Dreams Unleashed (23 page)

In the middle of my flashback, Bob drove up.

Time to get serious
.

Bob got out of his car, saw me, and kissed me on the cheek. That surprised me.

I smiled at him. He was larger around the middle, with more wrinkles, but the same kind brown eyes I had known.

"You look older," I played.

"You look beautiful," he countered.

"Okay, so maybe you don't look older," I teased.

He peered into my eyes. "I'm sorry about Armond, Ann," he softly offered.

"Yeah. Thank you," I said quietly.

He took my arm, and, tucking it into his, we slowly started walking out of the parking lot toward the park.

"Tell me Ann---why did you interrupt a retired old man's morning golf game to watch planes?" he inquired, just before one roared overhead.

I paused to gather my thoughts and let the plane pass.

"I flew in from Bellingham two days ago. Tomorrow I'm supposed to speak at the annual conference for the Society for Technical Communication. Last night I had dinner with some old friends, and as we're leaving the restaurant, one of them hands me this note," I said, passing him Jackie's note.

"Doesn't it rain a lot up there?" he asked.

"Where?"

"Bellingham."

"Yes."

"I thought so."

"What's that got to do with some government dweeb poking around my friends, asking about a trip to China?" I asked, irritated.

"Nothing."

"Bob, what's going on?"

"Let me guess. You didn't go to China?"

"No."

"Did you happen to dream about it?"

"Yep. Twice. Quite remarkable, both times."

"I think we'd better sit down at that picnic table over there, and you'd better tell me."

I told him in detail about my Shanghai dreams, then how I'd awakened to the reality of the earthquake.

"Is there anything else about it that you intentionally didn't tell me, Ann?"

I paused.

"Yes. It's a doozy, too."

"You and I have had lots of those in our years together, haven't we?"

"Yep."

"Why should now be any different?"

"Good point," I said. "Okay, prepare yourself."

"I was born prepared, sweetheart."

"Whoa there," I cautioned, teasing.

I reached to my neck to the Herkimer diamond there, pulled the chain off, and handed him the crystal. I then explained about how I carried it through my dream into reality. His face registered the event---very unusual for Bob.

"So it's crossing over?" he asked.

"What is?" I asked, immediately feeling apprehensive.

"Your dreaming subconscious is crossing into your conscious reality, Ann," he quietly explained, intently staring at me, as though he'd just delivered some very bad news.

We sat together as airplanes blasted overhead, followed by the wind. I pondered Bob's statement.

"I saw him, you know," I said, temporarily changing the subject.

"Saw who?" he said, then paused. "Oh, John O'Brien?" he asked, already knowing.

"Yeah. When I learned that he'd become mentally unbalanced, my heart sunk. I didn't believe that he was really ill, so I went to see him in that horrible place."

"St. Elizabeth's."

"Yeah. How can they even call it a hospital?"

The question had no answer, and we sat in silence for a moment.

"When I saw John, he told me about partial-humans hatching from eggs and how human females were being implanted with alien DNA. It was all crazy talk. He was so paranoid, that he tried to carry on our entire conversation in the Gaelic, because he said that aliens were listening. I could see for myself, then, that he was ill. I had worked side --by side with John for all those years. It was a different man I saw at St. Elizabeth's. When I left him that day, I told him---in the Gaelic, "Tá mo chroí istigh ionat! Go dté tú slán."

"My heart is within you. May you go safely," Bob interpreted.

"I never saw him again, and he died from the heart attack four months later."

"I know."

"In all those years, I never knew that remote viewing could be dangerous. Back then no one ever said anything. It wasn't until five years after I left your project, when Grace died young of a heart attack, without any history of heart disease in her family, that I started to consider that maybe there was a link."

Bob nodded. "Besides you, Grace was the most gifted. But there were others, and they all---," he paused. "They all died unexpectedly young from cancers or heart disease."

I looked at Bob. "That's when I started to research the affects of sensory overload."

"Too much sensory information physically stresses the body; it's similar to constant exposure to loud noise or bright lights," Bob added.

Of course he already knew about it.

After pausing while another plane soared by, I added, "I've read some scientific reports on superstring theory, where all particles and all natural forces are explained as vibrations of tiny strings. Do you know about that too?"

"Yes. The work we were doing actually taps into a universal awareness of energy that vibrates everywhere without stopping. Perhaps when our brains tapped into that vibration, we were opening a door that is closed for a reason," he said reluctantly.

"I can see you too have been doing your research."

"Well, I feel responsible for some of this, Ann."

I looked at him; he looked sad.

"For John and Grace, and all the others who died, none had any psychic experiences from childhood that they ever told me about. I, on the other hand, have been experiencing astral projection since I was a little girl, before I ever knew what it was. When you combine that with the vivid dreams I've been having since I was very young, I may have learned how to manage that unconscious to conscious door in my mind. Did I ever tell you that when I was trained, none of it ever seemed new to me? It was a natural extension of everything I had already been doing since I was young."

"No, you never did."

I continued, careful not to voice any classified information. "But Grace and John were artificially taught. Perhaps opening that door was just too much for them to manage, Bob. What we did there was altering the process of reality in our brains. I think our work became destructive for them when their bodies created a defense. I think that the challenge of old processes of the brain versus the new ones created a war within them. It became harmful inside, even though nothing harmful was actually occurring. Looking back now, I can see that John must have had some feeling that I would be in danger, when he so vehemently argued against me going live after only a year in training. At the time, I thought he was being controlling and overprotective. But now I wonder if it was something else. Maybe he had started to feel mentally unstable then. Do you remember how he started speaking more and more of the Gaelic as time wore on?"

"I remember."

"I just didn't know then. I was so young."

"You were never young, Ann. You were always an old soul."

"Did you know then that we were killing ourselves with that training?"

"Of course not," he said, shaking his head sadly, then pausing. "But there was something. I felt that we had to be very careful. I had a feeling that we needed to find specially gifted individuals---like you. But at some point, near my retirement, I began to be overruled by others...who thought that anyone could be trained. These other directors thought that the less emotion the person had, the more successful they would be. But after years of training, it was a disaster. Then---the deaths began," Bob confided.

"Didn't you ever wonder if I would be one of those?"

"No. Not for a nanosecond, Ann. I knew better. It was a feeling in my gut. I knew that you could manage the doorway."

"And now...what do you think now? After what I told you today about Shanghai and the crystal?" I asked pointedly.

"I told you."

"You told me what?" I asked, getting frustrated by his vagueness.

"Its crossing over. Your dreaming subconscious is crossing over into your conscious reality. The door is open, Ann, swinging back and forth, opening equally in both directions," he explained, watching me as I tried to comprehend what he was saying.

There was a foreboding look of sadness in his eyes. I could not look away.

The doorway moves in both directions
.

Bob agreed to poke around to find out what the FBI wanted of me and to get back to me.

He led me to my car. When we reached it, he turned to me.

"There is something
special
in the way your mind works, Ann. I am an old man---my days here are numbered---but you...there is much you can accomplish," he said with intensity.

"You okay?"

"Yeah."

"You're not dying or anything?"

"Nope."

"Well okay then," I said, then reached to hug him.

He hugged me hard.

I lectured at the conference the next day and schmoozed with the board members and attendees at a dinner that night, to the benefit of AlterHydro. The entire evening, though, all I could think about was remote viewing and the way it had ended my CIA friends' lives. My own involvement in it had altered the course of my life. If the doorway in my mind really swung both ways, that meant that my dreams could now come through the door and become reality. No longer would my dreams simply be unconscious manifestations of my conscious reality---no matter how vivid they were.

I ached for the simplicity of life. I still ached for those perfect days sailing in the San Juans with Armond and Elinor.

Chapter 21

THE SAN JUAN ARCHIPELAGO

The Year 2010

We had bought her for six thousand dollars and had just finished the refit. We named her the
Woohoo
, after our practice of screaming the word when the sailboat would suddenly heel in unexpected wind. She was a twenty-six foot Ranger sloop built in 1972---very well cared for, but in need of updating for the current century. Armond was passionate about buying a Gary Mull designed sailboat after meeting Gary several years before. Armond called him one of the best storytellers he had ever known.

Aside from his near worship of the boat's designer, Armond loved the weekend pocket cruiser's qualities as well. It had all the features of larger boats, with the additional bonus of single-handling capability. What Armond loved most, though, was her speed. The Ranger 26 had won the North American IOR half-ton race in 1970, which Armond could never stop talking about, and the boat was still competitive in races now. What I liked best about the Ranger was that there was a dedicated space for the enclosed toilet, which even had a genuine teak privacy door. I also liked the wide eight-and-a-half-foot beam, which made the cabin roomy enough for various activities below deck.

Preparing the
Woohoo
for this century required money, time, and sweat equity. We were fortunate that my uncle was willing to help us. He said he was retired and bored. Our alternative energy on board included a three-hundred-watt marine wind turbine, which worked perfectly when
Woohoo
was being sailed to windward, but the output would drop off a lot when she sailed downwind. We installed a towed water generator, powered through a rotor on the end of a ten-foot line. It produced nine to eleven amps constantly when sailing downwind at eight to nine knots, and this solved our power issue. After we finished all the major work, which took the entire winter and spring, we named and christened her. The day we re-launched
Woohoo
, we were thirty thousand dollars poorer, but we were gleeful with our accomplishment and her beauty.

With our Aunt and Uncle and all our friends there to record the event from the Squalicum Harbor boat launch, we all screamed
Woohoo
! in unison as she launched after the christening. Armond, Elinor, and I set sail for the San Juan Islands from Bellingham the morning of July tenth. Our first destination was Sucia Island, part of the Northern Boundary Islands, so called because they are the northwestern most islands in the continental United States.

The San Juan Archipelago is a cluster of seven hundred and forty-three large and small rocky islands in the northwest corner of the continental United States. The cluster spreads north of the Strait of Juan de Fuca and south of the Boundary Pass in Canada. We motored across Bellingham Bay, past Lummi Island, then hoisted our mainsail up for the scenic Hale Passage, about twenty nautical miles south of the Canadian border, with a southwesterly prevailing wind.

As we approached Matia Island, we saw seals sunning themselves on the rocks of Puffin Island, and the three of us enjoyed watching them for as long as we could. Past Matia was Sucia Island. We arrived at Sucia in the afternoon and picked up a mooring ball in Fossil Bay. Elinor and I went below deck to prepare dinner, while Armond battened things down up top. I first pulled out the paper solar lanterns from their storage space, expanded them, and gave them to Elinor to carry up to her dad to hang on the boom for ambient light. We all took our life jackets off. We had a family rule that we all had to wear them any time we were under sail or motoring, just in case one of us was knocked into the water unexpectedly. They didn't seem necessary when we were docked.