Emma's Not-So-Sweet Dilemma (13 page)

Katie found a very tight spot for us after a few minutes, and Mia and Emma went to help save the seats while I returned to the counter to wait for our order. I saw my friend Ella Klinsky from school, and we waved and gestured to how crazy-busy the place was. Now that I was looking around, I could see that a lot of kids from school were here,
sprinkled around. This Asian restaurant was popular with middle schoolers, that was for sure. I wondered how many of them could skate.

I was lost in thought, holding the little buzzer that they give you to tell you when your food is ready, twirling it in my hands and thinking about Valentine's Day. I know I am the no-nonsense type, but I am also kind of a sucker for all that romance stuff, believe it or not. I love the love songs on the radio, the romantic shows on TV, and my mom always decorates the table on Valentine's Day morning for breakfast. We have heart-shaped pancakes, and she gives us cards and candy and a little pink or red present, like cute red socks or something. It's a fun way to spice up blah old February, and I was looking forward to it.

Suddenly, someone right close behind me said, “Lexi?” I jumped and whirled around.

“Matt!” I cried. It was Matt Taylor, in the flesh! “Hi!” I felt myself blush hard (speaking of something red!), but I couldn't stop grinning.

“Hi!” he said, laughing. “Did I scare you?”

“Well, I don't exactly expect people to sneak up behind me in places like this and then speak directly into my ear!” I said, as if I was annoyed, but really I was just the opposite—thrilled!

“Sorry.” He smiled, kind of shy. “Uh, what do you recommend here?”

I looked up at the menu, still smiling like a dope. “Well, we got . . .” And as I started to list our order, my buzzer went off, and I jumped again.

Matt was really laughing at me now. “A little jumpy today, are we?”

“Hungry, maybe!” I said. I handed my buzzer to the girl at the counter, and she handed me our tray. I looked down at it, and my mouth began to water. My friends were waiting, my food was ready, but I didn't want to leave. “Uh . . . where are you sitting?” I asked.

“I haven't found a spot yet. I'm solo. I'm sure I can just wedge in somewhere,” he said, all casual. It was almost his turn to order.

“Well . . . join us if you want. We can squeeze together,” I said, wincing inwardly. Our spot was tiny. But I would happily squeeze in for him.

“Thanks. I'll look for you after I get my food.”

I said good-bye and went to my friends, lowering the heavy tray onto the table. “Hey, Em, Matt's here,” I said, like it was totally normal and cool.

She glanced up. “Oh yeah? He said he needed to go to the sporting goods store today, so I'm not surprised.”

“He has no one to eat with,” I said, doling out the food and perching on the end of the bench.

“Well, he can't sit here,” Emma said grumpily. “There's no room!”

I grimaced and took a bite of a dumpling. It was delicious, and for a few minutes of bliss, I forgot all about Matt and ice-skating. “This is insane! Sooooo yummy!” I moaned.

We all traded containers and bites back and forth. Then I remembered about Matt, and I looked around. He had found a seat on his own near the end of another table. His back was to us and the seat across from him was empty. My heart clenched a little to see him eating all alone. I wanted to go join him, but I was nervous that my friends would get mad if I ditched them. Or worse, that if I went over there, someone would sit in the empty seat just as I reached it, and I'd be left standing there like a nerd—that would be so embarrassing. My palms began to sweat a little as I wrestled with the decision.
Should I stay or should I go?
I'd lost my appetite.

The other girls began discussing what they were going to get at the stationery store, and I sort of followed along distractedly as I stared at Matt's strong back and broad shoulders. I wondered if I should give him a valentine this year. The very thought
made me feel sick to my stomach, but my dad always said you should do what you are afraid of doing, so maybe I should do it. Hmm.

“Okay, Alexis?” asked Emma.

“Huh? What?” I said, snapping out of my daydream.

“The stationery store?”

“Oh. Uh . . . you know what? I'll just meet you there in a few minutes, okay? I . . . have one more thing to do.” Did I really just ditch my friends for a boy?
Bad, bad Alexis!
But if they caught on, they didn't seem to mind, and they didn't ask any questions (and I didn't offer any further explanation). We threw out our garbage—sorting everything into three cool-looking bins—one for food waste, one for paper stuff (which was most of it), and one for the few plastic cups and forks. Then they headed off and I doubled back to Matt's table. Luckily, Matt had bought a lot of food, so he was only about two thirds of the way finished.

“Hey,” I said, all casual.

“Hey! Sit down!” He smiled and then wiped his mouth. “Awesome food, right?”

“Awesome,” I agreed, perching in the mercifully still-empty seat across from him. “It was definitely time for a change around here. They needed to mix
it up. I mean, how much Chinese food and pizza can they expect us to eat?”

Matt laughed and put his hand over his heart. “Hey, don't bust on my Panda Gardens.”

I glanced across the food court at the Panda Gardens counter where everything was quiet. “You'd better get some soon, because I don't think they're going to be here much longer.”

Matt gasped, all fake-horrified. “Take it back!”

I laughed. “I won't!” I put my hands to my mouth, like I was going to yell over to Panda Gardens,
Hey, PG, time to pack it in!

Matt reached for my hands and tried to pry them from my face. I was laughing, and he was laughing, and I kept putting up my hands, so he would keep grabbing them away. It was funny, and it was soooo nice to feel his hands touch mine. He held my hands for one instant extra. We were both smiling, and then he said, “Well, I don't want to keep you from your friends.”

“Oh, that's okay. They're in the stationery store. I have to go meet them in a minute. What are you up to now?”

Matt told me his errand list as we stood up together and went to recycle or throw away his stuff. We found ourselves at the edge of the seating
area, about to part ways. I was desperate to think of a way to prolong the encounter or to get him to touch my hands again, but I was distracted by his cuteness. My brain just wasn't working fast enough.

“So maybe I'll see you later?” I asked. “We're baking at your house today.”

“Oh, cool. Okay. I'll be back after my practice. My dad is taking me straight from here, so . . .” It actually seemed like he wasn't ready to part yet either, which made me really psyched.

“Well . . .” I stalled.

He grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze. “Lay off Panda Gardens!” he said with a smile, and then he quickly dropped my hand and walked away without looking back.

I stood there grinning like an idiot. Then I whispered, “Thank you, Panda Gardens!” Promising myself to eat there sometime soon, I went to find my friends.

A
t the stationery store, the other girls were in valentine heaven. Katie had gathered supplies to make homemade valentines—paper doilies, glitter, glue, and pink and red construction paper. Mia had an assortment of stuff she was going to use to make crafty little gifts—small white cardboard boxes to decorate with sticker gems and then fill with little candies. Emma had selected a fat stack of ready-made valentines.

I was still all googly-eyed over Matt, but I didn't want to be weird about it around Emma, so I stayed off to the side and busied myself with the cards. I selected some regular ones for my parents and my older sister, Dylan, and then I continued my silent debate about buying one for Matt. I edged away
from the family cards section (“For a wonderful Mother on Valentine's Day!”) and into the funny greeting card area. I looked around to see if my friends were watching (they weren't), and then I quickly started rifling through the card selection, looking for one I might be able to give to Matt. They were all funny, but some were too forward, some assumed too much; many were way too lovey-dovey. I didn't know what to do!

What I needed was a card that said something like, “Hey, crush! I really like you, but if you don't like me like that, then pretend you never got this card. Oh, and don't tell anyone, either. Especially your sister, who is my best friend!”

Ha. Guess how many cards like that I found?

Sighing heavily, I circled up to the counter to pay for my three measly cards.

Mia sidled up next to me with her stuff. “All set?” she asked.

“I guess,” I said. I glanced around to see where Emma, was and when I saw she was far across the store, I added, “I wanted to get something for Matt, but nothing here is really right.”

Mia nodded in understanding. “Could you make him a valentine?”

I grimaced. “That seems so . . . serious. Like, a
lot of effort to put in, and what if he doesn't like me like that?”

Mia rolled her eyes and smiled. “Oh, I think he likes you like that. I wouldn't worry about it!”

“Really?” I couldn't hold back the huge grin that burst onto my face. “So maybe I should get him a card?”

Mia frowned thoughtfully. “Well . . . maybe it's better not to put anything in writing just yet. You know?”

It was now my turn to pay. I stepped forward. “So should I go back and get him some little gift?”

Mia furrowed her brow as she debated it.

“Next?” the lady at the counter called, a little annoyed. I had to pay.

I put down my stuff on the counter, and Mia was called to the register next to me.

She continued, “Why don't you get him something small . . . like, hmm. Flowers are too girlie. Too serious, anyway. Maybe a teddy bear?”

I shook my head. “Also a little girlie, I think?”

“Hey! Why don't you say it with cupcakes?” Mia suggested brightly. “You already know he loves cupcakes!”

“Who loves cupcakes?” said Katie, coming up behind us.

“Matt,” I whispered.

Katie smiled. “Are you thinking of your valentine?”

I felt myself blush yet again. “Maybe,” I said, turning to pay.

“How was your date?” asked Katie.

I whipped my head around. “What date?”

Katie was grinning. “Lunch at the mall?”

Busted!

“That wasn't a date! That was just . . . me not liking to see a friend eat alone.” I shrugged, all casual, and took my bag from the cashier.

“Riiiiight!” Katie laughed. “That's why you didn't tell us where you were going!”

“It was a daaaaate!” singsonged Mia.

“Oh, shush!” I said, fake-annoyed but kind of pleased, too.

“Are you getting him something?” asked Katie.

“Well . . . I'm just debating. What do you think?” I asked, kind of hoping she'd say yes.

“Um, I don't know. Maybe wait and see if he gets
you
something?”

Oh.

Just then Emma arrived. “What's up? How did Matt like the new restaurant?”

“Oh, gosh. I'm sorry. I just . . .”

Emma smiled. “It's okay. You can be honest with us, though. You don't need to hide that you want to hang out with him. I'll let you know if it's cutting into our girl time,” she said with a playful nudge.

I smiled goofily. “Thanks.”

“Did you get him a card?” asked Emma, peering at my bag. She dumped her stuff on the counter and took out her wallet.

“No,” I said.

“Good,” Emma said, nodding firmly. “He's not really the mushy type.”

O-kaaaay!
I thought.
Now you tell me!

“But Alexis
should
get him something, I think,” protested Mia. “Or at least bake something for him. Maybe a bunch of cupcakes arranged on a platter into the shape of a heart?”

I winced. “That's a little psycho looking, I think.”

“Food's not a bad idea,” Emma agreed, taking her bag from the cashier. We headed to the exit. I felt myself hanging on her every word, like she was the expert on the subject of Matt Taylor.

“Like, what kind of food? Chocolates?” I asked eagerly.

“Nah.” Emma shook her head. “He's not crazy about chocolate.”

“Gummy worms?” I asked.

Emma smiled. “Do gummy worms really say romance?”

“True. What about cupcakes?”

Maybe Mia's idea wasn't so boring.

“Maybe . . . ,” said Emma.

Suddenly, I felt a little annoyed. Like, why did Emma get all the power to decide what I should get Matt? He was only her brother. It wasn't like she knew him as a boyfriend or whatever. And why would Katie discourage me from doing something? Was she jealous because she and George Martinez are kind of on-and-off? Or did she really think I shouldn't get Matt something first, like I was being too pushy? Then again, maybe I should take Mia's advice and do something romantic, really let him know I like him like
that
.