that googly-eye thing Noah does with Echo.
I slide another spoonful of Cheerios into my mouth. “When I’m done—” crunch, crunch,
crunch “—I’m going home.”
“This is your home now.” Scott has that
calm tone again.
“The hell it is.”
Allison’s eyes dart between me and the
knives. Yeah, lady, a couple of hours in jail and I’ve moved from destruction of property to sociopath.
“Maybe you should listen to her,” she says.
“Yeah,” I say through more crunches,
“maybe you should listen to me. Your wife’s worried I’m going to go all Manson and slit her
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throat while she sleeps.” I smile at her for effect.
Color drains from her face. At times, I really enjoy being me.
Scott gives me the once-over—starting with my black hair, then moving on to my black fingernails, the ring in my nose, and finally my clothes. Then he turns to
his wife.
“Will you give us a few minutes alone?”
Allison leaves without saying a word. I
shovel in more cereal and purposely talk with my mouth full. “Did you have to purchase the leash for her or did it come as a package deal?”
“You won’t disrespect her, Elisabeth.”
“I’ll do as I fucking please, Uncle Scott.” I mimic his fake haughty tone. “And when I’m done eating my shitty cereal, I’m calling Isaiah and I’m going home.”
Him—silence. Me—crunch, crunch, crunch.
“What happened to you?” he asks in a soft voice.
I swallow what’s in my mouth, put down the spoon, and push the bowl of half-eaten
Cheerios away. “What do you think
happened?”
Scott—the master of long silences.
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“When did he leave?” he asks.
I don’t have to be a mind reader to know
Scott’s asking about his deadbeat brother. The black paint on my fingernails chips at the corners. I scrape off more of it. Eight years later and I still have a hard time saying it.
“Third grade.”
Scott shifts in his seat. “Your mom?”
“Fell apart the day he left.” Which should tell him a lot, because she wasn’t exactly the poster child for reliability before Dad took off.
“What happened between them?”
None of his business. “You didn’t come for me like you promised.” And he stopped calling when I turned eight. The refrigerator kicks on.
I scrape off more paint. He faces the fact that he’s a dick.
“Elisabeth—”
“Beth.” I cut him off. “I go by Beth. Where’s your phone? I’m going home.” The police
confiscated my cell and gave it to Scott. He told me in the car that he tossed it in the garbage because I “didn’t need contact with my old life.”
“You just turned seventeen.”
“Did I? Wow. I must have forgotten since no
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one threw me a party.”
Ignoring me, he continues, “This week my
lawyers will secure my legal guardianship of you. Until you turn eighteen, you will live in this house and you will obey my rules.”
Fine. If he won’t show me the phone, I’ll find it. I hop off the chair. “I’m not six anymore and you aren’t the center of my
universe. In fact, I consider you a black hole.”
“I get that you’re pissed off I left.…”
Pissed? “No, I’m not pissed. You don’t exist to me anymore. I feel nothing for you, so show me where the damned phone is so I can go
home.”
“Elisabeth…”
He doesn’t get it. I don’t care. “Go to hell.”
No phone in the kitchen.
“You need to understand.…”
I walk around his fancy ass living room with his fancy ass leather furniture looking for his fancy ass phone. “Take whatever you have to say and shove it up your ass.”
“I just want to talk.…”
I lift my hand in the air and flap it like a puppet’s mouth. “Blah, blah, blah, Elisabeth.
I’ll only be gone a couple of months. Blah,
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blah, blah, Elisabeth. I’ll make enough
money to get us both out of Groveton. Blah, blah, blah, Elisabeth. You’ll never grow up like me. Blah, blah, blah, Elisabeth. I’ll make sure you have some fucking food to eat!”
“I was eighteen.”
“I was six!”
“I wasn’t your father!”
I throw my arms out. “No, you weren’t. You were supposed to be better than him!
Congratulations, you officially became a
replica of your worthless brother. Now where the fuck is the damn phone?”
Scott slams his hand on the counter and
roars, “Sit your ass down, Elisabeth, and shut the fuck up!”
I quake on the inside, but I’ve been around Mom’s asshole boyfriends long enough to keep from quaking on the outside. “Wow. You can take the boy out of the trailer park and pretty him up in a Major League Baseball uniform, but you can’t take the trailer park out of the boy.”
He takes a deep breath and closes his eyes.
“I’m sorry. That was uncalled for.”
“Whatever. Where’s the phone?”
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Noah told me once that I have a gift that borders on supervillain status—the ability to push people past the edge of sanity. The way Scott releases another breath and rubs his forehead tells me I’m pushing him hard. Good.
Scott tries for that obnoxious, level tone again, but I can hear the edge of irritation in it.
“You want trailer park, I can go trailer park.
You are going to live in my house with my rules or I’ll send your mother to jail.”
“I broke out the windows of the car. Not her.
You have nothing on her.”
Scott narrows his eyes. “Wanna discuss
what’s in your mom’s apartment with me?”
My body lurches to the left as the blood
seeps out of my face, leaving behind a blurry and tingling sensation. Shirley already warned me, but hearing it from him is still a shock.
Scott knows what I don’t want to know—
Mom’s secret.
“Push me, Elisabeth, and I’ll have this same exact conversation with the police.”
I stumble as I try to stay upright. The back of my legs collide with a coffee table. Losing the battle, I sit. Right beside me is a phone and as much as I want to, I can’t touch it. Scott has
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me. The bastard traded my life for my
mom’s freedom.
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I LEAN AGAINST THE CLOSED tailgate of Dad’s truck and listen from two parking spots away as Dad recounts to a group of men loitering outside the barbershop every detail of our meeting with the scout last night. Some of them heard the story at church this morning.
Most of the listeners are generational farmers and this kind of news is worth hearing again, even if it means standing in the type of August heat where you can smell the acrid stench of blacktop melting.
In my peripheral view, I notice a man stop on the sidewalk and assess the ring of listeners and my storytelling father. I don’t pay attention to tourists and if he were a local, he’d join the group. It’s better to leave the tourists alone. If you look at them, they talk.
Groveton’s a small town. To appeal to
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tourists, Dad persuaded the other councilmen to call the old stone buildings dating back to the 1800s
Historic
then add the words
Shopping District.
Four B-and-Bs and new tours of the old bourbon distillery later, and the city folk brave the fifteen-mile winding
country road from the freeway. It can make parking a bitch on the weekends, but it gives lots of good people jobs when money gets
tight.
“What’s the local gossip?” the man asks.
He’s speaking and I didn’t even make eye
contact. That’s bold for a tourist. I fold my arms across my chest. “Baseball.”
“No kidding.” There’s a drop in his tone that catches my attention.
I turn my head and feel my eyes widen in
slow motion. No way. “You’re Scott Risk.”
Everyone in this town knows who Scott Risk is. His face is one of the few to peer at the student population from the Wall of Fame at Bullitt County High. As a shortstop, he led his high school team to state championships twice.
He made the majors straight out of high school.
But the real achievement, the real feat that made him a king in this small town, was his
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eleven-year stint with the New York
Yankees. He’s exactly what every boy in
Groveton dreams of becoming, including me.
Scott Risk wears a pair of khakis, a blue polo, and a good-natured grin. “And you are?”
“Ryan Stone,” Dad answers for me as he
appears from out of thin air. “He’s my son.”
The circle of men outside the barbershop