Fear: 13 Stories of Suspense and Horror (12 page)

“
Savannah!
” A girl named Claire lunges toward my body as the man who killed me yanks Claire's hair, twisting it around his fist like a scarf until her chin snaps up. With arms strong as cables he shoves the muzzle of the gun into Claire's cheek as he yells at her to shut up. She looks at him with wild eyes. Her heart drums so hard I'm afraid it might burst.

Claire
, I whisper
.

Somehow I understand that I can move in a way I never did in life. Like steam I rise up toward the ceiling; beneath me I see blood that seeps from my head into a pool of vivid scarlet. My blood. As easily as one snuffs out a candle, I have ceased to be, and yet I still exist. This new state of being confuses me.

One of my shoes has landed three feet away, and my fingers curl from my palm as though they are petals of a flower. It's so strange, truly seeing myself from the outside. Not a reflection of my face in a mirror but the whole of who I was. I know this man shot me but I cannot explain why. I close my eyes and try to remember.

Then my memory returns full force, so that I gasp.

One hour before, I'd been sitting at my desk, listening to Mr. Ward as he explained a dragonfly's prismatic vision while a boy named James yawned sleepily at a desk to my left.

“The dragonfly has amazing sight because as it flies it can scan three hundred and sixty degrees in every direction,” Mr. Ward intoned while drawing a hexagon on the whiteboard with a green marker. “A dragonfly has the best perception of any creature on earth. Their senses are almost magical.”

And then a loud crack of the door followed by shrill screams as my killer burst inside our classroom, his gun held out in front of him, both hands gripping the handle tight.

In the end the man had chosen me and Claire. Class-mates who could not have been more different—I, who have sparkled all my life, and Claire, quiet, friendless, awkward, strange.

“You with the long blond hair!” he had screamed, pointing directly at me. “And you!” The gun had snapped over to Claire. “I want you both to stand by the window or I'll start shooting your friends!
The rest of you, get out. Move, move, move
!”

In death I see the irony of our lives, mine and Claire's, how they'd become irrevocably intertwined in that one random act. I remember the girls crying, the boys stoic as they shuffle by me in a single file. How Mr. Ward had tried to stay in the room but was forced to leave when my killer shot the window, so that the glass exploded onto the countertop in a galaxy of stars. How Claire and I had clung to each other while outside police car lights flashed and the fire truck wailed. To my shame I remember this, too—wishing that if one of us should have to die, let it be Claire.

How selfish I was in life. How clear is my vision in death.

“Why did you kill her?” Claire chokes out each word.

“I told them. I
told
them.” He releases her hair and kicks the ribs of my body with the toe of his boot. What is left of me rocks gently on the linoleum. “They'll believe me now—I killed the pretty one. She's dead. They'll hear
that
.” His breath swirls out of his mouth. I have never seen air before. It's strange, the way I perceive everything, even thoughts, as if I, too, possess the dragonfly's prismatic vision. My killer's name is Drew. Seamed lines fan down to his neck, and there is dirt beneath his fingernails. The soul is twisted and dark as tree roots.

“They only listen to blood!” he shouts. His spittle hits Claire's skin.

Claire is thinking that she has only moments to live and I know she is right. I am swirling above her, powerless. Claire whispers my name so softly that Drew does not hear. I swoop in close so that my forehead almost touches hers. As easily as reading a book I look inside her and I see an amazing thing: Claire's soul is shining. It's filled with some kind of essence, gold and white, bright as the edge of the sun. The girl I had always dismissed amazes me with her light.

With my new sight I follow the threads of her life as they unfurl like ribbons. I follow one and see how she loved James quietly, too shy to speak. There is Claire making dinner in a tiny kitchen, laughing as she drains noodles. I see her looking in a mirror, her mouth pressed into a thin line until she sighs and shakes her head as she walks away. I watch her read a book to a small boy; I see her strain as she cleans garbage from a gutter. There is another strand unwinding. In it I see myself and my friends as we laugh at Claire behind cupped hands. We snicker at her black clothes, her odd hair, whisper at the thickness of her thighs. Claire understood she was an object of our ridicule and yet, amazingly, she grieves that I am gone.

In death I am ashamed.

How can I have been so blind? Nothing on this side matters the way it did when I was alive. Not shoes or the clothes I had so carefully worn. Here there is no status. Love is the only thing that crosses over with the soul, and Claire is filled with it.

“Don't worry, I'll let you live,” Drew lies to Claire now. His words are the color of my blood. Panic rises through me and shoots out of my fingers in electric waves. Drew is going to murder Claire and then himself—the pictures flash through his mind. He wants to be remembered forever, a celebrity for eternity. Pages of his manifesto are tucked into the pocket of his jeans.

“No!”
I scream. Emotion shoots through me in flames, pulsing through me like a fire to scorch everything inside. My hand hits him, but it passes though him without a mark. I am helpless.

“We're going to the window, you and me,” Drew tells Claire. “The police heard that gunshot. They'll want to know which girl is still alive.”

He will kill her at the window so that everyone will be a witness. I can taste Claire's fear as she struggles, begging for her life. Her words mean nothing to him.

I concentrate with everything I have, pushing against the molecules of air. Outside, lawmen decide to break into the school, but I know they will be too late. The trigger cocks. Claire squeezes her eyes tight because she feels her own death coming. She pictures her parents and thinks of God.

“Now!” I scream to no one, to everyone.

I don't understand how I do it, but I feel myself compress my spirit into a tiny point and shoot myself into the tip of Drew's trigger finger. Everything inside me pulses as I inhabit his very cells; I feel his blood surge and the adrenaline storm through his veins, but I am matching his energy. I discover I can move his flesh. With that knowledge I strain with everything inside of me.

“What the . . . ?” he cries as the gun inches away from Claire. Cursing, Drew tries to regain control, but I intensify my focus. His eyes go wide as his hand snaps to his own temple. My energy is like a laser as I turn my soul into fire. A shot splits the air. An instant later Drew falls to the floor close to my own broken body as my spirit breaks free. A blackness pools into the floor with a moan and he is gone, a shadow melting.

It is over. The only sound is Claire's ragged breathing. “Oh my God!” Claire cries, dropping to her knees. Spattered in Drew's blood, she leans over to touch my lifeless body, tears streaming down her face. She cries in loud gulps while I rejoice in the fact that she is alive.

“Savannah,” she gasps. “I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry.”

The space that separates us seems thin as gauze, but she does not sense that I am still here, right next to her. “It's okay,” I tell her. I stroke her head, my hand brushing the coils of her red hair, but she cannot feel me. The energy I had has dissipated and I am once again without touch. I look into my body's blank eyes, a deepwater blue. There is so much I should have done when I was alive, when things mattered. But I was given this one bit of grace. Because of me, Claire will go on.

The police are running inside the building, and I know they are just moments away. When I look ahead I see there will be a huge funeral inside the gym for me, with thousands of flowers emanating their oversweet scent. Everyone will weep and secretly wonder if Claire should have been taken instead of me. The thought makes me sad. Because like a dragonfly, I perceive with a panoramic vision that reveals truth. Neither one of us should have been taken in that wasteful act of violence, but it is Claire, not me, who is destined to accomplish amazing things. The girl I ignored will leave her mark on the world in a way I never could. To know this helps me accept my fate. The understanding is bittersweet, a lesson learned too late on earth, and yet I see a new purpose in my lingering here. From this side I believe the right girl lived.

And I'll be watching her, every day, until we meet again.

▼ RYAN BROWN ▼

 

 

 

 

 

D
arkness had fallen, but the late August air still hung hot and thick over the bayou when Elizabeth Nolan finally reached her destination.

The babysitting job had required her to leave her own neighborhood—
where the roads were actually paved!—
and drive halfway around the lake after dark.

Seething at the very idea, she almost turned for home right then, but she knew she couldn't. She needed the money. School started back next week and she had no fall wardrobe to speak of, and a summer spent mostly at the mall or lying by the pool had left her flat broke.

And that's not to mention the good ol' take-some-initiative /show-some-responsibility speech her parents had been giving her.

Resigned, she turned off the ignition. Her ears buzzed with the screech of the crickets and cicadas in the surrounding woods. She opened the driver's door and heard water trickling in the distance. And to her horror, from somewhere much closer by, she heard the wet, throaty croak of a frog.

Great,
she thought
. Frogs. How fan-freaking-tastic!

Steeling herself, she stepped out of the car.

The house was a single-story shack, tucked under sprawling live-oak limbs that wept streams of moss onto its corrugated tin roof. Funny thing about those moss-strewn trees, she thought. Lining the manicured fairways at the country club near her house, they offered a certain majestic beauty. But out here they had a much more depressing effect, adding to the ghostly gloom of the place.

The house was as square as a cracker box, and sat at a tilt on crumbling cinder blocks. It had a screened front door, beyond which a dull light glowed, but Elizabeth couldn't make out anything except yellowing walls inside.

A female figure appeared behind the screen.

“You're late.”

Elizabeth stepped onto an elevated porch riddled with rusted tools and bald tires. “Yes. I'm sorry.”

The woman didn't open the door, but remained a faceless silhouette behind the screen. “You near enough made
me
late. I can't afford to get m'self fired, you know. Not in my situation.” Despite the hostile tone, her words came out slow and cool, almost in a whisper.

Elizabeth swallowed hard. “Again, I apologize. It's sort of a long way out here. And I got a little lost past the fork, where the road veers off into the . . . um . . .”

“Swamp
.
”

“Pardon?”

“Call it what it is. City folk'll call it the bah-yoo, but I say call it what it is.”

“Well . . . anyway, I got here as quickly as I could. It
was
a last-minute call, so I had to rearrange my schedule and everyth—”

“I had no choice 'bout that. I's desperate. No one else would come.”

Elizabeth didn't even want to think about the meaning of the last comment. “Well, I'm glad I could help out,” she said, trying to lighten the exchange. She reached into her purse. “I've got a list of references here if you'd like to see them.”

“Would have done. But I don't read too good and I hadn't the time anyhow. You been sittin' kids long?”

“Since eighth grade. And I used to babysit my cousins sometimes before that.”

Elizabeth sensed the woman sizing her up from head to toe, studying her.

“Well,” she sighed. “I got no choice. You're here and I gotta be off.”

“So where's, uh, Webster?”

“Wilbur.”

“Right. Sorry. Wilbur.”

“He's gone to bed already. Maybe he won't need no tendin' to at all.”

“That's fine. I'm sure I can keep myself busy with—”

“Then again, there's times when my Wilbur needs a little . . .” The woman's words drifted off. She drew a deep breath, then exhaled slowly. “Well, sometimes he needs a little . . .
extra
care. I hope you can see to that.”

Her tone had grown eerily sober.

Elizabeth waited a few beats for further explanation that never came. “You mean bad dreams?” she said. “Well . . . sure. I think I can handle that. Is there a number where I can reach you? I could call if I thought there was any reason for concern.”

“Ain't no phone here.”

“But, when we spoke—”

“I called you from the bait shop up yonder. Mr. Simmons there done me a favor, found your ad on that computer a' his and gave me your number. I's desperate, you see.”

“Oh. Okay. Well, it doesn't matter. I brought my cell phone.” She dug the phone out of her purse and turned it on. Her stomach sank when the screen came up. “Oh . . . um, unfortunately, I don't seem to be getting a signal.”

“You know, I would stay and tend to him m'self if I could,” the woman said. “It breaks my heart to hafta leave my boy like this. You believe that, don't you?”