Authors: Robert J Sawyer
The microwave beeped. "You’ve lost me, Sherlock," said Klicks.
"Earth would be strategic in such a war," I said. "When Mars is on the opposite side of the sun from the — the belt planet, but Earth is on the same side as it, Earth could be a great platform for launching attacks."
"The ‘belt planet’, eh?" Klicks laughed. "It needs a better name than that."
"Okay. How about—"
"Not so fast. You got to name Earth’s second moon. It’s my turn."
He had a point there. "Okay."
Klicks scratched his head. "How about…"
"How about what?"
His grin had slipped away. "Nothing," he said, making a show of sifting decaf coffee crystals into his steaming cup. "I — I want to sleep on it."
He wished to name it Tess, of course. That was fine with me, but I wasn’t going to tell him that. Klicks continued: "That would be one hell of a war, Brandy. Mars laid waste. The other side’s home world reduced to rubble."
"So you can see that we can’t bring the Hets forward."
Klicks shook his head. "I’m not sure about that. I’m still not convinced by your virus theory—"
"It’s not my theory, dammit. It’s what the Het told me."
"And, besides, if fighting wars was enough to disqualify a species from being otherwise decent, you’d have to kiss humanity good-bye, too. Plus, they’ve voluntarily left our bodies twice now."
"They have to do that," I said. "They get claustrophobic if they inhabit the same body for too long; they need to constantly conquer new creatures." Klicks rolled his eyes. "It’s true," I said. "The Het told me. Look, they knew it would be over three full days until we headed back; sticking around inside our bodies that long would be the viral equivalent of waiting endlessly at the airport. Of course they exited us; they knew they could always reenter just by having a swarm of troodons overpower us, if no other way worked out."
"You’re putting the worst possible spin on everything," said Klicks.
My turn to roll eyes. "Look, these creatures can dissociate into components small enough that you’d need an electron microscope to see them. Once they’re loose on Earth in the twenty-first century, there would be no putting the genie back in the bottle. Bringing them forward in time would be an irrevocable decision, a real-life Pandora’s box."
"You’re mixing your metaphors," said Klicks. "Besides, leaving them back here would be an irreversible decision, too. We’re the one opportunity the Hets have to be saved."
"We can’t risk that." I set my jaw. "I’m convinced —
convinced
— that they’re, well, evil."
Klicks sipped his coffee. "Well," he said at last, "we all know how reliable your conclusions are."
I felt a knotting in my stomach. "What’s that supposed to mean?"
He took another sip. "Nothing."
My voice had taken on a little shakiness at the edges. "I want to know what you meant by that crack."
"It’s nothing, really." He forced a smile. "Forget about it."
"Tell me."
He sighed, then spread his hands. "Well, look — all this nonsense about me and Tess." He met my eyes briefly, then looked away. "You stand there all high-and-mighty, both judge and jury, condemning me for something I didn’t do." His voice had gotten small. "I just don’t like it, that’s all."
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. "Something you didn’t do?" I sneered the words. "Are you denying you’re having an affair with her?"
His eyes swung back to mine, and this time they held their lock. "Get this through your thick head, Thackeray. Tess is single. Divorced. And so am I." He paused. "Two single people together does not constitute an affair."
I waved my hand. "Semantics. Besides, you were fooling around with her even before Tess and my marriage was over."
Klicks’s voice was ripe with indignation. "I never touched her — not even once — until you and she were as extinct as your bloody dinosaurs."
"Bull." I put my hand down on the lab table — really, I’d just intended to gently place it there, but all the instruments clacked together. "Tess got her divorce on July third, 2011. You were boffing her long before that."
"That date was just a formality, and you know it," Klicks said. "Your marriage had been over for months by then."
"Its end hastened no doubt by your constant flirting with her."
"Flirting?" There was now a hint of derision in his lilting tones. "I’m not sixteen, for God’s sake."
"Oh, yeah? What did you say to her that night the three of us went out to see the new
Star Wars
film?"
"How the hell should I remember what I said?" — but the slight change in his vocal tone told me that he did indeed remember very well.
"She’d just gotten new glasses that day," I said. "The ones with the purply-pink wire frames. You looked right at her and said, ‘You certainly have a lovely pair, Tess.’" I could see that Klicks was fighting not to smile, and that made me even more furious. "That’s a hell of a thing to say to another man’s wife."
He drained his remaining coffee in a single gulp. "Come on, Bran. It was a joke. Tess and I are old friends; we kid around. It didn’t mean anything."
"You stole her right out from under me."
He absently broke a piece of Envirofoam off the cup’s rim. "Maybe if she had been under you a little more often, it never would have happened."
"Fuck you."
"Why not?" he said, lifting his eyes. "You certainly weren’t fucking her."
I was quaking with anger. "You son of a bitch. We did it once a week."
Klicks nodded knowingly. "Sunday mornings, like clockwork. Right after
This Week with Peter Jennings
. Pretty poor excuse for foreplay."
"She told you that?"
"We talk a lot, sure. And about more than just the latest find reported in
The Journal of Vertebrate Paleontology
. Face it, Brandy. You were a lousy husband. You lost her all on your own. You can’t blame me for recognizing a good thing when I saw it. Tess deserved better than you."
I tasted bile in my throat. I wanted to lunge at the man, to make him take back every one of those cruel lies. My hands, sitting on the lab table, clenched into fists. Klicks must have noticed that. "Just try it," he said, ever so softly.
"But you didn’t even give us a chance to work things out," I said, forcing a semblance of calm back into my voice.
"There wasn’t any hope of that."
"But if Tess had only said something to me … This — this is the first I’ve heard of any of this."
Klicks sighed, a long, weary exhalation, then shook his head again. "Tess had been screaming it at you for months — with every glance she made, with the look on her face, with body language that everyone but you could read." He spread his arms. "Christ, she couldn’t have been much more obvious about her unhappiness if she’d had the words ‘I am miserable’ tattooed on her forehead."
I shook my head. "I didn’t know. I didn’t see any of that."
The long sigh again. "That was apparent."
"But you — you were supposed to be my friend. Why didn’t you tell me about this?"
"I tried, Brandy. What do you think I was getting at that night in that bar on Keele Street? I said you were working too hard on the new galleries, that it was crazy not to get home till ten o’clock each night when you’ve got a lovely wife waiting for you. You told me that Tess understood." He frowned and shook his head. "Well, she didn’t. Not at all."
"So you decided to make your move."
"I’ve got news for you, Brandy. I didn’t go after Tess. She came after me."
"What?"
I felt my world crumbling around me.
"Ask her, if you don’t believe me. You think I’d go after my best friend’s wife? Christ, Brandy, I turned her down three times. Do you think that was easy for me? The Tyrrell Museum is in a pissant all-white Prairie town, for God’s sake. I’m middle-aged and have permanent dirt under my fingernails from years of fieldwork. How many of the women in Drumheller do you think wanted to get down with me? Jesus, man. Tess is gorgeous and I pushed her aside three fucking times for you. I told her to work it out with you, to return to her husband, to not flush nine good years down the toilet. She kept coming back. Can you blame me for finally saying yes?"
I looked away, my eyelids locked shut to prevent tears from escaping. The moment between us stretched to a minute, then two. I didn’t know what to say, what to do, what to think. I wiped my eyes, blew my nose, and turned to face Klicks. He held my gaze for only a second, but in that second I saw that he’d been telling the truth and, worst of all, I saw that he pitied me. He got up and put his coffee cup in the trash.
Thirty-eight more hours, I thought. Thirty-eight more hours until we return. I didn’t know if I could take it, being here with him, being here with my memories of her -
It was night. Time to go to bed. I’d have to take sleeping medication again, or else I’d toss and turn until dawn, tormented by what Klicks had said.
I began to gather my pajamas.
"You’ve got a job to do," said Klicks.
I looked at him, but didn’t trust myself to speak.
"The night-sky photo."
Oh, right. I would have done it last night, except it was clouded over. I went through door number one, but instead of going down the ramp to the outer hatch, I went up the little ladder, angled at forty-five degrees, into the instrumentation dome on the roof. In training, I’d always found climbing that ladder hurt my palms, given that my full weight was on them, but in this lower gravity, it wasn’t uncomfortable at all.
The instrumentation dome was about two meters across and made of glassteel. Several cameras were set up to shoot through its transparent walls, and a vertical slit, very much like that in an observatory dome, let the warm Mesozoic night air flow into the sensors within. The slit closed automatically when rain was detected.
Several automated cameras were taking sky photographs, and one tracked the sun during the days. But there was one astronomical photograph the staff of the Dominion Astrophysical Observatory had asked us to take that couldn’t be easily automated, and that was a traditional time-lapse night-sky photo. See, all our automatic cameras were off-the-shelf models, and they had automatic exposure timers, but none of them went past sixty seconds. The photo the DAO wanted required an exposure of four hours, and that demanded manual intervention.
I’d originally volunteered to bring along my Pentax to take this photo, but when I’d asked that jerk from my insurance company if my personal belongings would be covered if I took them 65 million years into the past, he didn’t miss a beat: "Sorry, Mr. Thackeray, that would mean that any loss or damage took place before the effective coverage date of your policy." Oh, well. In the end, we’d borrowed a fancy electronic camera from the McLuhan Institute at U of T. It, too, only had a short-term exposure timer, but it also had a manual shutter and so I did what generations of sky photographers had done before me: I set up the camera in the dark, slipped a rubber band around its case to hold the shutter button down, then gingerly removed the lens cap.
The result would be a time-exposure photo — an electronic one, since this was a filmless camera — with arcs representing the paths of stars through the night sky. The common center of all these arcs would indicate Earth’s true north pole. Also, such a photo would show the tiny streaks of meteors. A count of those would give some indication of how much debris was floating around local space, and, given we knew how long the exposure had been for, a precise measurement of how many degrees the arcs encompassed would tell us the exact length of a Cretaceous day.
I fiddled with the tiny studs on my wristwatch — I always found the thing frustrating to operate — and set the alarm for four hours from now, which would be at something like 3:00 a.m. local time, so that I would get up and put the lens cap back on the camera.
I headed down the ladder, back through door number one, and into the habitat. Klicks walked over to me. "Here," he said gently, proffering a cup of water and a silver sleeping caplet. I accepted them silently.
There was a long moment between us, a moment when we both thought over the words we had exchanged. "She did love you," Klicks said at last. "For many years, she loved you deeply."
I looked away, nodded, and swallowed the bitter pill.
Things are in the saddle,
And ride mankind.
—Ralph Waldo Emerson, American writer (1803–1882)
Like most people, I guess, I only remember my dreams when I wake during them. I was dreaming about Tess, her wild mane of red hair; her intelligent green eyes; her slim, almost girlish figure. It wasn’t Tess Thackeray, my wife, though. No, this was the reborn Tess Lund, a name that had been retired years ago but was now pressed back into active service by the liberation of divorce.
Tess was lying naked in bed, the twin light of two moons playing across her heart-shaped face, lofty Luna still accompanied by tiny Trick. Someone was in bed with her, but it wasn’t me. Nor was it a stranger, which probably would have been a less disquieting sight. No, the powerful brown arms wrapped around her pale waist belonged to Professor Miles Jordan,
bon vivant
, respected academic, my friend. My best friend in the world.
I was observing them, a disembodied camera, through a window in her bedroom. It had changed since the days when I had shared that room with Tess: the furnishings were richer, more refined. Our old queen-sized bed had been replaced with an elegant Victorian four-poster. Its canopy, a tapestry of pension and benefit contracts, was raised high over their heads by thick brown poles carved from mahogany trunks.
Tess was talking to Klicks in that sexy, deep voice that always seemed so incongruous coming out of her tiny body. She was telling him about me, sharing with him all my deepest, darkest secrets — an endless succession of humiliations, defeats, and shames. She told him about my fascination with my cousin Heather and the horrible public scene Heather had made when I’d drunkenly tried to act on those emotions at her brother Dougal’s wedding. She told him about the time I was caught shoplifting at age thirty-four, walking out of a Lichtman’s with a stupid porno magazine that I was too embarrassed to take up to the cash counter. And she told him about the night a mugger beat the crap out of me in Philosopher’s Walk behind the museum, and, finding that picture of my mother in my wallet, had, cruelly, oh so cruelly, forced me to eat it.
Klicks listened raptly to everything Tess revealed about me, things so hidden, so private, so personal that Doc Schroeder would have given his eyeteeth to hear me divulge them on that sticky vinyl couch of his. Klicks heard secrets that should have been mine alone to carry to my grave. He knew my very soul. The thought of him living and knowing such things, having such power over me, was unbearable -
Beep!
Klicks stroked Tess’s mane, his thick fingers passing gently through the orange strands the way mine used to, the way mine still ached to do each time I ran into her. I thought for a moment that he was going to laugh at what she had told him, but what he did was much, much worse, cutting me like troo-don teeth. "There, there," he said, his too-smooth baritone the perfect complement to her throaty sexiness. "Don’t worry, Lambchop" —
Lambchop! —
"He’s gone now."
Beep!
Suddenly my disembodied being coalesced into physical form. I smashed my right hand through the window pane, the glass shredding my knuckles like mozzarella cheese. I was going to kill him -
Beep!
"Huh?" Groggy, I reached down and pressed buttons on my wristwatch until I found the one that shut off the alarm. "Klicks?" There was no answer. I guess the alarm hadn’t awoke him. Perhaps he was still doped up by a sleeping pill. I must have been, too, for I imagined just for a second that yellow billiard-ball eyes were peering at me from out of the darkness. I rolled off my crash couch, felt my way along the back wall until I found door number one, and fumbled up the ladder into the instrumentation dome. I clipped the lens cap back onto the camera and removed the rubber band to release the shutter. Noises echoed in a funny way inside that tiny dome and it sounded like the main timeship door downstairs was swinging shut and the latch clicking closed.
I stumbled back down the ladder and reentered the habitat.
"Brandy?"
My heart jumped. "Klicks?"
"Yeah."
"Did my alarm wake you?"
"I don’t know. But I can’t sleep."
I thought about it for a moment. I probably could fall back to sleep easily enough — that medication was powerful stuff, but… "Want some coffee?" I said at last.
"Decaf? Sure."
"Mind if I turn on the lights?"
"No."
I fumbled for the switch and the overheads sputtered into activity. The brightness was stinging. I shielded my eyes and looked over at Klicks. He was alternating between having his left eye closed and his right, squinting.
"What about the Hets?" he said. "They’re going to ask us tomorrow if we will take them back to the future. What do we tell them?"
I filled two cups with water and put them in the microwave. "I still say we have to tell them no."
"You’re wrong," Klicks said slowly, most of the Jamaican lilt gone from his voice, a brief pause between each of the words. "We must help them get past whatever natural catastrophe caused their extinction."
"Look," I said, trying to summon my strength of will, "the Royal Ontario Museum is in for much more funding for this mission than is the Tyrrell. That makes me de facto mission leader, and, if necessary, I’ll invoke that right. We leave the Hets behind."
"But we must take them forward."
"No." I turned my back on Klicks, furious.
"Well," said Klicks, his voice growing closer, "if you feel that strongly about it…"
"Thank you, Miles." I breathed a sigh of relief, and then, just in time to save me, refilled my lungs. "I appreciate—"
Thick fingers closed around my neck from behind. I tried to cry out, but couldn’t force enough air through my constricted windpipe to generate anything beyond a faint grunt. I brought my hands up to pry Klicks’s fingers free, but he was too strong, much too strong, his arms like a robot’s, crushing the life out of my body. My vision was blurring and my lungs felt like they were going to burst.
I twisted and bent frantically from my waist. In a mad, desperate moment, I tried throwing Klicks — something I knew I’d never be able to do — but damned if he didn’t flip right over my shoulder, me tossing his ninety kilos as if they were less than half that amount. Of course — the reduced gravity!
I gulped air, my vision slowly clearing. Adrenaline pumped within me, fighting off the effects of the sleeping pill. Klicks picked himself up and we squared off, hands on knees, facing each other. He swung, a great sweeping movement of his right arm, like a grizzly scooping fish from a stream. I jumped back as far as I could in the tight confines of the habitat. From bear to tiger in an instant, he crouched and leapt, his body colliding with mine, knocking me to the cold steel floor next to his crash couch, a great thundering bang from the partially empty water tank beneath our feet echoing throughout the chamber. Then he smashed me across the face, the stone in a ring Tess had given him slicing open my cheek.
What the hell had gotten into Klicks? A Martian, that’s what. Of course. The yellow eyes in the dark. If my wrist alarm hadn’t woke me while the aliens were inside the
Sternberger
, they would have taken me over, too, then used our timeship to bring themselves forward, neatly cutting us out of the decision-making process. It was only thirty-one hours until the Huang Effect reversed states; I guess the Hets felt they could comfortably remain in our bodies for that long. These creatures played for keeps, that was for damn sure. My only chance of preventing them from seizing the
Sternberger
, it seemed, was to kill Miles Jordan.
That was easier said than done, though. As much as I sometimes disliked the man, as much I had fantasized about splitting his skull with the trusty cold chisel I had used for years to open slabs of rock, I had strong moral compunctions about physically hurting another human being. Even in self-defense, I found it hard to fight. My natural reaction was that a reasonable person would respond better to words than to fisticuffs. But Klicks, or at least the Het riding within him, had none of those same misgivings — as the bit of white froth at the corner of his mouth made clear.
He smashed me again in the face, hard. Although I’d never experienced the sensation before, I was sure that was what a breaking nose felt like. Blood soaked my mustache.
Still, I realized, he wasn’t trying to kill me. He could have done that just by shooting me in the back with his elephant gun. Vast suspicions would be aroused if both of us didn’t return from the Mesozoic. Hell, Tess had joked that she’d expected only one of us to come back alive, given how poorly we’d been getting on of late. Of course, nobody on the project knew what I wrote in this diary, or what I said to Schroeder, and the idea of psychological testing, mainstay of the moon shots (back when the world could afford moon shots), was completely foreign to those putting together paleontological digs. Hell, paleontologists routinely go off into the field for weeks on end without anyone taking steps to see if those particular people could get along.
Whether the Hets knew or understood any of that, I couldn’t say. But they obviously wanted me incapacitated so that I could be entered by one of their kind. For that experience, twice had been more than enough. Fear and revulsion at the idea renewed my strength. I reached behind my head for the footrest of Klicks’s crash couch and with all my energy spun the chair on its swivel base, slamming its arm into the side of his head. The armrest was padded, but Klicks, in his lackadaisical way, had left his shoulder strap hanging across it. The aluminum buckle split the skin across the top of his ear where it hit. The blow put him off balance long enough for me to knock him over. I scrambled to my feet, putting the bulk of the crash couch between him and me.
He tried to feint left and right but, as he did so, I noticed his movements were awkward, his torso turning by repositioning his legs instead of pivoting from the waist. It was as if the Het within him hadn’t yet worked out the finer points of controlling a human body.
We circled the small room several times, me rotating the chair to always keep its long dimension between us. I didn’t know whether my fear was valid, but I worried that if he chased me much longer in a counterclockwise direction the damned thing would unscrew from its base.
As we swung by the lab bench, I grabbed our mineralogical scale and threw it at his forehead. If he had been operating under his own volition, Klicks would have easily avoided the impact, but the Het seemed to hesitate about which muscles to move. By the time it pulled Klicks’s head aside, it was too late: the heavy base hit just above Klicks’s one continuous eyebrow. He screamed in pain. Blood welled from the wound and I hoped it would obscure his vision.
No such luck. A thin layer of phosphorescent blue jelly seeped out of the cut, stanching the flow. I was running out of ideas, not to mention stamina. My heart pounded and I felt my strength flagging.
Klicks had screamed in pain.
That was my one hope. I gave his crash couch a healthy twist, setting it spinning around, then jumped as far as I could across the room. Klicks wheeled to face me. We danced for position, him swinging his great arms again the way a bear swipes with its paws. Finally he thought he had me trapped in the corner where the flat rear wall met the curving outer wall. He stood spread-eagle, his legs apart, his arms raised, trying to prevent me slipping past. This was the moment. The one chance, the only hope. I ran straight at him and, with all the force I could muster, brought my knee up into his groin, slamming it as brutally as I could, all my inertia and all my strength concentrating on bashing his testicles back up into his body cavity.
Klicks doubled from the waist, his fists moving under human instinct instead of Het command to protect his private parts from further assault. In the brief interval while the Het struggled to regain control of its biological vehicle, I made my final move. I grabbed Klicks’s elephant gun from where he’d left it propped up next to the microwave-oven stand and smashed the length of its steel barrel across the back of his neck. He stood as if frozen for several seconds, then slumped to the ground, possibly dead, certainly unconscious. I suspected that if Klicks had survived the blow, and that was indeed in doubt, it would only be a matter of minutes, or even seconds, before the Het would find a way to turn this biological machine back on.
I hurried to the medicine refrigerator, mounted between doors number two and three. We’d been provided with a complete pharmacopoeia, of course, since no one knew what Mesozoic germs would do to us. I hadn’t spent much time inside the thing before, but thankfully all the drugs were categorized by function. Peering through clouds of my own breath condensing in the cold air from the interior, I scanned the labels. Analgesics, antibiotics, antihistamines. Ah! Antiviral agents. There were several vials in that section, but the one I seized upon was para-22-Ribavirin — better known as Deliverance, the miracle AIDS cure.
I plunged a syringe through the rubber cap, drawing forth the milky liquid. I knew how to use needles from my work in the comparative-anatomy lab, but — my father’s pain-racked face flashed before me — I’d never injected a human being before. I ran to Klicks, my footfalls echoing in the steel-walled room, and bent over his crumpled form. He was still breathing, but shallowly, slowly, life apparently ebbing from him. I forced the needle through the thick wall of his right carotid artery, pumped the plunger down, and, never taking my eyes off him, slumped back against the door to our garage, the agony from my shattered nose growing, throbbing, multiplying.
It took a while — I’d lost track of the passage of time — but finally small amounts of blue jelly began to seep from Klicks’s temple. But something was wrong. It wasn’t undulating the way I’d seen the Hets move before, nor was it glowing. I rolled him over so that his bruised face was visible. One of his eyelids was stuck shut by dried blood, but the other fluttered open for a few seconds and he spoke in a rasping whisper. "You animals—"