Eternal Beast: Mark of the Vampire (5 page)

Maybe it had something to do with all the blood-memory work he’d been doing lately. Taking memories from others, sharing it with his fellow Impure warriors, all in the name of infiltrating the Order’s mainframe. Could the wires inside him have overheated and…? And what?

He cursed into the cold, dank air of the tunnels. Maybe he needed to stop trying to figure it out and just forget it happened, forget Dillon altogether and accept the fact that she was always going to be a weakness he couldn’t afford, a distraction to his true purpose.

Gray hit the stairwell and was about to climb when he heard something behind him. He turned and saw a female running toward him down the tunnel—a female he was truly grateful to see, a female he wished he could become closer to. But he worried they were too far apart now in their present lives, belief systems, and passions to allow for it.

“How you doing, Sis?”

Sara Donohue’s blue eyes were warm as she came to
stand before him, but changed slightly as she noticed the wound on his hand. “You saw her.”

“In the flesh.” He raised a brow. “Or should I say, in the fur.”

“Alexander told me she called for you. Told me she was very angry at you.” His big sister’s mouth formed a grim line. “What happened in there when you saw her? Did she tell you anything?”

“Just that I screwed her over, that she wants to take a chunk out of more than my hand.”

Sara shook her head, laughed softly. But there was no humor in the sound. “She’s just unreachable. She won’t tell me anything about what happened that night she was hurt. She won’t tell me about her shift, the process, the past with Cruen or her brothers. She won’t even spar with me like she used to. I’ve never had a patient that hard to crack since—”

“Me?” he interrupted.

She smiled a little sadly.

He lifted his brow. “She’s not your patient, Sara.”

“I know. But she is my friend, and I want to help her.”

Gray put a hand on the stairwell railing and sighed. “Have you ever considered that some people are beyond help?”

Sara lifted her chin and gave him a pointed look. “No.”

His heart softened a fraction. Always trying to be the savior. That was why he equally loved and was frustrated by his sister. Whether it was her little brother who had lost his mind one day in the house fire that had killed their father or a
mutore veana
friend who had
just lost her way, Sara Donohue Roman pushed, never gave up, annoyed the shit out of you—but it was all out of love, out of care. And, he thought, his gaze moving over her face, maybe he had that same impulse; maybe that was what had kept him coming back to Dillon. He pushed, never gave up because he cared. Because he wanted her. But where did that get you when the one you pushed, pushed you back, pushed you back so goddamn hard your ass hit the pavement and your head hit the wall and you forgot everything else in your life that mattered?

“Gray,” Sara said, cutting in on his savage internal query. “What’s going on? With you? I miss you, us, the family.”

Gray’s gaze faltered then. Family. It was what they were, and yet they both kept so much from each other. Gray had yet to tell her anything about his time in the Paleo, the Order’s massive den of Impure blood castration. It was there that he’d met their father’s best friend, Samuel. It was there that he’d learned that his father had not really been human at all, but an Impure. It was there that he’d learned about how Jeremy Donohue was no nine-to-five office dad, but a visionary and a soldier. It was he who had started the first Impure Resistance, he who had inspired many until he was captured by the Order and blood castrated.

Gray stared into those concerned, yearning blue eyes and questioned his silence once again. Shit. He’d truly wanted to tell his sister everything he’d learned—she deserved the truth just as much as he did—and yet he hadn’t said a word. Still hadn’t, and he wasn’t sure why—wasn’t sure what he was waiting for. More information
to be revealed? Peace about it within himself? Or perhaps he wanted to fix that wrong first. Become what Jeremy Donohue never had a chance to.

“I miss you too,” he said at long last.

Her smile brightened a touch. “You’ll come around more? I know you’re busy, but it’s family…”

“I’ll come around,” he said. Then, hearing a thought within her head, he added, “Speaking of family, when are you due?”

Sara’s eyes widened, and her hands slipped to her belly. “How did you know?”

Gray tapped his temple and smiled. “That mate of yours unblocked it all, remember? Made it so I can hear every damn thought.” Except the ones in Dillon’s head, his mind reminded him caustically. Her thoughts, feelings, all of it was blocked from him.

Why couldn’t he be thankful for that, for small fucking favors like that?

“I haven’t even told Alexander,” Sara said, her cheeks stained with pink. “It’s so early.”

Gray put a hand in the air. “I won’t say anything.”

“Thanks.” She smiled. “Uncle Gray.”

He laughed, but it came out forced. He was in no mood to celebrate. “Congratulations, Sis.” He leaned in and kissed her on the cheek. “I have to go.”

“Back to the Impures.” There was no malice in her tone, only a twinge of melancholy.

For a moment, he wondered if this was it—the time to tell her, when the discussion of family and new possibilities was fresh. But then again, would it only anger, confuse her, worry her…especially now with the
balas
? No. There would be time.

He touched her shoulder and said with deep conviction, “One day you will understand this fight. Maybe even join it.”

Her other hand went to her belly as well. “My life is here.”

Gray nodded. Yes, it was. And he wondered, as he progressed down this road of Impure equality, if he would be cutting one member of his family out to seek vengeance for another.

He granted her one last smile before heading up the stairs and into the subway.

Erion and his Beast brothers congregated in the tunnels just outside the room that held their sister hostage—the room they’d brought her back to just a few hours ago, after that chase-and-capture disaster in the frigid Vermont woods. Ever since, the four of them had been arguing about what to do with her, how to help her, who was going to have the iron balls to show his face to her first.

“You go in,” Phane said to Helo.

“No,” Helo snapped tersely in reply. “You go.”

Phane’s mismatched eyes and long, pale hair glowed in the candlelight of the tunnels. “She likes you better.”

“That’s when we were
balas
. I’m pretty sure she hates me now.” Helo turned to Lycos, who was standing back from the rest, his ice-blue eyes wary. “What about you, Ly? A little cat and dog?”

Lycos sneered and said in a frosty voice, “Not a chance. I’m still pissed at her.”

“For what?” Erion asked, stepping into the light, knowing his lion features and demon eyes looked especially
distorted in the warm yellow flicker. “Running away? Choosing a different life? Get over it.”

It was a truth, a fact they’d had to live with for decades. One of their own, a sibling, a
balas
of the Breeding Male, Titus, and one of the five who’d been plucked from death and raised by Cruen had, one day, turned tail and run away. Without a word. Leaving her young brothers to grieve, to search—and to think her dead until just a week ago, when she’d been carried into the Romans’ house by Gray Donohue.

Erion still felt the shock of that moment within him, but he carried none of the anger or resentment his other Beast brothers did.

“Hey, she can run anytime she wants to,” Lycos stated flatly. “But I refuse to sniff her out or chase her again, that’s all.”

Helo snorted, his grin anything but warm. “Who are you kidding? You love the chase.”

“I love to chase females,” Lycos corrected. “Not family.”

“I’ll try and remember that,” Helo said with heavy sarcasm.

Erion released a breath. As the eldest, he had a natural sense of leadership within their tight family, and though he didn’t choose to use that influence very often, he believed that tonight was as good a time as any. “Listen, brothers, no matter what happened in the past, no matter our personal feelings about it now”—he gave Lycos a tight glare—“our sister is in there, held in a cage because she cannot control her Beast. We have all feared such a fate, have we not?”

Helo, Phane, even Lycos fell silent, because, in truth,
there was nothing a
mutore
feared more than the inability to shift at will. And remaining a Beast for all time? Well, that was a fate worse than death.

“It is not something any one of us should go through alone,” Erion continued. “We are here. Living in the Romans’ house until we decide our next move, decide the fate of our father—”

“Cruen,” Lycos corrected, deep disgust in his tone. “His name is Cruen.”

Erion nodded. Yes, he felt that same bitterness for the Pureblood Order vampire who had raised them. And yet he also felt conflicted. He would not be in existence, would not breathe, choose, or feel at this very moment if that
paven
hadn’t paid for his life. On the other hand, he would not have gone after his twin brother Nicholas’s female and fathered an innocent child if his adopted father had seen him as an equal, had told him the truth about his ability to breed.

He pushed those thoughts aside. Now was not the time to think of Cruen, or for that matter, the
balas
—his
balas
—the young
paven
who was being raised by the brother Erion’s mother had seen worthy to live. “Until we have made a decision regarding our future plans,” he said to the three staring at him with steely gazes, “we must help our sister—help her escape this—”

“Don’t tell me you’re going to suggest letting her out,” Lycos interrupted, his brow lowering over narrowed eyes.

“Control your temper,” Erion warned. “Your ire isn’t going to help—”

“And when we just caught and caged her!” Lycos continued undeterred.

“Fucking hell, Ly.” Phane slammed the wolf with a dark glare. “You interrupt far too much. Perhaps it’s time for a muzzle.”

A warning growl came from Lycos. “If I get a muzzle, you get your wings clipped.”

“Clip my wings and I’ll clip your balls,” Phane shot back, his mismatched hawk eyes flashing. Then a sudden grin split his features. “I know. We could let Dillon neuter Lycos! That would lift her spirits, eh?”

Erion began laughing first, and once he started, Phane got in on the action. Grinning broadly, Helo elbowed his wolf brother in the ribs, inching him toward the door to the cage. “Go on. Head in there, Ly. I’ll make sure she uses the really sharp pair of hedge clippers.”

“You’re all a bunch of bastards, you know that?” Lycos put in drily.

“Yes, we do know,” Erion said, sobering a little, though his diamond eyes glittered. “Just like the one in there. We’re a family of bastard
balas
. An ugly, strange, mutant family, but a family. And we must take care of our own or we are no better than the Beasts the Purebloods of the Eternal Breed Order think we are.”

Lycos sighed. “She won’t talk to us.”

Erion turned to Helo and raised one black eyebrow. “She’ll talk to him.”

The look Helo shot Erion said everything, said he loved their sister but didn’t think he stood a chance of getting through to her. Even so, he tossed up his hands in defeat. “Fine. I’ll go. But don’t expect much.”

Lycos turned, calling over his shoulder, “How ’bout I don’t expect anything?”

“We’ll be upstairs,” Erion said.

“With our other brothers?” Helo added with a dry smile.

“With the
Romans
,” Phane corrected, reminding them all that even though they shared a recent and mutual history with Alexander, Nicholas, and Lucian; temporary living quarters; and paternal DNA, the
paven
s who played host to them were in essence strangers.

Not to underestimate.

Not to romanticize.

And certainly not to trust, he mused darkly, turning away from Helo and his sister and following his true kin down the tunnel hallway.

Gray Donohue had left only an hour ago, but Dillon’s Beast was already craving his touch.

It was shameful.

It was suckass.

Dillon padded around her cell, her brain working overtime, her jaguar’s heart beating hard and fast. Goddamn it, she missed her
veana
self. Missed the cold, quiet inside her, the one-track existence her mind could follow in peace. This Beast she lived within was hot-blooded and hungry, emotional and capable of being hurt.

It was going on too long. She needed out before she imploded.

Her tail swished back and forth against the metal. Was it truly possible? Could Gray Donohue hold the key to her salvation? Or something close? The picture of his hand holding her muzzle was fuzzy, out of focus
in her brain. After all, she could only imagine what it had looked like. But one thing she hadn’t imagined was the feeling that had overtaken her. The closest she’d gotten to being a
veana
female in a week. But was it really him or simply the touch of another that had caused such a reaction? After all, she’d been touched by many in her cat’s form, hadn’t she? And there had been nothing—no heat, no tsunami. No sensation of change.

Maybe she just hadn’t been aware.

Maybe she needed to try it again.

The sound of a door opening jarred her senses and she froze and hissed. For a split second, she thought Evans had come back to watch the cat again. But when the scent of an altogether different being wafted into the room, snaking through the bars of her cell and into her nostrils, her limbs relaxed and she caught herself grinning, purring.

“Helo, you little shit,” she uttered, her gaze tracking the water Beast as he neared her cage.

“Not so little anymore, Dilly,” he said with a grin of his own.

No, she mused, her gaze moving over him. That was true. The
paven
who stood before her was a good six inches taller than her, was no longer the skinny little
mutore balas
with the pale eyes and smooth, unblemished skin. This
paven
was handsome to a fault, with a broad chest that tapered into a slim waist and golden skin that sported a heavy share of tattoos, endless lines of black waves. But deep within the pair of eyes that seemed to change color every few seconds was a thread
of unabashed familiarity, of one who had truly known her.