Devil May Care: Boxed Set (78 page)

I remembered it still, the way he’d handled me with care. It wasn’t Johnny’s way to treat women with kid gloves, though he was never unkind to them. He just had a particular taste in the bedroom and it was usually so fast and hard that unless you were the one he was banging into, you probably thought he was trying to kill you. I usually loved that, but on that day, I couldn’t handle the violent fucking that he was prone to.

He seemed to have sensed that, because he slid off my clothes carefully and slowly, taking his time, and on each spot of skin he exposed, he placed a kiss there. Tender kisses, soft and barely even there, skittering across my body in gentle caresses. Then he’d laid me on the bed and spread my legs apart. He’d devoured my nether lips with his mouth until I cried out in ecstasy, and that wasn’t anywhere close to the end of it. When I came down from that first high, he worked me back up into a frenzy with his fingers and his tongue and his teeth. He whispered sweet nothings into my ears, words of comfort that I didn’t even understand, but could feel somewhere deep in my breast.

We spent a lot of time on the bed as he worshipped my body, his lips touching every part of me they could reach, which happened to be everything. His teeth grazed my nipples; his fingers slid against my nether lips; his palms massaged my tits. Then he flipped me over onto my stomach and slid his hands all over my back and my rear, his lips quickly following, until my body was on fire.

He made love to me on the bed first, spreading my legs apart and sliding his hard length inside me slower than he ever had before, even for our first time together. And when he was entirely sheathed within my body, he held me close and slid his hands over my body comfortingly. He whispered “I love you” in my ear and I melted beneath him, but I was on fire, too. When he finally started to move inside of me, it was sweet relief that filled me.

He plunged within me until I found release again, his coming soon after. Then we moved to the kitchen. He made food while I sat on the counter, but I was naked and he wasn’t concentrating on the food. Instead, his hands were busy fondling my moist lips, once again seeing to my pleasure and my distraction.

Eventually, the food was forgotten and he chose to eat me instead, his mouthing once again finding that sweet spot between my legs. I remember crying out and winding my fingers into his hair, holding him close to me, my thighs clenching just over his ears until I finally came.

By this time, he’d recovered and grown hard again. We made it to the couch and he laid me gently down on my stomach, entering me carefully and gently from behind. It must have taken everything he had not to slap my ass or tug on my hair, but he made a point of once more being so gentle with me.

He told me everything would be alright, that I was beautiful and perfect and everything he’d ever wanted. He told me again that he loved me and that he would always keep me safe.

By the time he was buried completely inside of me, his release ripping through him swiftly, I was tired and the hurt that threatened to throb should I poke at it was comfortably numb. I could sleep at the very least, and we finally did. Exhausted, we curled up together, my head lying on his chest, and I fell asleep without a thought in my head.

The next week, I moved in with him. I couldn’t take the memories of my dad and the constant sorrow that swallowed my mother up whole. Maybe it wouldn’t have been so bad if she would have let me help her, if we could have grieved together, but she was too wrapped up in her own grief that she couldn’t be bothered with mine.

I didn’t hold it against her, but I needed some kind of support. Johnny became that support, my rock, and living with him gave me something to come home to. And the sex kept the sadness at bay, at least for a little while, and that comfortably numb feeling gave me hope that things might be okay.

Except that comfortably numb feeling wouldn’t last for long, and I’d known it then, too, but the sex helped. Johnny helped. He made me feel safe and protected in a world I felt like I didn’t understand.

But then he became leader of the Unholys, taking my father’s place, and I felt like things changed between us. Or maybe it was simply that
I
had changed and now the things that I had once been able to deal with no longer sat well with me. It meant that things between me and Johnny were a little rocky, and I wondered if the love that bonded us together could hold in the end.

Johnny

I tried not to stare after Charlotte left, but I still ended up watching until her taillights disappeared around the corner, heading down the mountain. It made me more and more nervous each time I watched those lights, because I was worried now that something might change—or might have already changed—and she wouldn’t be there when I got home. Not just her being at her mother’s house or helping out a late night shift for the club, but gone. Gone for good.

Forcing myself to look away, I told myself that she wasn’t going to leave me. Everything was fine and she loved me too much to just up and go.

I only half believed that anymore.

Digging into the back pocket of my dark jeans, I found my cell phone and yanked it out. I had a number scratched out on a small piece of paper with jagged edges, torn out of some address book that was now stuck to my phone. I separated the two and stared at the paper pinched between my thumb and forefinger.

I frowned. Everything inside me told me that this was a bad idea. Worse, it was a
dangerous
idea, and if I fucked this up a lot of people were going to be in a bad way.
My
people.

Unfortunately, it still had to be done. We didn’t have a lot of options these days.

Smoothing out the paper until I could read the numbers, I made the call. The phone on the other end rang only a few times before someone picked up. A man’s deep, rough voice came through the other end.

“What?”

Taking a deep, calming breath, I tried to sound like this didn’t scare the shit out of me as I spoke. “Stitches?”

“Who wants to know?” the man said. I could hear the sound of spitting come through the receiver.

“Johnny Rykers,” I answered smoothly, taking on the air of authority I needed to deal with not only another motorcycle club, but the leader of said club. “I thought we should talk business.”

There was a pause and what sounded like someone covering the phone, then some muffled yelling. I tried not to hold my breath, and kept my head held high. That wasn’t for the benefit of Stitches, leader of our rival gang and what might be our only hope for surviving the Berserkers. Stitches obviously couldn’t see me through the phone, but despite initiation being over, there were still several members of the club hanging around.

Maybe they weren’t really watching me or paying attention, but if they could see how nervous I really was, they would
start
watching me. It was important to not show weakness to these guys. Most of them wouldn’t do anything drastic over it, except for a few loose cannons, but I didn’t want to have a reason to test that. And besides, if a leader was weak, the club was weak, too. I didn’t want my guys to be weak.

After what felt like an hour of waiting, Stitches finally got back to me. “Alright. Let’s talk business.”

“We need to discuss the expansion…”

The Berserkers were technically our rivals. They had started as a relatively small group, completely non-threatening, at least to us, and in the time of the Reverend, they weren’t big enough to be a concern. “Let them be,” the Reverend used to say, and we did, because no one expected any trouble for them.

Maybe that’s where we fucked up; we should have been watching them. More than that, we should have been flexing our authority over the whole thing. How were we supposed to hang on to our territory and strength if we just let a bunch of fledgling hooligans creep up on our turf?

But it was too late to worry about that. Fact of the matter was, the Berserkers had gained a following and they were growing pretty rapidly in size. Worse, we’d lost a lot of members in the last few months. Many left because they couldn’t deal with the Reverend’s death. Though these were the toughest of guys, many of the older ones had softer centers. The Reverend was important to them and when he died—when he offed himself—a lot of the older members gave up.

The lifestyle wasn’t for them anymore if the Reverend wasn’t leading them.

I tried not to take it personally. It was no secret that I was next in line for the position of club leader. Sure, a lot of the guys whispered that it was because I’d been sleeping with Charlotte, the head honcho’s daughter, since high school, but that wasn’t it. The Reverend was important to me before I’d ever even met Charlotte and I knew and he knew before I’d ever even joined that this life was going to be for me.

I didn’t really care what people thought of me and how I got the position. All I cared about was whether or not they listened to me when I had to bark an order at one of them. For the most part, they did, but there had been a few who couldn’t handle the change. Not for any particular love of the Reverend, but because they didn’t think some young punk should be in charge and giving them orders.

That was the other reason we were losing a lot of members. Our size had gone down by at least a forth, maybe even closer to a third, and it was starting to cost us.

Money was short, tempers were shorter, and pulling us up by our bootstraps was getting awful hard these days. In the end, I made the call I had to: work with the Berserkers.

“Yeah, we agreed already, didn’t we?” Stitches asked in irritation, the coarse sound filling his voice and making it come out nasally. “You’re just gonna have to trust us, Johnny boy.”

I grit my teeth. I didn’t like the nickname and I didn’t like Stitches. And more to the point, I didn’t fucking trust him. Not with anything and certainly not with my boys’ lives. Unfortunately, he was right. I was going to have to trust him if I wanted this to work.

I sighed. “Yeah, sure, sorry, Stitches. We’re finishing up here, so gimme an hour or so. We’ll meet at the warehouse.”

“Alright. Fine.”

We hung up and I tried to quell the anxiety that shot through me at the thought of meeting with the Berserkers. Strictly speaking, the Unholys were a pretty straight group. We owned a legitimate body shop in town and our business stayed clean most of the time. Of course, we did some drug running on the side, but it was usually just a little MJ, maybe some steroids or speed, but we tried not to do anything too big or too noticeable. I was aware of the police and so long as we kept under a certain line of business, no one was going to care much one way or the other. It was when we got too big or sold to a bunch of dumb kids or got ourselves dealing with the real black hats, like the drug cartels, that we would start getting picked up. I didn’t want us looked at and I didn’t want that kind of shit on my conscience.

But the problem was, the Berserkers cared a little less. It wasn’t that we didn’t do our fair share of illegal things, but we had rules and requirements and limits. They didn’t.

Stitches had made it pretty clear that in the end he didn’t care what kind of shit got run through the club so long as it made him a buck or two. The only part he got pissed about was when he dealt in arms deals. Selling guns got tricky, and with so much backlash and gun control commotion these days, he didn’t want it coming back on him. Besides, you never knew when you picked up the wrong kind of gun. A cop killing kind of gun.

It was nice to know he at least had common sense, even if he didn’t have much in the way of morality.

As I slipped the phone back into the pocket, I noticed Specter standing nearby. He had his arms folded across his chest and was watching me like a hawk, which was not unusual, to be perfectly honest. I headed over to him.

“What’s the word?” Specter asked as I got closer.

I shrugged my shoulders, feigning casualness and calmness. I didn’t want him especially to see how much this whole thing rattled me. Splitting territory with the Berserkers was a bad idea, and I knew it, but I was running out of members and options pretty damn fast.

“We’re set for tonight. The warehouse in the industrial district. Meeting’s set for an hour and a half.”

Specter nodded. He was a little unhinged, I thought at times, but he’d always been loyal to the Unholys. The Reverend had considered him a lieutenant, much like I did now, and there was no question that whatever else Specter might be into, he was definitely the guy you wanted on your side during a fight. He was going to come with me tonight as my body guard and backup, just in case things took a wrong turn somewhere along the way.

“Stitches gonna be there himself this time?” Specter asked me as we watched several more of the boys start filtering out, their bikes revving in the distance and their girls laughing.

Last time we’d set up a meeting with the Berserkers, it hadn’t exactly gone as planned. Stitches had been set to be there, but he hadn’t shown, letting one of his boys go in his stead. Granted, I probably liked the old boy better than I would like Stitches, but it was a bit of an insult to us that Stitches wouldn’t go himself.

It set our plans and negotiations back quite a bit. It had nearly started a goddamned war between our clubs and I was silently grateful that it hadn’t come to that. We didn’t make a habit of killing people, but it happened. Not usually on my watch, but I’d thought it before and I’d think it again: the Berserkers didn’t have much in the way of morals.

“Yeah, he’ll be there,” I said confidently, though that was hardly what I was feeling. I wasn’t sure what I’d do if Stitches didn’t show in person this time, but I was pretty sure it was going to get us all into a lot of trouble. There was no way we’d be able to salvage this joint venture if he ditched on us twice. I’d have to cut the whole thing loose and then the territory would be in real danger.

This way we’d just split some of the territory in the area between our two clubs, work out percentages and good faith payments for selling or working in each other’s areas. There was a chance that things could go south anyway, that we’d end up losing our asses, but there was also the chance that things could go our way. If the Berserkers continued to do their deals—illegal or otherwise—then we’d get a piece of any of that that happened in our designated territory. Likewise, if we did deals on their turf, we paid a small fee to them. Since we were far less likely to be dealing in the more illegal—and admittedly profitable—side of the law, we stood to earn a lot more money from it, but they got territory out of the deal. We’d have to give up some of ours so there’d be a fifty-fifty split, but I wasn’t worried about territory. What was the point if there wasn’t a club left to do a damn thing with it?

There wasn’t any kind of guarantee that this would work and in my gut I couldn’t make myself trust the Berserkers, but what choice did I have? I had to do something and I was all out of ideas these days.

“He’d better,” Specter muttered as we headed towards our bikes. We’d be the last two to leave and we wouldn’t be going home.

I thought of Charlotte waiting for me. I thought of the things I’d rather be doing with her and to her, but business had to come first tonight. Still, I hoped that she’d call. That she’d tell me she was okay and we were okay and everything was okay.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and checked it again, but there were no missed calls. I couldn’t help my frown, but resisted the sigh I wanted to send along with it. Resolving to at least let her know what was going on, even if she wasn’t in the mood to return the courtesy, I sent her a quick text.

Business tonight. Be home late. Don’t wait up.

I put my phone back into my pocket and when Specter handed me the pistol, I took it easily, tucking it safely away in the back of my jeans. I hoped we wouldn’t need it tonight, but I wasn’t going in there unprepared.

Slinging my leg over the side of the bike, I nodded towards Specter. He’d follow me down the hill and back into town, then we’d head over to the industrial district. No one would be around this time of night and that place especially didn’t have a lot of traffic.

I revved up my bike and we headed out of there. I tried not to think of the cold metal pressed against the skin of my back and I tried not to think about how Charlotte had left that night. Instead, I did my best to focus on the dark road and the cool night and the rumbling sound of my bike filling my ears.

This would all be over soon.