Dreamcatcher (51 page)

Beaver Clarendon, age fourteen, ran out.

1

Henry watched Underhill trudge toward him in the glare of the security lights. Underhill's head was bent against the snow and the intensifying wind. Henry opened his mouth to call out, but before he could, he was overwhelmed, nearly
flattened,
by a sense of Jonesy. And then a memory came, blotting out Underhill and this brightly lit, snowy world completely. All at once it was 1978 again, not October but November and there was
blood,
blood on cattails, broken glass in marshy water, and then the bang of the door.

2

Henry awakes from a terrible confused dream—blood, broken glass, the rich smells of gasoline and burning rubber—to the sound of a banging door and a blast of cold air. He sits up and sees Pete sitting up beside
him, Pete's hairless chest covered with goosebumps. Henry and Pete are on the floor in their sleeping-bags because they lost the four-way toss. Beav and Jonesy got the bed (later there will be a third bedroom at Hole in the Wall, but now there are only two and Lamar has one all to himself, by the divine right of adulthood), only now Jonesy is alone in the bed, also sitting up, also looking confused and frightened.

Scooby-ooby-Doo, where are you,
Henry thinks for no appreciable reason as he gropes for his glasses on the windowsill. In his nose he can still smell gas and burning tires.
We got some work to do now
—

“Crashed,” Jonesy says thickly, and throws back the covers. His chest is bare, but like Henry and Pete, he wore his socks and longjohn bottoms to bed.

“Yeah, went in the water,” Pete says, his face suggesting he doesn't have the slightest idea what he's talking about. “Henry, you got his shoe—”

“Moccasin—” Henry says, but he hasn't any idea what
he's
talking about either. Nor wants to.

“Beav,” Jonesy says, and gets out of bed in a clumsy lunge. One of his stocking-clad feet comes down on Pete's hand.

“Ow!”
Pete cries. “Ya stepped on me, ya fuckin gomer, watch where
you're
—”

“Shut up, shut up,” Henry says, grabbing Pete's shoulder and giving it a shake. “Don't wake up Mr. Clarendon!”

Which would be easy, because the door of the boys' bedroom is open. So is the door on the far side of the big central room, the one to the outside. No
wonder they're cold, there's a hell of a draft. Now that Henry has his eyes back on (that is how he thinks of it), he can see the dreamcatcher out there dancing in the cold November breeze coming in through the open door.

“Where's Duddits?” Jonesy asks in a dazed, I'm-still-dreaming voice. “Did he go out with Beaver?”

“He's back in Derry, foolish,” Henry says, getting up and pulling on his thermal undershirt. And he doesn't feel that Jonesy is foolish, not really; he also has a sense that Duddits was just here with them.

It was the dream,
he thinks.
Duddits was in the dream. He was sitting on the bank. He was crying. He was sorry. He didn't mean to. If anyone meant to, it was us.

And there is still crying. He can hear it, coming in through the front door, carried on the breeze. It's not Duddits, though; it's the Beav.

They leave the room in a line, pulling on scraps of clothes as they go, not bothering with their shoes, which would take too long.

One good thing—judging from the tin city of beer-cans on the kitchen table (plus a suburb of same on the coffee-table), it'll take more than a couple of open doors and some whispering kids to wake up Beaver's Dad.

The big granite doorstep is freezing under Henry's stocking feet, cold in the deep thoughtless way death must be cold, but he barely notices.

He sees the Beaver right away. He's at the foot of the maple tree with the deer-stand in it, on his knees as if praying. His legs and feet are bare, Henry sees. He's
wearing his motorcycle jacket, and tied up and down its arms, fluttering like pirate's finery, are the orange bandannas his father made his son wear when Beaver insisted on wearing such a damned foolish unhunterly thing in the woods. The outfit looks pretty funny, but there's nothing funny about that agonized face tilted up toward the maple's nearly bare branches. The Beav's cheeks are streaming with tears.

Henry breaks into a run. Pete and Jonesy follow suit, their breath puffing white in the chill morning air. The needle-strewn ground under Henry's feet is almost as hard and cold as the granite doorstep.

He drops to his knees beside Beaver, scared and somehow awed by those tears. Because the Beav isn't just misting up, like the hero of a movie who may be allowed to shed a manly drop or two when his dog or his girlfriend dies; Beav is running like Niagara Falls. From his nose hang two ropes of clear glistening snot. You never saw stuff like
that
in the movies.

“Gross,” Pete says.

Henry looks at him impatiently, but then he sees Pete isn't looking at Beaver but past him, at a steaming puddle of vomit. In it are kernels of last night's corn (Lamar Clarendon believes passionately in the virtues of canned food when it comes to camp cooking) and strings of last night's fried chicken. Henry's stomach takes a big unhappy lurch. And just as it starts to settle, Jonesy yarks. The sound is like a big liquid belch. The puke is brown.

“Gross!”
Pete almost screams it this time.

Beaver doesn't seem to even notice. “Henry!” he
says. His eyes, submerged beneath twin lenses of tears, are huge and spooky. They seem to peer past Henry's face and into the supposedly private rooms behind his forehead.

“Beav, it's okay. You had a bad dream.”

“Sure, a bad dream.” Jonesy's voice is thick, his throat still plated with puke. He tries to clear it with a thick
ratching
noise that is somehow worse than what just came out of him, then bends over and spits. His hands are planted on the legs of his longhandles, and his bare back is covered with bumps.

Beav takes no notice of Jonesy, nor of Pete as Pete kneels down on his other side and puts a clumsy, tentative arm around Beav's shoulders. Beav continues to look only at Henry.

“His head was off,” Beaver whispers.

Jonesy also drops to his knees, and now all three of them are surrounding the Beav, Henry and Pete to either side, Jonesy in front. There is vomit on Jonesy's chin. He reaches to wipe it away, but Beaver takes his hand before he can. The boys kneel beneath the maple, and suddenly they are all one. It is brief, this sense of union, but as vivid as their dream. It
is
the dream, but now they are all awake, the sensation is rational, and they cannot disbelieve.

Now it is Jonesy the Beav is looking at with his spooky swimming eyes. Clutching Jonesy's hand.

“It was laying in the ditch and his eyes were full of mud.”

“Yeah,” Jonesy whispers in an awed and shaky voice. “Oh Jeez, it was.”

“Said he'd see us again, remember?” Pete asks. “One at a time or all together. He
said
that.”

Henry hears these things from a great distance, because he's back in the dream. Back at the scene of the accident. At the bottom of a trash-littered embankment where there is a soggy piece of marsh, created by a blocked drainage culvert. He knows the place, it's on Route 7, the old Derry-Newport Road. Lying overturned in the muck and the murk is a burning car. The air stinks of gas and burning tires. Duddits is crying. Duddits is sitting halfway down the trashy slope and holding his yellow Scooby-Doo lunchbox against his chest and crying his eyes out.

A hand protrudes from one of the windows of the overturned car. It's slim, the nails painted candy-apple red. The car's other two occupants have been thrown clear, one of them almost thirty damn feet. This one's facedown, but Henry still recognizes him by the masses of soaked blond hair.
It's Duncan, the one who said you're not gonna tell anyone anything, because you'll be fuckin dead.
Only Duncan's the one who wound up dead.

Something floats against Henry's shin. “Don't pick that up!” Pete says urgently, but Henry does. It's a brown suede moccasin. He has just time to register this, and then Beaver and Jonesy shriek in terrible childish harmony. They are standing together, ankle-deep in the muck, both of them wearing their hunting clothes: Jonesy in his new bright orange parka, bought special from Sears for this trip (and Mrs. Jones still tearfully, unpersuadably convinced that her son will be
killed in the woods by a hunter's bullet, cut down in his prime), Beaver in his tattered motorcycle jacket (
What a lot of zippers!
Duddie's Mom had said admiringly, thus winning Beaver's love and admiration forever) with the orange bandannas tied up and down the arms. They aren't looking at the third body, the one lying just outside the driver's door, but Henry does, just for a moment (still holding the moccasin, like a small water-logged canoe, in his hands), because something is terribly, fundamentally wrong with it, so wrong that for a moment he cannot tell what it might be. Then he realizes that there's nothing above the collar of the corpse's high-school jacket. Beaver and Jonesy are screaming because they have seen what
should
have been above it. They have seen Richie Grenadeau's head lying faceup, glaring at the sky from a blood-spattered stand of cattails. Henry knows it's Richie at once. Even though the swatch of tape no longer rides the bridge of his nose, there is no mistaking the guy who was trying to feed Duddits a piece of shit that day behind Tracker's.

Duds is up there on the bank, crying and crying, that crying that gets into your head like a sinus headache, and if it goes on it will drive Henry mad. He drops the moc and slogs around the back of the burning car to where Beaver and Jonesy stand with their arms around each other.

“Beaver!
Beav!
” Henry shouts, but until he reaches out and gives Beaver a hard shake, Beaver just continues to stare at the severed head, as if hypnotized.

Finally, though, Beaver looks at him. “His head's
off,” he says, as if this were not evident. “Henry, his
head's
—”

“Never mind his head, take care of Duddits! Make him stop that goddam crying!”

“Yeah,” Pete says. He looks at Richie's head, that final dead glare, then looks away, mouth twitching. “It's drivin me fuckin bugshit.”

“Like chalk on a chalkboard,” Jonesy mutters. Above his new orange parka, his skin is the color of old cheese. “Make him stop, Beav.”

“H-H-H—”

“Don't be a dweeb, sing him the fuckin
song
!” Henry shouts. He can feel mucky water oozing up between his toes. “The lullaby, the goddam
lullaby
!”

For a moment the Beav looks as though he still doesn't understand, but then his eyes clear a little and he says “Oh!” He goes slogging toward the embankment where Duddits sits, clutching his bright yellow lunch-box and howling as he did on the day they met him. Henry sees something that he barely has time to notice: there is blood caked around Duddits's nostrils, and there's a bandage on his left shoulder. Something is poking out of it, something that looks like white plastic.

“Duddits,” the Beav says, climbing the embankment. “Duddie, honey, don't. Don't cry no more, don't look at it no more, it's not for you to look at, it's so fuckin gross . . .”

At first Duddits takes no notice, just goes on howling. Henry thinks,
He cried himself into a nosebleed and that's the blood part, but what's that white thing sticking out of his shoulder?

Jonesy has actually raised his hands to cover his ears. Pete has got one of his on top of his head, as if to keep it from blowing off. Then Beaver takes Duddits in his arms, just as he did a few weeks earlier, and begins to sing in that high clear voice that you'd never think could come out of a scrub like the Beav.

“Baby's boat's a silver dream, sailing near and far . . .”

And oh miracle of blessed miracles, Duddits begins to quiet.

Speaking from the corner of his mouth, Pete says: “Where are we, Henry? Where the fuck
are
we?”

“In a dream,” Henry says, and all at once the four of them are back under the maple tree at Hole in the Wall, kneeling together in their underwear and shivering in the cold.

“What?” Jonesy says. He pulls free to wipe at his mouth, and when the contact among them breaks, reality comes all the way back. “What did you say, Henry?”

Henry feels the withdrawal of their minds, actually feels it, and he thinks,
We weren't meant to be like this, none of us. Sometimes being alone is better.

Yes, alone. Alone with your thoughts.

“I had a bad dream,” Beaver says. He seems to be explaining this to himself rather than to the rest of them. Slowly, as if he were
still
dreaming, he unzips one of his jacket pockets, rummages around inside, and comes out with a Tootsie Pop. Instead of unwrapping it, Beaver puts the stick end in his mouth and begins to roll it back and forth, nipping and gnawing lightly. “I dreamed that—”

“Never mind,” Henry says, and pushes his glasses up on his nose. “We all know what you dreamed.”
We ought to, we were there
trembles on his lips, but he keeps it inside. He's only fourteen, but wise enough to know that what is said cannot be unsaid.
When it's laid, it's played
they say when they're playing rummy or Crazy Eights and someone makes a goofy-ass discard. If he says it, they'll have to deal with it. If he doesn't, then maybe . . . just maybe it'll go away.

“I don't think it was your dream, anyhow,” Pete says. “I think it was Duddits's dream and we all—”