Eternal Heat (Firework Girls #3)
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Authors: J. L. White
Published by Velvet Rose Books
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Copyright © 2016 J.L. White
ISBN 978-1-945261-01-5
This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
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Note: I’ve exercised my literary license to make adjustments to the rules and regulations surrounding piano competitions.
Eternal Heat
by J.L. White
When Isabella asked for our number one “must-do” item for our Fireworks Girls trip to New York City, I put mine in on the sly. What I texted back was “Lincoln Center.” Pretty believable, given my aspirations to become a professional concert pianist. And I do want to see it. I mean, of course I do.
Isabella had texted back:
Not Rockefeller Center?
She’s a smart one, that Isabella. What do you expect from someone who’s working on her masters in microbiology at freaking Harvard?
Anyway, she nailed it. If I had to pick between Lincoln Center, Rockefeller Center, and what the hell let’s throw Carnegie Hall on the list, Rockefeller would be the clear winner. But, not knowing at the time we’d be able to see them all, I chose Lincoln because I figured that was a guaranteed way for me to sneak a peek at what I’ve been dying to lay eyes on since eighth grade.
And I’m only moments away.
Today is our West Side Tour day. Isabella, Sam, Chloe and I have spent the morning touring Rockefeller Center (thank you, God), then making the short walk to Carnegie Hall. It’s maybe another half mile along the surprisingly inviting Broadway Avenue (this part of the city even has trees—who knew?) toward Lincoln Center. After this, we’ll have lunch at Central Park’s famous Tavern on the Green and spend the afternoon exploring the park before wrapping up our day with the eight o’clock showing of
Wicked!
on Broadway.
That’s all well and good, but the little dreaming girl inside of me has been looking forward to one thing and one thing only.
We cross Columbia Avenue and ascend the steps leading to a plaza and fountain. Flanking three sides of the plaza are a famous trio of iconic buildings: the Met, Koch Theater, and Avery Fisher Hall (which I still can’t bring myself to call by its new name, David Geffen Hall).
Isabella’s booked a tour that will take us into each of the buildings in front of us, but I’m anxious to see my secret destination. I’m so close! I check my watch. “We still have fifteen minutes,” I say. “Let’s go this way.”
I lead us between The Met and Avery Fisher Hall into another open plaza. Lincoln Center is off to the left. In the center is a large, flat reflection pool with a stone, abstract sculpture in the center. Across from this is the large green area known as Illumination Lawn. Not like any kind of lawn I’ve ever seen, this is a platform that starts at ground level in the front corner, then rises off the ground toward the rear and the opposite corner. The lawn doubles as the roof for the glass-walled building that’s underneath the raised part of the lawn. The whole thing is covered in grass and is something only New Yorkers could define (and use) as a lawn.
Past the lawn, across the street, is my first glimpse of the multi-storied white building that houses the one and only Juilliard School of Music.
I quicken my steps. We pass the reflection pool. I do look at it, but I don’t slow. I can linger over things like that on my way back. Right now I’m drawn forward, my eyes taking in as much as I can. Chloe must think I’m heading for the lawn.
She bounds ahead. “Cool!”
Her auburn-hair flowing behind her, Chloe reaches the grassy steps of the lawn and leads the way. This suits me fine. The rear of the raised lawn will give me an excellent view.
We climb to the top of Illumination Lawn and approach the railing. The sidewalk and street are below, and across the street Juilliard looms before me in all its glory. The white building stretches along almost the entire block opposite us. In simple, unassuming type, the sign on the building reads: “The Juilliard School.”
“Are you sure this isn’t too high for you, Sam?” Chloe asks. “Do you want to wait at the bottom?”
“Shut it, Chloe,” Sam says easily, rolling her eyes. When Chloe had declared her “must do” item the Empire State Building, Sam had practically disowned her. She’s a teeny bit afraid of heights, that one. Sam couldn’t bring herself to step in the elevator, so we went up to the observation deck without her. None of us really minded and no one pushed her (as if anyone could get Sam to do what she doesn’t want to do anyway), but we’re entitled to a good-natured jab every now and then.
I’m too distracted to join in their teasing. There’s Juilliard. Right freaking there!
“Leave her alone,” Isabella says, leaning on the rail and looking like a tall, brown Greek goddess. “She can’t help that she’s not used to heights, being so bitty all her life.”
“Har, har,” Sam says. She’s just barely 5’4” and her blonde hair is short and wild, just like she is.
That’s all right. I have enough hair for both of us. Mine’s blonde as well, but it hangs past my waist even when it’s in a braid, which it usually is.
“This is why Ashley’s my favorite,” Sam says, hooking her arm through mine. “She doesn’t tease me mercilessly.”
“I’m your favorite because I’m the only one whose activities for the day are all on the ground,” I retort.
“That’s true,” Sam agrees, sticking her tongue out at Isabella.
Isabella’s must-do item is Ellis Island—where her family came to America from Italy and Greece back in the 1960s—and the Statue of Liberty. That’s not on our itinerary for two more days but I already know there’s no way is Sam going to the top of our Lady of Liberty either.
I put my hand on the rear railing of the lawn and take it all in. The Juilliard School stretches to the right. At the corner I can see the unique, angled entryway I’ve seen so many times in pictures. As the school’s building sprawls to the left, the tall tower sitting next to it rears into the sky.
My eyes return to the quietly-assured text opposite us—
The Juilliard School—
and I exhale with wonder, unable to hide it. Time to come clean. “This is what I’ve wanted to see all day.”
“Juilliard?” Chloe asks and I nod.
“That makes sense,” Isabella says. Isabella might think she knows why I’d want to see it, but she doesn’t. I’m not about to correct her.
“For the top school in music, it’s not quite as pretty as I would have thought,” Sam says, cocking her head at it.
She’s the only one here who knows I once applied to Juilliard. In fact, she’s the only one who knows everything Juilliard represents to me.
And who.
I’d like to say I haven’t thought about him in years, but it’d be a lie.
“Well, there’s some debate about which school really ranks at the top,” I admit, “but Juilliard is a legend like no other. There’s no denying that.”
“Hartman’s right up there,” Sam says firmly and the other two nod in agreement.
I smile. These girls always have my back.
Hartman College, where we all met as undergrads and where I’m about to start my second year in their master’s program, does in fact have a highly-regarded music conservatory that makes pretty much every “best of” list Juilliard does.
But none of that changes the fact that, in my eyes, Juilliard is practically glittering in the sun over there, right along with the lucky students entering and exiting the building like they belong there. Which, of course, they do. And even though Hartman has a stellar program I’m glad to be part of (truly), it’s located an hour-and-a-half inland from the central Californian coast and not right smack dab in the middle of the classical music capital of America.
Then there’s the other thing.
I imagine him walking into the building, walking the halls, laughing with friends. He’s probably had girls, too.
My heart clenches at the thought, in spite of myself.
Maybe it wasn’t such a good idea coming here. The sting of it all is coming back to me sharper than I anticipated. I kind of thought I was over it enough. It’s been five years, after all.
But as I stand here on the lawn on Lincoln Center, gaze on the celebrated school that is Juilliard, and think about the person it represents
,
I can’t help but wonder...
What if?
School’s been back in session for a mere three days when I walk into Kopp Hall, one of Hartman’s smaller auditoriums used for rehearsals and recitals. Today is the pre-audition for an upcoming regional competition, which the department heads emailed everyone about a week ago. There’s an atmosphere of slightly organized chaos. Students from all across the musical disciplines are scattered about in the seats, plugging up the aisles, lingering just off stage. The quiet hum of multiple conversations lingers in the air.
On stage is a black grand piano, currently unoccupied, and a few scattered music stands and plastic chairs. A small table is off to the side, where a grad student is sitting with a stack of packets. Currently a girl is hauling her cello onstage from the wings; it’s almost as big as she is.
About ten rows back from stage are the judges. As I make my way down one of the aisles to find a seat, I crane my neck to see who they are.
There are three judges, including Professor Reinecht. He discussed the auditions in class yesterday. Not all competitions involve the sort of semi-informal screening process this one does, but even so, for many of Hartman’s musicians, today is only a technicality. It’s a way for the department heads to screen new students and check our selections to make sure Hartman is well represented
“Nothing for you to worry about,” he told me yesterday.
I’m in that weird state of mind where I’m both worried and not worried. While the competition itself will be fierce, I’m not worried about qualifying at this pre-audition level. Last year I made it through both formal rounds of the competition itself, and placed first in my category and third overall. It wasn’t a bad way to start off my graduate career, I have to admit. The prize money helped with living expenses for a while too, and even gave me enough to add a sizeable chunk to my piano savings fund.
On the other hand, you can never take anything for granted in the music world. The reality is, those three judges up there have the authority to tell me or anyone we’re out.
I pick a row and scoot down to sit next to Toshiko, a fellow second-year grad student. He’s wearing his trademark Hawaiian shorts and Birkenstocks. His violin case is in the seat next to him but his violin is on his lap, ready to go. He spots me coming and moves his case to the seat on his other side. We smile and wave at each other in acknowledgement, but don’t say anything because one of the judges has banged the gavel to indicate the next audition is beginning.
The conversations in the hall cease immediately. I settle into my seat as the deep vibrato of the cello on stage fills the hall. I don’t recognize the player, so I assume she must be a first-year grad student. At the conclusion of her piece, the judges give their remarks in turn. Two of them express some concerns and my heart clenches as she’s told she’s not quite ready for this one. I’ve seen this happen before, but it’s a bit unsettling when it’s the first audition I see.
The low sound of conversations starts up again as the cellist gathers her music and instrument, trying to maintain her composure. Poor thing.
Toshiko fidgets with the folder on his lap. “What are you playing?” I ask.
He names a concerto by Haydn and I nod with approval.
“You?” he asks.
“Paganini Etude Number 6 by Liszt,” I answer. He doesn’t ask where my music is. He knows me well enough to know I have it memorized. “Which time slot are you in?” I ask.
“Ten to noon,” he says. “Naturally I’m near the end,” he says.
My slot is noon to two and it’s nearly noon now. “You’ve gotta be next, or close to it. Unless they’re running behind.”
We hear one of the judges call Toshiko’s name into the microphone.
“At laaaast!” he sings sarcastically, taking his violin and music with him as he works down the row.
“Good luck!”
I listen to his piece and the judges’ comments—they love him of course, no surprise there—and watch as he goes to the little table on stage to get his packet. I settle in, prepared for a wait. I pull out my phone and start scrolling through my feed on Instagram. Toshiko comes down our row, returns to his case, and starts putting away his instrument. “Nicely done,” I say, glancing up and giving him a smile.
“Thanks.”
Professor Reinecht calls out the next name and I think I’m hearing things.
I drop my hands to my lap and sit up straighter. “Who did he just say?”