His current life was a similar fusion of luck, self-discipline, and careful planning. That morning, upon reaching his clean and sparely decorated law office, David had flipped his desk calendar, looking past the orderly notations of the lawyer and would-be politician—the hearings, depositions, and trial dates of a practice that commingled civil law with criminal defense; the lunches, evening speeches, and meetings of civic groups that marked the progress of a Democratic congressman-in-waiting—and lit on the wedding date he and Carole had selected. It would be an occasion. Harold Shorr would spare no expense, and this served Carole’s interest in a day that combined deep celebration with an opportunity for David’s further advancement in the Jewish community that would become his financial base in politics.
This was fine with David: Carole’s penthouse was a focal point for Democratic and Jewish causes, and he had become accustomed to Carole
filling dates with social opportunities both onerous and interesting, the latter represented by the dinner Carole was hosting that evening for the Israeli prime minister, Amos Ben-Aron. This one of Carole’s many dinners promised to be particularly intriguing. Formerly an obdurate hard-liner, Ben-Aron was now barnstorming America to rally support for his controversial last-ditch plan to achieve peace between Israel and the Palestinians, with whom it had too long been locked in a violent and corrosive struggle—about which, as it happened, David knew a little more than he could have admitted to Carole without inflicting needless wounds, or re-opening his own.
Dismissing the thought, David gazed down at his wedding date. Perhaps the prime minister, David mused with a smile, would agree to serve as their best man. No doubt Carole had considered this; in her reckoning, David’s only flaw was a shortfall of Jewishness. Not that this was obvious: a gentile former girlfriend, studying David’s face after lovemaking, had remarked, “You look like an Israeli film star, if there is such a thing.” Then, as now, David had no idea; he had never been to Israel. No doubt Carole would change this, as well.
Still light of spirit, he had just looked up from the calendar to his view of the San Francisco skyline when the telephone rang.
He glanced at the caller ID panel. But the number it displayed was a jumble that made no sense to him—a cell phone number, he supposed, perhaps foreign. Intrigued, he answered it.
“David?”
Her voice, precise and soft at once, caused the briefest delay in his response.
“Yes?”
“David.” The repetition of his name was quieter yet. “It’s Hana.”
“Hana,” he blurted. He stood up, half out of reflex, half from shock. “What on earth...”
“I know.” She hesitated. “I know. I mean, it’s been long.”
“Thirteen years.”
“Thirteen years. And now I’m visiting here. San Francisco.”
David managed to laugh. “Just like that.”
“Not exactly. Saeb is relentlessly tracking Amos Ben-Aron, pointing out the manifest defects and incongruities of this new plan of his—perhaps more sharply than our American hosts are happy with.”
She said this as if it were logical, expected. “So you two are married.”
“Yes. And we—or I—decided it was time for Munira to see the United States.” This time it was Hana who laughed. “I’m a mother, David.”
There was something in the timbre of her laugh that David could not define—perhaps simply the acknowledgment that she was not the young woman he had known, the lover he might still remember.
“It happens,” he answered. “Or so I’m told.”
“Not you?”
“Not yet. But I’m getting married in seven months. According to the conventions, children follow.” Temporarily, he lost his place in the conversation. “So how is it, being a parent?”
This time it was Hana who seemed, for a moment, distracted. “Munira,” she answered dryly, “is my own parents’ revenge. She’s bright, willful, and filled with the passion of her own ideas. Sometimes I think she will never imagine that
I
was such a person. Or experience the kind of amusement, pride, and chagrin a mother feels when she looks at her daughter and sees herself.”
Though he had begun to pace, David smiled a little. “So she’s beautiful, as well.”
“Beautiful?” The word seemed to take Hana by surprise. David recalled that she had often seemed unaware of her own impact—at least until she looked at him and saw it in his eyes. “Oh,” she added lightly, “of course.”
With this, neither seemed to know what to say. “This is all right?” she asked.
“What?”
“To call you.”
“Of course. I’m glad you did.”
She hesitated. “Because I thought we might have lunch.”
David stood still. “The three of us?” he asked at length.
Another pause. “Or four of us, counting your wife-to-be.”
She tried to infuse this with a tone of generosity, including in her proposal a woman she did not seem to have expected.
“How
is
Saeb?” David parried.
“Much as you would recall him. We are both professors at Birzeit University, near Ramallah—it’s been some time, you may recall, since the Israeli army last shut us down. Saeb is still brilliant, and still angry. Perhaps angrier than me now. He’s just as committed to Palestine, but more radical. And very much more Islamic.” She stopped there.
Is it such a good idea,
David wanted to ask,
to put Saeb and me at the same table once again?
But to question this would be to intimate that to Saeb, and perhaps to Hana, David occupied the lingering psychic space that Hana did for him. Then she spoke again.
“Perhaps you’re right,” she said simply, answering the question he had not asked. “You are well, David?”
“I’m well. Very.” He felt a brief twinge, his last memory of Hana. “And you?”
“Yes. Enough.” Once more she sounded hesitant, perhaps rueful that she had called. “And you’ve become a trial lawyer as you wished?”
“Yes.”
“And a good one, I am sure.”
“Good enough. I’ve yet to lose a case—mainly because I spent all my career until last year as a prosecutor, and prosecutors try the cases they can win. Now I’m a defense lawyer with my own practice—me and one associate— working as tribune for the mostly guilty. So I’m overdue for a loss.”
“I hope not, if only for the sake of your next client.” Her voice softened again. “Your fiancée, does she have a name?”
“Carole. Carole Shorr.”
“What does she do?”
“Good works, mainly. She has a master’s degree in social work. But her father’s quite wealthy, so she’s found her way into causes she cares deeply about—raising money for the Democratic Party, chairing the board of a group that combats violence against women and children. A lot of time put into Jewish charities and promoting ties between Israel and the United States.” He paused briefly. “Without, I might add, despising Palestinians. All she wants for Israel is a stable peace, and an end to killing.”
Hana was briefly silent. “So,” she said gently. “A nice Jewish girl, and a rich one at that. Things often end up the way they’re supposed to, I think.”
There was a moment in time for me, David thought, when “supposed to” did not count. Had it ever been like that, he wondered now, for Hana? Then he heard his own silence.
“So here we are,” he said. “I’m happy about Munira. If there was ever a graduate of Harvard Law School who should downstream her DNA, it’s you.”
After an instant, Hana laughed briefly. “Then congratulations to us both, David.” Her voice abruptly sobered. “Though I worry she has seen too much on the West Bank, too much oppression, too much death. I can feel her growing too old, and too scarred, too quickly. The Zionist occupation has been criminal—generation after generation, they are always with us. Ben-Aron most of all.”
David did not respond.
Hana paused, seemingly uncertain of what to say next, then retrieved a note of warmth. “I’m glad to know you’re well. Take care, David.”
“And you.”
“Oh, I will.” A last moment of hesitation. “Good-bye, David.”
“Good-bye, Hana.”
Slowly, David put down the telephone, his morning utterly transformed.
It was February, and he was marking time. In three months, he would graduate from Harvard and begin the law career he had been planning for so long. Grades no longer worried him; a job in the District Attorney’s Office for the City and County of San Francisco awaited, and David was allowing himself the rare luxury of indifference. And so, on a bleak winter evening in Cambridge, David found himself hurrying to the law school with his friend Noah Klein, late for a discussion among a moderator and four students—two Jews and two Arabs—about the Israeli-Palestinian dilemma.
Ordinarily, this subject would not have diverted David from watching the Celtics game on television. But Noah wanted company and, over dinner, David had allowed that it might be amusing to watch their classmate Marcus Goodman—a devout Orthodox Jew from Brooklyn of almost comical sincerity—take up the cudgel for the Jewish homeland. When they entered the lecture room, David spotted Marcus at one end of a table with their Israeli classmate Ruth Harr, separated from two young Palestinians by the moderator, a bearded professor of constitutional law. But what drew David’s attention was the Palestinian woman scornfully interrupting Marcus’s assertion that what she no doubt considered part of her homeland, the West Bank of the Jordan River, was, in fact, a “biblical and immutable grant of land from God to the Jewish people—”
“Since when,” she inquired, “did God become a real estate agent?”
There was scattered laughter from the audience packing the room. Still standing, David struggled to suppress a smile at Marcus’s discomfiture. And then he realized that the woman was now contemplating David himself, the conspicuously late arrival, with an appraisal at once leisurely and disdainful. Himself no stranger to pride, David coolly returned her gaze, allowing his amused expression to linger. How long, he silently asked her, do you want to keep this up?
“Let’s sit,” Noah murmured. “There are two places over there.”
They sat, comfortably distant from the panel, and David began to study the woman in earnest.
It was worth his time. She was slim and startlingly pretty—a full mouth, sculpted face, black hair pulled back at the nape of her neck, intense dark eyes—the type of olive-skinned beauty, accented by gold earrings and red lipstick, to which David had always felt a chemical attraction he both savored and distrusted. But as the discussion continued, what engaged him even more was her vividness in debate, an arresting quickness of thought and speech accented by a vibrant animation. Nothing about her was inscrutable. Not the swift, sardonic smile that showcased white, perfect teeth, nor the look of displeasure with which she regarded her antagonists—head tilted, eyes narrowing in skepticism, and the full line of her mouth depressing slightly, as though to restrain some biting interjection. For David, it was as though the others faded to black and white, and this woman emerged in Technicolor.
She was a first-year law student, David discovered from the program, and her name was Hana Arif.
“In 1947,” Hana was saying to Marcus Goodman, “the United Nations recommended the partition of my homeland, Palestine—then controlled by the British—into a Jewish state and a Palestinian state.
“My grandparents were farmers in the Galilee.” Her tone became muted with sorrow. “That was all they knew. They did not understand that they must pay for a Holocaust perpetrated by Europeans by giving up their home, based on a Zionist program of colonizing our lands that began before Hitler was even born. They failed to see why it was unfair for Jews to live as a minority in a Palestinian state, but fair for half the Palestinian people—like those in their own village—to be converted overnight into an Arab minority in a Jewish state of the outside world’s creation—”
“What would have changed for them, really?” Ruth Harr interrupted. “They should have stayed and learned to live with Jews in peace. By leaving they created their own tragedy.”
At this, the slight young man sitting beside Hana—Saeb Khalid, a graduate student in international relations, the program told David— placed his hand lightly on her arm, a signal that he wished to intervene, to which she, somewhat to David’s surprise, assented. Turning to Ruth, Saeb’s fine poet’s face became a mask of anger, and his first words were choked with emotion. “My grandparents’ lives were
your
grandparents’ creation. Your soldiers drove us out, destroyed our villages. At Deir Yassin, the terrorist organization Irgun—founded by your prime minister, the great peacemaker Menachem Begin—slaughtered over two hundred and fifty Palestinian men, women, and children, who were stripped, mutilated, thrown into a well, or simply murdered.
“As Hana said, our grandparents were simple people. But they understood death well enough—”
“And so do we.” Ruth straightened in her chair, her own dark intensity mirroring Hana’s. “Don’t equate your history with ours. And don’t pass off anti-Semitism as a quaint eccentricity of Europeans—although the Spanish Inquisition, the many bloody pograms carried out by the Russians and the Poles, and Hitler’s Teutonic efficiency make for a truly impressive list. Three times in the 1930s, your people slaughtered Jews in Hebron. Your grand mufti of Jerusalem was Hitler’s Arab friend, a partner in their common passion for exterminating Jews.”
Good,
David thought.
“And the grand mufti,” Ruth concluded, “was nothing if not the authentic voice of Islam. Why else did the Arab nations invade Israel in 1948?”
“How,” Saeb inquired with fearful politeness, “do you invade something that does not exist? Who made Israel a country? Your ‘invasion’ was, in truth, a failed war of liberation—the liberation of Palestinians from a Zionist program of expulsion. You could not have your ‘Jewish democracy’ with more Palestinians than Jews. You needed to be rid of us, by whatever means at hand.” The young man paused, biting off his final words. “But you will never be rid of us for good. Not
all
of us.”