Dark Rivers of the Heart (50 page)

She kept her attention on the highway, which allowed Spencer to look at her as he spoke. The sheen of her dark hair, the delicacy of her profile, and the strength of her beautiful sun-browned hands on the steering wheel encouraged him to continue. If she had met his eyes at that moment, however, he might have been too intimidated to express the rest of what he longed to say.

“Crazier still, I can’t tell you
why
I feel this way about you. It’s just there. Inside me. It’s a feeling that just sprang up. Not there one moment…but there the next, as if it had always been there. As if
you’d
always been there, or as if I’d spent my life waiting for you to be there.”

The more words that tumbled from him and the faster they came, the more he feared that he would never be able to find the
right
words. At least she seemed to know that she should not respond or, worse, encourage him. He was balanced so precariously on the high wire of revelation that the slightest blow, although unintended, would knock him off.

“I don’t know. I’m so awkward at this. The problem is I’m just fourteen years old when it comes to this, when it comes to emotion, frozen back there in adolescence, as inarticulate as a boy about this sort of thing. And if I can’t explain what I feel or why I feel it—then how can I expect you ever to feel anything in return? Jesus. I was right: ‘Presumptuous’ is the wrong word. ‘Foolish’ is better.”

He retreated to the safety of silence again. But he didn’t dare linger in silence, because he would soon lose the will to break it.

“Foolish or not, I’ve got hope now, and I’m going to hold onto it until you tell me to let go. I’ll tell you all about Michael Ackblom, the boy who used to be. I’ll tell you everything you want to know, everything you can bear to hear. But I want the same thing from you. I want to know all there is to know. No secrets. This is an end to secrets. Here, now, from this moment on, no secrets. Whatever we can have together—if we can have anything at all—has to be honest, true, clean, shining, like nothing I’ve known before.”

The speed of the Rover had fallen while he talked.

His latest silence was not just another pause between painful attempts to express himself, and she seemed to be aware of its new quality. She looked at him. Her lovely, dark eyes shone with the warmth and kindness to which he had responded in The Red Door less than a week ago, when he’d first met her.

When the warmth threatened to well into tears, she turned her attention to the road once more.

Since encountering her again in the arroyo on Friday night, he had not until now seen quite that same exceptionally kind and open spirit; of necessity, it had been masked by doubt, by caution. She hadn’t trusted him anymore, after he’d followed her home from work. Her life had taught her to be cynical and suspicious of others, as surely as his life had taught him to be afraid of what he might one day find crouched and waiting within himself.

She became aware that she’d let their speed fall. She tramped on the accelerator, and the Rover surged forward.

Spencer waited.

Trees crowded close to the highway again. Filleting blades of light flashed across the glass, spattering quick sprays of shadows behind them.

“My name,” she said, “is Eleanor. People used to call me Ellie. Ellie Summerton.”

“Not…his daughter?”

“No. Thank God, no. His daughter-in-law. My maiden name was Golding. Eleanor Golding. I was married to Tom’s son, only child. Danny Summerton. Danny’s dead now. Been dead for fourteen months.” Her voice was pulled between anger and sadness, and often the balance in the contest shifted in the middle of a word, stretching it and distorting it. “Some days it seems he’s only been gone a week or so, and some days it feels like he’s been gone forever. Danny knew too much. And he was going to talk. He was killed to shut him up.”

“Summerton…killed his own son?”

Her voice became so cold that anger seemed to have won forever against the insistent pull of sadness. “He’s even worse than that. He ordered someone else to do it. My mom and dad were killed too…just because they happened to be in the way when the agency men came for Danny.”

Her voice was colder than ever, and she was whiter than pale. During his days as a policeman, Spencer had seen a few faces as white as Ellie’s was at that moment—but they had all been faces in one morgue or another.

“I was there. I escaped,” she said. “I was lucky. That’s what I’ve been telling myself ever since. Lucky.”

“…but Michael had no peace, even once he’d gone to Denver to live with his grandparents, the Porths,” Gary Duvall said. “Every kid in school knew the name Ackblom. An unusual name. And the father was a famous artist even before he became a famous murderer, killed his wife and forty-one others. Besides, the kid’s picture had been in all the papers. Boy hero. He was an object of unending curiosity. Everyone stared. And every time it seemed the media would leave him alone, there would be another flare-up of interest, and they’d be hounding him again, even though he was just a kid, for God’s sake.”

“Journalists,” Roy said scornfully. “You know what they’re like. Cold bastards. Only the story matters. They have no compassion.”

“The kid had been through a similar hell, unwanted notoriety, when he’d been eight years old, after his mother’s body was found in that ditch. This time it was tearing him apart. The grandparents were retired, could live anywhere, so after almost two years they decided to get Michael out of Colorado altogether. A new city, new state, new start. That’s what they told neighbors—but they wouldn’t tell anyone where they were going. They uprooted themselves and left their friends for the sake of the boy. They must’ve figured that was the only way he’d have a chance to make a normal life for himself.”

“New city, new state, new start—and even a new name,” Roy said. “They legally changed it, didn’t they?”

“Right here in Denver, before they moved away. Given the circumstances, the court record of the change is sealed, of course.”

“Of course.”

“But I’ve reviewed it. Michael Steven Ackblom became Spencer Grant, no middle name or even initial. An odd choice. It seems to have been a name the boy came up with himself, but I don’t know where he got it.”

“From old movies he liked.”

“Huh?”

“Good work. Thanks, Gary.”

Roy disconnected with the touch of a button, but he didn’t take off the telephone headset.

He stared at the photograph of Steven Ackblom. The man in the shadows.

Engines, rotors, powerful desires, and sympathy for the devil vibrated in Roy’s bones. He shivered with a not unpleasant chill.

They were all so beautiful in their pain, and all like angels when they died.

Here and there in the gloom beneath the trees, where shadows held back the sun through most or all of the day, patches of white snow shone like bone in the carcass of the earth.

The true desert was behind them. Winter had come to this area, had been driven back by an early thaw, and would no doubt come again before true spring. But now the sky was blue, on a day when Spencer would have welcomed bitterly cold wind and dense swirls of snow to blind all eyes above.

“Danny was a brilliant software designer,” Ellie said. “He’d been a computer nerd since junior high. Me too. Since the eighth grade, I’ve lived and breathed computers. We met in college. My being a hacker, deep into that world, which is mostly guys—that’s what drew Danny to me.”

Spencer remembered how Ellie had looked as she’d sat on desert sand; at the edge of the morning sun, bent over a computer, up-linking to satellites, dazzling in her expertise, her limpid eyes alight with the pleasure that she got from being so skillful at the task, with a curve of hair like a raven’s wing against her cheek.

Whatever she might believe, her status as a hacker had not been the only thing that had drawn Danny to her. She was compelling for many reasons, but most of all because she seemed, at all times, more
alive
than most other people.

Her attention was on the highway, but she was clearly having difficulty treating the past with detachment and was struggling not to become lost in it. “After graduate school, Danny had job offers, but his father was relentless about him coming to work at the Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco and Firearms. Back then, years before he went to the Department of Justice, Tom Summerton was Director of the ATF.”

“But that was in a different administration.”

“Oh, in Tom’s case, it doesn’t matter much who’s in power in Washington, either party, left or right. He’s always appointed to an important position in what they laughingly call ‘public service.’ Twenty years ago, he inherited over one billion dollars, which is now probably two, and he gives huge amounts to both parties. He’s clever enough to position himself as nonpartisan, a statesman rather than a politician, a man who knows how to get things done, no ideological axe to grind, only wants to make a better world.”

“That’s a hard act to pull off,” Spencer said.

“Easy for him. Because he believes in nothing. Except himself. And power. Power is his food, drink, love, sex.
Using
power is the thrill, not forwarding the ideals it serves. In Washington, a lust for power keeps the devil busy buying souls, but Tom is so ambitious he must have collected a record price for his.”

Responding to the simmering fury in the undertone of her voice, Spencer said, “Did you always hate him?”

“Yes,” Ellie said forthrightly. “Quietly despised the stinking sonofabitch. I didn’t want Danny to work at ATF, because he was too innocent, naive, too easily taken in by his old man.”

“What did he do there?”

“Developed Mama. The computer system, the software to run it—which they later called Mama. It was supposed to be the biggest, baddest anticrime data resource in the world, a system that could process billions of bytes at record speeds, link together federal and state and local law enforcement with ease, eliminate duplication of effort, and finally give the good guys an edge.”

“Very stirring.”

“Isn’t it? And Mama turned out awesome. But Tom never intended her to serve any legit branch of government. He used ATF resources to develop her, yeah, but his intention all along was to make Mama the core of this nameless agency.”

“So Danny realized it had gone sour?”

“Maybe he knew but didn’t want to admit. He stayed with it.”

“How long?”

“Too long,” she said sadly. “Until his dad had left the ATF and moved to the Department of Justice, a full year after Mama and the agency were in place. But eventually he accepted that Mama’s entire purpose was to make it possible for the government to
commit
crimes and not be caught. He was eaten alive with anger, self-disgust.”

“And when he wanted out, they wouldn’t let him go.”

“We didn’t realize there was no leaving. I mean, Tom is a piece of walking shit, but he was still Danny’s
father.
And Danny was his only child. Danny’s mother died when he was young. Cancer. So it seemed like Danny was all Tom had.”

Following the violent death of his own mother, Spencer and his father also were drawn closer in the aftermath. Or so it had seemed. Until a certain night in July.

Ellie said, “Then it became obvious—this work with the agency was mandatory lifetime employment.”

“Like being the personal attorney to a Mafia don.”

“The only way out was to go public, blow the whole dirty business wide open. Secretly Danny prepared his own file of Mama’s software and a history of the cover-ups the agency was involved with.”

“You realized the danger?”

“On one level. But deep down inside, I think both of us, to different degrees, had trouble believing Tom would have Danny killed. We were twenty-eight, for God’s sake. Death was an abstract concept to us. At twenty-eight, who really believes he’s ever going to die?”

“And then the hit men showed up.”

“No SWAT team. More subtle. Three men on Thanksgiving evening. The year before last. My folks’ place in Connecticut. My dad is…was a doctor. A doctor’s life, especially in a small town, isn’t his own. Even on Thanksgiving. So…near the end of dinner, I was in the kitchen…getting the pumpkin pie…when the doorbell rang….”