Far from Xanadu
Copyright © 2005 by Julie Anne Peters
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The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.
ISBN: 978-0-316-04115-7
Contents
Also by Julie Anne Peters:
Define “Normal”
Keeping You a SecretLuna
A long overdue acknowledgment of support, encouragement, and love to Wendy Schmalz. The kind of literary agent a writer only dreams of.
A
fter my dad’s suicide, the town council decided to remove the bottom portion of the ladder from the Coalton water tower. Like that was going to keep me down. We pooled our savings, me and Jamie, and bought a thirty-two-foot extension ladder at Hank’s Hardware. In the long prairie grass around the tower, we could keep it hidden so no one would ever know.
Who were we kidding? This was Coalton. Everyone knew everything.
The sky was already pinking up and I was going to miss the whole show if I didn’t hurry. I dragged the extension over and clanged it against the remaining rungs, then clambered up to the landing. The sun was peeking over the horizon as the gate screeked open to the walkaround. It was chilly. I could see my breath. I’d pulled a pair of Dad’s sweats on over my boxers, but now wished I’d dug out a flannel shirt from the laundry. His ribbed undershirt was flimsy.
I sat on the metal platform and dangled my feet over the rim. Resting my forehead against the railing, I thought, Oh man. The colors — rose and amber, indigo, orange-streaked clouds. Dad said angels painted the sky at dawn and dusk. Dad was a liar, but I could almost believe him on that one. The magnificence, the majesty, the sheer magnitude of sky was beyond human dimension. Beyond understanding, expression. It was bigger than life. Bigger than death.
Only one thing could be better than a sunrise in Coalton — sharing it with the person you loved.
Someday...
Someday...
When I got home the house was quiet. Good. They were both still in bed. Maybe I could get out of here without an encounter of the ugly kind.
I changed into a clean muscle tee, but decided to wear the boxers to school. They looked cool. I threw on a hooded sweatshirt, since it’d be late by the time I got home tonight. “Morning, morning, morning.” I performed my morning ritual — finger kissing all my nudie posters: Evangelina, Beemer Babe, the Maserati girl.
Down the dim hallway I heard Ma’s radio click on full blast to a morning call-in show. I hustled to the kitchen to make a power shake and bail.
Two raw eggs, a scoopful of protein powder, water from the tap. I covered my plastic glass with a palm and shook it. As I swigged down the chalky goop, I lifted a shock absorber off the top of Darryl’s stack of car zines and did a set of curls. My upper arm strength wasn’t where it should be. The game with Deighton yesterday I underthrew to second and T.C. had to dig the ball out of the dirt. Inexcusable. I made a mental note to add another set of tricep extensions to my circuit. Another rep of lat pulls.
In my reflection off the grimy back door, I flexed. The sleeve of my sweatshirt bulged. Nice definition, if I did say so myself.
Darryl slimed into a chair at the dinette. On his way he’d snagged a can of Dinty Moore beef stew off the counter and popped the pull top, managing to slop half of it down his bare chest. Disgusting. I didn’t claim him as a brother.
“I’m taking the truck today,” I said.
“Fuck you are.” He slurped right out of the can.
I considered crushing his skull with the shock absorber. Then figured his thick head might actually absorb the shock. “I need it for work. Everett wants me to run a load of feed up to the Tillson ranch near Ladder Creek.”
“Use the Merc’s flatbed.” Darryl swiped the back of his hand across his mouth.
“Everett needs it for hauling portable stalls.”
“Tough titties. Last time you made a delivery the inside of the truck reeked of sheep shit for a week.”
“This is only grain. Milo and horse feed.”
“No,” Darryl said. He picked up his pack of Marlboros off the table and shook one out. “I need wheels today.”
“For what? So you can joyride all over the county and take potshots at prairie dogs?”
“You been touching base with my secretary again?” Darryl smirked. He lit up a smoke.
The café doors to the kitchen crashed open and Darryl and I jumped.
Ma thundered into the room. She nearly wrenched off the loose handle as she yanked open the refrigerator. The door wouldn’t swing all the way with her between it and the counter. I noticed she had on the same outfit she’d worn all week — a sleeveless gray shift that clung to her breasts and belly. Argyle knee socks bunched at the ankles. Her hair hadn’t been combed or washed in, like, a month. She smelled worse than she looked.
“No milk,” she stated flatly, releasing the handle so the door shut on its own.
“I’ll go get you some,” Darryl and I said together. Our eyes met briefly. He added, “I’m heading over to the Suprette, anyway. I got a job interview there this morning.”
“What!” I screeched.
They both twisted their heads at the echo in the room. Did Ma focus? Did she actually see me? The momentary flicker of recognition died as she snatched a bag of powdered donuts off the top of the fridge and trundled back to her bedroom.
Ugliness, I thought. Too much ugliness in my life.
“I’ll drop you at school if you want,” Darryl said, sucking on his Marlboro.
I glared at him. “You’re looking for a job? What about the job you’ve got?”
He exhaled smoke through his nose.
“
My
job. The one you stole from me.” The one I’d be doing now if I didn’t have to haul sheep shit in the truck.
“Mike, I keep telling you. It’s not my fault —”
I slammed out the back door, seething to myself. Hating him. Hating both of them for crapping out my day.
Coalton High was my refuge. Not that I loved school or anything; it was just a place to go. I took the back way, through the Ledbetters’ woodpile and behind the propane tanks at the Co-op. It was still only six blocks. I hit the front door as the warning bell rang for first hour.
Mrs. Stargell glanced up from roll call as I sauntered in. “Mike,” she said.
“Miz S,” I replied.
“Glad you could join us.”
“It was on my way.”
She stifled a grin, unsuccessfully.
Ida Stargell had to be a hundred years old, easy. She’d been teaching at Coalton High since the Jurassic Period. No kidding. Dad said he’d had her in high school for English, Math, and Biology — the only three A’s he’d ever gotten. I was trying to beat his record by taking her for Lit and Bio in tenth grade last year, then Creative Writing and Geometry this year.
Geometry class was crammed. At Coalton High that meant fourteen seats were filled. Well, two desks were empty today. Shawnee Miller had been rushed to the hospital in Garden City on Tuesday after her appendix burst in gym. And Bailey McCall was out helping with the spring calving. So, twelve seats full. I should get an A in math for that calculation alone.
I liked Mrs. Stargell. Everybody did. Not only for her generosity in grading; she cared about us. Too much sometimes. If you were out sick for more than a day, she’d call or stop by your house in the evening. Two years ago she was stopping by to see me and Darryl a lot. She’d bring us casseroles and Jell-O molds, which Ma snarfed down like a sow in heat.
Miz S began writing a theorem on the board when a figure filled the open doorway. The pencil I’d been gnawing on clattered to the floor. This... this girl appeared. She was the most beautiful creature in the world.
She stood beside the metal cart of textbooks inside the door, eyes darting around the room. People stared. No one spoke. Who could? She pursed her lips and tapped her foot as Mrs. Stargell continued to write.
“Um, hello?” the girl finally said. She had this low, sultry voice.
Miz S flinched. “Oh. I didn’t see you there. Come in.”
The girl pranced across the room and handed Mrs. Stargell a slip of paper. Then she headed down the aisle toward me.
Toward me!
I scrambled to stand and offer her my seat, but she slid into Bailey McCall’s desk in front of me. She sat up straight.
“Class, we have a new student,” Miz S announced. “I’d like you to welcome.. .” She glanced at the sheet of paper in her hands. Squinting, she removed her bifocals and let them dangle between her boobs on her neck chain. “Is it... Xanadu?”
“Wonders never cease,” the girl said under her breath. “She can read.”
Her long, dark hair flipped over the back of the seat and onto my desk. I had the strongest urge to touch it, stroke it. The color was... otherworldly. Like roasted mahogany. Like Cherry Coke.
Miz S said, “Come up here and introduce yourself.”
The girl — Xanadu? — swiveled in her seat to face me and said, “Didn’t she just do that?” Loud enough for the three or four people around us to hear. No one reacted.
I might’ve smiled. I was still speechless.
“Come on. Don’t be shy,” Miz S urged.
The girl ignored her. “Is she serious?” Blinking at me. She had these huge, expressive eyes.
“’Fraid so,” I managed to croak. And shiny white skin, like porcelain china cups. Her eyes were an unusual color, gray-blue, rimmed with lots of eyeliner and eye shadow. That gorgeous brownish-maroonish hair.
Mrs. Stargell set her piece of chalk in the blackboard tray and brushed her fingers on her flowered dress. “Xanadu, please. Come up here. We won’t bite.”
She should speak for herself, I thought.
“Shit,” Xanadu hissed. Even that didn’t evoke a response from the people around us. They just gawked at her. She stood noisily and clomped up the aisle. She was tall, taller than me. Which was no genetic feat, considering I’m probably the shortest person in school. But she was statuesque. At least five ten. A faint scent of perfume settled around Bailey’s desk. What was that fragrance? The junk Jamie slathered on after getting stoned? I floated in her fumes.
“Tell us a little bit about yourself,” Miz S said, snaking an arm around Xanadu’s waist. Xanadu, aka the goddess, had on tight low-rider jeans with a form-fitting, see-through, black lace top. So fine. So very, very fine.
“Like what?” She crossed her arms in front of her, looking embarrassed, self-conscious. Her top rode up a little and my eyes fixed on her belly-button ring.
“Xanadu. That’s an interesting name.” Miz S’s eyes glazed over. She peered off into the middle distance and cleared her throat.
Uh-oh, I thought. Here it comes.
“In Xanadu did Kubla Khan
A stately pleasure-dome decree:
Where Alph, the sacred river, ran
Through caverns measureless to man
Down to a sunless sea.”
Miz S paused. “I forget the rest. Do you know it?” she asked Xanadu.
“Know what?” Xanadu said flatly.
Miz S opened her mouth, then shut it. She asked, “Were your parents great lovers of Samuel Taylor Coleridge?”
Xanadu stared into Mrs. Stargell’s wrinkly face. “Nooo,” she drew out the word, “my ’rents were lovers of float. They were meth-heads, obviously amped up on jack when they had me.”
During the stunned silence even the dust motes fainted over dead. Xanadu’s gaze cruised around the room at all the bulging eyeballs. Was I the only one who saw it? The slight sucking in of her lips? The teasing eyes? I burst into laughter.
Her eyes met mine and she cracked a smile.
The shock on Mrs. Stargell’s face didn’t help me sober up. She withdrew her hand from Xanadu’s waist like human contact with this foreign body might be hazardous to one’s health.
No one else was laughing. Why not? They had to have figured it out by now.
“Thank you, Xanadu.” Mrs. Stargell’s voice chilled. “You may return to your seat.”
Xanadu clomped back to Bailey’s desk. Flopping down with a huff, she swiveled around again and said, “Is she for real? God help us.”