Durability (The LockDown Series Book 3) (24 page)

“Don't worry, sweetheart, they’re almost here. Now, dads, I'm going to need you both to hold her legs up, Miss,” he looks at Abbi. “If you could help her rest back, support her.” Abbi nods and moves from between her legs to support her back and move her so she is leaning against the island more.

“I'm going to wait outside,” Ant says, not needing the visual of his sister’s vagina imprinted on his brain. “Yeah, going.” He makes a gagging sound as the doctor starts to touch her private parts, checking the baby that is already making its way out.

“Right, Maria, when you feel your next contraction I need you to push, this baby is already on its way but is stuck inside the birth canal. Ready, and push.” My hand grinds, the bones pushing together as Maria squeezes hard, pushing down with all her might. “Good. One more and he’ll be out.” The doctor speaks and after a few seconds, Maria is pushing hard again, screaming one long drawn out cry.

The wailing of a baby makes everyone look down, the small human wriggling and screaming. Brad cuts the cord and wipes his eyes clear of the tears as he continues to hold her leg. “He’s beautiful baby, so tiny and so beautiful,” he speaks, kissing her head. Luke actually cries, looking to where the paramedics have taken the baby away in a bundle of towels.

“Now, there will be a few moments before the second one comes along,” the doctor announces and the twins place her legs down to tend to her. They both smother her face in kisses, talking of their pride and love for her.

“Shit, pain, fuck.” Maria cries, eight minutes later, contracting again. My hand is once again in a vice.

“Okay, the second one is coming. The same as last time, I need you to push when the next contraction comes. Ready, and go.” Maria cries louder than the last time, her energy minimal. She squeezes and pushes, and squeezes and pushes with everything she has, forcing the tiny bundle of joy out of her.

With an even louder cry, baby number two makes its way out. “Oh,” the doctor says and our heads all lift up.

“What’s wrong?” Maria asks, tears trailing her cheeks.

“Nothing is wrong, Maria, but you have a little girl.” Maria’s head flops back, cries erupting from her throat. She releases my hand and I move away, allowing the twins to come to her side.

“We have a boy and a girl?” she asks them, looking to where they both have been taken away.

“We have two babies, a boy and girl Maria. I’m so proud of you.” Luke kisses her soundly on the lips, stroking her hair from her face. Brad rubs her hand, lifting it to his lips to kiss it.

“A girl?” she asks again, dumbfounded that the ultrasound technician had been wrong. “A girl?”

“Would you like to meet your babies, Maria?” the doctor asks, holding two tiny little babies.

Maria nods hard, crying like a baby. Gently the doctor places one, then the other in her arms. She leans down and kisses both of their little heads, tears dripping onto them. “What will we call her?” She looks to her boyfriends, both of their eyes wet with tears.

“Isabella? I think she should be called after your mother, baby,” Brad says, stroking his little girl's head gently.

“Really?” Maria asks smiling, her eyes flickering between the four things she loves most in the world.

“Yes baby, it is perfect.”

“And what about our son, which name do we choose?” she asks them, finding it hard to pick between Thomas Bradley and Joshua Luke.

“How about, Joshua-Thomas Luke Bradley?” I look to my wife and her sparkling eyes, the pride in her friend is substantial. The name she has created is perfected.

Maria gasps excitedly. “I love it. My beautiful little JT.” The boys huddle around their girlfriend, kissing her, kissing their children and crying.

“Antonio meet your nephew.” Ant walks to Maria’s side and looks down at his niece and nephew for the first time.

“Nephew? As in one?” he asks, taking the small baby Maria offers him.

“Yes, this is Joshua-Thomas Luke Bradley.” He smiles wide, stroking his enormous finger across his nephew’s cheek. He places his lips softly to his head and cries.

“Hey little man. God, you’re so tiny and beautiful. I'm always going to be here for you, you know that right buddy? Me and you against the world,” he whispers.

“And meet your niece, Isabella Antonia Dixon.” Antonio’s eyes bulge from his socket with pride as he takes the second baby from Maria and smiles down at her. Her name included
his and held the love Maria has for her big brother.

“Hey little lady. Jesus, Maria she’s fucking cute. If any guy comes near you, I’m going to cut his dick off. I assure you,” he whispers to her, already overprotective. I understand his words, feel them myself with my own daughter.

Where is she? Where is Joseph?

“Congratulations sweetheart, you did real good,” I tell her, leaning in and kissing her head.

“Thank you, Leighton. Oh, and please sort things out with Abbi, she needs you,” she informs me, looking to Abigail who is currently cleaning the floor around Maria.

“I will.” I walk off towards my wife, who has ignored my presence the entire time.

“Abigail,” I say, waiting for her to answer, but she doesn’t. “Baby please.” I beg, kneeling by her on the floor. Still nothing. “Baby. I'm dying here, please talk to me.” I am almost crying, pleading with her to understand and look at me with her bright blue eyes. They always heal me, always make me feel the love she has for me.

“Talk to you, fucking talk to you? Talk to you, like you’ve spoken to me the last month? Talk to you like I’ve been wanting to since you left? Talk, like you should have before you left, before you left me to suffer and drown?” She looks me dead in the eyes, sadness and anger smothering them. “I hate you, Leighton. I needed you, I needed you to save me, to help me, but he came and took everything again, he took me again.” She begins punching me in the chest with her one hand, the one that works.

I let her take it out on me; let her punch me relentlessly until she is shaking with hurt. She cries hard, her entire body shuddering. I pull her to me, burying her face into my chest. “Shhh, it’s okay, I'm here, I’m never going again, baby. I'm here, I’ll save you.” I allow my own tears to fall, finally, allowing her to feel everything I feel. I’m not heartless or soulless anymore. I love her, I love her so much it kills me to know how much I hurt her, to think of how she has coped without me.

“I needed you.” She trembles against me, gripping my shirt with both of her hands.

Both of her hands?

“Baby?” I ask curiously, pulling her away from me. “Let go of me, Angel. I'm right here,” I tell her gently, seeing if she even notices both of her hands are clinging to my tear-soaked shirt.

She looks down at her tiny fists as they cling to me. She gasps, letting go, her weaker hand faltering a little but eventually releasing me. “Abigail, baby.” I say her name as she looks from her hand to my face.

Her eyes go down again, and then suddenly her hand is connecting with my cheek, a slight pain thrumming through me. “Sorry, I promised myself when it worked again I would slap you for what you have done.” Her hand then comes to my face again, but soft and gentle as she strokes my stubble and the sting away.

“I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry for everything, Abigail. I didn’t think you were strong enough to handle me, to have to pick me up when I fell. I was in a bad way, so dangerous, Abbi. I didn’t want you knowing or seeing me that bad. I’ve worked so hard, Angel. I’ve worked so bloody hard to get back to you. There hasn’t been a day that has passed where I haven’t thought of you. All of the pain I’ve put myself through to be with you, it will serve as a constant reminder of how much I love you. I'm sorry, please, you have to forgive me, I couldn’t live if you didn’t forgive me. Please baby, please say you still love me, that you still need me.” I beg with her, my eyes pleading with the love she still has to take me back and have me.

“Leighton.” She cries, burying her head once again in my chest.

“I love you,” I tell her, holding her to me so hard I think I might crush her, but I need to make sure she won’t leave. “I love you so fucking much, baby.” I kiss her hair.

I lift her head to look at me, using my thumb to wipe away her falling tears. We look at each other for a long moment before I slowly bring my lips towards hers, closing my eyes to only see her in my mind.

As they meet, her soft lips to mine, I see my future and everything I have.

“I love you too,” she finally speaks softly, bringing her hands up to lace into my hair.

I have prepared myself, time and time again, over the past month. I have anticipated how I will feel, how I will react, but nothing has prepared me for actually seeing him again.

I am rushing, panicking as my best friend lay in the kitchen, screaming and crying for help. I have a job to do and I need to concentrate, I can’t get wrapped up in my marital issues right now. I bypass him, not even taking a look at his face. With an armful of towels, I run through the hallway and to the kitchen.

“It’s going to be okay,” I tell Maria, making her comfortable.

“Where the hell are they?” she asks, huffing and puffing through her pain. I rub her back and soothe her as we wait for the boys to arrive.

When everyone is present and the doctor and paramedics are in place, we all take our designated positions and witness the most incredible thing one possibly could. I stand by her legs, with the doctor, watching as the miracle of birth happens. Sure I have given birth, but nothing compares to seeing it happen, to watching a child enter this world in the most disgusting and vile manner.

I look to my best friend, tired and tearful, holding her beautiful children. Joshua-Thomas weighing 4lb 3oz and Isabella weighing 4lb 9oz, are the most beautiful things I have ever seen. They are so tiny. Isabella is a spitting image for her mother, thick brown hair and intense brown eyes. Joshua-Thomas like his fathers, white blonde hair and sparkling blue eyes.

“Beautiful isn’t it?” Leighton asks me, holding me close to him. He hasn’t let me go, refusing to leave me alone for one second.

“It is incredible. I miss that,” I admit, hating that I haven’t seen him for a month, that he hasn’t seen his daughter or son.

“Me too. Where are Joseph and Melissa?” he asks me, kissing my hair softly. I wrap my arms around his waist and rest my head to his enormous chest. Has he been working out whilst he has been away? He has gained at least fifteen pounds and has built a lot of muscle.

“They are here, they are in the other wing with Scott. I kept them away whilst everything was happening,” I admit, cherishing our time alone. I need this, I need to know he is here and he is mine. “What were you doing whilst you were away, Leighton?” I ask him, anxious for the truth.

“One day, I will tell you, Abbi. Right now, I can't,” he replies, pulling away a little. “I'm going to find the children.”

“Leighton, wait.” I run after him, grabbing his arm and turning him to face me. “Why can't you tell me?”

“I'm not ready, Abbi. I went through hell while I was gone, I know you did too, but I can't explain it yet, it’s still too fresh in my mind.” It makes me uneasy to hear that. My mind is conjuring up a multitude of images. Everything from Kalina, to killing, to even taking cocaine. I dread to actually think of how his time apart from me was.

“Please, just tell me, were you with anyone?” I ask nervously.

“Yes, I was,” he answers simply.

I gasp, tears filling my eyes. He notices them and shakes his head. “Oh god, Abbi, not like that no, never baby.” He pulls me to him and holds me.

“I was so scared without you, Leighton. I kept imagining you dead in an Alley, or resulting to coke or even going back to her.” I sniffle my sadness, wishing I could erase all of our pain.

“Never, I haven’t done any of those things, Abbi. Give me a few days to unwind and get back to normality and I’ll tell you everything. Just remember that everything I did, I did for you, for us. I just hope you don't think me less of a person or man for what I did,” he informs me and I can't help but feel sadness for his struggles. I know he left for a reason and a valid one, but I hope he’s managed to overcome the hurdles and get himself back together.

“Okay, I can give you time. Just don't lie, Leighton, never lie to me,” I plead, looking into his green eyes.

“I’d never lie, Abigail, never. God, I'm so happy to be back with you, I’ve missed you so much, my Angel. Everyday has been like living in hell without you by my side.” He kisses my forehead as we turn to walk to our children.

“DADDDYYY!!!!” I hear the high-pitched squeal as my son runs through the lounge and jumps up at his dad.

“Hey buddy.” Leighton picks him up, wrapping him tightly in his arms. “God I missed you little man. You been a good boy?” Leighton asks, kissing Joseph's face.

“Yup, I’ve been the best, haven’t I mummy?” Joe looks to me, smiling sweetly. God, the kid is my heart.

“Yes you have sweetie. Where’s Mel, baby?” I ask him, looking for her.

“Uncle Scott is changing her stinky bum. She did this smelly poo. Yuck. Where you been dad?” Joe is over excited, his words coming out in a combined string of gibberish.